ff- nivren:the past :chapter 47pg 35

Hi guys the reason I watched ccbm and stayed with this serial till the end (considering the crap that was being shown) was because of my love for viren character- I feel a deep connection to this character and I just can't get over him and I hated the way this serial ended. I know this sounds seriously crazy coz he is a character on TV but I just can't get over him and I was eagerly awaiting for the day when viren past and the real reason for him hurting nivi was going to be revealed. Coz for me my viren is just not that selfish and mean yes he is spoilt and he did enjoy what he was doing to his family but I will never ever believe the reason that where given for his actions. So this ff is going to be about viren, his past and his love nivi and I hope u like what I write about my favorite character and I hope that I do justice to who I think the real Viren was.

chapter 1- pg 1

chapters 2-4-pg 2

Viren was sitting in his cabin tensed and sad thinking about the day's event and remembering Nivi's declaration that she was not going to have their own child. He wasn't angry with nivi for her decision, he could never be angry with her, he knew the guilt and the tremendous grief she was under made her take this decision. He was angry at their fate that took away dd away from Nivi, Sid, their family and robbed a child of her mother and a time that was meant to be the happiest for his family was now so filled with grief and unhappiness.

Viren stood up and started pacing and he was getting angrier and angrier just thinking about the reason that dd died and his thoughts where driving him insane. He thought what if bhaiji had found his target and nivi had died just the thought sent shudders through his body and if he felt like this he started to wonder what his brothers state was who had actually lost the love of his life. He wished to god that he could get his hands on bhaiji and make him pay for his action; he wished he could kill him and then he stopped pacing and thought how this thought could even enter his mind. After every thing that he had been through did he not learn his lesson had he not learnt anything from nivi? Instead of thinking of ways to help nivi through her grief and remove any thoughts that she was in any way responsible for dd death he was planning to compound issues by doing what he did best taking revenge from ppl without thinking about the consequences of his action.

In that moment Viren just felt sick and ashamed of himself his thoughts had just shamed his love and this thought crushed him. The person he was now was coz of nivi the reason he was not just existing with his anger and cursing his fate and waiting for this death was coz of nivi. She had taught him that giving hurt back would not solve any thing it would just make the wound bigger and that hate would infest the soul and it wouldn't make any1 feel any better. She had taught him that patience, love and trust and to move past our hurt and look for the goodness in every1 would make one's life better.

He just had to look at his own life to know that hate and anger had not eased his pain and had only brought him more grief and hurt and nothing else. It had made him forget his duties and responsibilities in life and made him go far away from his loved one's his family, nivi and the one that had needed him the most probably the very first person he had admitted to being in love with. He had gotten his family and nivi back even after all the horrible things he had done but some of his decisions were irreversible and he could never get back what he had lost.

Viren just stood in the middle of his cabin and just lets the pain and shame of his life wash over him and then like in a trance he went over to his desk and he opened the last drawer on his right and takes out a big brown envelope and keeps it on his desk. He turns it over and he takes a scissors like he is about to open it but as soon as the tip of the scissors touches the envelope his hands start to shake and he puts it down and just sits there and looks at the envelope trying not to remember anything. Then he caresses it and says if I open u up I wouldn't be able to live with what I lost what I so carelessly throw away forgetting all my promises to u coz of my anger and hatred for myself. I know its too late for us coz I know where u are u are loved that's why I can't open this letter coz if I do I will want to come for u and unlike me and nivi I know there is no chance for us to ever be together but know that I still love u as much as I did the first moment I felt your presence in my life. With tears in his eyes he put back the envelope in the draw and locked it and with the turning of the key it felt as if he had locked a part of his heart along with the envelope.

Please continue soon 😊

Originally posted by: Kinha_Luvyou

Great start..pls continue

Chapter 2

At the Sood house Nivi was in her room and looking at the clock wondering where Viren was just as she was about to phone him she saw CC at the door with a huge evil smile on her face and she says Ma u, do u need anything from me. CC says sarcastically that my dear u don't ever have to give me anything u have already given me so much. Nivi looks confused CC says u don't understand, do u, well let me explain. My dear today is a very good day for your Ma, because today is the day that my dream is finally going to come true coz u see that very soon Viren is going to hate u and is going to throw u out of his life. Nivi is totally shocked and with tears in her eyes asks CC what she is saying. CC just looks at Nivi and rolls her eyes and says I have never seen a more stupid girl than u, u know I often heard than certain ppl don't need enemies in their lives coz they can ruin their life with their own hands u happen to be 1 of them. U know all this time I have been plotting against u I shouldn't have made myself bad with my son I should have just let u be coz u were bound to prove me right that u are no good for my son and u don't care about him at all. Nivi says no Ma I love Viren very much. CC tells her to shut up and asks her what she knows about love, u know nothing u claim u love my son but u deny him his right to have his own child so that u can rise your precious ex-lovers child I have never seen a more despicable woman than. Nivi screams Ma do u know what u are saying, I don't just share 1 relationship with Sid but 2 he is not only my sister's husband but my husband's brother please Ma don't utter such despicable things again whatever I am doing is for my sister sake and only for her and the relationship I shared with her. CC comes close to her and says really, really and what about the relationship u share with your husband doesn't that relationship mean anything to u does his desires, needs mean nothing to u. for a wife her husband is god and is always her 1st responsibility but u, u are a curse on my sons life coz u will alway put him last that's why I hate u do u hear me I hate u. u have used my son enough 1st u used him so that your precious sister can get married to Sid and if that wasn't enough u now want him to not have his own children so that u can look after that child. Listen to me this is for your own good he is not going to stay with u for too long, be4 he leaves u, leave him, I mean which man is going to stay with a woman who doesn't want to have his children every person wants their own child, dnt steal away my childs right do u hear me. U and Sid will have dwita and she will call u too ma and pa but what about Viren who is going to call him that have u even thought about that? Nivi just puts her head down in shame and CC says u have no answer to my question right ask yourself why this is so? Very soon mark my words u will have no hold over my son, his love for u is going to turn into hatred do u hear me he is going to hate u as much as I hate u. nivi is crying and she puts her hand over her ears and says no Viren loves me he could never hate over and over again. CC just smirks and leaves the room

Chapter 3

Viren comes into his room and sees nivi lying on the floor crying and has her hands over her ears and she keeps on saying that he loves her and will never leave her. Viren runs to nivi and asks her what's wrong did some1 tell u something. Nivi just looks at Viren and cries and grabs him and tells him please don't leave me I love u very much please don't leave me. I will just die if u start to hate me Viren I love u very much, u my life I can't live without u. Viren tells her that he loves her and nothing could ever drive him to hate her she is his life and his life means nothing without her in it, don't ever doubt my love for u I love u very much nivi. Viren holds her and rocks her gently whilst telling her that he loves her and will never leave her until she finally stops sobbing but he still just holds her in his arms.

Then after a while he asks nivi to tell him what's wrong why she would ever think that he would leave her and she is quiet. Then he gently lifts her chin and tells her to look at him and tell him what's wrong but again she just looks down and doesn't answer him. Than he holds her face and says nivi please tell me what's wrong otherwise u will force me to go out and call every1 and ask them what they did to u that u started doubting me and my love 4 u and he gets up when nivi grabs his shirt and tells him not to do that and she begins to tell him everything that CC was telling her.

Viren just looks at her with tears in his eyes and tells her that he didn't expect this from her how could u doubt my love 4 u so easily Nivi how could u. Nivi puts her head down and as tears fall from her eyes she tells him says Viren I don't doubt u but Ma is right I am a very bad wife, how can I expect u to stay with me when I won't give u any children what will hold u to me as the years pass on Viren what's gona keep u with me Viren nothing u will drift away from me day by day and I will not be able to handle that Viren I have lived with your hatred be4 Viren and even though I knew deep down u loved me as much as I loved u it nearly destroyed me- I can't go through that again Viren I can't. maybe it would be better if i leave, I will leave both u and Dwita coz u 2 are the most important ppl in my life I can't choice between u 2.

Viren listens to nivi and each word of hers was making him more and more angry, he moved closer to her and he tells her that if she says 1 more word about leaving him she was going to regret it. Nivi looks up and is shocked to see how angry Viren is and he tells her 1st u make a decision on your own that we won't be having any children and expected me to support u which I did coz I understand what u are going through. When I told u that I will be with u that I accept your decision why are u making me a lie and doubting me. Nivi I didn't expect this from u, u trust ma more than me she just told u a few words and u doubt my love 4 u so quickly, nivi how could u?