Are you depressed? - Page 4

Originally posted by: Angry_Birdie

life isn't easy. you fail, you lose, people go away from your life, you feel nothing seems good enough, you feel like dying. but, life is never supposed to be easy, it will push you, break you, make you wonder but you need to hold onto the tiniest possibility of happiness. it won't come your way served on a platter, you need to find it and fight for it. just don't give up. lofe is truly beautiful.

Originally posted by: -smolderhalder.

IMO your idea is pretty good and you have good intentions...but IF, especially BWF, has become so toxic that I wouldn't be surprised if members started using other members' mental illnesses as a way to personally attack them and/or name call them.

If people want to share something with you I think they should PM you. From personal experience (and what my friends told me), I'd strongly advise AGAINST talking about what someone is going through in their personal life and which mental illnesses they're suffering from in a public post.

^^These are just my two cents tho. At the end of the day, people are free to do as they please.

Originally posted by: Angel-likeDevil

^^ya, AB says truth... I was also and still am a naturally happy person.. I was always happy kind, you know the "happy idiot" types with some mood swings of-course for no one can be spared from both feelings of sadness and happiness :) But always, staying sad was never possible for me, I can never be sad for more than 1 hour max ..my family and everyone that know me always say this about me "If you hit her hard and say sorry the next minute, she'll forgive and forget and continue being her happy friendly self", and then for me to be depressed was something unimaginable for anyone or even myself. But life brought such things, that burnt me from my core.. and happiness exited life, for I had suffered a trauma for many months due to my health.. and then despite efforts to keep myself happy or do things I enjoy or to face moments of traumatic memories, or face fear, I couldn't.. The almost psychotic fear, the moments of traumatic memories re-lived in sleep, sleeplessnes, the incapacity to face pain and paranoia, dealing with physical limitations, living on the brink literally, and coupled with some other incidents, I too became suicidal occasionally... it wasn't "oh I wanna die" , the body itself wanted to die or even get killed or to describe more properly , I want to get destroyed. I was soo sooo sooo near to putting an end, it scares me even now.. I once planned to take all tablets in my home when my parents went out(my parents use many medicines and we had a stock of medicines), multiple times wanted to jump off the building, multiple times was looking at knife just before me imagining, playing it out in my head and on fire to grab it, googled about suicide, wanted to call "AASRA" a helpline, but who will understand, when my parents themselves despite seeing my condition cannot fully grasp it, and even if they did, would it help my situation by speaking... it was such a phase with such lows, I myself don't understand..

My parents, friends, neighbours, relatives were all on my side, supportive emotionally.. They'd do so many things, show me inspiring videos, narrate inspiring stories, my dad would say everything without saying a word with tears in his eyes, I'd smile and act like I'm together and improving but it was like a thick wall was between us through which no one could see me.. how can I ever share what I am going through? Whenever anyone reached out it was only moment of solace(which greatly helped and their love was perhaps the only reason I am here typing this)... and then I was back to myself with my pains/incapabilities/fear, and new sensitivities too.. My mom would sometimes talk to me in her usual harsh tone, but I'd feel so hurt even though I never felt hurt before, and an episode of crying and her frustration at my new sensitivity would follow... I've made me parents suffer a lot too...

And as months went by, health got better and through continual efforts that took me from one extreme of total motivation/happiness to another of total dejection/paranoia, I started improving with time, while falling down sometimes.. It does take lot of efforts and TBH, life also should show a sign, give a liiitttle but hope.. This whole 2-3 years thought me so much, I will never be able to describe and, I have no complaints, and if asked whether I'd change anything, then no, I'm grateful for everything and can now slowly slowly see the beauty of life.. I hope I will never revert though lol, life is more complex than we can imagine and I only hope I can always see the beauty of life in whatever situation I am in and be respectful of life, and desire to make everyone around me feel good, I want to try atleast, although it sounds cliche, it has so much value. And I want to live 120 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

One thing I always tell myself is, "situation could've been worse". And, I remember, the first movie I went to watch after my health problem was Revanant :D ...that day, I was unable to sit through the movie, and in the middle of the movie, he says something like "as long as you breathe, you fight".. gave me so much push, although I did suffer bodily pains I did sit through it 😆 ..

If you've read through the messed up novella of a post, thankyou.

IDK why I am in a mood to write my long boring story haha ☺️

Okay sayonara.

Originally posted by: ChadDimera

No listening to music or watching some show can lift my spirits. An you never knowmhiw bad you are off till you see the next person. Also listening to someone's opinion of you is futile. As long you love yourself all will be well.

Take a lesson from me I barely graduated high school and I drive a Porsche.
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Things always work out. Just love yourself ⭐️