I know i have to reply to your comments, but have been battling a weird bimaari😆...anyways, the response I have been getting makes me misty eyed.
Two chapters back to back...and sorry for the delay
Dedication: To my dearest Priya, again one of my avid reader every update she reads and comments. This is for you dear for all your time and words, BIshq is special due to readers like you, giving your love and support even in your busy schedule.Loads of love to you
Enjoy a emotional followed by a funny one
Chapter 18
Arzoo
As they reached home...she asked kashif to help him..Zain refused ...agar madad nahi karni toh meri lakdi hai...mai sirf lakdi ya ladki ke saath chahta hu ...he was laughing ...
As he walked back..he turned around ..Da ...khana kha lena ...
She looked away ...she had to do something ...fast ..her head was still dizzy ...hungry ...unbearable one...
She stepped in the kitchen to fix up lunch ...and sent him his food ...
As Zain walked towards her room ...limping ...he knocked softly ...
Aao jao ...she couldn't bear to see how he had dragged himself out of his bed ...
Da...tumne raat ki davai nahi li na ..yeh lo ...she could never know how he managed to read her thoughts so well
Rakh do ...
...Da ...basket car mai hi bhool gayi thi tum ..yeh bhi lo ...
She took it and kept it aside ...almost dumping it on the side ...she saw his expressions from the corner of her eye ...his face fell..and then again he looked up to smile
Da...pata hai jungle mai keede bhi hote hai ..mai toh itna brave tha ...kai keedo koh maara maine ...he was talking alone and laughing which made Aaliya think...he has lost it ...
Da ...who mere pair mai bahut dard ho raha hai ..painkiller hai kya tumhare paas ...She looked blank...
woh Chachu abhi taka aye nahi hai na clinic se varna unse maangata ...
Waha ...drawer mai hai le lo...
Aree kabhi toh apni tashreef uthakar ek kamzor aadmi ki maddad kar diya karo...
Kisne kaha tha ...kuda kudi karne koh ...
He shook his head ....nahi sudhrogi, daya maya naam ki ek cheez har ek insaan mai honi chaiye ..khuda tume dalna bhool gaya hoga ...
He walked painfully to reach her drawer ...and saw the bottle of sleeping pills ...a harsh reality peeked in through that medication bottle...her pain her angst ...her frustration
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
lagta nahi dil kahin bin aapke
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
he silently took his medicines and started to leave ...his heart wanting to forget what he just saw ...his pain mingling with his emotional distress now...
he turned back to see her face ...the pain on it never went away ...no matter what all he tried ...her face showed she didn't like his presence ...it hurt her to see him...he had become a eye sore ...as in her words a punishment for her ...but he just couldnt separate from her ...he didn't have the courage
kaise kahu bina tere jindagi ye kya hogi
kaise kahu bina tere jindagi ye kya hogi
jaise koi saza koi bad-dua hogi
jaise koi saza koi bad-dua hogi
meine kiya hai yeh faisla
jeena nahi hai tere bina
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
He didn't have the courage to see her anymore...being guilty was one thing ...feeling remorseful was another ...with heavy legs he started walking out ...
She saw he didn't look back also missing was a I love you Da ...his trademark way of bugging her ...
She cleared her throat ...
Kuch bhool nahi rahe ho ...
He turned back...
Kya ...
Nahi matlab tumbe obsesseive compulasary disorder ...OCD haina ...har cheez ek pattern mai karte ho...
Accha ...pata nahi ...he turned again ...
And going towards the door he knew she was restless ...her questions were unanswered ...she wanted to talk but would not stop him..he knew it
He walked again ...back towards her bed where she was sitting ...
Thodi der izzazat ho toh kuch bol sakta hu...
Ab kya hai ...her anger always surfaced up...like a bubble of soda water ...
Da... kal raat kya kiya ...
She turned her face ...towards the balcony ...
Tumse matlab ...
He sat down next to her legs ...
Sleeping pills liye ...She didn't answer...
Pooch sakta hu kyu...
No answer...only a mocking silence that he was so used to now...
Da.. yeh cheeze sehat kharab kar sakti hai ...chachu ne ek baar bataya tha mujhe ...tumhe adat pad chuki thi unki ...phir kyu liya ...
She was still starring out...
muje koi de de zahar hans ke mein pee lunga
muje koi de de zahar hans ke mein pee lunga
har dard sah lunga har haal mein jee lunga
har dard sah lunga har haal mein jee lunga
dard-e judai sah na sakunga
tere bina mein rah na sakunga
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
lagta nahi dil kahin bin aapke
Mere vajah se na ...mujhe aise choda ...par khud wahi choot aayi...
Da ...mai apni takleef bardasht kar sakta hu...tumhari nahi ...
Aur mai toh tumhara hu ...joh chahe kar sakti ho mere saath ...mujhe koi parvaah nahi ...par apne aap ko aise tang mat karo ...
Toh chale jaao...
Nahi jaunga ..har baar yehi baat dohraunga ...jab tak saans hai tab tak...
dekh ke wo mujhe tera palken juka lena
dekh ke wo mujhe tera palken juka lena
yaad bahut aaye jara muskura dena
yaad bahut aaye wo jara muskura dena
kaise bhulau wo saari baate
wo meethi raate wo mulakate
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
lagta nahi dil kahin bin aapke
jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke
Aur yeh mat samjhana ki mai tumhari har baat manta hu... har zulm sehta hu ...toh tum par sakti nahi kar sakta ...
Kis rishte se haq jata rahe ho ...
He starred in her eyes ...Da.. har rishta lafzon ke dayre main ahi bandta ...kuch ehsaas par tikte hai ...
Khair ...ab mere baari hai ...
Kya matlab ...
Tumhari davai wali baat chachu tak na pahuche toh joh mai bolunga who karna padega ...
Jakar bata do ...mai nahi darti...
Theek hai ..he got up and started walking back...
She called him...
Ruko...
He looked at her tensed face ...
Mat batao unhe bura lagega ...
Toh meri baat maani padegi ...
Kya hai ...
Bas ek baat ...
Oh toh ab tum blackmailing par utar aaye ...
Haa ..yehi samajh lo...
aaj ke baad tum yeh kabhi nahi logi ...mai tumhare zindagi mai rahu ya na rahu ...her face became tensed ...was he leaving her ...
Theek hai ainda davai nahi lungi ...yeh dad se vaada karungi ...aur tumhare vajah se nahi ..unke pyaar ke vajah se
Da ...bas paanch minute apni dl ki baat kehna chahta hu ...bolu ...
She looked away ...he never got any chance ..no matter how hard he tried ...she was forever cold to him...
theek hai meri shaqal se problem hai na...mai peeth karke baath kar leta hu ...mat dekhna ...par please mujhe bolne do ...
He turned his back towards her as he spoke ...His voice was cold now...Da ...mei tumhara ghussa dekhna chahta hu ...yeh joh apne andar tumne band kiya hai na ...yeh dard ... She kept quiet ...
None of these talks were for him ...it were all for her to set her free...
She wiped her tears and spoke firmly jaha tak dil ki baat hai ...who tumhe kabhi nahi batungi ...ghussa joh abhi tak dekha hai kya usse peth nahi bhara tumhara ...ki aur chaiye ...
Da ...tum nafrat karti ho na mujhse ...as he turned back to face her
She saw his eyes ...they had a glint of an unseen emotion
Haa...
Toh phir ghussa utarna zaroori hai ...jab tak yeh ghussa nahi jayega yeh nafrat nahi mitegi ...
Mujhe kuch mitana nahi hai ...
Par mai mitana chahta hoon...
Zain ...jao yaha se ...
Da...bahut kam log milege is duniya mai ...joh ghussa mangte ho...pyaar toh door ki baat hai ...mai sirf apni takleef kam karna chahta hu...
As she saw him walking out he turned around and said I love you ...
She was quiet ...why was she doing this...hurting him so much ...he looked weird since the time they came back from orphanage ...he used to only smile ...she had just seen him having a lonely moment in the theater ...but again he was back to being the super hero...
Why he wanted her hate ...her anger ...she didn't want to harm him..he was suffering everyday ...yet he kept quiet ...she wanted him to just walk away ...nothing more ...her love for him would never let her forget him ...but her hurt never let her sleep ...nor live ...she was stuck somewhere...
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