Originally posted by: zehreeli.kheer
For the past many months i had resolutely been keeping away from anything related to Sid and Sana.. I just wanted to pretend i know nothing.. and I was almost successful in what i thought was moving on.
but as the year is about to complete, the coming date is just giving me weird thoughts.. I wish i could forget what happened on that date
and then pata nahi how I saw a few clips and pics of Sana and something just pinched.. Of course I don't want to see her mourning.. she is a young girl who deserves happiness and I should be happy that she has moved on.. But I can't be happy.. every time I see all these people including Sana going on about their lives, something just breaks
and it breaks me all the more when I think about his mother considering she is the only one who will never be able to move on
I know I am being unfair to Sana but I can't help it.. hearing her talk about her marriage or even rumors of her linkups, true or not just makes my heart clench... maybe because I saw her happy pics when the day is so near that I feel just. I don't know.. Let down for the lack of a better word?
I understand I don't know how she feels or how she's coping.. I don't know what she's going through or how she came out of it all... But still i can't help all these negative emotions that are surfacing within me as that dreaded day comes near..
Maybe once the day passes, I will be more open and accepting.. But for now, I can't help but feel resentful
I know this place is inactive for the most part but I really needed to get this off my chest;.. I feel horrible to judge Sana but I can't help it as of now.. Hopefully I will get to a place soon when I will be able to see her move on with a smile on my face