Very nice write up.
Fairly new to forum, love your posts.
Have been reading your old episode analyses. What a wonderful n thorough job you have done. Kudos to u.
I was initially very sad to see ja accusing jo n pushing her away.
I admired Jo's resilience n her undying love even in the face of rejection n cruel accusations from ja.
I liked how Jo did not break down n become too depressed or Run away from problems, but still had the spunk to come n confront ja about the ethicality of killing so many people in the name of angst, n pain. (I still can't accept Ektas justification of ja's mass murdering 30,0000 in chitoor in the name of jalal becoming jallad due to kids death),
Jo did not act like the guilty n hide from jas anger, I liked how she went to him and tried to reason with him,
she was just giving him time to recover from the loss, having rejected her, her love, the solace n comfort in her arms, n sharing the misery, ja was hurting even more,
Why did he do it? Accuse n reject her?
In addition to what others have said abt guilt n pain n hurting I wld like to add,
Ja cld have supported Jo, accepting their mutual mistake n guilt, comforted each other n gotten over the loss n pain relatively easily,
Ja cld have just blamed himself, his failure as a father n husband, Jo wld have comforted him n accepted the loss n gotten over it,
But he accused ja n hurt her n rejected her so she wldnt come to him to comfort him, n make him forget his loss n pain
for he wanted to hold on to his pain, holding on to the pain is holding on to his kids ,
Letting go of the pain n healing is letting go of his kids n slowly forgetting his kids.
He didn't want to heal, he didn't want to forget, instead he wanted to not let his sons go,
only when he is ready to accept that they r gone, only when he is ready to face the loss, his anger, n guilt will go n he can mourn, n heal, n go on with his life.
I am not justifying his actions.
Really liked the thilak scene.
When ja shouted that only the person who is supposed to do the rasam has to do it, I loved it for multiple reasons,
Finally he shouted at Ruks,(however silly the reason maybe, or even it was meant for her) he shouted at her, hoorah!
maybe he was trying to bend Jo to his will
Even after overtly pushing her off, he still wanted her to send him off with blessings
MYbe he was saying butt off Ruks, not your place, u stay where u r supposed to be, don't interfere
Maybe he is saying as a king I have my duties
Felt like there's still hope. If Jo had broken down wld have hated ja. Since Jo is strong n fighting for her love n seems to understand ja, I have decided to wait n watch what ja is going to do before giving up on JA or feel too upset about it.
P.s. Infant mortality was so high in those days, I guess people just attributed it to fate n will of god. Don't think people went berserk, they mourned but didn't loose thier heads like ja. They probably were more like Jo. Cvs threw in the love making, n guilt trip between Jajo, to move the story, n show war jalal.
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