SS/FF:The mighty falls!!!In Love!! note pg 139 - Page 43

BUT NOTHING. U ONLY CONFIRMED MY BELIEF IN HOW FICKLE MEN ARE. I WAITED ARNAV BUT U DID NOT SO MUCH AS TRY TO CONTACT ME.

So what the heck'.there was someone who wasn't repulsed of my company so why cudn't I enjoy'who enjoyed my company and wasn't averse to ..spending time with me'who was not turned off my me'who wanted me'..

"SHUT UP KHUSHI, DON'T U DARE GO THAT LANE'I DON'T THINK I CAN '.WHAT THE HECK'"

Arnav turned, pulled khushi hard, hitting his chest and kissed her. He speared his fingers through her silky hair and cupped her neck. He wasted no time with preliminary get to know you pecks and instead plunged into her mouth.

The stiffness drained from her spine and she kissed him back '.

U stimulate my entire personality, u make me think, u keep me alive'.u interest me'not for those looks, but it's YOU that kindles excitement in me.

If it was mere sex that I wanted, I would have had it long back Khushi, and even u know the way we crackle, we wouldn't have been able to stop.

Even now baby, we are both helpless and if we want to take this ahead, we can and there is nothing stopping us'neither u nor me'but STOP we will, khushi, coz satisfying my baser need is not what I am seeking here. I am seeking ur trust here. I am seeking the same involvement from u, the one that I have given.

I do not know how far we will go together khushi, but we won't be able to walk even a small distance if there is no trust and confidence in the other person.

What is stopping u Khushi, why can't u take a step ahead ? why can't u tell me what are u feeling, why can't u share ur fears with me Khushi. when have I ever given u the reason that being physical is the only thing I want from you.

Khushi was having trouble in framing any sentence. She was beside herself. How did the combusting atmosphere change so quickly. How did things pacify so easily? How did Arnav do this. How did he bring the most passionate and the most gullible girl out of her in a blink of an eye. One moment she wanted to do nothing but be in his arms and spend the moment. The next she wanted to tear his hair and rip him for the subtle torture he was making her suffer. How was he so immensely attuned to her. How was he able to read her. He had ingrained himself in her. But what scared Khushi was that if he started reading her mind, then she didn't stand a chance against him. Her heart didn't stand a chance.

She couldn't let him control her mind. "How do u know this is fear Arnav and not dislike. ?"

U are trying to be the lawyer with me Khushi, U might have the degree, but I have the experience in the mind game that I play every day in my boardroom khushi. don't for once think I don't know what u are trying to do. Now to answer ur question, We have spent almost 3 months in each other's company Khushi, toppling over each other. This cannot be dislike, coz so far as I have known u, u are not that shallow. U have ur principles and u won't compromise them, having said that, I have ur permission to cross all the barriers and make u mine. U as a principle wouldn't give a guy that right in case u disliked him Khushi.

"What has that got to do with'?" khushi interrupted him denying his claim, but before she could complete her statement, Arnav shut her up, he put his fingers on her lips shutting her up

"shhh khushi, now is not the time for baseless banters., so I was saying its not dislike, so what else, it's the fear. Even I was scared khushi, the moment I realized the extent to which u had ingrained urself in me. And I agree u affect me, have always done. I took control of my fears to give a chance to US. To see where we are going so why can't u khushi, couldn't u see beyond the rich playboy image. I have never been a rich play boy to you and u know it. So it has to be the hearsay. U are intelligent enuf to see beyond what the paparazzi say Khushi. then what's stopping u khushi. why can't u trust me girl.

Trust, u are talking about trust Arnav, "is this trust, u came barging into my house without my permission and accused me of sleeping with Astitva. U call this trust that u have in me. U thought me capable of sleeping with him, when we agreed that we would give each other time. U call it faith, the confidence u have in me, when u don't call me for a week and I see u spending ur busy time arm in arm with ur old flame. U said I shud have come and spoken to u, questioned u, but with what right Arnav. How would I know I had any right to do so, I never dated men as much in demand as you or I never dated men as combustible as you period. The way u left me at the door the other night, did it not occur to u I had accepted that u rejected me. That even I did not have it in me to hold on to a man. U kept flirting with me. U kept sending signals, which I dare not believe, but I took the risk arnav, I let u talk me into getting to know you, letting u bare my barriers. But ur night with Tanya, pushed them all up. I had to put my shields on to protect myself. I cant be in the line of fire of the heart ache or break. Sorry'" Khushi now had tears in her eyes. She didn't know what made her say all those things to Arnav. She had as good as told him her feelings, not in so many words, but definitely that he mattered to her.

"Shhh, khuhsi," Arnav came and took her in her arms trying to calm her. He rubbed her back and asked her to stop crying. Khushi babe, had it not been the trust in you, I wouldn't have been here. had it not been for the confidence that I have in ur morality I wudnt have been here khushi. U think I wasn't scared, u think I didn't fear that u in ur fickle minded ness just to spite me didn't make any foolish decision. Unlike you I was ready to risk a rejection and question u, I AM ready to fight for my rights, fight for us. For all I know even u never gave me any rights on u willingly, but I assumed them, coz I want to khushi. coz I am sure of my feelings. Babes cant u even recognize a pure simple jealousy. When I saw that pic of urs in the newspaper with Viren's Bro I saw red. Did u even that picture. Even a blind would say that the guy is smitten with you. And the was u were holding on to his arm'.trust me its good that astitva was not there, else I would have done some physical harm to him. And am generally not a violent man Khushi, u bring my worst out and my best too. When I can envy the plain pure relationship that u share with Aman, then Astitva near u has to be a killer Khushi, u cannot even blame me on that. See its so easy to own up to the feelings then why cant u acknowledge khushi. why cant u own up to ur feelings and acknowledge, that even I affect u. that even u feel this connection. why don't u let me in there Khushi", he touched his finger to her heart, "let me knowthat fear of urs and let me help u." why cant u'.?"

"DON'T, Don't u dare Pity me Arnav. I don't need ur help or ur sympathy. U don't need to spend ur precious time trying to help me out of my misery. I was a better person even before u came barging into it. So please keep ur help to urself" said khushi disgustingly.

Arnav lost his cool, I DON'T BELIEVE THIS. HAVE U EVEN BEEN LISTENING TO WHAT I HAVE SAID SO FAR.?

I OPENED MY HEART TO U HERE KHUSHI KUMARI GUPTA, WITH ALL THIS ANGER FRUSTRATION KISSES, JEALOUSY, AND GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH MORE EMOITON THAT I HAVE LAID AT UR FEET I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SAY I LOVE YOU DAMN U, AND ALL U COULD COMPREHEND WAS THAT I PITY U. I AGREE U ARE A BETTER PERSON, BUT DAMN U KHUSHI, U ARE NOT A COMPLETE PERSON. TILL THE TIME U DO NOT GET OVER THAT FEAR OF URS U WONT EVER BE. WHEN I SAID I WANTED TO HELP, I WANT TO HELP U BECOME COMPLETE, LIKE THE WAY I FEEL WHEN AM IN YOUR COMPANY.

But sadly khushi u seem to like the company of ur apprehensions, ur fear. U prefer them as ur life partner, more than me. U trust them to be ur true companion for ur life, than u do me. And trust me babes, I am done fighting with them. I surrender to that superior fear of urs'I can't win that, unless u meet me half way and u ain't wanting to do that.

Even I am commitment phobic khushi, but I surely am not getting into this relationship with an expiry date.

So let's not waste each other's time anymore. I would bid u adieu here khushi. wish u all the best in ur life.

Arnav straightened his spine. Dejection evident in his stance.

"Seduce my mind and u can have my body''. Remember this line Khushi, I so wanted to complete this

"Seduce my mind and u can have my body''

Find my soul and u can have me forever'.." But'.

I wish I was the one to complete you but that's not to be. Stay happy khushi. god bless u.

He Gave her one final look and turned to go out of the house.

Yeah so now u can curse me for the precap i gave ydy...but sone na diya need not necessarily be with gutter in mind guys