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Os: Not The Devil
As I drove down the empty lanes, The clouds roared, lightening struck hard and it poured down heavily. However the fire within me didn't extinguish. In fact the flames of anger rose higher and higher.
Everything was finished.
Tanya had called off the engagement. Apparently she had seen me with dhani in the temple when I was trying to revive her. She believed that I was sharing a cozy moment with dhani. Really? That's what she thought of me. She threw the engagement ring on my face just as I had thrown it in the river in frustration. Deep down I knew this relationship wouldn't last long. It had no future. My heart was not in it. Sooner or later it would have ended. However I didn't expect it to end like this. On such a ugly note! Where she wouldn't give me a chance to explain myself. She accused me of having an affair with dhani? How ridiculous. We had been friends for so many years and we knew each other quite well. Yes I flirted with girls and had I been in her place on seeing a picture like that probably I would have also freaked out but still did I appear to her so desperate that I would make out in a temple with a girl in an unconscious state! Could I stoop so low? Today not just our engagement broke off but I also lost a very dear friend in her. A friend who I thought trusted and understood me a little more.
But why was I disappointed with her when my own family refused to believe my side of story. They trusted some random pictures but not their own son. And just what was there in those damn pictures, couldn't they see that I was trying to save dhani? Didn't they notice how worried I was or did it really appear that I was having fun with dhani? I was their son, they had raised me, showered me with their love then how could they not believe me and believe in their parenting? Before pointing fingers at me, before hurling accusations at me did they think who was the one taking pictures of me and dhani? What was he doing there and what were his intentions? I so badly wanted to grab that man with his neck and strangle him.
It really shattered my heart to see my family distrust me. First they fixed my engagement without consulting me and later refused to believe me. All they cared was about their reputation and firmly believed that I had ruined it. Nobody stood up for me. Nobody supported me. Today I lost my friend and my family.
I didn't know why my jeep turned toward the ashram. The doors were shut but the accusations of dhani still echoed in my ears. Like others she too thought that I had taken advantage of her unconscious state. From day one she misjudged and distrusted me and I couldn't blame her. My childish pranks had given her enough reasons to get mad at me. However later I had apologised to her and that apology had been earnest and heartfelt. She called me a devil and since then I tried my best to change her opinion about me. Whatever the situation be I always attempted to help her out. I didn't know why it bothered me so much that she thought low of me, that she misunderstood me. I was mischievous but I wasn't bad. I was good at heart and wished that she saw that side of me but she didn't. I never wanted to trouble her on the contrary wanted to save her from all the troubles but unfortunately always ended up being the reason behind her miseries.
But today trust me dhani I didn't play a prank on you.
I was only concerned about saving her life. She had no idea how much I panicked on seeing her unconscious. She wasn't waking up and all my efforts were going waste. She was drenched and shivering, the only thing running in my mind at that point of time was to save her. And I did what I thought was right. I admit my means could be questionable but my intentions couldn't be. They were noble.
She thought all this while I was after her because I wanted to get physical with her? Really did I lust for her body? Even the mere thought made me cringe. She saw lust in my eyes and not concern and not relief when she gained consciousness! She was on the verge of dying and with her I was dying every passing second. She failed to see that. The tears in her eyes and her accusing gaze pierced through my heart.
I slammed my hand on the car wheel. Yes I desired to bring happiness and colors in her life but not by disgracing or embarrassing her. And why would I do something so disgusting with her? And after doing something like that would I stay back and wait for her to wake up? Wouldn't I just run away from the scene instead wait to face her wrath and insult?
Clenching my jaws I got off the jeep and admitted that I had made some blunder mistakes in the past but today only she mattered to me. I wasn't thinking anything beyond her. And she had to agree with that. She had to listen to me. She had to give me a second chance. Tonight I wasn't the devil. She had to believe that.
I raised my hand to knock at the door and the heart that were shut for me.
Everything was finished.
Tanya had called off the engagement. Apparently she had seen me with dhani in the temple when I was trying to revive her. She believed that I was sharing a cozy moment with dhani. Really? That's what she thought of me. She threw the engagement ring on my face just as I had thrown it in the river in frustration. Deep down I knew this relationship wouldn't last long. It had no future. My heart was not in it. Sooner or later it would have ended. However I didn't expect it to end like this. On such a ugly note! Where she wouldn't give me a chance to explain myself. She accused me of having an affair with dhani? How ridiculous. We had been friends for so many years and we knew each other quite well. Yes I flirted with girls and had I been in her place on seeing a picture like that probably I would have also freaked out but still did I appear to her so desperate that I would make out in a temple with a girl in an unconscious state! Could I stoop so low? Today not just our engagement broke off but I also lost a very dear friend in her. A friend who I thought trusted and understood me a little more.
But why was I disappointed with her when my own family refused to believe my side of story. They trusted some random pictures but not their own son. And just what was there in those damn pictures, couldn't they see that I was trying to save dhani? Didn't they notice how worried I was or did it really appear that I was having fun with dhani? I was their son, they had raised me, showered me with their love then how could they not believe me and believe in their parenting? Before pointing fingers at me, before hurling accusations at me did they think who was the one taking pictures of me and dhani? What was he doing there and what were his intentions? I so badly wanted to grab that man with his neck and strangle him.
It really shattered my heart to see my family distrust me. First they fixed my engagement without consulting me and later refused to believe me. All they cared was about their reputation and firmly believed that I had ruined it. Nobody stood up for me. Nobody supported me. Today I lost my friend and my family.
I didn't know why my jeep turned toward the ashram. The doors were shut but the accusations of dhani still echoed in my ears. Like others she too thought that I had taken advantage of her unconscious state. From day one she misjudged and distrusted me and I couldn't blame her. My childish pranks had given her enough reasons to get mad at me. However later I had apologised to her and that apology had been earnest and heartfelt. She called me a devil and since then I tried my best to change her opinion about me. Whatever the situation be I always attempted to help her out. I didn't know why it bothered me so much that she thought low of me, that she misunderstood me. I was mischievous but I wasn't bad. I was good at heart and wished that she saw that side of me but she didn't. I never wanted to trouble her on the contrary wanted to save her from all the troubles but unfortunately always ended up being the reason behind her miseries.
But today trust me dhani I didn't play a prank on you.
I was only concerned about saving her life. She had no idea how much I panicked on seeing her unconscious. She wasn't waking up and all my efforts were going waste. She was drenched and shivering, the only thing running in my mind at that point of time was to save her. And I did what I thought was right. I admit my means could be questionable but my intentions couldn't be. They were noble.
She thought all this while I was after her because I wanted to get physical with her? Really did I lust for her body? Even the mere thought made me cringe. She saw lust in my eyes and not concern and not relief when she gained consciousness! She was on the verge of dying and with her I was dying every passing second. She failed to see that. The tears in her eyes and her accusing gaze pierced through my heart.
I slammed my hand on the car wheel. Yes I desired to bring happiness and colors in her life but not by disgracing or embarrassing her. And why would I do something so disgusting with her? And after doing something like that would I stay back and wait for her to wake up? Wouldn't I just run away from the scene instead wait to face her wrath and insult?
Clenching my jaws I got off the jeep and admitted that I had made some blunder mistakes in the past but today only she mattered to me. I wasn't thinking anything beyond her. And she had to agree with that. She had to listen to me. She had to give me a second chance. Tonight I wasn't the devil. She had to believe that.
I raised my hand to knock at the door and the heart that were shut for me.
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Rose
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