On the way to the room, they didn't talk about what they were about to do. Abhi set his hand to the small of her back to guide her into the lobby. When they got to the elevator, he laced one hand into hers. She tried not to get excited about these little gestures, but she couldn't ignore the electric thrills sparked by his touch.
"My room or yours?" he asked, his hand hovering over the buttons on the elevator's control panel.
"Mine. Eighth floor. Then you can just leave when we're done to prep for your flight in the morning."
"Ok, but my top floor suite is bigger and more comfortable."
"We don't need luxury. We just need a bed, or even a wall."
"I'm not taking your virginity against a wall."
The fierceness in his voice made her shiver. It meant that he was already thinking of how it would happen, which mean that it really was happening...she shook free of those thoughts and told him, "I'm just saying we only need the basics. And my room is closer, so."
"Right. But the condoms are in my room."
"I brought condoms."
"What!"
"I came prepared, remember. This was my plan. It wasn't supposed to be you, but that's OK."
"Ok? Just OK?"
"I'm glad you're doing me a favour and all, but don't expect me to stroke your ego."
"Right. God, Chashmish, I'd forgotten you could be so sassy."
They arrived at her room, and she slid her key card to unlock the door. The sensor light flashed green, but she hesitated.
Going through this door with him would mean this was all very real, and suddenly she wasn't sure how she had got to this moment. Was it really a good idea to do this with him? Their past was so complicated, with so many bitter memories. Could she trust him now, after all that had happened?
She swallowed her doubts and turned to him. "Look, you don't have to do this. I mean thank you for the offer, but you're not obligated -"
"I want this," he said, gazing directly into her eyes, and there was no trace of the game-playing and silly torturing that had defined their interactions in the past.
"You do?"
"Yes. I want to be the one. And I want it tonight. I'm here as long as you want me to be."
"Oh..."
"Do you want this, Chashmish?" he asked, and his tone was soft and patient and encouraging.
She closed her eyes for a moment, searching for her inner balance. Then she opened her eyes and told him, "Y-yes. I want this. I want it now. And I want it to be you." As the words left her mouth, she felt sure that she meant them. This decision felt right, in all the ways that the prospect of moving forward with Dr. F. had felt wrong.
"Well, good," Abhi said with a smile. "So let's get started, baby." He put his hand over hers on the door handle and opened the door for them both.
Pragya stepped into the room and let Abhi close the door behind her. Out of habit, she leaned against the wall and reached to take off her shoes.
Abhi caught her arm. "Nope. I'm going to be in charge of all the undressing tonight. And those are really sexy shoes, so you should keep them on." He was grinning, with one eyebrow arched suggestively.
Pragya wrinkled her nose. So he has a shoe fantasy...well, that won't work for me. "But I don't want to keep them on," she insisted.
"Okay, then your wish is my command," Abhi said easily. Then he scooped her into his arms.
"Hey! What -?" Pragya punched at his shoulder, but it had no effect on him.
It only took him a few steps to reach the bed, and he gently set her down in the middle of it. Well this is an improvement from how he used to toss me around, she thought. For a second she could feel a phantom ache in her back from the time he'd roughly thrown her onto their bed after making her fall from a ladder and dropping her onto a tile floor. God, we got up to some weirdness.
She lost track of those memories as she watched Abhi kneel down and take hold of one of her feet. He slowly removed her sandal, taking care to slide off one strap at a time.
His fingers brushed against her instep, and for the first time in her life she realized how sensitive the skin there was. She felt a tingling start from those glancing touches, with anticipation and the first stirrings of arousal already sweeping through her. Damn, he's good. Even after all this time, it still begrudged her to acknowledge his virtues. He was so big-headed already, he didn't need her praises on top of everything.
When her feet were bare, Abhi started to massage along the undersides. She wondered vaguely what he was doing. It felt nice but in a cozy, comfortable kind of way. Then he firmly ran his thumbs along her arches, and she almost jumped off the bed.
It was like he had found a live wire under her skin. A jolt of pure sensation raced through her body, and the buzzing in her blood amped up to a heady new level.
Impatient to be close to him, Pragya pulled Abhi up for a kiss. She had to stand up to meet his mouth, and she took his face in her hands so that she could hold him steady.
She kissed him with the hunger of all her pent-up longing, years of desire and frustration finding expression as her lips tasted his. She had wondered for so long how this would be.
And she discovered that it wasn't anything magical, really. There were no fireworks, and her brain did not shut down in wonder the way that books described. The only surprise was just how intense and immediate it was. Her world narrowed down to the space between his arms, and no amount of thinking ahead could have prepared her for being so close to another person.
Abhi steadied her with his arms around her waist, and taught her mouth to be gentle by kissing her with patient control. He held her close, clinching her tight so that she could feel his firm, solid bulk against her own yielding softness.
He moved them onto the bed, sitting with her in his lap and continuing to kiss her. His hands roamed her body, spreading heat with every caress.
She tensed in anticipation when one broad hand slid under the hem of her dress, but he didn't venture far. He started to trace slow, teasing circles on her thigh.
It felt good, but it wasn't nearly enough. Pragya broke the kiss and straightened in his lap. She trailed one hand from his shoulder to his chest, toying with the buttons on his shirt. "Rockstar, can we take off our clothes now?" she asked with an expectant smile.
Abhi laughed. "What's the rush? We have all night." His hand came up to cup the back of her head.
Pragya pouted. "But I want to touch you."
His fingers danced along her cheek and jaw. "Then touch me, Chashmish," he teased. But instead of letting her explore, he rolled her onto the bed for another kiss.
Pragya pulled away. "Well, at least I can take off my glasses," she said, reaching to do that.
Abhi stopped her hand, and tugged her back to him. "Nope. You need to see everything. And I told you, I'm in charge of all the undressing."
She frowned in irritation. "Why does someone have to be in charge? Can't we just do what feels good?"
"Trust me to make you feel good," he said silkily, and then he claimed her mouth again so she couldn't reply.
~*~*~*~
For the next few minutes, Pragya tried to just enjoy the kissing. His hands continued to map her curves, causing the satin of her dress to slide against her skin in the most delicious way. She let her own hands explore his corded back and muscled arms, discovering for herself the results of the body-building he used to obnoxiously bother her with every morning. Ok, she had to admit that maybe it was worth it, if it gave him a physique as glorious as this.
The kissing was nice, and at least now she knew what sort of thing she'd missed out on by not having a college boyfriend. But she was beyond the age of wanting simple snogging, and she only had one night. She didn't have time to waste on anything as innocent as this. She wanted everything, and she wanted it now.
She needed to show Abhi that she meant business. So she let her hand skim down his body, with purpose.
~*~*~*~
Abhi broke their kiss in startlement. "Whoa whoa whoa, Chashmish. One step at a time. Let's work our way from the top down, alright?"
Pragya smirked at him. "I've already seen the top half of you, Rockstar. Nothing new there."
"Oh, I don't think you ever took a proper look - you always used to hide your face."
"Whatever. I want to see this part of you now. I want to touch you. I want to taste you."
"Taste? Chashmish, I don't think -"
"Please, Rockstar. This is my one night. Please," she requested.
And she looked so cute and sexy that he couldn't deny her. She wanted him this much, and he'd signed on to give her what she wanted.
"Alright..."
~*~*~*~
"Oh, damn," he groaned, and she looked up anxiously.
"Sorry! Is it ok?"
"It's amazing, baby. But you don't have to do this," he told her, biting his tongue because the need to be decent was hard, damn it.
"I want to do this," she insisted.
~*~*~*~
"Oh! Careful, teeth," he rasped, as she hit a bad angle.
"Sorry," she said, turning red with embarrassment.
He laughed and pulled her up to him. "I'm not hurt, and anyway it's your turn."
~*~*~*~
He searched the back of her dress for a zipper.
She brought his hand to the back of her neck. "It's just two buttons, here."
He undid them and pulled lightly at the top of her dress. The fabric easily slid down, baring her skin just like that.
"Damn it, Chashmish. This is a dangerous dress."
She smiled. "It's getting me good results so far."
"Don't ever wear it again."
"You don't get to decide that."
"I swear I'll tear it in half. I mean it. Don't you ever, ever give a man easy access like that again."
"Rockstar! Stop having opinions on things you've no right to and just touch me."
~*~*~*~
He slowly surveyed her and let out a low whistle.
"Not bad, Chashmish. Why did you hide this from me when we were married? Maybe I would've thought twice about letting you go."
"Because I didn't want you to want me just for my body, you idiot. Don't bring that stuff up. Show me if you can actually do something with your hands, or if you're just all talk and no action."
~*~*~*~
"God, that feels good," she sighed.
He smirked. "Thanks, but you don't have to call me God."
"Shut up."
~*~*~*~
"Relax," he murmured into her ear, kissing her throat and neck in a comforting way as his hand continued its explorations.
"I'm relaxed," she said, her voice wavering.
"Don't you ever touch yourself like this?" he asked in a low voice.
"I do, but it feels different with you doing it."
~*~*~*~
She could feel herself melting under his touch, every nerve in her body tuned to that one point of contact. Everything was all over sensation and she was tingling and tingling and it was the best thing she'd ever felt.
Then, suddenly, she couldn't stand it any more. She didn't want to feel this high pitch anymore, this awful sense of prolonged anticipation.
So she grabbed his hand and pleaded, "Stop, stop! Please stop."
~*~*~*~
"What's wrong, baby?"
"It's too much. I mean, it's enough. Just come and kiss me again. I'm ready to move on."
"Trust me, Chashmish. You won't be ready until you can let go and come. Let me help you."
"It's too much, I can't -"
"It's supposed to be too much. Just let me please you. Stop thinking and just feel."
"Easy for you to say! But -"
"Shh, just listen to me. You are gorgeous and perfect and you can do everything. You're going to come for me, baby. Just feel..."
"Abhi," she breathed, and his name was like a benediction, though she sounded so conflicted.
"Please, I can't -"
"You can. You will. I'm with you. I've got you."
"Abhi."
~*~*~*~
Pragya felt like she had scaled Mount Everest, only to have someone throw her off the peak as soon as she got there. She had fought every step of the way to release, feeling too intense and vulnerable. But Abhi had carried her through her doubts until the too-intense became not intense but just right, just everything. As he continued stroking her while holding her and whispering encouraging words in her ear, she had drifted away from the self-consciousness and anxiety that came from being naked with a man, at the mercy of his touch and intentions.
Then, all at once, there was the sudden drop from the cliff of arousal and anticipation into a dark void of pleasure that was as short as it was intense. For a few moments she had felt only the rush of relief, and the glorious (not unfamiliar, but oh too rare) sensation of her muscles contracting in release.
And then it was over, and she was thrust from the void back to the blinding brightness of reality, with her sweat soaked body here in this hotel bed with her one-time husband. Her breath came back in gulps and then it steadied, and all too soon she was back to herself, wishing as she often had before that if only that release could have been stretched one more moment, she would be satisfied for life, she would know what full satisfaction really felt like.
"Hey sweetheart," Abhi crooned, and his affectionate voice was as soothing as a security blanket, "How are you?"
Pragya sighed heavily. She brought her hand up to idly play in his hair. "Good," she answered, distracted by her inner thoughts.
"Only good?" he teased.
Her eyes snapped to his face and she saw that he was looking for validation. The arrogant arse, obviously he knew how he had succeeded with her, and still he wanted praise. But she couldn't deny him the truth and answered, "Really, really good. Ok Rockstar? You're fantastic."
"Mm, that I am," he agreed insufferably. Finally he shifted his hand up her body, sliding along her hip and coming to rest comfortably on her waist.
"We can stop here, you know."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean we don't have to go all the way. If you've had enough -"
"Of course I haven't had enough! The deal was sex, remember."
"Everything we just did was sex. You don't have to take the last step, Chashmish. Maybe you'll meet someone -"
"But I want it to be you. I want everything, tonight. Are you trying to tell me that you don't want -"
"I just don't want you to have any regrets. You only get one first time."
"And this is going to be it. This is my night, and I want you inside me." She sighed and turned her head away. "But not if you're reluctant. I guess -"
Abhi stopped her with a finger to her lips, tipping her head to face him again. "I do want this. But I couldn't face myself in the morning if I didn't give you the chance to change your mind." Then he leaned down and kissed her again, and she kissed him back in eager anticipation.
~*~*~*~
Finally Abhi pulled away from Pragya. "Condoms?" he asked, his voice thick with tension.
"The drawer on your side."
He turned and rummaged in the drawer. He brought out the box and examined it. "You bought a ten pack?" he asked with a laugh.
"I didn't know how many I would need. I wanted to be safe."
"You're more than covered for one night. But for reference, a guy will usually have his own choice of condoms."
"Sure, but I still need to be prepared, right? I mean it's my responsibility too. I'm the one who would have to deal with...consequences."
"Yes, Chashmish, and you're always so responsible," he said, and there was a familiar glint of mockery in his eye, though it was softened by a tenderness he'd never shown her during their marriage.
Pragya pouted as she set her hands on his powerful shoulders."Seriously, you're teasing me even now?"
He smiled as he shifted their bodies for better positioning. "I will never not want to tease you. Now, are you sure you want to do this? You're ready?"
"Yes, I'm sure! We've been over this. Come on, Rockstar. Let me feel you inside me."
He groaned and shook his head. "Damn it, Chashmish, you have to stop saying things like that. I could come just from you describing such wicked things."
She grinned in surprised delight. "Really? You're that easy?" She was unable to resist the opportunity to tease him back a little.
"Only because it's you, baby." He leaned forward to kiss her forehead, and something deep within her felt reassured at that gesture. She looked up into his familiar face, noticing how his handsome features were taut with focus. She thought, Yes, this is what I want. This is right.
~*~*~*~
"So, alright, is this ok?"
"If you ask me that one more time!" She dug her nails into his shoulders, trying to show him her frustration.
"Ok, ok! Relax, wildcat."
~*~*~*~
"Oh!"
"Easy, steady."
"Abhishek," she choked, barely able to push her voice past her caught breath. "Oh..."
"Relax, it'll get better in a minute," he whispered.
After a moment the shock of being filled started to fade, leaving just a sense of being stretched a little beyond comfort. She told him, "It's fine. I mean, it doesn't hurt. It's just - so full."
He laughed, a quick huff of breath against her ear. "Alright," he said, but he was still holding himself still, and she was starting to feel awkward about it.
"...You can move now," she said, feeling silly for prompting him.
He shifted a little, but only to be able to look her in the eye. "Are you sure?"
She scowled at him. "What did I say about asking me that!"
Abhi smiled and touched his forehead to hers. "I have to ask, baby, to make sure we're on the same page."
Pragya rolled her eyes, and tightened her grip on his shoulders. "We are most definitely on the same page. Now, please...!"
"Alright, just breathe."
~*~*~*~
He kept an even rhythm, sometimes kissing her, sometimes whispering naughty things into her ear, sometimes just keeping his eyes locked with hers.
She lost track of time as he guided them both through new waves of passion. She found that the stretch made it too uncomfortable for her to become aroused again, but she enjoyed the way he was obviously becoming more and more lost in the act.
Then his rhythm started to falter and his speed increased and it was too intense. She tried to bite her lip and bear it, thinking maybe it wouldn't be too long, but it proved too much and she found herself saying tentatively, "Sorry, just - could you - a little slower?"
He immediately gentled his actions. "Alright. I'm the one who should be sorry. Here..."
"Yes...I like that..."
"Good..."
~*~*~*~
"Baby, I'm close, I'm sorry, I have to -"
"Whatever you need. Go for it."
~*~*~*~
He came with an inarticulate groan, his whole body going still above her. She felt so very glad that he had come, that they had done this all the way for both of them. She affectionately let her hand wander into his hair.
"Chashmish," he breathed on a sigh against her ear. Then he rolled off of her and kicked at the covers beneath them, and it was all over.
She knew she would never forget the sound of him saying that nickname with so much wonder and satisfaction.
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