There are moments in life when words are not enough, just superfluous because the emotions go beyond definitions and descriptions!!
Usually this happens when we are overjoyed, ecstatic..but have you noticed even pain cannot be described, only felt!! It's deep, beyond the reach of words!!
Mother, the first line of defense nature and God blesses us with! We actually have a saying that God could not take care of each and every one of us, so he created a Mother. And that's why moms are unique..selfless and at the same time selfish!! When it comes to their kids, their safety, their happiness...a mother can be ruthless!! I knew this was coming cause the only time Jaya was unreasonable with Pallavi was when Raghav was hurt!! And no mother, even a saint, can see her child in pain!! Imagine the anguish of a mother who sees her daughter destroying her life right in front of her eyes. What unbearable helplessness!! A mother would go to any extent, including taking a life, to protect her young one..unfortunately Jaya Rao cannot murder!! She tried talking, persuading, cajoling, explaining, forcing, threatening..every means at her diposal and yet she failed!! How can she forgive Pallavi when she cannot even forgive herself. Her daughter's life is finished..whether be it her own blind stupidity or Pallavi's unintentional mistake..Kirti is effectively destroyed!!
That simple scene will stay with me for a long time, when Pallavi sees her crying alone in her room and wants to comfort her..but dared not...words were not enough and they both knew it!!
And lets talk about another human being subjected to the fires of hell!! He is alive and strong and kicking but has been burning incessantly for years. Fires of regret, remorse, unworthiness, helplessness..and guilt!! If only he could turn back the clock!! Who can?!! Even God will not touch the almighty time!! He failed, so shockingly, so horrifyingly...a mob killed his father, his brother, publicly, widowed his mother and orphaned his sister, who were spectators of this heinous crime..all because of him. It was not his fault but still it was and he knows it!! He will forever carry his Dad and brother's corpses around, wherever he goes...But life smiled for a brief moment and he hoped he was forgiven...Nah..God never forgives the strong!! Fate never spares the tough!!
He failed again!!
He has always tried so hard to be there for the ones he loves, care for them, protect them. Even if they hurt him, insult him, show ingratitude, or be foolish and naive or unappreciative...he takes it in his stride cause he can't stop loving them. Exactly what he told Pallavi today..the ones I love they can kill me but I still won't stop loving them...I can't!! Be it Amma, Pallavi or ...Kirti!!
His biggest responsibility, eventually his biggest failure!! Unlike Amma, Raghav doesn't have just one demon to deal with..he has the brains and acumen to know what Sunny in the family means..a snake in paradise!! Raghav knows Sunny will bring the Raos down and the protector will be helpless. Hence his words yesterday to Pallavi..you gave him on a platter what he always wanted..his marriage to Kirti..sealed the deal!! The Bond which was unbreakable!! And the way the jerk blackmailed Raghav this mornong effectively proves that Raghav was right all along. Coming back to Raghav and his demons, the other demon of agony, the emotions of a brother when he sees his sister being trapped and he stands there like a dumb witness!! One more corpse to carry around...He has said what he wanted to say..no more words are needed, he has no language left in him to express his emotions..exhausted and drained..not angry or furious!!
For those who question him..his biggest failure was brought by..jiss se main sabse zyada pyaar karta hoon..not tha..hoon!!
And last but never the least, the one who also never had the luxury of words to express her feelings and neither an ear that would bother to listen. She never had words, cause she never expressed..she just lived, did her best, accepting and making the best of whatever life, fate, family threw at her. She was so busy coping, surviving..she had nothing to say..ever!! But then things changed, he was there!! Listening, responding, caring, sharing and suddenly she found her voice!! She was still struggling with expressions, cause words never came easy to her, especially words of love. And now..she is silent again!! Just like Raghav ..innocent yet guilty..knowing that she did no wrong and yet aware that her crime was unforgivable!! She will carry the burden of destroying a life..and may be a lot more as the future unfolds..on her blameless shoulders!! What can she say in her defense when she knows that her wrong cannot be righted!! And the biggest irony, she understands why he won't talk. She feels his pain, feels the heat of the fires that burn him, feels his exhaustion more than her tiredness!! She wants him to talk but knows that he has nothing left to say!!
It would have been so easy if only Raghav was furious, if only Pallavi was defensive, and Amma, a typical matriarch..but no...they are just humans, who are in so much pain ..that words are not enough!!
Let the silences reign for some time..till they find their peace..till they brace themselves and gather their courage to stand up again!! After all relationships and emotions can be felt in silences too!! Why waste words when they cannot fill the gaps or bridge the distances!!
Kudos to cvs for showing such sensitivity...enjoying this show again after a long time!!
P.S..I hate to say this but absolutely loving Sunny 😡
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