Only you.. forever ? ||ArSha SS|| ch9 jul'17

I took a deep breath before hid my face in pillow and chucked out those weird thought wich kept bugging my mind.. how lame is this weird life ???

Few hours ago I was happy, was I really ?? if I was then why the hell am I restless ?? all thanks prince of indore the kunwar amar! ( how I hated to call him amar! He was kunwar for me, yes exclusively for me )

Few hours ago.. *sigh*

'umm actually wo.. wo..'

'shaks??? Kya baat hai bolna..'

'no u first!!'

'ummm wo wo..'

'kunwar???!!'

'u first please..'

*sigh*

'I have a boyfriend' 'I have a girl friend'

There we said together.. but the excitement which I had before calling him just vanished when I heard he was committed.. and I felt the same air blowing on him to.. wich had started itching me..

'who' i asked gulping..

'umm u know her..'

How I wished it should not be her!!!!!!

'shaks u ther??'

'umm who kunwar please say!! I have no mood or energy to gues..!'

' (leaving a deep breath) charlie'

I threw the fone away from me! So far.. so far praying that what I just heard be a nightmare'

There in the corner lyed my fone broken into pieces..

After some time.. I gathered courage to bring it back.. no I not gonna repair it.. I jus cant withstand that bitch! Shit! Why kunwar is unware of her deeds? Why ???!! I cant tell him anything! I don't wanna go away from him.. !!

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I had just calmed myself from those unknowing tears wich shed from my eyes.. I swear I dint know why these tears flowed down my eyes.. was it soo heavy for my little dark brown eyes to withhold or hide those tiny pearls from falling down..???

"uggghh!!! Im going mad!!!! What was I saying ???? am I gone soo lame!! Little dark brown eyes ?? tiny pearls ??"

*sigh* how he used to call my tears as tiny pearls.. the last time I had cried.. was during DID days.. where I had just experienced a broke up.. I dint cry because I broke up.. but I cried for the reason behind it.. my so called x-bf was insecured of my friendship wid kunwar.. I had defended kunwar instead of him which hit his male ego.. neither did I wanted to b wid such a bigoted person..

Kunwar was of great help when I had cried.. and how he had come to me to whipe those shattered tears from my eyes..

'tu jaanti hai these tears are tiny pearls and how dare you to waste them??? Tuje pata hai yeh kitni keemti hai ??' he said taking a drop of tear inhis index finger and showed it to me..

He kept on saying some weird things.. but I cudnt listen because my gaxe was struck on him, his eyes.. his nose.. and those lips.. wich kept sepearting and meeting everytime he talked..

'OH gawd!!!! Wats wrong wid me!!!! For 100^th time shaks now now he have a gf!! Understand!! Ur not in past !! DID days over!! D3 over!! Kunwar and his thoughts also'' *sigh* 'will it ever end ?? will I ever stop thinking of him ?'

'I should better stop it!! I cant handle this or else!!! Mazak karne chali thi yeh bolke ki I hav a bf!! Lekin khud ek Mazak ban gayi!!!!!! Damn him!! Gadha!!'

'kunwar!!!' saying which another tear slipped down..

Uggghh not again!!!!

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I tossed and turned in my bed.. why did the night seemed long???

Will kunwar also be in same situation ?? is he too going through this strange feelings??

But then why am I upset in first place ??? he is relationship .. but what do I feel for him is that love ???? I don't think so!!! Since he is my only best friend.. yaani a close one.. okay a good one.. umm fine a friend who knows me in and out!! muks ke alava if someone knows me bttr then its him!! So its obvious I get jealous when they have a something wich I don't ? right?

Umm isn't it ??

Yaa right that's the way it goes! I assured myself!

BUT then whats the deal behind this restlessness!! I kept worrying when mukti hopped inside the room..

It was morning already..

'SHAAKKSS!!!! See this!!! Official confirmation later!!!! U will b boarding ur flight on 19^th may!! SHAKSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally u will reach there!!! There where ur meant to b!!!'

Okay this better!! Atleast mei usse gadhe se dur rahoongi toh accha hoga..!!

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