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What an episode...!!! I am still absorbing the wonderful performances of Kratika and Gurmeet in my mind...
Well, the rains had to cascade before the rainbow appeared. They say there is no failure except in no longer trying, there is no defeat except from within, and there is no insurmountable barrier save our own inherent weakness of purpose. Aarti cannot be faulted for any of these. Today's episode was all about that inner strength of a woman that comes to the fore when chips are down and her man has given up on the relationship before even beginning the fight. She then has the tenacity to reach down in the deep recesses of her heart and find the strength that will give her the courage to fight for both, till her man recognizes the strength of their love.
If you could see inside my head...if thoughts were things to see...you would know how I cherish you...how much you mean to me.
Well, who said marriage...even the one between soul mates...is a simple love affair. It is actually an ordeal...and the ordeal being having the vision to sacrifice ego and self-pity to a relationship in which two have become one. Abandonment and betrayal are side effects of distrust in a bonding...and when these two feelings arise within a soul mate they do not last...Why? Because soon enough...and especially with the resilience of one partner who is willing to go all the way...the two achieve an ultimate level of symbiosis and serenity with each other...Once that happens, it lasts forever.
Aarti's biggest virtue is her never-say-die attitude. From a life that took away everything once when it made her an orphan, she learnt to value relationships and value them deeply...fight for them. This fierce sense of loyalty might be misplaced at times, but is also something that makes the core essence of the beautiful person that Aarti is. To the one who doesn't know her she seems complex, but to the one who does, there is no simpler human being. Today she bared her life in front of the man who has come to embody her life...in front of whom all the past and present relationships take a back seat. She could fight the world as long as Yashji was facing her...but her world came crashing down when he turned his back to her. But she is no quitter...never was. She even fought for a loser like Prashant because she considered him her family then...so how could she back away when her love was in so much pain...the pain that she herself had inflicted. So she fought his insecurities, his fears, his demons..."I lied to you Yashji, not once but many times. I lied to uphold the vow of silence that I took for my parents who got me remarried to better mine and Ansh's life. My mother is witness to the pain that I went through while keeping the truth from you...but I had to listen to her when she advised me to wait till our relationship strengthened. Yes, it's true that things started improving between us when you brought me back home after finding me...and I too wanted to come clean with you then. However, another complication arose...Prashant came back, and this time he didn't come alone, but brought with him cancer, a disease that could kill him unless Ansh's bone marrow was not given ...and once again I lied to you...to save a life. Yet amongst all these lies, there was a truth that never once wavered...and that truth is Yashji that I love you...with all my life."
Yash, who was listening to her confession with utmost focus and even surprised hurt at what she went through, fell pray to the weakness of his long-held convictions yet again. He heard the words she uttered confessing her love but the pain of his own hurt deafened him to the sounds of sincerity that accompanied those words. She shouted love...he heard betrayal. Yash was baffled, scared, and lonely...With tears streaming down his eyes he shouted, "Lies...all lies...How can you profess you love me when you cannot even trust me. Our relationship is an empty shell, Aartiji...devoid of trust. And a marriage without trust is no marriage...Our remarriage was a sham...it did not succeed...I lost, Aartiji...I lost." Aarti saw her man take the fall and give up...that's when she rose to the occasion by saying..."No, you didn't lose...I did. I did because I couldn't muster enough courage to tell you the truth. I know I have erred...so punish me...I'll take any punishment you choose to give me."...Yash is a broken man by then, but even in his broken state, he cannot see a broken Aarti and still is aware of her precarious health condition, so he turns around and tries to be magnanimous in his hurt...or maybe because his pride took a dent...whatever, but he speaks words born out of misplaced conviction and simmering hurt and anger...words that he thinks will release her, but which in fact punish her into realizing the extent of damage her silence has caused...She retaliates in frustration and agony..."Go back...to the man who abandoned me and my child when we needed him the most? The man who didn't turn back to see even once whether his parents, wife, and child lived or died? You want me to go back to him? Forget about going back...put a hand on your heart and tell me that it won't matter to you if I did...it won't matter to you to see me with another man...it won't matter to you to see your son, who considers you his hero, call someone else papa. Yes, I admit I once loved that man...but now God is my witness that you are the only one in my life...you are my life. I will accept and bear all your anger...all your hatred, but I refuse to stay away from you. Don't ever say such words asking me to go away. I shall prove to you that you are the only one." With that she starts praying to the Goddess. Yash who had turned away in anguish and tortuous grief now turned to see her pure form...see her give herself up to the will of God...see her trust in the Almighty...the very trust he accused her of lacking not few minutes back. The sudden cool breeze soothes his nerves as he witnesses a miracle in the temple...the Goddess mother blesses her daughter by covering her with red veil...the red ghunghat...a symbol of a married woman. This was ma's shagun to the daughter who prayed to her in sorrow and happiness both. Aarti accepts the blessing with reverence and lifts her pleading eyes to her husband, who still harbors resentment for being lied to and so turns away yet again.
It's ironical how both the men in her life decided whom she should stay with almost at the same time...yet the Goddess blesses her choice. Yash needs to rise above his pain and his sorrow and look beyond the self-created barrier of vanity and false righteousness. If he truly loves her, he will cross these barriers and pull her to him...albeit with anger, which is justified. He loses if he lets her go...he wins if he clears his vision from the haze of distrust and anger and ego and accepts her. "After all Yash, who are you to put a question mark where the Goddess has put a period...a full stop!!!"
Aside:
Well, the rains had to cascade before the rainbow appeared. They say there is no failure except in no longer trying, there is no defeat except from within, and there is no insurmountable barrier save our own inherent weakness of purpose. Aarti cannot be faulted for any of these. Today's episode was all about that inner strength of a woman that comes to the fore when chips are down and her man has given up on the relationship before even beginning the fight. She then has the tenacity to reach down in the deep recesses of her heart and find the strength that will give her the courage to fight for both, till her man recognizes the strength of their love.
If you could see inside my head...if thoughts were things to see...you would know how I cherish you...how much you mean to me.
Well, who said marriage...even the one between soul mates...is a simple love affair. It is actually an ordeal...and the ordeal being having the vision to sacrifice ego and self-pity to a relationship in which two have become one. Abandonment and betrayal are side effects of distrust in a bonding...and when these two feelings arise within a soul mate they do not last...Why? Because soon enough...and especially with the resilience of one partner who is willing to go all the way...the two achieve an ultimate level of symbiosis and serenity with each other...Once that happens, it lasts forever.
Aarti's biggest virtue is her never-say-die attitude. From a life that took away everything once when it made her an orphan, she learnt to value relationships and value them deeply...fight for them. This fierce sense of loyalty might be misplaced at times, but is also something that makes the core essence of the beautiful person that Aarti is. To the one who doesn't know her she seems complex, but to the one who does, there is no simpler human being. Today she bared her life in front of the man who has come to embody her life...in front of whom all the past and present relationships take a back seat. She could fight the world as long as Yashji was facing her...but her world came crashing down when he turned his back to her. But she is no quitter...never was. She even fought for a loser like Prashant because she considered him her family then...so how could she back away when her love was in so much pain...the pain that she herself had inflicted. So she fought his insecurities, his fears, his demons..."I lied to you Yashji, not once but many times. I lied to uphold the vow of silence that I took for my parents who got me remarried to better mine and Ansh's life. My mother is witness to the pain that I went through while keeping the truth from you...but I had to listen to her when she advised me to wait till our relationship strengthened. Yes, it's true that things started improving between us when you brought me back home after finding me...and I too wanted to come clean with you then. However, another complication arose...Prashant came back, and this time he didn't come alone, but brought with him cancer, a disease that could kill him unless Ansh's bone marrow was not given ...and once again I lied to you...to save a life. Yet amongst all these lies, there was a truth that never once wavered...and that truth is Yashji that I love you...with all my life."
Yash, who was listening to her confession with utmost focus and even surprised hurt at what she went through, fell pray to the weakness of his long-held convictions yet again. He heard the words she uttered confessing her love but the pain of his own hurt deafened him to the sounds of sincerity that accompanied those words. She shouted love...he heard betrayal. Yash was baffled, scared, and lonely...With tears streaming down his eyes he shouted, "Lies...all lies...How can you profess you love me when you cannot even trust me. Our relationship is an empty shell, Aartiji...devoid of trust. And a marriage without trust is no marriage...Our remarriage was a sham...it did not succeed...I lost, Aartiji...I lost." Aarti saw her man take the fall and give up...that's when she rose to the occasion by saying..."No, you didn't lose...I did. I did because I couldn't muster enough courage to tell you the truth. I know I have erred...so punish me...I'll take any punishment you choose to give me."...Yash is a broken man by then, but even in his broken state, he cannot see a broken Aarti and still is aware of her precarious health condition, so he turns around and tries to be magnanimous in his hurt...or maybe because his pride took a dent...whatever, but he speaks words born out of misplaced conviction and simmering hurt and anger...words that he thinks will release her, but which in fact punish her into realizing the extent of damage her silence has caused...She retaliates in frustration and agony..."Go back...to the man who abandoned me and my child when we needed him the most? The man who didn't turn back to see even once whether his parents, wife, and child lived or died? You want me to go back to him? Forget about going back...put a hand on your heart and tell me that it won't matter to you if I did...it won't matter to you to see me with another man...it won't matter to you to see your son, who considers you his hero, call someone else papa. Yes, I admit I once loved that man...but now God is my witness that you are the only one in my life...you are my life. I will accept and bear all your anger...all your hatred, but I refuse to stay away from you. Don't ever say such words asking me to go away. I shall prove to you that you are the only one." With that she starts praying to the Goddess. Yash who had turned away in anguish and tortuous grief now turned to see her pure form...see her give herself up to the will of God...see her trust in the Almighty...the very trust he accused her of lacking not few minutes back. The sudden cool breeze soothes his nerves as he witnesses a miracle in the temple...the Goddess mother blesses her daughter by covering her with red veil...the red ghunghat...a symbol of a married woman. This was ma's shagun to the daughter who prayed to her in sorrow and happiness both. Aarti accepts the blessing with reverence and lifts her pleading eyes to her husband, who still harbors resentment for being lied to and so turns away yet again.
It's ironical how both the men in her life decided whom she should stay with almost at the same time...yet the Goddess blesses her choice. Yash needs to rise above his pain and his sorrow and look beyond the self-created barrier of vanity and false righteousness. If he truly loves her, he will cross these barriers and pull her to him...albeit with anger, which is justified. He loses if he lets her go...he wins if he clears his vision from the haze of distrust and anger and ego and accepts her. "After all Yash, who are you to put a question mark where the Goddess has put a period...a full stop!!!"
Aside:
- Thank God for small mercies...at last the CVs clear where Prashant is coming from and where he is going. Now having regained his life, his arrogance and selfishness is taking over...and egged on by a foolish ally is thinking of plucking the moon from the sky...as if the sky in which she now resides will even let him near her, let alone try to eclipse her being. "Keep dreaming Prashant...take as many shagun ka dupattas for her as you want, you can do nothing as Aarti has already been blessed. A man who disrespects his own mother doesn't deserve any woman in his life...you are doomed to the loneliness of your own making."
