Chapter 7
Jalal feels Jo leaning against his body, her hand against his chest, the moonlight on her face through the open curtains gave it a warm glow ..she opens her eyes and looks at him, sees his eyes blazing with passion, and her pale skin almost glistened under the moonlight, she bit on her bottom lip, suddenly he feels afraid of her, her feelings for him ... could it change... would she hate him for what he did...he hugs her closer ...her naked body against his ..stirs up desire again .. he leans over her chest kisses her forehead and whispers "Jo..tum teek ho na, are you ok... Jo ... did I hurt you..I know you are awake, open your eyes, look at me.." he places his finger under her chin and lifts it up...Jo opens her eyes and looks at him hovering above her ...pouts and says "ofcourse it hurt dummy... it still hurts..." ...he rests his forehead against hers "I'm sorry" he whispers and was shocked when she suddenly pulled his head towards her till she felt lips against hers and stared kissing him says " but I want more..." Jalal felt her trembling .. wondered if he would hurt her more physically if he obliged ... but then she started kissing him feverishly ... he felt her body as he pressed against her .. suddenly felt an overwhelming desire for her again ... he knows he should be guilty as he successfully coerced her with vodka ... he didn't care anymore... he felt her defenseless quivering nude body wanting his touch.. her eyes taunting him ...he took her body to levels of ecstasy over and over again .. not caring if her soft moans were of pleasure or pain until finally they both fell asleep .. her legs tangled with his ... Jalal wakes up at the crack of dawn ... a habit he developed as a child ...he panicked as he listens to her soft regular breathing and determined that she would be asleep and would not awaken for the next few hours ... damn... damn...damn...he cursed himself for what the hell he had done... he did not want to face her ...he moves the covers off himself and swings his legs off the bed .. he needed to get out as soon as possible ...before she woke up.. he could not risk facing her anger when she woke up as the effects of alcohol would have worn off...he quickly walks into his closet gets dressed and starts to walk out... thinking ...true I wanted her and still want her .. but forcing her .. I should be ashamed of myself .. he could not understand why he acted that way...but he wanted her bad ...she is his wife ... my wife ... As he walked out he threw one last glimpse at her... damn... damn... his desire for her aroused again .. the sight of her lying in bed .. her naked body covered outlining her curves .. stirs up his desires again ... in all the years he had enjoyed women... this never happened to him before ... he had to leave, if not he would not be able to stop himself from taking her again...if she wakes up he will get caught trying to justify his shameful actions or ever worse ... he had to resist the urge... picks up his phone and leaves.
Rays of sunlight hit on Jo's eyes waking her up... her head seemed like it would burst, she feels nauseated ... she tries to get up, and realizes she is naked, looks around and sees that she is alone, Jalal was nowhere in sight ... draws up the sheet to cover and feels her body ache, she sees a note at the bedside table "THANKS FOR LAST NIGHT, ENJOYED MYSELF ...J" ..she begins to hate herself, she lays back recalling the night before, she can vaguely remember being intimate with Jalal... she feels her body tingle at the thought of his touch, the pain and pleasure she felt, it dawns on her that Jalal had exerted his full rights on her as her husband ...she just could not understand how she allowed it to happen...the whole thing was a power trip, Jo begins to sob, he just used me as a one night stand ... the note he left for her seemed degrading ... she thinks about the events that had taken place since she met Jalal and feels powerless... he could consume her whenever he wanted... She continues sobbing ..
There was a knock on the door "can I come in?" a female voice ...Jo quickly reaches for the tissue to wipe her tears ... the door opens and Jo sees a middle aged woman walks in saying "no need to hide, I heard you sobbing" ...Jo looks up at her with a sad expression on her face, her big expressive eyes were watery... the sight of her in pain and in tears pulls at her heart ... she walks over and sits on the bed, reaches her hand over and grasps Jo's hand softly giving it light squeeze..."I am glad I am finally able to meet the girl that swept my son off his feet...I've honestly never seen him so excited and happy...he really deserves happiness in his life.." then she introduces herself "my name is Maham .. I am Jalal's nurse maid... I have retired from my service, but Jalal called me and asked me to personally take care of you today as he had to leave suddenly on an emergency" Jo lets her tears fall freely, her body shaking with sobs thinking how this could be happening to her...an emergency, what type of emergency ...his perfect excuse to get away ... she recalls her conversation with Jalal when he snuck into her room just before she was escorted to the mandap.. Jalal came into her room grabbed her by her waist and pulls her against him, "Hmmm I missed you... I can't wait to make you mine ..." Jo pushes him away saying "really... you missed me... not one text, not one call... yet you missed me na? it shows..." she walks away pouting, mumbling... Jalal comes and grabs her hand, looks at them saying "love the mendhi design ... the color is deep and rich... so you love me deeply eh...darker the color, deeper you love for me?" tries to cage her with his arms ... she pushes away saying "keep dreaming ... why would I care ? " Jalal smirks and says "then why are you upset I did not text or call?" a smile spreads over his face ... "Sorry Jo, I was very busy, and with time difference ... I did not want to disturb my pretty bride, I want to have a well rested bride...so I can ..."and whispers something into her ears ...she pushes him away saying "always your thoughts are in line with sx... " Jalal sighs and says "what to do... you came into my life and now that's all I can think of .." pulling her trying to kiss her ... Jo dodges away and says "so did you go to your one night stands on this trip?" Jalal looks away ... Jo holds his arms and looks into his eyes and says "look into my eyes and tell me ... " Jalal stares at her silently... nods his head, he sees Jo eyes get glassy with tears as she lets go of his arms slowly moves away ... Jalal pulls her back hugging her tightly saying "sorry Jo ... I had to find out" Jo quickly turns around and lays her hand on his mouth ..."ssshhh I don't want to hear, I don't want to know" Jalal lips start caressing her neck and he kisses her along her neck when Jo's mom walks in "Beta ... time to go ... jamaisa is already at the mandap and punditji is waiting..." she is shocked to see Jo and Ja hugging get embarrassed and says "I'll send your sister in, get ready I'll be back" and leaves ... Jo is embarrassed as well and says "see, you got me in trouble" Jalal smirks and grins saying "nothing like kissing my bride in her room just before the marriage under her parents nose..." and kisses her passionately, she begins to respond ..he pushes her away and leaves as Shivani walks in saying "Jiji ... maasa is really mad..." Jo continues to sob thinking he came straight from his one night stands, married me and treated me like his one night stand ...I hate him ... I truly hate him .. she continues to cry what Maham sits next to her and hugs her says "It will be ok.. Jalal is a very nice guy, I know him very well, right now he is confused ...he is scared of his own feelings, he needs a little time to sort his feelings out ... his behavior shows he loves you but he is to prejudiced to accept it ... he does not want to recognize it or accept it...it is up to you now to make him or break him ...I know you will help him find himself"
"I am really sorry for Jalal's behavior my dear.. I know he seems non caring and controlling..but deep inside he is just hurting and he is a very lovable and caring person. I have known him from the time he was a baby, the lessons he has learned through life's journey has made him emotionally detached, a sort of loner, he never dated or got into any relationships ..he was afraid to, he built an emotional barrier against female companionship .. he had only one use for women that were not part of his family " Jo was a little confused ... why was this maid defending him...with a curious look she asks Maham..."I don't understand, what do you mean by he's hurting, I am the one hurting, I am the one affected by all this... my life is ruined?" Maham sighs and says "he has been through too much, you , you seem like a brave, smart and you are his wife now, he needs you to help him ... give him a chance please, that's all I ask... sometimes in life we don't get what we want, but we get what we need ...that's Allah's way ... that's why you were placed in his life by Allah ...after seeing you I believe my prayers were answered" Jo looks at the maid .. there was something about her voice that was hauntingly angelic... Jo was comforted hearing her ... nods her head ..and says "thank you ...I know Jalal cares for me" she takes a deep breath, puts on her best smile saying "don't worry ... sorry you had to get involved in it... I...we will sort it out, if you don't mind can you please tell me how come Jalal asked for you to come in today" Maham smiled warmly saying "I was Jalal's nursemaid ... the only mother he knew for most of his early childhood when Hamida was busy building the business with her husband...I care about him a lot ... he cares for me ..he calls me badiammi...he trusts me..." Jo soaks in the information, lies back down pulling the covers up to cover her nakedness ... saying "I still am waiting for my clothes to be delivered, can you please give me some privacy so I can shower ..." sure... sure... Maham says leaving, as she was closing the door sees Jo pulling the sheet, wraping it around herself and running to the bathroom ... see bruises... walks back into the room as the bathroom door shuts closed, to tidy up the room and to get the bed ready ... takes off the blood stained white sheet .. fixes the bed with clean linen .. cleans the roses off the floor ... tidies the room and leaves ...
Maham calls up Jalal on his cell phone he answers immediately "Badiammi how come you did not call earlier, how is Jo, is she ok"...there was silence ...then her voice sounding angry yet stern says "she would not sleep with you so you drugged her and forced yourself on her semi conscious body... Jalal I did not expect this type of behaviour from you...I am ashamed of you... I taught you high values... She is your wife, she's not some girl you can use and discard, or some woman you can share a bed with when you please... you have a duty towards her ...so what ever game you are playing, it better end now...come back right now and make things right... " Jalal stood staring out the window in deep thought...badiammi's accucations were true.. he himself could not believe what he did...it was impossible for a man like him to care, he should not care, it was not his nature... but ...Jo had a certain effect on him, his desire and her passion controlled him...he was trying his best to shake it off...he was angry with himself for exploiting her trust..." "Jalal beta, I want you to always remember, what ever happens between you both, .. no 3rd person should be allowed to interfere, you cannot run away ...she is not a business venture, so don't treat her a such.. Ok so what if you don't love her, but I know you care for her, you beat up your brother for her, you compromised on religion to marry her, you stood against the elders of our family to marry her...why did you have to do that?? Think ... I want you to come back right now and take care of your wife before you loose her ... I am so disgusted with your behaviour that I have advised her to leave right now and go to her parents house ... before she leaves, you have one opportunity ...I am leaving now, I don't think you need me ... grow up and be a man" Maham hangs up the phone and hopes she put some common sense into his head and started the wheels of emotion going ...
Jalal still upset ... he does not want to loose her ... he could not understand his feelings ... his life was becoming complicated ...He leaves his office immediately and is on his way back to Jo ... he knows he has wronged her ... he feels the need to protect her..he did not know why... he did not want to hurt her...he did not want anyone else to hurt her...she is mine ... she will be mine only ... I have to make her accept me...make her forgive me for tricking her and taking away her dreams ...he arrives at the penthouse... he looks across the room for Jo and finds her sitting in front of the mirror fixing her hair ... wearing his bathrobe, he slowly walks in ... he could hear his own breathing and was thankful he was a good few feet way from her ... otherwise he would have just grabbed her into a passionate kiss ... he stops his thoughts to focus on the task at hand ... he needed to face Jo.. accept what he had done to her...and apologize...Jo he whispers walking towards her ... she looks at him intently as though she was trying to understand him... he was sure he saw her blush when their eyes met...Jalal did not how to begin, feels awkward...he was responsible for the situation he found himself in, he just had to accept it ..."Jo I need to speak to you about something", he was afraid she would not like to speak with him, "what is it?" she replies, as she met his gaze, she turns around...she starts playing with her hands and bites down hard on her already pouty red lips.."I...I..." he stammered but could not manage to say anything else ... "I'm sorry Jo" he whispered ... she looks at him struggling ..."I should apologise for my behaviour... you see I was swept by your charms ...I could not control myself ... I had to ..." He sees tears roll down her cheeks ... "you used me .. you used me..." she accused him... Arrogance surfaces as he looks at her ... I used her ...yes I used her ... don't I have a right to use her that way after what she made me feel ... he feels familiar anger rise inside of him...anger towards her and at himself for wanting her .. desiring her ... anger towards Jo for walking into his life and turning it upside down ... he sees her body spasm as she was crying ... he hadn't meant to make her cry ..he wanted to scoop her in his arms and comfort her ... he slowly walks over to her ... kneels on the floor ..takes her hands into his and whispers .. look at me Jo ... she looked so vulnerable.. delicate and he had hurt her ...he hated himself for it ... "Jalal?" the softness of her voice surprised him... he increased the intensity of his gaze and looked deep into her eyes whispering "I'm sorry Jo... I gave you vodka ...the pinacoloda was laced with vodka" he lays his head on her lap and continues ... after I met you ... every time I closed my eyes I saw you ... I could not get you out of my thoughts ... the feelings and desire I had for you was so strong I could not sleep ...I tried to replicate the feelings I had for you, I went to find comfort with the one night stands ...he looks embarrassed yes I did only because I was stupid and dumb, I thought I could feel the things I felt with you with another but it did not happen, I could not..., I had no feelings ... I hate you for it... ... could not bring myself to do anything ... I began to think I was becoming impotent ... I had to prove to myself that I was not impotent ... you had asked for more time... the need I had to prove to myself that I could perform was overwhelming ... I dd not want to fail ... " For a while they sat together, holding hands ...her expressions were dazed ...almost disbelief ... she tries to understand his point of view ..."I'll do anything but please don't hate me" he whispered ...
Jo was hurt with more pain than she know how to bear ...but this was life ..she had to get on with it... he was her husband ... he wants me now, what if he grew bored ... would she loose her sanity... "Jo please forgive me..." he said quietly ... her palms were wet with his tears ... he was genuinely crying ... somewhere in her brain she knew she was giving in too easily ... she should not be letting him do this but did not have the energy to turn him away .. she wanted him and desired him as much as he did her ...instead of fighting him she hugs him, hold on to him tightly as they expel as much negativity as they could ... finally they become quite ... satisfied just holding each other .."if you let me, I'll never leave your side" he whispers .. he leans forward and kisses her forehead.. she sighs quietly and snuggles into his body... the exhaustion of the past night taking its course ... he picks her up and carries her to bed .. tilts her head and kisses her ... she kisses him back with all the passion she had ...her fingers tangle into his hair ... he continued his sweet and gentle kiss, his arms holding her safely against him .. his mood calmed her down .. his actions calmed her down .. his whole demeanor was like a drug that was slowly taking affect ... but in the warm embrace of Jalals arms she knew she finds strength enough for both of them...he has the flame of desire burning for her, she has enough fuel to feed that flame, the unrelenting force of her passionate nature bent to him at last ... she does not want to accept it, but she sees it as a hope for their future she wraps her arms around his neck hugging him and tucking her head against his shoulder thinking ... "this is comfort, this is my home.."
Edited by rexniko - 10 years ago
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