It's always darkest before dawn - Page 8

Originally posted by: vital123

Wat a splendid post Diya. I truly agree 2 each n every word of ur's. I think if Samrat's pain is gr8, then Gunjan's pain is d gr8est. She really didn't find a source 2 channelize hr grief. Remember the FB, when Mayank started crying in the hospital after knwing abt Nups death, Gunjan immediately consoled him.

If 1 tries 2 ponder over dat scene, u'll gt 2 knw dat Gunjan started consoling Mayank right after Nups death. Although, she hrself, cried a lil bit bt don't u think dat she hasn't cried hr heart out. An expression which really imp 2 vent out all ur emotions.

Ppl say dat if we cry, it becomes much easier 2 deal wid our mishap. this is wat Gunjan hasn't done tll yet. She hasn't wept bitterly. When she'll weep, she definitely ask hrself dat why's she crying n then, she definitely wll get the answer dat its Nup's absence. She hasn't accepted Nups absence fully tll yet n the day she'll accept this fact dat Nups is gone n she'll never come back, only then, she'll b able 2 4give Samrat also. She definitely hrself needs counseling.

i hope dat either Ash or Sam wll help hr coz the fact is she needs 2 accept the reality dat it ws destiny dat Nups died n dat hr Di isn't gng 2 come back ever. she desparately needs a shoulder 2 cry just like Samrat. As she's someone who'll nt let any1 see hr weakness this time. she'll try 2 portray hrself as a strong individual although being totally weak n meek inside.

ONCE AGAIN,SUPERB POST DIYA 👏

Originally posted by: talkativetaurus

ok so i finally read ur post today and u have written the post much better then the previous one on death. u explained each thing so precisely. why, what, how, who, when... all these questions were answered flawlessly.. making everything very clear. i will comment no more.

Originally posted by: aysha1010

Beautiful post Diya and everyone else as well. Don't really know what to say after reading all your posts.

On one hand I know that this is just a fictional show but on the other hand the current track itself reflects reality so much that it's impossible not to blend the two.

Coping up with the death of a loved one is so painful in itself but it becomes so much harder when it involves survivor's guilt as well. Why did she die? Why couldn't I save her? Why couldn't it be me instead of her? And this is exactly what all three of them are going through.

Mayank lost his wife, his life, the person he was going to spend the rest of his life with. In just a fraction of a second all his dreams shattered to pieces and he couldn't even do anything about it. He feels guilty too, guilty because he couldn't do anything to stop it, because he couldn't do anything to save her, because it was her and not him. If he will be able to forgive Samrat, it will be both because he blames himself too and because Nupur would have done that. Because Nupur is still the hope in his life and it's her memories that make him live through each day. He lives life the way she would have, or maybe the way she would have wanted him to.

Gunjan. That day, she lost Nupur, her sister, her mother and in some ways her father too [judging from that hospital scene b/w Nupur-Bauji when Gunjan was shot]. One moment in her life that took everything from her. How could she even imagine her life without Nupur? How could she live without Nupur? Every single day she wakes up with the grief of not having Nupur in her life. And it's so much "easier" to put the blame on Samrat then to acknowledge the fact that NOTHING could save Nupur that day. If he had listened to her, she would have been alive today. Why didn't he listen to her? Why didn't she insist harder? Why wasn't he careful? Why was it Nupur? It isn't a battle of her mind versus her heart this time, it's a battle of her heart versus her heart. A battle that kills her every single day and she tries to avoid this turmoil within her by counseling others. Gunjan needs to accept that no matter what would have happened that day, Nupur would have died. That's destiny. But more than anything else, she needs to break down. She lives her life with a smile, hiding her own pain. She runs away from Samrat, from herself, hiding her pain. She just needs to face it. And maybe then she will really begin to recover.

And for Samrat, it's not just the pain of losing Nupur, and Mayank and Gunjan, but guilt as well. He's going through the worst survivor's guilt. Why was it her and not him that died? Why is he alive after killing his friend, after being the cause behind Mayank and Gunjan's pain? Why couldn't he have been just a little more careful that day? Why did she have to suffer for his mistake? Why did Mayank and Gunjan have to suffer for his mistake? He believes he is the reason behind everything. He didn't just lose his friends and soulmate, he lost everything. His friends have always been his family and HE is the reason behind his friend's death. And this pain, this guilt within him kills him every "living" moment of his life.

There's no real moving on for any of them. Because Nupur's death has created a void in their lives which can never be filled. And it may just be "easier" to blame one another, or oneself, then to accept that what happened was destiny. But they need to accept it, and maybe then they will really be able to live life again.