ArHi FanFic - The Court of Nawab Malik - Ch02 Posted 02/06

The Court of Nawab Malik

"Some people, like certain verses, must be read in chapters."

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Set in the court of 18th century Lucknow, a slow burn romance between a merchant's daughter and a nawab who had been waiting for her, without knowing, for fifteen years.

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Dear Reader,

Perhaps I arrive bearing this tale a little later than intended and yet here I am, pen in hand, hoping it finds the right hearts nonetheless.

If you are someone who delights in the art of historical fiction, and if the names Arnav and Khushi mean something to you, then consider this your formal invitation. Step beyond the threshold, into the court, and allow their story to unfold before you.

The tale has been written in its entirety. However, should any part of it move you, stir something within you, or simply leave you wanting more, I would be honoured to hear your thoughts.

Yours,

Mistlefoe

INDEX

PROLOGUE

CHAPTER 01 - THE DECREE

CHAPTER 02 - A MERE WOMAN

Prologue

The mango tree had been old before anyone in the haveli was born.

It stood at the far end of the eastern courtyard, past the marble fountain that no longer ran, past the row of terracotta pots where the gardener grew tulsi and forgot to water it. Its roots had pushed up the stone around them over decades, cracking the courtyard floor into a map of some country no one had named yet. In summer it bore fruit that fell without warning — a soft, dense thud against the ground, and then the wasps would find it before anyone else could. The cook said the tree was a spirit. The gardener said it was simply old. The boy who sometimes sat beneath it said nothing, because he was nine and had already learned that silence was the safest kind of speech.

His name does not matter yet. What matters is this: it was the month of Jeth, when Lucknow wore its heat like a second skin, and the air smelled of jasmine going brown at the edges and somewhere, always, of itr, the attar of roses that the city exhaled through every door and window and passing sleeve, as though Lucknow itself had been soaked in it at birth and never quite dried. The boy sat with his back against the mango tree’s bark, a small Urdu primer open on his knees, not reading it. He was watching the light.

It came through the leaves in coins. It moved when the leaves moved. He had been watching it for the better part of an hour, which is a very long time when you are nine, long enough for the world to become simple again after whatever had happened that morning in his father’s chambers. The raised voices, the particular silence that followed raised voices, the way a room could be emptied of everything warm in an instant. He had learned to come here. The tree was indifferent to him in a way that felt mostly kind.

He did not hear her arrive.

She was simply there, suddenly and all at once, he has been staring at the light too long and when his vision adjusted, and she existed. A girl, perhaps five or six, standing at the edge of the courtyard in a yellow salwar kameez already dusty at the hem. Her hair was braided but coming loose, one ribbon untied, trailing. She had clearly been running, or trying to, the uneven flagstones making it difficult. She stopped when she saw she was not alone.

They looked at each other.

He did not know her. She was not from this part of the haveli, he would have recognized her if she were. She might have been the daughter of a visiting merchant’s household, or a servant’s child who had wandered past where she ought to be. She had the look of a child who ran wild without rules and without anyone telling her to be otherwise, eyes that moved over their surroundings with curiosity rather than caution.

Then, from somewhere beyond the garden wall, a musician began to play.

It was faint sound. A sarangi, or perhaps a bansuri, the kind of music that existed in the cracks between other sounds in this city, the way Lucknow was always holding some melody underneath its noise, waiting. Just a few bars. An evening raga played too early in the afternoon.

The girl lifted her face toward it.

And then, without preamble, without any self-consciousness, without looking again at the boy beneath the tree, she began to move. Not fully, for she was too young for full movement, too small for the vocabulary her body seemed to half-know but her little hands rose, and her feet shifted, and her head tilted with a precision that was not learned and not yet art but was, unmistakably, the seed of both. Her eyes were closed. The dusty hem swung. The untied ribbon trailed. She turned once, twice, slow, as though the music was carrying her rather than she performing to it.

The boy did not breathe.

He had seen dancing before, the mujra performed at court occasions, the ritual movement at temple celebrations he was taken to once a year. He had watched it from a careful distance, evaluating. This was different. This was a child who had heard three bars of afternoon music through a garden wall and had had no choice. He understood, in the wordless way children sometimes understand enormous things, that she was not performing. She was answering.

The music stopped.

She stopped with it. Opened her eyes. Looked around with the mild, unsurprised air of someone returning from a short journey.

She looked at the boy again, directly, without a hint of shyness, no hands clasped behind her back, head unbowed, and he looked back. He had the unsettling sensation that she had always known he was there, that his watching had not been secret at all, that she simply had not minded.

A flock of doves cried from somewhere beyond the far wall, the white wings flapped in the wind.

The girl looked toward the sound before she turned and walked away through the courtyard gate, ribbon trailing, and was gone.

The boy sat under the mango tree for a long time after. The coins of light moved across his open primer. The jasmine turned browner in the heat.

He never asked who she was.

And she forgot him.

The city closed around them both, and went on being Lucknow, which is to say, layered, and slow, and full of things that take years to understand, and older than anyone who has ever lived in it, and patient, so endlessly patient, in the way that only places that have outlasted every love ever made within them know how to be.

Somewhere, a bell rang once.

The mango tree held its fruit.

The story had not started yet.

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CHAPTER 01 - THE DECREE

The durbar had been assembled since dawn, and it was now past nine, and Arnav Malik had not yet sat down.

He stood at the arched window of the upper corridor instead, looking down at the courtyard where the viziers arranged in their careful hierarchy, the clerks with their scrolls, the petitioners who had traveled from God knew where and would wait God knew how long. They fanned themselves and murmured. One man had brought a goat, for reasons Arnav had decided not to investigate.

Below, in the far corner of the courtyard, the peacock was eating something it had found near the fountain drain.

Arnav watched it.

“They’ve been waiting forty minutes,” Aman Mirza whispered from behind him.

“I know.”

“Raza Sahib has rearranged his shawl four times.”

“I know that too.”

Aman came to stand beside him. A broad, unhurried man who had known Arnav since they were boys learning swordsmanship in this same courtyard, who will only say something when it becomes necessary.

“There’s a goat,” he begin, scratching his beard.

“Don’t.”

“I was only going to say — “

“Aman.”

Aman was quiet for a few seconds. “Your grandmother sent word again this morning.”

The peacock had finished whatever it was eating and was now walking with great dignity toward the center of the courtyard, where its presence would cause the most disruption to the assembled proceedings. Arnav watched its progress with something adjacent to envy.

“I know what her word says.”

“She’s asked that you receive her before the durbar.” When the Nawab in question remained silent, he started again. “Well, she’s asked that you receive her instead of the durbar.”

Arnav finally turned away from the window. In the corridor’s filtered morning light he looked exactly what he was, a gentleman of twenty-eight who had been a nawab for six years and had learned to wear the thing like armor, the formal white sherwani buttoned to the throat, the bearing that gave nothing away, the particular quality of attention in his eyes that made people feel he was seeing slightly past them, toward something they could not turn around fast enough to catch. “Tell her I’ll come after.”

“And when she asks why you’ve not yet agreed to the proposal?”

He straightened a cuff. “Tell her I was busy watching a goat.”

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Daadi Begum’s quarters were the oldest in the Malik haveli. The rooms that had been her husband’s father’s rooms before they were hers, the ceilings high enough to hold their own weather, the walls hung with kinkhab panels that had gone slightly dim with age but refused, on principle, to look shabby. She sat on a low takht near the window when Arnav entered, her paan box open beside her, her spine as straight as it had been at forty. She was seventy-one years old. She had outlasted a nawab, a famine, three attempted political coups, and every person who had ever told her to rest.

She looked at him in the same way as she always looked at him, as though she had completed an assessment and was now simply waiting for him to arrive at the same conclusion.

“Sit,” she gestured towards the chair.

He sat. The chair he chose was slightly farther than she would have preferred. She noted this and said nothing.

“Good morning, Daadi.”

“I invited you today to discuss the Farooqui proposal,” She began pleasantly.

He accepted tea from the attendant who materialized silently and just as silently vanished. The tea was too sweet, she had always taken her tea too sweet, and she ordered it for visitors the same, as a reminder of who set the terms.

“Have you reviewed the family?” she asked when he drank the tea without a word.

“I’ve reviewed the family.”

“The girl is educated. Cultured.” She nodded. “Her father is a man of standing, if modest means. The match is not — “

“Daadi.”

“— unworthy of the name Malik, as some have whispered. I want that said plainly.”

“I wasn’t thinking of the name Malik.”

She looked at him. “Then what were you thinking of?”

The room held its breath. Outside, somewhere in the women’s quarters, a dove was cooing in irregular bursts, three notes, pause, three notes, as though trying to remember a song.

“I was thinking,” Arnav said, setting down the tea, “that a woman brought into this house deserves to know what she is walking into. Before I agree to anything.”

Daadi Begum was quiet for a moment. When she spoke, her voice was precisely measured, the way her paan was being made, each element calculated, nothing left to chance. “Every house has its history.”

“Our history is not every house’s history.”

She set down her paan box. This was, for Daadi Begum, the equivalent of another person standing up and raising their voice.

“You are the Nawab of Lucknow. Not a poet mourning in a garden. Not a son still standing in his father’s shadow, which I do not dismiss but you are also neither of those things when you sit in that chair and that court looks to you.” She folded her hands in her lap. “A nawab without an heir — “

He looked at her steadily.

She met his gaze and shifted, barely, the adjustment of a woman who has chosen her ground carefully and is choosing her words with equal care. “Even the greatest haveli,” she said quietly, “becomes a ruin the moment it stops being lived in. Stone by stone, it is not the weather that takes it.” She shot him a look. “You have been silent long enough, Arnav. The walls are beginning to listen to other voices.”

He did not stiffen, accustomed to criticism of all kind. “Our legacy will not be erased.”

“Fill the house,” she sighed, “Before someone else decides what it should echo with.”

The silence followed. The kinkhab panels breathed slowly in the draft from the window, their gold threads catching the morning light and releasing it.

“Raza Sahib has a nephew. A young man with pleasant face and absolutely no spine. But a Malik without a successor is an invitation, and Raza Sahib is a man who accepts every invitation he is given.”

“He is nothing more than a nuisance.” Arnav turned the teacup slightly on its saucer, one quarter turn, no more. Daadi Begum watched the movement and recognized it. His father had done the same thing, in this same room, when he was trying not to give ground.

Daadi Begum softened. Barely. Just enough.

“The future does not have to be written the way the past was,” she said, more quietly. “I am asking you to do it differently. That requires — ” she paused — “a different beginning. A woman beside you who is not…” Her words abruptly cut off, the unsaid name of Arnav’s mother moving like a draft under a door. “…what your mother was left to become.”

Outside, the dove had stopped. A peacock called from somewhere beyond the garden wall, a long, colonial, mournful and magnificent sound.

Arnav looked at his grandmother. She had not looked away. She never looked away, it was her one form of mercy, that she made you feel she could bear to see you clearly, even when you could not bear it yourself.

“You said you’d made inquiries,” he said at last. His voice had changed, not softened, exactly, but the register had shifted. He was listening now rather than deflecting. “About the girl.”

Daadi Begum recognized the shift and did not remark on it.

“I did.” She reached for her paan box again, opened it, and began assembling her paan with the focused attention. “Her name is Khushi. Her father, Shafiq Farooqui, is a learned man. He raised her with… a certain freedom of thought. Perhaps more than was wise.” A leaf was folded, a precise triangle. “She reads. Persian, among other languages. She argues with tutors. One apparently resigned.”

The faintest curve of her mouth, gone before it fully arrived.

“She refused a match two years ago,” Daadi Begum continued. “A landlord’s son who was wealthy, dull, the kind of man who would have spent the rest of her life reminding her she should be grateful. She told her father the man had the eyes of someone who had never once been surprised by anything and that she could not spend her life with a person like that.” She placed the folded paan delicately in her cheek. “Her father agreed with her assessment and declined the proposal. Which tells you something about both of them.”

Arnav was quiet. The dove had resumed its three-note loop outside. The morning held itself still as though the city itself had paused to listen.

“She sounds difficult.” he finally said.

“She sounds alive,” Daadi Begum countered. “Which is what I am choosing, for this house. Deliberately.” She looked at him squarely. “I watched what a quiet woman became in these walls, Arnav. I will not do it again.”

There was nothing to answer, so he did not try.

“There is one more thing,” she said, in a tone that meant she had saved it intentionally, for when the listener has run out of arguments. “I am told she dances.”

He looked up with a hint of curiosity in his gaze, probably against his will.

“Classical,” Daadi Begum continued, without inflection. “She was trained, informally, by a woman in Faizabad. A legitimate guru, not — ” a gesture that closed off an entire category of misunderstanding — “she learned in private, because it was not permitted openly for a girl of her standing. She has never performed.” A pause. “Her father permits it, within the house.”

Arnav said nothing. His expression had not changed. This was, Daadi Begum knew, not the same thing as nothing changing.

“It will need to be handled preemptively.” She picked up her leather bound dairy and noted down something. “Such things, in the nawab’s household, well, there are appearances to consider. The court has opinions.”

“The court always has opinions.”

“Yes,” she nodded. “And you are the nawab. Which means you decide which of those opinions matter.” She looked at him steadily. “That is, in fact, the only freedom the chair gives you. I’d suggest using it.”

“The name Shafiq Farooqui is not unfamiliar.”

Daadi Begum’s hands stilled briefly.

“You know about the business arrangement,” he said. It was not a question.

“I know.”

“He kept the letters,” Arnav placed the tea on the table. “My father’s vakeel told me, after the estate was settled. Shafiq Farooqui wrote three times and received no reply.” He paused. “I wish to know, if we were to approach this family, whether the silence will stand between us.”

Daadi Begum regarded her grandson carefully. She has been surprised and was not going to show it. Surprised not by the information, she had known the history, but by the fact that he had found it. That he had looked.

“You have been doing your own inquiries,” she said.

“You told me to use the freedom the chair gives me.”

A pause that was almost, almost, a smile.

He stood. Smoothed his sherwani.

“Tell them the Malik house will consider the proposal,” he said.

“That’s all?”

He walked to the door. “That’s all.”

“Arnav.”

He stopped, but not turn fully, just enough to show her he was listening.

“Your father,” she whispered, “also stood at that door once. He also took his time.”

He stood there for a moment. The sound of the durbar below was audible even here, patient, waiting, the court that had been assembled since dawn.

“I know.”

The two words carrying the weight of thirteen years, the boy who had sat in the small chair and not made a sound, the man who had spent six years being deliberately, consciously, exhaustingly something other than what the small chair’s occupant had become.

He left.

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The peacock, by the time he returned to the durbar, had positioned itself directly beside the petitioner with the goat. The goat appeared unbothered. The peacock appeared to be reconsidering its life choices.

Arnav sat down, finally, in the nawab’s chair.

“Begin.”

And so the durbar began. Raza Sahib, in his position to the left of the central platform, had rearranged his shawl a fifth time and was watching the nawab. Shamsher Khan, his nephew, sat at the room’s far edge, was watching Raza Sahib. Aman, at Arnav’s right, was watching all of them with the patient comprehensive attention of a man who has learned to read a room the way other men read documents, thoroughly, between the lines, for what is not said.

The petition from the eastern district water rights was heard and resolved. The weavers’ petition for the chikankari craftsmen, the zardozi guild, the cheaper imported cloth undercutting their established work was received and noted. Arnav listened with heavy focus of a man who is listening to the words and also to the several other conversations happening beneath them.

Raza Sahib spoke on the trade matter. The market’s own wisdom, the buyer’s freedom, the practical accommodation of commercial reality. The language of a man who had positions already established, alliances already formed, interests already identified in the outcome.

“I will review the import duties on external cloth,” Arnav said, when Raza Sahib had finished. “Prepare the relevant documents.” He looked at Raza Sahib. “Before the end of the week.”

Raza Sahib inclined his head. “As you say, Nawab sahib.”

Arnav returned to the next petition.

The matter was not settled. He knew it and Raza Sahib knew it and the court, which had been reading these two men across from each other for six years, knew it with certainty. The court understood that the slow games are the ones that matter.

But the session continued. The court performed its function. Lucknow conducted its business.

Daadi Begum, receiving the news of the durbar’s conclusion from Mariam Bibi that evening, permitted herself a brief, private expression, of a woman whose planning had arrived at its first intended station. Someone with a limited vocabulary might call it a smile.

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Dadi is impressed with Khushi. Its good to know Khushi has her own mind and she does things her own way.

CHAPTER 02 - A MERE WOMAN

The morning Khushi broke the clay pot, she had been trying to read and walk at the same time, which her mother had told her no fewer than eleven times was how civilized people became casualties.

The book was a slim volume of Sihr-ul-Bayan that she had borrowed, without asking, from her father's study three days ago and had been carrying around the house ever since, reading it in doorways and on staircases and apparently now on the kitchen wall where the pot of soaked lentils had been left by the neighbor's wife for the evening's shami kebabs, in perfect safety until she arrived. She had been turning a page which had required both hands. The pink embroidered dupatta had done the rest.

The pot went over the low wall and splattered the yellow lentils with the resigned air of things that had no say in the matter.

Khushi looked down into the courtyard below, then at the book, still open in her hands at the offending page. The verse looked back at her, unhelpfully beautiful.

"Khushi."

Her mother's voice came from the inner room. Not a shout or a scream. Sakeena Farooqui had long ago discovered that loudness was wasted on her daughter, it only made her contrite in the short term, which was not the same as careful in the long term. What worked, mildly, was the particular quality of stillness she could place inside her daughter's name. Like setting down something heavy on a table. Here. Look at this. Look at what you have done.

Khushi looked over the wall at the lentils.

"It slipped," she muttered, hiding the book behind her back.

Sakeena appeared in the doorway, adjusting her dupatta over her head. Her fine-boned face was the kind that had been beautiful at twenty and had become, over the years, something better, more earned, the beauty of a woman who had thought hard about things and it showed in the fine lines of her forehead. She looked at Khushi, who had her arms behind her back, then at the lentils below.

"Ammi," she began. "I was almost at the end of the — "

"Was the end of the masnavi worth the lentils?"

Khushi considered this with more genuine seriousness than the situation perhaps demanded. "It's a very good masnavi. The best of Mir's work one could argue."

Sakeena looked at her daughter for a moment and sighed, this daughter of hers who had been dropping, spilling, upending, and occasionally breaking things her entire life in the service of whatever had captured her attention in the preceding moment, and who had never once done it carelessly, which was the thing that made it impossible to be truly angry about. Everything Khushi broke, she broke while reaching for something. Sakeena had long ago decided this was either her greatest flaw or her finest quality and that the difference between the two would be determined by what the world chose to do with her.

"Put the book down," she said, already reaching for the jar of lentils on the shelf above. "And come and help me with the meal."

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Faizabad woke differently from other cities.

It did not announce itself with the air of grand tehzeeb, like Lucknow, which Khushi had visited once as a child, not quite the raw river-life of smaller towns. A city of in-betweens and pieces. First the smell of the river, then the sound of the ghats, then the azan that began at four in the morning from the old mosque at the lane's end and did not fully stop until well after the city had decided it was day.

The Farooqui house sat on a lane that was wide enough for a cart and a half, in the older quarter near the western ghat. It was a two-storey house of faded ochre plaster, with a wooden balcony that had been repaired so many times it had become, structurally speaking, a philosophical position on repair itself. The ground floor was half-home, half-business where Shafiq Ali Farooqui's import trade occupied the front two rooms, the shelves stacked with ledgers and bolts of cloth and the particular organized chaos of a man who kept everything in his head and very little of it where anyone else could find it.

Upstairs was where the family lived: Sakeena's kitchen that always smelled of methi and cardamom, Khushi's room with its view of the lane, and the small prayer room with a framed calligraphy of the religious verse that Khushi had, without telling anyone, positioned slightly toward the window so the light could find the gold ink in the lettering at the right hour, she had explained once, when caught adjusting it. Sakeena had looked at this explanation for a long moment and then let it stand.

The conversation between mother and daughter happened, as their important conversations usually did, in the kitchen.

Not because either of them planned it that way — it was simply that the kitchen was where Sakeena spent her mornings and Khushi orbited her mornings, and the combination of warmth and occupation and the comfortable noise of the mohalla outside produced, reliably, a quality of candor that more formal settings did not.

Sakeena was grinding spices with her marble mortar and pestle, her back half-turned, when she said. "A letter came from Lucknow."

She said it without preamble, it was how she said important things, simply placing them in the room when the room was ready.

Khushi had been waiting for this sentence since the previous evening, when she had noticed the quality of her father's silence at dinner, that of a man who has been given something and is still deciding where to put it. She set down her copper cup to measure the flour. "From the Malik household?"

"The vakeel's letter, yes. Your father read it last night." Sakeena set down the grinding stone. "Twice."

"Well, what did it say?"

"That the household has considered the proposal with interest. That the family has been reviewed — " a brief movement at the corner of her mouth — "and found adequate. That they propose a period of acquaintance before the formal confirmation is made." She turned to face Khushi. "And that they are aware Abbas has pending business with the Malik court and would be honored to receive the Farooqui family as their guests during his visit."

Khushi was quiet for a moment. Outside, the mohalla was in usual morning chaos of the kabab seller's first fire, a child being called in from the lane, the azan's final call dissolving into the ordinary sounds of the day beginning.

"Did they know that I was to accompany Abbas bhai to the city?" she asked.

Sakeena's expression confirmed it without requiring words. The invitation had the Daadi begum's quality, too precisely timed, too conveniently arranged to have arrived through the vakeel alone. She had heard about Abbas's dealings and had engineered an occasion. She wants to see you went unsaid both between them and was entirely understood.

Khushi looked at her hands with flour coating her palms and dusted them. She thought, as she had been thinking, in fragments, since the proposal had first arrived three weeks ago, about what this meant. Not in the abstract. In the specific, practical terms that her father would have been calculating and that she was capable of calculating too, even if no one had asked her to.

The Farooqui family was comfortable. Her father's trade was steady, his reputation good, his standing in Faizabad respected. But comfortable was not the same as secure, and the trade was subject to the seasons and the roads and the shifting alliances of merchant networks that her father managed with patience and intelligence and a great deal of goodwill that could, she understood, be called in at any moment by people who had more weight than goodwill.

A match with the Malik family, one of the most significant noble houses in all of Awadh, was not simply a personal arrangement. It was a transaction of a kind her father's world understood very well. Stability in exchange for a daughter. The family's standing elevated. Future dealings protected. Her cousin brothers would negotiate from a different position in a world that understood exactly what the Malik name meant.

She knew this. She had always known it. She was not naive about the machinery of arranged marriages or about her own position within it.

What she also knew from the two previous proposals and their conclusions, from the landlord's son from Barabanki with his incurious eyes, from the merchant from Jaunpur who had addressed every remark to her father rather than to her as though she were a piece of furniture being discussed for purchase — was that knowing the machinery existed and being at peace with being fed through it were different things. She had refused both previous proposals, and her father had allowed the refusing, and she was aware this was not a freedom that would extend indefinitely.

She was twenty-two. The world's patience with a woman's opinions about her own marriage had a specific and well-documented expiry date.

And, her hands trembled at the thought, it wasn't a match with just any member of the Malik family. It was with the Nawab himself. An honor for generations.

"Ammi," she whispered.

"Mm."

"Will anyone ask me?" She said it plainly, without heat, without the performance of grievance. Simply as a question about the mechanics of this engineered thing. "At the end of this... when the family sits together to confirm or decline, will my opinion be sought?"

Sakeena took her to the small table adjacent to the kitchen and sat down across from her.

Cupping the round face in her weathered hands, she said. "Your father will ask you. Genuinely, not as a formality. What you tell him will matter to him." She held Khushi's gaze with the directness of a woman who has made a decision to be honest when dishonesty would be kinder in the short term. "I cannot promise more than that. The decision involves more people than you and more considerations than your comfort. That is the truth of it."

Mr. and Mrs. Farooqui had only one child. Alas, the child was a daughter, a fact the world had never quite allowed them to forget, whispered about behind their backs and, with the casual cruelty of people who consider themselves merely practical, said plainly to their faces often enough. A daughter did not carry a name forward, did not inherit a trade, did not sit across a negotiating table and build what her father had built into something larger. A daughter was, in the accounting of the world they lived in, a liability dressed in the temporary clothing of a blessing.

Khushi had grown up understanding this the way you understand the walls of a house you were born it, of something that has always been true and will continue to be true regardless of your feelings about it. And so this — a nawab's proposal, a household of this standing, a match that would open doors for her father's trade and her cousins' futures and the entire network of Farooqui commerce that ran quietly through the region — this was the thing a daughter could do. The thing that transformed the liability into an asset, the burden into a bridge. Her refusal, if it came, would not simply be her own, it would land on all of them disastrously, on her father's carefully maintained standing, on Abbas's contract, on her mother's dignified silence in the face of twenty two years of sideways remarks about sons. She had no illusions about the weight of that.

Khushi covered her mother's hands with hers and tried to receive her words with an attempted smile. There was no ounce of bitterness in it, she had no use for bitterness, it was a quality that required more energy than it returned.

"Then I will give them something worth considering," she finally said.

Sakeena looked at her daughter for a long moment. Then she leaned forward and kissed her forehead and cheeks.

"Try," she said, blinking the moisture from her eyes. "not to drop anything while you're there."

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She thought about it for the rest of the day, not anxiously though she could not stop the restless tapping of her foot, but with the focused attention she gave to everything she had decided was worth examining properly. She thought about what she knew and what she did not know.

She knew the broad facts of the Malik household from her father's history with it, and from the mohalla's ambient knowledge of Lucknowi affairs that filtered into Faizabad through traders and travelers. She knew that Ibrahim Malik, the previous nawab, had been a man of enormous reputation and a privately complicated history. She knew that her father had done business with him and had been failed by him, not crudely, not with confrontation, but with silence where a reply should have been, with the door closed before you had finished your sentence.

She knew the son was not the father. This was what everyone said. She was aware that everyone saying it did not make it true, but she was also aware that the people who said it. Abbas, the traders who came through Faizabad, the general tone of the city's opinion of Arnav Malik, said it with relief of people who have been comparing and have found the comparison favorable. That was more than a rumor. That was a pattern.

She did not know what he was like. Not in the ordinary hours. Not in the spaces where character was actually visible, the morning before the formality, the evening after the duty, the corridor between the public rooms. She would not know this from any account she had been given. She would only know it from being there and only if he permitted.

Which was, she thought, precisely why she should still be going.

Not because Daadi Begum had engineered the visit. Not because Abbas had convenient business in Lucknow. Not because the Farooqui family's standing would benefit from the match, which it would. Not because her opinion might not carry weight at the end of the process.

Because she had been given a door — a real one, however arranged, however the engineering behind it had been conducted and she was not the kind of woman who stood in front of real doors and did not open them.

She went to find her father.

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Shafiq Ali Farooqui was in his study, his spectacles on top of his head, a letter in his hand that he did not put down when she knocked on the open wooden door.

"Come in," he said, without looking up. "Close it."

She did, and sat across from him in the chair that had been her chair for as long as there had been important conversations in this room, the one slightly closer to the window, where the river was audible on quiet mornings.

He looked at her over the top of the letter. Then he set it face-down on the desk.

"Your mother told you," he asked. "About the vakeel's letter, yes?"

She simply nodded and watched him clean his spectacles then put them back on. These were the stages of his processing, she had learned them over years like how one learn the rhythms of a city one have always lived in, not by study but by accumulation.

"There is also this," he said, and turned the letter face-up and pushed it toward her.

She looked down at it. The handwriting was formal, the Urdu script of someone who had been taught by a careful hand and had spent years making it his own. Not the vakeel's hand. Someone else's.

"He wrote to me himself," her father remarked. "Before the vakeel's formal letter was even drafted. His own hand." He paused. "I have been sitting with it since yesterday."

She scanned it quickly. It was a brief letter comprising three paragraphs, formal and correct, the language of someone who had chosen each word with the awareness that the words would be read by someone who knew how to read between them. There was acknowledgment of the proposal, expression of the Malik household's serious interest and then the request that the Farooqui family consider the visit as an occasion for genuine acquaintance rather than mere formality.

This was the second time the visit had been mentioned, she noted to herself.

And then the last line, which she read twice.

I am aware of the history between our families and the distance it has placed between us. I write in the hope that this letter marks not the continuation of that distance but its conclusion, that what begins here begins, as all things worth beginning, from a different page.

When she looked up from the paper, her father was watching her quietly.

"He knows about the letters," she commented. "The ones you sent that were not answered."

"Oh, he knows." Shafiq folded his hands on the desk. "Which means either someone told him, or he found them himself when the estate was settled after his father's death, or he looked for them specifically." He paused. "A man who looks for the evidence of his father's failures and then writes to the person his father failed... that is a particular kind of man."

"And you believe him?"

"I believe the letter," her father said carefully. "A man can write a true letter and still be something other than what the letter suggests. I am not naive about this." He began folding the letter and placed it in the top drawer. "I am also not naive about the difference between a man who writes nothing and a man who writes this."

Khushi was quiet for a moment and drummed her fingers against the table.

"You are not coming with us," she said. "For the visit."

"Abbas will go. He knows the court, he knows the trade, he will represent the family well." Her father looked away from her. "It's a matter of a few days and he has met the nawab twice, in the business negotiations. His read of the man is, well, it is worth having from someone who has seen him in a different register than the formal rishta process."

She looked at her father's spectacles on top of his head, at the ink-stained fingers, at the man who had kept the unanswered letters in his drawer for twenty years and had, this week, received a reply that was ten years too late and had chosen to believe it anyway.

"Abba," she said, holding her breath.

He looked up.

"When I come back," she said. "Whatever I find... you will listen?"

"I have always listened to you, dear." he said. Simply. As a fact.

"I know," she said, still her stomach churned. Everything was happening all at once. "I only wanted to say it before I go."

He picked up his spectacles and cleaned them one more time, which was not necessary, and announced. "Abbas leaves in a week. Begin your preparations right away."

She nodded and stood, reaching out a hand as she asked. "May I keep it?"

He opened the drawer and handed it to her without a word.

She closed her fingers around the folded paper carefully and put it in the pocket of her kurta.

_________

Abbas arrived the same evening.

He was thirty-two, broad through the shoulders, with an open face that inspired immediate confidence and a laugh that arrived before the joke had fully landed, which should have been annoying and somehow wasn't. He had been Khushi's favorite cousin since she was six years old and had climbed the mango tree in the old family house on a dare and gotten stuck, and Abbas had climbed up after her without being asked and gotten stuck alongside her, and they had sat up there together for forty minutes until the gardener noticed the children with mango stained mouths and loud laughter and got the ladder, an incident which became the foundation of a solid friendship.

He was also, beneath the easy manner, a serious businessman, who had learned that affability was not the opposite of shrewdness but its most effective disguise. His textile dealings with the Malik court had been in negotiation for the better part of a year, significant enough that the Malik vakeel had made three trips to Faizabad and Abbas had made two to Lucknow before the terms were close to agreement.

Nargis was with him, as she always was when the journey was long. She was a small, composed woman who had made her peace with the world's tendency toward disruption and navigated it with complete equanimity. She loved Khushi with the slightly exhausted affection of someone who has spent years being fond of a person who was quite regularly disruptive.

Abbas found her in the kitchen the morning after his arrival, standing at the window with the book open in one hand and a cup of tea going cold in the other, looking at the lane below with a peculiar expression.

He leaned against the doorframe and watched her for a moment.

"You've read that same page four times," he said. "Your reading comprehension seems to be going down in your old age."

"I haven't." She huffed, looking away from the window as he came in and helped himself to the tea she had forgotten. She closed the book with a snap. "I was thinking. An ability not granted to everyone clearly."

"I gathered." He sat at the table with her tea, entirely untroubled by having taken it. "Why are you so nervous?"

"I told you I was thinking— "

"Deep philosophical thoughts and all, yes." He waved this away. "What is it?"

"It is nothing," she mumbled, sitting from across him.

"Excellent," he said. "Tell me about the nothing."

"I am wondering," she said finally, unable to banter with him as she usually would. "whether he will find me..." she paused, looking for the right word."...excessive."

Abbas was quiet and pressed his lips together as if suppressing something that was going to come out regardless.

"Excessive," he said.

"I have been told, on more than one occasion, that I am — "

"By whom?"

"The tutor who resigned."

"The tutor who resigned," Abbas said, his tone losing a degree of playfulness. "was a man who found his own opinions excessive. He was not a reliable measure." He waved his hand as if to dismiss the notion. "Khushi, we are talking about one of the most significant man in all of Awadh. He has been managing the court since he was twenty-two." He paused. "I do not think he is going to be undone by a mere woman."

The mere woman comment instantly raised two pairs of eyebrows. One of which belonged to his own wife.

"I also ask questions." Khushi said, interrupting when he tried to uselessly convey what he actually meant, to Nargis, rather than her, to whom he has directed the insult.

"What?" He looked at her. "Well, yes."

"Direct ones."

"I am aware."

"And I have opinions about — "

"Khushi." He leaned forward. "I sat across a negotiating table from this man twice. I watched him listen and respond to things that were actually said rather than the convoluted version of them." He paused. "He is not going to find you excessive. He is going to find you... " He stopped, appeared to consider the right word, and then produced it with the satisfaction of a scholar with a revelation. "Clarifying!"

She looked at Nargis, who shrugged, then at her cousin.

"Clarifying?"

"Like a good itr, you see." he eagerly explained. "Unexpectedly strong. Stays longer than anticipated. Changes the quality of the room." He picked up her cold tea again and made a face. "Also occasionally responsible for making people slightly lightheaded, but we will address that concern if it arises."

She threw her book at him and hoped it would hit him in the face.

He caught it, of course he caught it, he had been catching things she threw at him since they were children, and set it on the table as if he expected exactly this outcome.

Nargis threaded her arm with Khushi's and looked at her husband. "I think what my dear husband is trying to simply say is that an extraordinary man will require an extraordinary woman by his side." She patted her hand. "Remember, Khushi, it is a privilege to be undone by the force of a mere woman." She leaned back, arched her brow at Abbas as if daring her husband to contradict, who in response, nodded wisely without a word. "Did you know the sheermal in Lucknow is said to be an art itself. The saffron bread, baked in a clay oven with heavenly smell? " She concluded with complete sincerity as if the food in the new city was also legitimate and important consideration.

Abbas looked at his wife with the expression of a man has been married long enough to find this entirely charming.

At long last, since the day began with lentils and letters, Khushi felt the twisting and turning feeling inside her loosen, fractionally, into something more like the warmth that only appeared among the people she loved dearly.

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What do you make of Farooqui family members? Your thoughts are most appreciated.

Happy 15th anniversary of the show in advance.