Originally posted by: goofy
đĽłIndi Di
Love you ,you made my day... Yes my love is back ...đ¤đ¤
I felt Khushi's pain...but she brought him backđđź
Thnx Di â¤ď¸
Di I was thinking what you last time said and thought may be you want him to go closer to his mother as before reaching to his Khushi his head was on the car steering and he said maa...that was the moment I felt he wanted his maa and this accident can take him closer to her...I was discussing with Arshi Di a long time ago and she has her POV .I want yours.Plz
thanks for that lovely comment and all the hugs and awwws. goofy, good to see you. see he's back...
about that relationship with his maa. see, i am no psychologist, just going with my instinct. i feel a couple of things... a) everything slammed up and blocked off the pain in him when his mother went like that in a second in the middle of an argument on an evening when his di was to get married. only 14, your coping ,mechanism is not very evolved, hasn't seen catastrophe of that enormity ever before. i sense a sudden cut off inside him.
b) his feelings about maa, her death, his dad are still quite unresolved. at a rational level he knows his father is wrong, but its emotional impact is still unexamined... father is where trust is... he has broken that immeasurably. and maa, so much there still. he still wants her, needs her, ask her why maa, why did you leave me...
his anger is perhaps a sign of all that's choked inside... it is also possibly a trait of his dad's which he has whether he likes it or not.
but yes, his relationship with maa has still much to sort out and be distilled to the essential beauty of it. he will likely never ever be able to completely process the whole thing, but learn to forgive... though time to time as he grows older it will come and make him feel numb, weird, disconnected...
i could be way off the mark.
but a part of us always is alone... somethings are just in us, they can never be fully shared or understood. asr's feelings for maa will remain complex and his own. though there will be exploration of it, now that he feels a little safer... and as he experiences love, giving it, getting it... even more when he experiences fatherhood.
to answer your question: his has to find his way to maa before making any crucial emotional commitment... she was his guide about things that matter, values, conscience... he will seek her thoughts when he enters unknown heart territories. khushi somewhere makes him feel a safety and comfort perhaps the way his maa did. he can let go a bit. i often sense that for the first time since the death of his mother, arnav singh raizada feels like himself, all of himself with this jhalli babe he adores and who adores him right back.
ok sorry i bet i am sounding crazy... but hope something made sense.
Edited by indi52 - 12 years ago
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