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i'm actually here. doing a bt,lt on a wednesday night. (or is't thursday morning?) i've just had the most frigid group meeting session - surrounded by a group of hostile project partners. at first i thought i'd blame my uncomfortable position on prem 😆 but that would .. well not be totally fair, i admit. the blame really falls on my pal, p and her tendency to let her imagination run wild after reading "previews"/highlights. and then needing three of us to see the show with her and calm her down in case bad things happen. i actually made fake excuses 'bout an unavoidable appointment (which no one really believed, i could see ) and then make some really dangerously speedy trips from school-p-home-back. argh! oh well. am now sitting in the middle of a group-break and trying to put down notes on the really big things today.
* little thing: of course, baby-ratpal (still struggling to get a name for him) escaped nihaal's question very easily. no where near a big thing at all.
* little thing: meher eating sweets with such firm satisfaction. 😆 i dunno... i'm all for personal freedom and all and really couldn't care less 'bout what people think is fat. 'specially when kulluchachi is being critical. but a whole thali-full of sweets??? was quite extreme, donchya think?? 😆
* little thing: so when harman landed up next to meher, who else remembered the nursery rhyme "jack sprat could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean. so between the two of them, they licked the platter clean"? 😆
* little thing: the bloomin' cheek of harman! after kulluchachi has left, harman tells meher she is free to eat all she wants (like he is giving permission!) and in the very next breath says they're not getting married anyway! then keep your bloomin' permission to yourself! 😡 even though they both had cute grins flashing at each other, i ended up thinking "what's with these two??!" argh!
* little thing: heer sitsand sorts through her clothes, like a queen sorting through her fineries on her bed, with everything spread around her? 😆 maybe it's the b&w movie era thing - but i had this weird feeling that if it had been anyone else it'd have been rather - no, very! - odd!
* big thing: the first big thing that struck me 'bout today's show -- heer actually cares what some dirtchachi duplicate thinks about her clothes? especially when kulluchachi is wearing similar (much more shiny) stuff anyway? and my brow furrowed 'cause it looked like heer's got a complex - an inferiority complex. and that is not a good thing to have. 'specially when you're getting married to the gorgeous perfection of a mein-bhagwan-nehi-hoon prem.
that was a big thing for me. and it spilled over into the next session, which actually opened up an entire pandora's box of questions in my head.
* big thing: sigh! they are back to accursed! editing. arggghhh!!! billions of blue blistering barnacles! why - why - can't they just get some bloomin' freshers out of editing school and give them a chance, instead of keeping on these cursed incompetents? who else but a cursed incompetent would put that prem-heer scene the way it was done??! argggghhh!!
* prem thing: of course, the thing that i'd have been most violent about was how they (creators) were manipulating my head to not care about incompetence - by putting prem in a rich white shirt - think the dense saturated whiteness of a magnolia petal 😊 - and bathed in blue-moonlight. just the perfect setting for oooooh-hate-prem-ness. 😆 didn't even notice the silly dopiness of his actions or of his ridiculous surroundings. in fact, almost didn't notice the strangled hysteria of someone calling "prem!"
but then, could not help but notice the subtle changes in prem's expression after that call. there was a ever-so-slight widening of his eyes. the stillness of his body -- did his hand move down? or did it stay put? and then, the ever-so-slight opening of his mouth - was it just enough to draw enough breath to keep his heart going? but none of these movements came close to disturbing his stillness! he looked like he had actually been carved in marble at that spot. i thought later - was all that just my fevered imagination? could hc have done it that well?? i really can't tell. but i have a bad feeling that it was just that perfectly done. 'cause as his eyes travel back up to heer's face, his brows draw together in a ever-so-slight frown. heer's clearly not enjoying what is giving him so much pleasure. even though she is trying to put a brave front on it, with that tremulous little smile at him, eyes bright with unshed tears.
and that breaks his stillness. but upto that point? whew. even with the ludicrous background song (what the heck were they doing using the music of "the final countdown" for this moment???!!!!! was there a deep message in that?) hc was effective in projecting deep, hot, instant desire. while watching him, i was as still as prem. was he feeling as feverish as i was? i had to take a swig of water for my dry throat. i remember thinking "was the moment that long?". 'cause after that, he was back to "usually perfect prem". being noble about controlling his desires. telling heer that he would wait for her.
but! the real big thing (😆, yea, haven't yet written the big prem thing..) was his words then: "no matter how much i desire to see you in this dress, i won't... when you wear it for me with your whole heart, i will see you with my whole heart. i love you." *sigh*
(no. no. no! focus!) the big thing was (seriously!) -- prem gave heer the dress!!!!??! he obviously wants heer very very badly -- that we found out on 9/11 😆 but gifting her that dress? which is so different from anything that she has known? hmmmm! that was a big thing for me. prem is making plans. moving ahead. seeing what he wants from his life. doing things to get there. and...
i liked it. very very much. made me have hope that even if prem-heer live in the mad(e) 😆 juneja house, prem will have his own life.
what made me a little scared was -- is heer upto it? i know prem will give her all the time in the world. but i'd just love it if heer actually took the freedom and the promises of the life that prem is giving her and flies with him, just as fast and just as sure. please heer, please?
(no, triv, don't bring out goaty! am not refering to her brilliant abilities during the "windstorm" here... 😆)
* little thing: who else missed angad-the-rockstar in the rock-show sequence? *hard sigh* was not helped by a rather over-the-top expression hc had on prem's face at a point.
(😲 oooooh! did i just write that? *checks* ya, i did! 😲 well, too bad. it was an ott expression, a bit. 😆)
* little thing: what a bright happy face prem walked into the show with. what a stunned face that pretty one fell into. poor prem - exactly what is it that has him so.... spooked!? what was striking was that for prem, it was such an extreme reaction! other than his allergic reaction to muckmeet/prashant at his-ashesha wedding, have never seen such a prem-reaction. he was actually physically trying to run away from a ghost in his head! it was most odd! (lots of odd things today, no?)
* little thing: what a brush-off to the rockstar. i mean, the rockstar himself was quite lukewarm -- if they were such thick buddies at ... school? college? - wouldn't you have a more pleased expression when you run into them after such a long time?? and then prem -- tugging at his collar like it was too tight -- effectively looks through him and brushes him away like a mosquito! wow.
* little thing: and while he's running away from the ghost in his head, in the end, he is running away from heer as well. it was brilliant that mein-bhagwan-nehi-hoon-liar prem was still his heer's gentleman to get her home. but on home ground, it was "ruun away, run away from the pain." (old aerosmith song, 'janey's got a gun') the first time in his life that gentleman prem comes close to being brusque to his heer. and of course, his brusque is still gentle-voiced, with a legit sounding excuse, and pain in his eyes as he watches her do as he asks her to do and leave him alone. damn prem.
and stooopid him. he actually thinks that heer will leave her prem alone in his time of obvious pain. *hitting prem on the upside of his head* stoooopid!
* prem thing: but such minor things were completely wiped out of my head in the next second. prem watches her leave, and then does what i usually do in my job as person-in-charge-of-buttoning-up-prem's-white-shirt-and-rolling-up-his-sleeves-halfway-up: remove his coat to see all that magnolia white covered shoulders and ... um ... torso! ('tis soooo difficult to remember words at times like this! 😆) as he walks, he has a pre-occupied look on his face -- like in the old days when he used to be focussed at work! and - having dumped the coat - he absentmindedly rolls up his sleeve. *my vision's going dark... my words.... ooooh.... haaaattteee prrree...*
* little thing: y'know? i can see how when a whole family packs up a whole life and returns to one's country bag and baggage, there is a heck of a lot of things that remain unpacked for a long time - sometimes forever. but when such things are stored, you take care that the room is airtight and free of dirt. 😆 and the other thing is that you have to search for hours to find things! prem, on the other hand, finds his stuff immediately! hmmmm! well, i guess that being a mein-bhagwan-nehi-hoon-liar prem has it's uses... 😆
* little thing: i was hoping that by bringing up a secret from his college-past, we would finally find out what happened to the thick spectacles that prem used to wear as a kid and in college. but in that photograph, musician prem isn't wearing one! *sigh* i do want to know what happened to 'em... 😆
* big thing: okay, i must admit i wasn't really surprised to see prem with gayatri-mom (all straight-backed and magnolia white shouldered). the things that surprised me today in that scene was:
- just how much gayatri-mom misjudged what prem was troubled about! and
- just how the only thing that concerned prem about the troubled memories was how much it would effect heer!
i felt such a thrill at that intent far-off-look in his eyes, as she kept going on and on about it being in the past and all burnt out and not to be troubled. prem's voice was deep and almost brusque as he said "i don't care about that, maa. all that worries me is heer. i think it's best to tell her 'bout it".
and so for the first time, i thought, gayatri-mom is feeling a tad jealous about not being the center of her prem's life anymore. i thought, it was a logical thing for a mom who wants to keep at least something just between her and her beloved son. i don't hate her for it, even if it is true -- and i don't know if it is. the real big question for me is -- what's prem going to do about it next? 'cause he certainly didn't look like he agreed with her. and being a good son, he didn't disagree with her -- just held her to calm her fears for him.
but i wonder: is prem worried about the effect of the "secret" on heer because he just finished seeing how she was trying so hard to "fit into his world" no matter how uncomfortable it made her? is that what might make him think that if he can keep it a secret for a while longer, she will become more comfortable with his world till he can tell her? somehow, i have a feeling that prem will tell heer sooner rather than later. the only troublesome spot in this sweet prem-heer picture is that, unknown to prem probably, he's in a race with ratpal. ratpal knows he has a secret. and he will be unscrupulous about finding out what it is, and use it as unscrupulously as possible.
but! this is prem! and it's heer! and they have surprised us so far with the brilliance of their "one-ness". and they have my vote. 😆
i'm gonna wait and watch. go prem! go heer! you guys rock! *hmmm, must ask triv whether she doesn't have a seetti-bhajao-ing emoticon. 😆 till then, using*
go, go, go! 😆
highlight of the episode: ah... i'm probably just a leeetle bit biased here, but for me? the pre-occupied prem, rolling up his sleeves, as he walks towards a locked room, piled high with dusty momentoes and dangling cobwebs, with dark-and-light shadows on his face. 😆
no? well, then, it's that look of fierce concentration on his face, thinking of how to protect heer from the mess of his past life, while gayatri-mom is going on and on in a pointless fashion.
ooops! edit add (photocredits to khushix -- with 196 captures of the episode!!! 😆
http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=1039518
)edit end
heh. who asked you to go to mom for advice, prem? suffer! *fiercely glad that prem is reaping the fruits that he has sown - the insufferably perfect prem. thrrrrrrppppt!*
oh, okay, i give up. actually, i'm rather eagerly waiting to see how he come out of this with his perfection intact. go prem. go preserve prem-heer are one. 😊
till then, i have to deal the extra work-load that i got in return for having vanished to .. er .. calm down my dearest friend p. and i've got only *hmm* nine hours before submission time! argh!!!
* little thing: of course, baby-ratpal (still struggling to get a name for him) escaped nihaal's question very easily. no where near a big thing at all.
* little thing: meher eating sweets with such firm satisfaction. 😆 i dunno... i'm all for personal freedom and all and really couldn't care less 'bout what people think is fat. 'specially when kulluchachi is being critical. but a whole thali-full of sweets??? was quite extreme, donchya think?? 😆
* little thing: so when harman landed up next to meher, who else remembered the nursery rhyme "jack sprat could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean. so between the two of them, they licked the platter clean"? 😆
* little thing: the bloomin' cheek of harman! after kulluchachi has left, harman tells meher she is free to eat all she wants (like he is giving permission!) and in the very next breath says they're not getting married anyway! then keep your bloomin' permission to yourself! 😡 even though they both had cute grins flashing at each other, i ended up thinking "what's with these two??!" argh!
* little thing: heer sitsand sorts through her clothes, like a queen sorting through her fineries on her bed, with everything spread around her? 😆 maybe it's the b&w movie era thing - but i had this weird feeling that if it had been anyone else it'd have been rather - no, very! - odd!
* big thing: the first big thing that struck me 'bout today's show -- heer actually cares what some dirtchachi duplicate thinks about her clothes? especially when kulluchachi is wearing similar (much more shiny) stuff anyway? and my brow furrowed 'cause it looked like heer's got a complex - an inferiority complex. and that is not a good thing to have. 'specially when you're getting married to the gorgeous perfection of a mein-bhagwan-nehi-hoon prem.
that was a big thing for me. and it spilled over into the next session, which actually opened up an entire pandora's box of questions in my head.
* big thing: sigh! they are back to accursed! editing. arggghhh!!! billions of blue blistering barnacles! why - why - can't they just get some bloomin' freshers out of editing school and give them a chance, instead of keeping on these cursed incompetents? who else but a cursed incompetent would put that prem-heer scene the way it was done??! argggghhh!!
* prem thing: of course, the thing that i'd have been most violent about was how they (creators) were manipulating my head to not care about incompetence - by putting prem in a rich white shirt - think the dense saturated whiteness of a magnolia petal 😊 - and bathed in blue-moonlight. just the perfect setting for oooooh-hate-prem-ness. 😆 didn't even notice the silly dopiness of his actions or of his ridiculous surroundings. in fact, almost didn't notice the strangled hysteria of someone calling "prem!"
but then, could not help but notice the subtle changes in prem's expression after that call. there was a ever-so-slight widening of his eyes. the stillness of his body -- did his hand move down? or did it stay put? and then, the ever-so-slight opening of his mouth - was it just enough to draw enough breath to keep his heart going? but none of these movements came close to disturbing his stillness! he looked like he had actually been carved in marble at that spot. i thought later - was all that just my fevered imagination? could hc have done it that well?? i really can't tell. but i have a bad feeling that it was just that perfectly done. 'cause as his eyes travel back up to heer's face, his brows draw together in a ever-so-slight frown. heer's clearly not enjoying what is giving him so much pleasure. even though she is trying to put a brave front on it, with that tremulous little smile at him, eyes bright with unshed tears.
and that breaks his stillness. but upto that point? whew. even with the ludicrous background song (what the heck were they doing using the music of "the final countdown" for this moment???!!!!! was there a deep message in that?) hc was effective in projecting deep, hot, instant desire. while watching him, i was as still as prem. was he feeling as feverish as i was? i had to take a swig of water for my dry throat. i remember thinking "was the moment that long?". 'cause after that, he was back to "usually perfect prem". being noble about controlling his desires. telling heer that he would wait for her.
but! the real big thing (😆, yea, haven't yet written the big prem thing..) was his words then: "no matter how much i desire to see you in this dress, i won't... when you wear it for me with your whole heart, i will see you with my whole heart. i love you." *sigh*
(no. no. no! focus!) the big thing was (seriously!) -- prem gave heer the dress!!!!??! he obviously wants heer very very badly -- that we found out on 9/11 😆 but gifting her that dress? which is so different from anything that she has known? hmmmm! that was a big thing for me. prem is making plans. moving ahead. seeing what he wants from his life. doing things to get there. and...
i liked it. very very much. made me have hope that even if prem-heer live in the mad(e) 😆 juneja house, prem will have his own life.
what made me a little scared was -- is heer upto it? i know prem will give her all the time in the world. but i'd just love it if heer actually took the freedom and the promises of the life that prem is giving her and flies with him, just as fast and just as sure. please heer, please?
(no, triv, don't bring out goaty! am not refering to her brilliant abilities during the "windstorm" here... 😆)
* little thing: who else missed angad-the-rockstar in the rock-show sequence? *hard sigh* was not helped by a rather over-the-top expression hc had on prem's face at a point.
(😲 oooooh! did i just write that? *checks* ya, i did! 😲 well, too bad. it was an ott expression, a bit. 😆)
* little thing: what a bright happy face prem walked into the show with. what a stunned face that pretty one fell into. poor prem - exactly what is it that has him so.... spooked!? what was striking was that for prem, it was such an extreme reaction! other than his allergic reaction to muckmeet/prashant at his-ashesha wedding, have never seen such a prem-reaction. he was actually physically trying to run away from a ghost in his head! it was most odd! (lots of odd things today, no?)
* little thing: what a brush-off to the rockstar. i mean, the rockstar himself was quite lukewarm -- if they were such thick buddies at ... school? college? - wouldn't you have a more pleased expression when you run into them after such a long time?? and then prem -- tugging at his collar like it was too tight -- effectively looks through him and brushes him away like a mosquito! wow.
* little thing: and while he's running away from the ghost in his head, in the end, he is running away from heer as well. it was brilliant that mein-bhagwan-nehi-hoon-liar prem was still his heer's gentleman to get her home. but on home ground, it was "ruun away, run away from the pain." (old aerosmith song, 'janey's got a gun') the first time in his life that gentleman prem comes close to being brusque to his heer. and of course, his brusque is still gentle-voiced, with a legit sounding excuse, and pain in his eyes as he watches her do as he asks her to do and leave him alone. damn prem.
and stooopid him. he actually thinks that heer will leave her prem alone in his time of obvious pain. *hitting prem on the upside of his head* stoooopid!
* prem thing: but such minor things were completely wiped out of my head in the next second. prem watches her leave, and then does what i usually do in my job as person-in-charge-of-buttoning-up-prem's-white-shirt-and-rolling-up-his-sleeves-halfway-up: remove his coat to see all that magnolia white covered shoulders and ... um ... torso! ('tis soooo difficult to remember words at times like this! 😆) as he walks, he has a pre-occupied look on his face -- like in the old days when he used to be focussed at work! and - having dumped the coat - he absentmindedly rolls up his sleeve. *my vision's going dark... my words.... ooooh.... haaaattteee prrree...*
* little thing: y'know? i can see how when a whole family packs up a whole life and returns to one's country bag and baggage, there is a heck of a lot of things that remain unpacked for a long time - sometimes forever. but when such things are stored, you take care that the room is airtight and free of dirt. 😆 and the other thing is that you have to search for hours to find things! prem, on the other hand, finds his stuff immediately! hmmmm! well, i guess that being a mein-bhagwan-nehi-hoon-liar prem has it's uses... 😆
* little thing: i was hoping that by bringing up a secret from his college-past, we would finally find out what happened to the thick spectacles that prem used to wear as a kid and in college. but in that photograph, musician prem isn't wearing one! *sigh* i do want to know what happened to 'em... 😆
* big thing: okay, i must admit i wasn't really surprised to see prem with gayatri-mom (all straight-backed and magnolia white shouldered). the things that surprised me today in that scene was:
- just how much gayatri-mom misjudged what prem was troubled about! and
- just how the only thing that concerned prem about the troubled memories was how much it would effect heer!
i felt such a thrill at that intent far-off-look in his eyes, as she kept going on and on about it being in the past and all burnt out and not to be troubled. prem's voice was deep and almost brusque as he said "i don't care about that, maa. all that worries me is heer. i think it's best to tell her 'bout it".
and so for the first time, i thought, gayatri-mom is feeling a tad jealous about not being the center of her prem's life anymore. i thought, it was a logical thing for a mom who wants to keep at least something just between her and her beloved son. i don't hate her for it, even if it is true -- and i don't know if it is. the real big question for me is -- what's prem going to do about it next? 'cause he certainly didn't look like he agreed with her. and being a good son, he didn't disagree with her -- just held her to calm her fears for him.
but i wonder: is prem worried about the effect of the "secret" on heer because he just finished seeing how she was trying so hard to "fit into his world" no matter how uncomfortable it made her? is that what might make him think that if he can keep it a secret for a while longer, she will become more comfortable with his world till he can tell her? somehow, i have a feeling that prem will tell heer sooner rather than later. the only troublesome spot in this sweet prem-heer picture is that, unknown to prem probably, he's in a race with ratpal. ratpal knows he has a secret. and he will be unscrupulous about finding out what it is, and use it as unscrupulously as possible.
but! this is prem! and it's heer! and they have surprised us so far with the brilliance of their "one-ness". and they have my vote. 😆
i'm gonna wait and watch. go prem! go heer! you guys rock! *hmmm, must ask triv whether she doesn't have a seetti-bhajao-ing emoticon. 😆 till then, using*
go, go, go! 😆highlight of the episode: ah... i'm probably just a leeetle bit biased here, but for me? the pre-occupied prem, rolling up his sleeves, as he walks towards a locked room, piled high with dusty momentoes and dangling cobwebs, with dark-and-light shadows on his face. 😆
no? well, then, it's that look of fierce concentration on his face, thinking of how to protect heer from the mess of his past life, while gayatri-mom is going on and on in a pointless fashion.
ooops! edit add (photocredits to khushix -- with 196 captures of the episode!!! 😆
http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=1039518
)edit end
heh. who asked you to go to mom for advice, prem? suffer! *fiercely glad that prem is reaping the fruits that he has sown - the insufferably perfect prem. thrrrrrrppppt!*
oh, okay, i give up. actually, i'm rather eagerly waiting to see how he come out of this with his perfection intact. go prem. go preserve prem-heer are one. 😊
till then, i have to deal the extra work-load that i got in return for having vanished to .. er .. calm down my dearest friend p. and i've got only *hmm* nine hours before submission time! argh!!!
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