SidNaaz Unlimited cc 81 ~~~ Beautiful journey - Page 77

I am conflicted and torn.. I can't decide whether i want to hear her talk about him or not..

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It's one of those dull pains that will not fade with time. Every time I see Shehnaz' smile, I think of how that smile of hers had been a little different earlier. Every time I see her in a new look, I find myself asking would Sidharth not have loved it? And this goes on... Anyway I hope Sidharth is content and peaceful with his journey...

Originally posted by: Uma2010

It's one of those dull pains that will not fade with time. Every time I see Shehnaz' smile, I think of how that smile of hers had been a little different earlier. Every time I see her in a new look, I find myself asking would Sidharth not have loved it? And this goes on... Anyway I hope Sidharth is content and peaceful with his journey...

Also We all always believed we there was something surreal about the sidnaaz bond.... It was a cosmic play we all were witnessing . Whenever I see shehnaaz or sid's mom, I get a strange feel that that Cosmic play is not yet over..... We felt the joy ..... we are all feeling the pain ..... It has changed all of us in some way .... for life. And I feel the play is still on...... Its not over .

So lets just surrender . Lets stop Questioning .... Its the almighty we are questioning . Lets just concentrate on ourselves and feel the change the pain is trying to bring about. There is some purpose of the pain for all of us. Try and understand that . Maybe it will help a bit !!!

social media ko dekho tou lagta hi nahi k kuch badla hai.. everything is just the same despite the huge loss..

If only i had disconnected from Sid when BB ended like usual, I wouldnt have had to face this crushing pain.. I would have continued to live in ignorance💔

Originally posted by: Meenakshi-rg

Yes . Even I have accepted that we have to live with the pain. I have convinced myself that we all together are paying back our karma. In my head I imagine a stadium full of people cheering those cruel , in human Gladiator fights and myself cheering it as part of audience ..... Or something similar. We all are paying back that karma through this pain. A single person impacted so many , left so many in pain .... We all were together in this in some lifetime ...

Also We all always believed we there was something surreal about the sidnaaz bond.... It was a cosmic play we all were witnessing . Whenever I see shehnaaz or sid's mom, I get a strange feel that that Cosmic play is not yet over..... We felt the joy ..... we are all feeling the pain ..... It has changed all of us in some way .... for life. And I feel the play is still on...... Its not over .

So lets just surrender . Lets stop Questioning .... Its the almighty we are questioning . Lets just concentrate on ourselves and feel the change the pain is trying to bring about. There is some purpose of the pain for all of us. Try and understand that . Maybe it will help a bit !!!

The gladiator analogy is extremely interesting. Had never thought earlier in those terms, but I think it is probable, considering the breadth of impact. Or maybe a public mockery of some sort is quite likely too, where all were party and the emotional impact was equivalent to demise.

Regards the questioning, I don’t think I will ever stop questioning. I still question some deaths of loved ones in my family that happened decades back. It’s just a natural response to the love we continue to harbour for them.

As for ourselves, those who recognized Sidnaaz, and realised Sidharth’s spiritual strength (and Shehnaaz’ too though she was never vocal), have been on spiritual journeys ourselves, and this was yet another one of those revelations of maya before us. The journey continues.

Hopefully haven’t committed much nonsense this birth knowingly or unknowingly to warrant similar experiences in the coming lifetimes.

Saw this today and had to post it here... can well imagine Sidharth enjoying the view... ❤️

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Hi Everyone,

Hope you are all doing well.. I had written about my Sidnaaz journey and how I came across this forum. I have read so many of your views from these pages that I feel a connection with some of you here, the same thoughts and vibes.

I had disconnected myself from SM and tried to avoid all things Sidnaaz after Shehnaaz's tribute in BB15 finale. However, they never left my thoughts. There is not a day which hasn't gone by when despite my disassociation that I haven't thought of Siddharth & Shehnaaz, his mom & his sisters. And I am surprised at this deep connection with them. Like family. I have lost so many close family members this past year yet Siddharth's loss seems very personal.

I have spent questioning the same myself. Trying to understand the soul connections, the energy, the vibes. And like what Meenakshi said - I also feel the cosmic play and yes I don't think its all over. Perhaps it is our own spiritual connection that bought us closer to them and the surreal journey we witnessed.

Despite trying to stay away from anything triggering for my own mental health well being, I couldn't take away the dull pain. A memory, a song again triggered brought back the pain to the forefront. Which brought me back to these pages.

The irony of Channa Meraya hits a different level now. Each of the words has such a deep different meaning now and whenever I see Shehnaaz shine now - this line "Andhera tera meine leliya, mera ujjala sitara tere naam kiya" hits home.

kisse hamaare, nazdeekiyon ke

kam to nahi hain

I mean really why did they ever perform on this song!!!

He has truly turned into a shining star lighting up her path.... and bringing so many like me to connect with them so deeply after Sept 2nd.

And he singing Tu Jaane Na and dwelling deeply on these lines:

Milake Bhi Hum Na Mile

Tumse Na Jaane Kyun

Anjaane Hai Silsile

Tumse Na Jaane Kyun

If this isn't some cosmic play what is.... just unable to understand the why though and how we are all connected in this...

A big hug is all we have to offer u, welcome to SidNaaz Family.

It is so strange…it will be a year to the “day”…but dukh aaj bhi hain… I always commend myself in being practical…but I fail to understand how a person’s passing…whom I saw only on TV has affected me so…

For the past many months i had resolutely been keeping away from anything related to Sid and Sana.. I just wanted to pretend i know nothing.. and I was almost successful in what i thought was moving on.

but as the year is about to complete, the coming date is just giving me weird thoughts.. I wish i could forget what happened on that date

and then pata nahi how I saw a few clips and pics of Sana and something just pinched.. Of course I don't want to see her mourning.. she is a young girl who deserves happiness and I should be happy that she has moved on.. But I can't be happy.. every time I see all these people including Sana going on about their lives, something just breaks

and it breaks me all the more when I think about his mother considering she is the only one who will never be able to move on

I know I am being unfair to Sana but I can't help it.. hearing her talk about her marriage or even rumors of her linkups, true or not just makes my heart clench... maybe because I saw her happy pics when the day is so near that I feel just. I don't know.. Let down for the lack of a better word?

I understand I don't know how she feels or how she's coping.. I don't know what she's going through or how she came out of it all... But still i can't help all these negative emotions that are surfacing within me as that dreaded day comes near..

Maybe once the day passes, I will be more open and accepting.. But for now, I can't help but feel resentful

I know this place is inactive for the most part but I really needed to get this off my chest;.. I feel horrible to judge Sana but I can't help it as of now.. Hopefully I will get to a place soon when I will be able to see her move on with a smile on my face