AnYa Hum Tum Diaries: Wat A Mess!!!

Anant

Dear Diary,

U know wat…..I feel like….this territory of love shud never be trespassed…I mean Gosh……My head is spinning….zoom zoom zoommm!!! I tell u….I shud have just stuck with u all my life…atleast u're always there for me….ready to listen n take in all that I have to say….without uttering a word back….tho sometimes I feel like banging ur head for that …..but that's another story!!!

U know….from the moment I learnt that Navya was going to come n stay at my house during her parents absence for 7 days…I began color each day in my dreams with rainbow colors…my happiness knew no bounds and I felt a rush of adrenalin each time I thot of those 7 days…..but alas!!!...I really don't know who to blame at this point…..me …..my fate….time….situations….that idiotic amar sir or Navya????I mean ever since she has begun this job…..she seems to be drifting away from me further n further away. It feels like I have to cringe to have her fetch time for me….and things have gotten so bad lately that I am now last on her list of priorities!!! I mean like really??? Last??

Werent we busy with our studies…..household duties during our college days?? But still we managed to take time out for each other so why is it that things have changed so much?? Its not that big of a change afterall….Instead of the college…we go to our respective offices which keep us away from each other…n fine I understand that distance….but then….there is this entire evening we have to ourselves…and now that she is so close to me in my own house….I wud think it shud give us all the more time to spend with each other……I understand things are little different for her at my place….but then she seems to be coping fine ….infact that's what she has been telling me…so wats the problem?? I don't seem to understand it at all!!

Every time I think ….things will now be fine….something or other comes up….I mean last night….I was all so eager to chat with her on the phone so I cud have a sound peaceful sleep and give a nice head start to the new week…..but nope….her dearest Amar…..grrr…. sir had to intervene na and spoil it all!!!

Ok chalo I admit I was being bitchy in the morning not listening to her but that doesn't mean I don't love her….I was just hurt….and mad that all other else are so more important to her that even if she called me back…I was last on her list….tell me wudnt that hurt anyone??? And the worst was there was no sign of repent nor remorse on her end…..U know I even thot that I may talk to her about this while dropping her off to work …..I mean yah I may have showed a lill of my tantrums….but still…..atleast I cud have generated the topic in the car….but no….again….madam is sooo in her lala-amar-sir-and-work-land that she rushed off once again thrusting it down my throat how important I am for her!!! I mean God forsakes's cudnt she have had some patience and wait for me. I wud have taken her to her office and her amar sir ne ways……but no…..why wud she care!!

This gal is going to take my breath away some day I tell u…….there was this golden opportunity in front of me to do my first presentation n impress papa but unlike navya….I cannot just fully concentrate on my work if my personal life if a mess and I royally let the opportunity slide underneath my neck...This is wat she means to me….I can let go of the world for her….thats how much I love her….and now I have began to doubt if she even loves me as much as I do!!

Ohhh….such thots are so distressing….so depressing….and therefore I even called up Ranbir so I cud maybe vent our my frustration….my feelings…….Friends are such beautiful creations of humans really…..they save u n pull u out during the worst….and that's exactly wat Ranbir did for me today….he became my savior….my light in the dark….God Bless him…

Anant signing off

07/12/11

Navya

Wat do I say….where do I begin….Life will take these many turns…I had never imagined…..If I look back at my college days…..things were so much simpler….so much easier and even then I remember I used to have complains about how tough things are…..huh!!! Wat tough life is…..now I have come to realize…I guess now I fully understand when people used to say….the real life begins after college….so true it was!!!

Marrying Anant and making a living with him had become my distant dream after I fell in love with him but I never knew that the distant dream will begin to appear in shadows so soon….

After coming to Anant's house and living with them…..Renu di's words have been ringing constant bells in my ears…..How truly she spoke once that Anant's family is so different…..that the carefree life I live at my house will not remain the same and that I will be bonded with loads more responsibilities which I will have to manage and balance on my own….with ofcourse Anant by my side who will help in all my endeavors….

Anant by my side…yes that's wat she said to me but why is it that despite him being with me…..I feel he is not with me….that the house I have stepped into which is supposed to be my future home is feeling so alien to me….why is it that all these hurdles are looking like rock solids to me that are blocking my pathways to see above n beyond??? Where are things going wrong?? Wat is it that is not right?? Is it me??? Or is it my approach?? Or is it simply fate playing games with me??? I truly don't know!!!

Anant has been behaving so weird these days…..his mood has been so unpredictable and I have no clue wat it is that bothers him and he hasn't even shared it with me …..When I call him….he refuses to pick up my call …..when I ask him….all he gives me in reply is sarcasm….or more angry looks and when I try to talk to him….he becomes the ziddi bacha and walks away….Ahhh Ananttt!!!!!!!!!!….how do I understand ur temperaments……its just so confusing….

He feels I am neglecting him….or not giving him importance….but that's not true…..its just that I don't want to upset anyone…..and look at me…..I end up doing just that….

There Ritz is not picking up my calls either…..she seems to be so upset with me that she wudnt even allow me to explain myself to her….here the one person after Anant who makes me feel comfortable….who I look upon as near as my mom …..sughanda aunty ….has also been giving me cold vibes due to my own blunders… and Bua dadi is always at my neck coz intentionally or unintentionally…..my antics are just not jelling well with her………..But despite all this…..I still want to be part of this family….of Anant's family….coz its him that matters to me the most…..I love him so much that I don't think Anant will ever know its depth….coz I myself don't know!!!

Oh Ananttt……why are u making things so much more complicated for me…..what is it that is bothering u???

Today when Amar sir called me in his office…..I cud hardly pay any attention to wat he was saying…..my focus wat just not there n Amar sir was bound to catch me at it and he did…..He was right….I was not being fair to my work…..wat did my office environment do….what has amar sir done that he shud have to tolerate my personal problems….I cud have lied and told Amar sir all is well when he asked….but not only wud I have lied to him….but to myself and my work as well…and it utlimately wud have shown in my output too and that wud definitely had not been fair to him and my work and so upon his sheer insistence I informed him vaguely the reason behind my diverted attention. This much I believe I owed it to him for providing me with this financial platform. Afterall…..honesty and dedication is wat I carry with me in that office!!! I just hope he will understand me….and excuse me this 1 time for my mis-behavior…

Please Anant……lets work this misunderstandings out….lets just not get things so complicated for us….and I truly hope u got my letter I left for u in the room…..coz if not….then Lord have mercy on me!!!

Navya signing off

07/12/11

Rab Raakha,

Shilpa 🤗

Originally posted by: -ritchelle-

Shilpa! I was waiting for your diary entry! My my, you're amazing! The way you captured Anant and Navya's emotions and brought out the reasons for their actions and reactions is soo genuine, its like they're writing it themselves! You're amazing babes!

Originally posted by: pixiegirl

Awesome entry Shilpa, wonder how can you see these things in such a yucky episode. Hats off to you dear. Wish they were really this endearing. 😔

really awesum👏...plz keep writing 2 boost up for our mood 2 rethink abt the character feelings

Originally posted by: soniadutta

really awesum👏...plz keep writing 2 boost up for our mood 2 rethink abt the character feelings

Originally posted by: Jen_IloveAR

Shilpaaa 🤗 Tussi great ho! You just know whats going on in their mind perfectly eh 😃 You make the positive out of a pukeworthy episode 😆 Lubb from my dil to you 🤗