FF Beintehaa Ishq [Zaya story with a twist]last chapter -pg106 - Page 63

Originally posted by: zaya.fatima

Chptr 30

Kuch nahi, mai gir gaya tha school mei , he lied aur behosh ho gaya tha shayad...Aaliya ne aakar bachaya...nahi toh shayad saari raat wahi pada rehta, hosh hi nahi tha ...

I was visualizing this scene while reading the pain and hidden taunt in his words and Aaliya's guilt it have made my eyes misty😭

The way you have described his shattering dwindling hopes it those lines were great👏

The way Aaliya is fighting with herself its heartbreaking SIM her pain agony everything is limitless

and nothing is in her control not even her own emotions

Continue soon

Originally posted by: zayacrazy

Pyaar ki saza pyaar hai...

Nafrat ki saza nafrat hai...

Magar mere pyaar ki saza nafrat kyun hai...

Tu itni majboor kyu hai...

Mein itna mazloom kyun hoon...

Ke iss pyaar ki saza ashk- dard hai...

I needed so much of time to gather my thoghts for this chapter! You know? This chapter has kept me occupied in thinking how one feeling of 'Love' has an impact on a thousand unknown emotions! Zain and Aaliya! Are Zaya! No matter what! But the situation is that...now Zain is in a dilemma to step forward or backward... and Aaliya's emotions have overflowed, even without her will she's falling for him...

The hit with the scale and him sitting there till she came was heartbreaking...I know Aaliya has gone through alot but she fails to understand Zain went through double! He faced himself pushing his love! Life snatched his dad...but also guilt was twice as much! Aaliya went through humiliation, but for a period of time she didnt sense the pain as she had forgotten...mentally it had an impact but it was unknown! To Zain he faced his 'Love' being in humiliation because of him, being physically dmaged because of him and now being mentally and emotionally being tortured because of him-His Love as in Aaliya.

But Zain has been through all this in greater heights! And in heights which is limitless!

I had been Zain once...maybe still am...I choose to wait with unsaid words whereas Zain says as well as does...the only difference between I and Zain is he expresses and I dont- like Aaliya I fear...

What is precious to me about this writing is that the characters are a part of my life! They unknowingly state my life...in many ways! And thats why I can assume who you are Sim...maybe I don't know you but this story makes me wonder maybe I know what is termed as Between the lines of you, of Sim!

I am grateful to be a part of this amazing and marvelled piece of writing, reality, masterpiece, feeling and emotion...whatever you term it as!

Originally posted by: Riya5666

Awesomw upsate Sim!

I just don't know what to say anymore...

Feeling lost.. Zain has been enduring... Leave it...

I just want to wait and watch right now, what happens further...

Pls continue soon...

Hmm...as we are approaching the end ..this is just a filler chapter ...a confrontation ...

Dedication: Megha and Maneehsa...thanks for the love likes words and appreciation ...it keeps the writer in me alive ...for both of you ...a small thank you

loads of love

SIM

NOTE- still writing a chapter in between so update might be a bit late tommorrow...

hang on

love

Sim

Chapter 31

Dhundla Ehsaas

She pulled herself closer to his knees and started applying the medicine...he kept on looking at her face...she was his angel...she could never hurt him. Even a small scratch on him would melt her heart, he knew and looked at those caring eyes. The ones which had cooled down after the storm ...it was a broken heart that was hurting him today ...the hurt speaking through his tongue now..

Kya abhi bhi koi sazaa baki hai ...Miss Rhea, his cold voice hit her senses...ya meri class leni abhi baaki hai ..kaho toh kal phir aa jao ...agar aapka ghussa thanda nahi hua ho toh ...she still looked down ...

Yaha se hilna nahi ..yehi kaha tha na ..nahi hila mai..ab khush ...

thak chukka hu apna dil todte todte..har roz ek nayi haqeekat se paala padta hai mera ..bahut accha aaina dikha rahi hai aap...ab toh khud koh dekh kar bhi pehchaan nahi paata mai...

She never looked up ...the silence haunting him like always ...ab aap chup kyu hai ...ya yeh bhi aaj ka installment hai mera ...he smirked ...moving his legs ...the burnt heart ...slipping through his beats ...

Oh mai toh bhool hi gaya ...yaha toh aap Madam hai ...aaj is garib ke paas aane ki kya vajah hai ...

jaiye aapke haat kharab ho jayenge ...woh kya kehti hai aap ...mujhe choone se gunhaah hota hai ...

He took his knees away ...jaiye ...mujhe mere haal par akela chod dijiye ...

yehi nafrat mai jeene ke aadi ho gaya hu mai ...nahi chaiye yeh davai...jab chot milta hai tabh sukkun milta hai mujhe ...jaiye ...

She just didn't look up, she would break and she knew that...

She pulled his legs back ...

Davai lagane do ...chup chaap baithe raho ...biting her lips ...she couldn't be angry with him anymore ..the last attack had dwindled her pain ...the mind was blank and confused now ...

Ek choti si Shrarat ki thi...nahi jaanta tha ..ki yeh sach dekhne koh milega ...

mai shayad wakai mai badal chukka hu ...joh insaan kabhi kisi ki parvaah nahi karta tha ...aaj khud ki bhi nahi karta ...mubarak ho ...

jis baat se ghabra raha tha ...ab wahi dhundla ehsaas ...is dil mai ghar bana chukka hai ...majboot ban chuka hai ...

She silently put the medicines ...After putting the bandaid on his knees, she asked for his hand ...

Haath koh kuch nahi hua ...he hid the injury ...

Haath do ...he gave her the one which was not hurt ...

Yeh nahi ...woh ...she pulled it towards her ...looking at the deep cut ...trying hard to control her tears ...

She cleaned the cut on his hand, and bandaged him, still eyeing his Las band on his right hand ...he kept quiet,

Aaliya was enveloped with a strange feeling ...her hurt and her friends love to protect him ...were confronting each other ..making her draw into her shell...

Woh ...shyad bahut purani scale thi..varna nahi tooti ...itne zor se bhi nahi clalaya tha tumne...his love still trying to protect her ...she was filled with pity now...on her own state ...he would never ever leave her ...firming her decision now

she got up and gave him the tray of food...Khana kha lo she almost ordered...

Nahi khana he replied firmly ...turning his face away ...

Kha lo ...varna abhi sach ke behosh bhi ho jaaoge ...she said playfully to ease the growing tension ...

Tumhe kya farak padta hai ...he added with a zest of bitterness ,

Yehi chahti thi na tum..

kya kaha tha kal raat ek din nahi khaoge toh kuch nahi hoga ...tum bhi thi na bhooki ...toh mujhe bhi rehne do ...

badla lena hai ..toh puri tarah se lo...varna mat lo, keh dena apne dimaag se ..dil ki bhi kabhi sun liya kare ...mera nuksaan kam hoga ...his eyes still fixed down ...he blurted

mere bhooke rehne se shayad tumhe sukoon milta ho ...isliye kal raat se tang kar rahi ho na ...ekraat aur bhooke rahunga ...toh mar nahi jaunga ...jao ...nahi chaiye tumahri humdardi..

Theek hai toh raho bhooke ...she said loudly and turned around,his hand held her wrist... as he angrily got up and twisted it around ..the bitterness now reaking through his face

Kab tak Aaliya ...Akhir Kab tak , his heavy voice filled with pain and loneliness questioned her ...

Har gunaah ki ek maafi hoti hai , aur har gunaah ki ek sazaa ...

mai kab tak yeh sazaa bhugtunga batati toh jao, Kab tak aise ghutunga, aakhir kab tak...

tumharee pyaar ke liye kab tak tarsunga batati toh jao...his coldness and closeness, his words nibbling on the back of her neck and his touch on her wrists were making her go mad...

Da...jaise jaise din jaa rahe hai ..mai tooth raha hu...bikhar jaunga ...sambhalo ...

She had missed him so badly,and all the memories of their good days the days post her memory loss and the days where he lured her back ...all those moments when she was near him ...flashed before her eyes ...She yearned for his touch, his smell ...but her heart was still with holding ... her pain , her separation, his behavior during her talaakh ...the word got her back to the harsh reality ...her image of crossing the last boundary ...and he still bore everything

Chod do yeh zidd, yeh ghussa ...chalo mere saath ...chahe toh saari umar ghutne par baithne ko kaho ...baith jaunga ...par mujhe akela mat chodo...

mai bahut thak chukka hu...pehle khud se phir sab Rishton se...aur ab tumse ladta ladta ...bahut thak chukka hu ...

tham lo Da ..isse pehle ki ma kuch aisa kar baithu ...jaha se lautna namumkin ho ...rok lo mujhe ...

Itne berukhi toh maine bhi nahi kit hi tumhare saath ...

bees din se bas paanch minute saath baitho iske intezaa kiye jaa rah ahu ...kab tak aise bheek mangta rahunga ...

mai kahi kho raha hu ...mujhe mat behne do ...thaam lo ...ab nahi ruka ...toh hum kho denge dono ek doosre koh ...

bas ek sach hai baaki sab fareb ...mai har rasta chalne koh tayaar hu ...bas mera saath do..yeh ek jung hai mai nahi akela chal sakta, na hi tumhe akele ladne dunga ...

ek akela insaan kabhi ek prem khani nahi likh paata ...do dil chaiye hote hai ...jiski dhadkan ek ho...saanse ek ho ...mujhe todte todte ..tum bhi dhas rahi ho ...mere bas ek intezaa sun lo ...kya ab bhi yeh nafrat jeetegi ...bolo Da ..kya mai zindagi bhar us dehleez par ek ajnabi ki trah khada rahunga ...

Mere pyaar mere wajood koh mitate mitate ...tum mujhe kho dogi ...meri ummed aise mat bikhero ...

Kyu ummed mai jee rahe ho , maine tumse kitne baar kaha ...chale jaao ...par tum mante hi nahi ...

nahi kabu mai hai meri nafrat ab ..aur belagam cheezo se darr lagta hai mujhe ...mat chedo yeh ghaav ..kured rahe ho...har baar ...mat karo...laut jaao ...she said sounding cold ...

Yeh Ummed hai joh ab tak mere sanso koh is jism se bandkar rakha hai...varna shayad kab ka hi ...his voice trailed off , leaving a shattered nightmare for Aaliyas imagination ...

She turned, this time her eyes were soft...

Zain ...mujhe maaf karna ...par zindagi mujhe us mod par laayi hai ...jaha se ek raasta guzarta hai ...who jiski manzil tum nahi ho ...meri zindagi ek lamhe mai qaid ho gayi hai ...azaad karo mujhe please ...

Azaad...aur mera kya Da ...

Tumne mom koh nafeesa Bhabhi koh ...yaha tak ke phoops aur phupha koh bhi maaf kar diya ...toh mujhe kyu nahi ...Aakhir kyu Aaliya ...aur kab tak his eyes were ozzing with pain ...

sabki nafrat sirf mujh par kyu ...mai toh apne hisse kaaut lunga aur un sab ke hisse ka bhi bhugat lunga ..par ek lamha kahi mujhe khud se door na kar de ...

Har dard uthaya ..bas yeh sunne ke liye ...mere raste ...sab tumhare saath chalet hai ...jab tum nahi ..toh raah bhi nahi ...

aaj tumne toda hai mujhe ..mere aitbaar koh joh mujhe mere pyaar par tha ...bas sahil par khade hokar toofan ka tamasha dekhta rahunga ab ...yehi bacha hai ...

aaj tumhne I hate you bhi keh diya ...he questioned her ...showing how badly he was hurt..her mind was only hating him ...he couldn't bare it

She looked away, scared to look into his eyes that were asking more than she could ever answer...

Chale Jaoo ..yaha se ...meri zindagi se...nahi toh umrabhar aise hi zakhm milte rahenge, she spoke as tears fell on his hand, wetting the gash and inducing more pain ...

Nahi Jaaunga, aur agar gaya toh tumhe lekar ...wada hai mera tumse...Jitna saza dena chahti ho , de do mei bhugat ne koh tayyar hu...jitna tadpana chahti ho tadpa lo...sari zindagi apne kiye gunaah ki kimat chukka sakta hu...

bas bardasht nahi kar sakta toh yeh khamoshi , yeh nafrat ...

tumhari nazar mai mere liye pyaar na aaye naa sahi ...par nafrat nahi dekh sakta.

Ek choti si ummed abhi bhi bandi hai..jis din who dor tooti mai vada kart ahu ...mai chale jaunga ...aur phir kabhi nahi lautunga ...vada hai tumhare shahuar ka tumse

He held her hand on his face... Trying to wipe his falling tears, he finally had broken down ...she could see the pain ...hear his hearbeat ...

She slowly moved her fingers away from his face making a fist, withdrawing her hand away from him ...

Khana kha lo...

Tum yaha baitho ...tab khaa lunga he affirmed ...

Zidd chod do...

Nahi ...he crossed his arms around his stomach ...secretly praying that she would agree or another night without food would be horrible.

Theek hai she finally relented, his small victory ...he smiled ...

She heated up his food and she sat on the grass facing him, she coldly sat looking him eat on his so called bed. She couldn't figure out how to make him go away , he was stuborn just like her ...but she knew her decision was the best for him ..

He gave her a bite, she looked away ...he kept the roti piece on the plate back and pleaded her to pick through his eyes, she resisted but then relented picking up and eating it ...

Zains soul was at peace...he had crossed his first hurdle ...her stone heart was finally melting ...but his was disintegrating ...he knew the end was soon ...his win had taken his will away...he knew the storm was approaching

Behte mazhdar mai haath kaise chod du...

Thama tha jisse umrabhar ke liye ...usse muh kaise mod lu ...

SIM

Pre-cap :Her decision ...what is it ...and how will Zain pursue her