Navya's Diary Entries: Anjaan Dagar

And I take a deep breath…….Wat has just happened??? Where have we all landed?? Why are things so messed up??? Oh God!!!! I just don't know how to react….m shocked….m shivering…m numb….but most of all…..I am totally……in completeness….dejected…deteriorated and deceived…by time…by destiny…by fate…..for today wat I witnessed is something I had never imagined or even dared to dread in the worst of my nightmares. I cannot seem to comprehend any bit of all the happenings….I just cannot seem to see light for dark clouds have totally overcasted my brains…my heart and my soul…..Where do I stand??? Wat do I do???

When I first met Anant….I felt life has for the first time blew flowers of spring across my way……I felt my heart beats for the first time and I knew no bounds…no solutions to this beautiful feeling that had begun to build its little niche inside my heart. When this feeling took over my entire being….I still have no clue but I just lived in each of that moment….in that every feeling that my beating heart made me feel. I never meant no harm to anyone…..I only followed my heart. I never meant no pain to anyone…..I only wanted to smile n spread the smile. Was I so wrong that today I see papa in a form I have never seen him b4??? Was my following my heart such a wrong step that today I cud only hear an exchange of venom between 2 very respectable n other wise well behaved families….and that too in a holy n divine event of a wedding???

Nooo…..this is not wat I ever wanted…..this is not wat I ever had imagined. Why is love so painful??? Why is it looked upon by this society….by our families as a huge crime?? Does love mean unity?? Doesn't it mean happiness??? Then why this anguish….why this hatred….why such distancing????

Papa n Om uncle were only showering daggers…..daggers of looks…daggers of words and daggers of the most bitter feelings….The upbringings were being questioned….the silence was being tortured and the honesty was being tarnished in the name of a shameless act!!!!! Wat more have I been left to see?? Wat n where are we wrong ….I still cannot seem to distinguish ….I really don't know wat to do……..I really don't!!!!!

Navya signing off

09/09/2011

Rab Raakha,

Shilpa🤗🤗

Previous Diary Entry Posts


Anant's 1st Diary Entry
AnYa Hum Tum Diary Entries
Navya's Diary Entry 2
Anant: Kaisi Majbooriyan
Navya's Entry: Emotional Zoo
AnYa Hum Tum Diaries: Kehdo Tum Ho Meri
Diary Entries: Navya, Meeta and Anant
Diary Entries: Ya Rabba
Navya Diary Entries: Tera Chehra
Anant Diary Entry: The Cruelity of Time

Other Non Diary Navya Posts

Nayi Soch...Nayi Dhadkan
Fears of Emotions
Letters Of Maple Leaves
Woh Hamesha Meri Zimedaari Rahegi
The Difference Between Reality n TV
Hum Kadam Tere Sang
Anant to Navya: I Breathe In You
The Quiet Calms Before The Next Storms
Letters of Liquid Pearls
A Smile In Distress
And The Truth Endures Yet Again
Come Let's Build Bridges
A Weapon Called Motherhood

Thank u for d post...i had a feeling u'd post 2day..was luking forward 2 it.😊

Hey Shilpa...loved you diary page again👏..you so beautifully expressed Navya state of mind today..she is for sure questioning all the things that you have put down..i so want to hold her and tell her..no navya love is not bad, it is the best feeling in the world..and you guys have not done anything wrong...but the elders are actually doing a big mistake by tarnishing your love and blaming you guys as criminals...please hold on and be strong..this will be painful but have faith your love will surely win dear...but alas ..Navya has no one to support her and that will crash all her( and ours too) dreams into tiny peices...

Originally posted by: bs8889

Thank u for d post...i had a feeling u'd post 2day..was luking forward 2 it.😊

Once again u hv done a brilliant job in penning down navya's inner turmoil..she fails 2 understand how such a beautiful feeling can result in such negative outcome..y their pure, pristine n innocent love is being named a shamefull deed..as if they hv commited a crime..is it a sin 2 fall in love? Is'nt love supposted 2 bring hearts closer..how can it result in such animosity...n u hv managed 2 giv words 2 these feelings of her's so aptly

Absolutely loved dis entry..u hv as always steppped in2 navya's shoes n bared her heart open in front of us al..👏

Originally posted by: barbie2011

i so want to hold her and tell her..no navya love is not bad, it is the best feeling in the world..and you guys have not done anything wrong...but the elders are actually doing a big mistake by tarnishing your love and blaming you guys as criminals...please hold on and be strong..this will be painful but have faith your love will surely win dear...but alas ..Navya has no one to support her and that will crash all her( and ours too) dreams into tiny peices...

Originally posted by: barbie2011

Hey Shilpa...loved you diary page again👏..you so beautifully expressed Navya state of mind today..she is for sure questioning all the things that you have put down..i so want to hold her and tell her..no navya love is not bad, it is the best feeling in the world..and you guys have not done anything wrong...but the elders are actually doing a big mistake by tarnishing your love and blaming you guys as criminals...please hold on and be strong..this will be painful but have faith your love will surely win dear...but alas ..Navya has no one to support her and that will crash all her( and ours too) dreams into tiny peices...

loved you post as always dear...

Originally posted by: sajni786

Hey sweetzzz (I still have not gotten used to ur name)

Thank u for the love n appreciation...

Originally posted by: bs8889

Hi..my name is Soniya n Thank U for being such an amazing writer n making such awesome posts😃

really love your diary entries shilpa

Originally posted by: f.s.m

really love your diary entries shilpa