SwaRon OS :Need You Now ...(current track) last part pg- 14 - Page 8

After a long gap I get to read something.. that too by you, Di.. So its out of question that readers can stop themselves from adding all the possible adjectives.. and thats what I wanna do... But before that I would like to throw some light on the expectations that all the viewers and ofcourse, SwaRon fans had... a proper and justified track abd not insensible cracks... But anyways expecting good things out of it.. is so not smart...

Anyways coming to the beautiful and well executed OS.. emotions well portrayed and everything being so good.. a well planned and amazingly penned...

Now all I can say is that I will be waiting for the next part 😉 waise I guess, I know woh knock ki aawaz kahan se aa rahi thi aur shayad yeh bhi ki 'kis'ki wajah se aa rahi thi 😛

Awesome part deepika😊😊😊 sorry for late reply... pat itna chotusa😭😭 pls continue soon

Mai padh liii finallyyy!!!! :* :* :*

This is so much better that what we got to see in the show. Balanced presentation of both of their thoughts after that incident. Both realizing where they went wrong, where they hurt the other one. Hopefully they will try to sort it out and ease each others pain.

Nicely written and this is what everyone would have loved to see in the show as well. Update the next part soon.

sorryyy for late reply

Hey Friends...Here is a final part of this OS..i am not satisfied with the outcome ..still I hope you all will like this OS... plz bear me with the mistakes..didn't get time to proofread ...😊

Thanks to My Partner(Nehal) and Harshi..for their help and support...😳🤗🤗

I hope you all will like it...SPEAKERS ON 😳

Chapter -2

Tak...tak...tak...tak...

She jerked up from her bed...hearing the noise...her eyes traveled across the room to find the source of the sound...the view in front of her eyes broke her heart into thousand pieces ...

He was standing on the other side of her window...his usual way...he had came through that way so many times...sometimes to conquer her love... to shower her with his care and affection...to clear misunderstandings...to make her feel loved...to make her feel special ...

He stood there yet again...those deep brown orbs which are usually filled with immense love for her ..were moist... His dreams ..his love for her..her reflection mirrored in those eyes got replaced with painful tears ... he never deserved this pain...she again cursed herself for hurting him...

The window was closed from inside...he wondered if that window was symbolizing the doors of her heart...which were sealed for him...the thought made him feel like someone squeezed his heart ruthlessly ...he felt his hand moving upwards and his palm rested on the glass surface of the closed window...he could see her clouded image through the glass...that blurred image failed to fulfill the craving of those brown orbs to hold her beautiful picture in them ..

She looked at him...all she wanted to do that moment was to run up to him and take him in her embrace...to soothe his injured heart with the warmth of her love...But... her guilt ...his pain ...snaked around her legs ...preventing her from moving further...

Me Swayam ko face kaise karungi...i left him the moment he needed me the most...

I questioned his love for me...how could I...how...how...

I left him all alone when he needed me ...the most..

Two pairs of eyes craving to hold the sweet image of their beloved in them were filled with salty tears of pain and guilt...he saw her standing lifeless ..She didn't know when she started moving towards him...She closed her eyes..trying to control...her heart...and mentally slapped herself ...trying to come out of his trance...but little did she know..his love was much more stronger than her guilt..her apprehensions...he was controlling every single body cell in her fragile self...her heart..her soul...her existence refused to obey her...they were listening to their master...who tamed them with endless and unconditional love ...

Before she could realize her position...she was standing near the window...his palm placed on the window surface reminded her the day he stood there to take her for their 1st date...she didn't notice when her hand followed his reflection trying to feel his presence around her.. The cold surface of the window glass was the obstacle to the warmth of their love reaching its destination. ...their beloved...their hands rested together with the fragile separator made of glass...

The delicate glass piece symbolized their ego...their guilt...their pain...which was stopping them from being with each other...

She stared at his foggy and pale image ...His puffy eyes,the fresh bandage on his wound...his usual bright face was looking dull...his bloated eyes...the same eyes which always reflect his care ,affection ,passion and love towards her ...her source of energy ,confidence...her source of life ...his eyes...Shedding blood instead of tears...the repentance of hurting him made her question the depth of her love...the ruthless guilt stabbed her fragile heart ...her apprehensions..her complexities...her fears echoed around her...

You don't deserve this pain Swayam...you don't deserve to suffer because of my confusions...my complexities...

I left you all alone..when you needed me..the most...

I don't deserve your love Swayam...i just dont deserve you...

Her guilt..her inhibitions..pushed her away from him...again..

He stared helplessly at her retreating figure...his broken heart...his injured self-esteem...his bruised existence...the concentrated pain ...the yearning of his heartbeats took over his entire existence ...loosing her forever was his gloomiest nightmare...

You can't leave me this time...i won't let you go Sharon...all I need this moment is you...

Bang...

The loud bang shook her out from her apprehensive musings...the scattered window glass pieces seemed to reflect her broken heart lying tattered but as she saw his injured fist oozing fresh blood, she seemed to feel the blood drain from her being...the piled up frustration and pain were finally making their way out with each drop of his blood...

What the hell...ye tumne...ye tumne kya kiya...she said ...looking at his blood-covered fist ...

Next chain of events happened in lightening speed ...she opened the window from inside and he entered into her room...

The moment he stood straight...he heard her voice...infuriated yet full of concern...

Tum...tum aakhir chahte kya ho Swayam...why are you hurting yourself...You know I can't see you like this...tears rolled down her cheeks ...

He just wanted to gather her in his arms..to suck those tears of sorrow ...to be the reason behind her smile..to make her feel loved...but there were many misapprehensions to be resolved..many open wounds to be taken care of...they needed to express those emotions hidden deep inside their hearts ...the emotional part of him was pleading near him not to hurt her anymore...the practical part of him suggested to make her express her apprehensions..her fears..her reasons...

He continued...

Why are you getting affected so much Sharon...you said I don't deserve your love...why are you so shaken to witness me in pain...

Shut up Swayam...i am not in mood to answer your worthless queries..just let me...She approached him trying to see his wound...he moved his hand ...not letting her touch him ...

Her eyes filled with tears of pain...guilt ...helplessness ... She tried to grab his hand again...but he flinched back...she was unable to place it...what was going on in his mind...he came there to see her, broke through the barrier that separated them, yet now he refuses to let her come close to him, tend to him, show him that she cares...

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Chapter - 3

Her heart was bursting with concoction of extreme emotions...pain...of spending all these days without him...guilt of hurting her love...his avoidance pulled the last trigger of her frustration...his love bejeweled her persona with the stratum of calmness...the fright of loosing him made her break all the self-imposed boundaries...

How dare you..how..how dare you...the hurt tigress inside her roared...

He chose to ignore her...he was tired of those verbal wars...

Mr Swayam Shekhwat..i am talking to you ...she yelled at the top of her voice..

He remained silent...those taunts for each other...those allegations of ruining their relationship in each others eyes...there was a time he used to find traces of love in her hateful words...again history was repeating itself...their love was proving its existence through hatred...

Shayad galti kar di mene yahan aa kar...he finally spoke...his words worsened her devastated state even more... Mujhe yahan se chalna chahiye...i was so wrong to think that things can be fine between us... He started leaving ...turned around towards the window...

Those were the last words she heard ...she felt like somebody stabbed her heart with a knife... she couldn't believe that he has lost all hopes on their relationship...the person who never stopped loving her no matter what happened...decided to leave her all alone...one mistake and she lost him forever ...the pain was unbearable for her... it acted as fuel to her frustration ...her anger...she was losing control on herself...Control...the word which defined Sharon Raiprakash... A part of her shattered inside ...the other part of her claimed her rights on him...

Don't you dare ...don't you dare leave me like this... She ran towards him ... grabbed his shirt collar. ...made him turn around ...facing her...

The chain of events that happened in past few days...were they sufficient to snatch all my rights on you...tell me Swayam...she didn't notice when her trembling hands grabbed his collar...her tears were demanding his answer...his voice...but he reciprocated with lethal and icy silence...

Answer me Swayam...tell me ...why are you doing this...your silence is breaking me...its killing me every passing moment...being away from you is like slow poison...its taking my life slowly ...its torturing me...her shivering hands...her shaky voice shook him from inside.. Sh..Sharon..he tried to interrupt...being worried about her deteriorating health ... Please let me complete Swayam...i am not done yet... Don't I possess even the right to heal your wounds...Punish me if I am wrong...please don't let your silence punish me..your taunts..your hurtful words...they don't hurt me Swayam..they rupture my heart..my soul.. When you hurt yourself..you hurt me ...indirectly...

I am sorry Swayam...I broke my promise...its just that I didn't want to spoil our moment of togetherness for my impulsive decision ...that day I vented out my anger on you by signing the contract...I never thought a piece of paper and a few lines written on it will break us apart...trust me Swayam...i never discussed our problems with anyone ..i am extremely possessive about you...i can't even think of sharing you with anyone even for a moment...everything related to you...be it our moments of love...or our fights...every single thing related to you is too precious to share with any third person...Rey getting to know about our problems was just a miscommunication...that day when I saw you dance with Aashi...i felt the pain you were experiencing since so many days...my concentrated guilt...pain...jealousy ...possessiveness - all took the form of tears...Rey concluded you as the reason behind my tears... I can never share anything related to you with anyone else...they are too precious for me to share with any third person..not even with my best friend...trust me Swayam..

I was too shocked to react when Rey slapped you..within a few seconds my whole world was annihilated ...i was not in my senses to react to it...i know you needed my support...when your best friend accused you of being insensitive...when he questioned your love..your trust..your commitment...i could have stopped him...but I was jolted...when I realized my position things were already beyond my grasp...i was searching for you the whole night...the pain of being away from you, not knowing your whereabouts...the fear of losing you..came out as those hurtful words..i said you don't deserve my love...you are the person who taught me the meaning of love..who introduced me to this heavenly feeling ..you deserve every ounce of my love in my being and much more...

He was looking at her ...for the first time in these 1.5 years ...she was expressing herself so openly ...she was not the diva the world knew ...she was his SHARON...his simple ,sweet and innocent Sharon ...who feels the pain after hurting him ... he was waiting for her to complete ...he knew ...there were lots of things she wanted to say ...

I have always enjoyed material comforts in life but at the expense of a steady emotional support system around me ... I had created a shield around me to guard myself, to make sure no body would dare to mess around with me, play with my feelings, even at the cost of hiding the real me...all that everyone saw was just a pretension ...then you happened to me ...you broke that shield and read me like an open book ... and I started expecting too much from you ...your next to perfect behavior made me think that you can do nothing wrong ... So when your reacted like a normal human of flesh and blood...who gets hurt..who feels pain..who has the right to be wrong sometimes ...I forgot that u are also a young guy ... trying to behave maturely in his first relationship...am sorry for saying those harsh words to you ... Its not u who doesn't deserve me ... its me ...I am the one who doesn't deserve u ...this is why I always pushed u away from me ...u r too good for me ...She was in pain ...she was choking due to crying...

Please don't ignore me Swayam...i wont be able to bear that pain ...i can't even think of my life without your love... i hope you still love me ...i hope ...she started sobbing uncontrollably ... fell on her knees ...hiding her face with her hands..

He looked at her ...she was looking different from her usual self... she was just a simple, confused, insecure girl madly in love with him ...it was not her fault completely...neither was he wrong ...it was just a test of destiny...which would make their love stronger than ever... he looked at her...a girl who wanted to be with him in all ups and downs of life..who wanted him to be her sheet anchor... and he would do it ...till his last breath ...he promised to himself...

He gathered her broken frame in his embrace...his eyes which were desperate to hold her image in them absorbed her reflection... I love you Sharon...I really do...I can't stop loving you even if I want to ...its not that i didn't try ...i tried ...not to love you ... but bloody hell hota hi nahi ...my heart always takes your side ... I love you...i will love till my last breath...marte dum tak pyar karta rahunga tumhe... Her heart..her soul...each and every part of her existence were craving to hear those magical words from him...her swollen eyes again became teary...but these were the tears of happiness ..of getting back her love...

He looked her moist eyes...his trembling hands caressed her face...

I am really sorry Sharon that i overreacted...those hurtful words.. trust me..I didn't mean even a single one of them ... I was angry ...frustrated ...I was angry on you because you were not there when I needed you ... I was hurt...frustrated...for that moment I wished you could feel my pain...i wanted you to experience the pain I was going through...of being away from my love...i forgot...you are going through the same pain...in fact your wounds were even more painful...being away from your love...losing his trust on you...i wanted you to take my side in front of Rey...maybe u supported me in front of him later ... But I wanted you to be by my side that moment... ... I know I was wrong ...I was wrong to be mad at u ...for ignoring you...for accusing you for the mistakes you never committed ... I was wrong to hurt the girl who loves me so dearly ...trust me Sharon ...I never wanted to question your feelings for me...I didn't want to break your heart ...because my heart also broke with yours ...

He took her into his embrace ... moving his hand on her back ...caressing her ...To make her stop crying ...she was still sobbing slowly ...she looked into his eyes ... she could see her image in those deep dark brown orbs ... he was looking at her with all his love and affection ...as if his eyes wanted to convey her that he still loves her ...just like before ...he still loves her like his princess...

He continued...

It was you...who never let me lose hope on our love...when you wanted to express your hatred thorough these eyes...the love hidden deep inside your heart was visible through your eyes...when you wanted to show your disapproval for my love through your harsh words...the quivering in your voice gave me the hope to hold on to our love...whenever you tried to push me away ...your touch made my belief in our love even stronger...it was not only me...who believed in this love...it was always US...

I m sorry swayam...I insulted your love ...I don't deserve your love ...i don't deserve you ...you were always there to support me...but I left you all alone ..when you needed me ...she said still sobbing softly...

He grimaced at her innocence...he stroked her hair...tightened his grip on her tiny frame...

I am insecure , confused, arrogant , hyper ,impulsive ... I don't know how to control my feelings when it come to you ...I loose control in front of you ...my body ,mind ,heart everything refuse to listen to me when you are around ...you never loose control ...you are always your perfect self...balanced ..always doing the right thing ...while trying to control myself in front of you...I end up doing something stupid ...which hurts you.. her eyes were still moist...

He placed his finger on her lips...not letting her continue ...

Shhh ..I am not perfect Sharon...You are not perfect.. life won't be perfect every day ...we have to make it perfect with our imperfections...You and I in a moment will make it perfect ...

I need you...to make this moment perfect...

Next moment he kept his lips on hers ... kissed her with all his love and affection...it was not aggressive ...it was tender ...as if she is the most fragile thing on earth... as if she was made of glass ...she will break if he wont handle her carefully ...he took her in his arms and lifted her slightly ...she went on her toes to come to his level ... the kiss went on to be passionate ... she was softly pulling his hair while running her hands in them ...he was holding her waist ... They didn't want to break apart even after they started panting ...finally he pulled out and took her in his arms...her eyes...her forehead...he kissed her jaw line ...her neck ...then he started kissing her bare shoulder...he just wanted to express all his love and care for her ...after sometime he held her protectively in his arms ... she kept her head on his chest ... Listening to his heart beats...which chanted her name ...

They stood like that ...in each others embrace ...they didn't know how much time passed ...they were craving for this intimacy since long time ...finally when they were so close to each other ...they didn't want the moment to get over...

Sorry Swayam for hurting you so much...she murmured after sometime ..

You talk too much ...she heard him saying..

Compensate for those days you were not there with me ...he said...with a naughty glint in those brown orbs...

Her beautiful eyes widened due to confusion...

My compensation...He said shushing her with a gesture of his fingers to his lip...

A faint rosiness crept on her tear -stained face...she blushed thousand shades of red and nodded her head in negative..

Compensation nhi toh punishment hi sahi...he chuckled

Last thing she remembered he zeroed the distance between their lips...that moment etched in time became a perfect witness to two souls lost in love ...

i know its super long..don't know what exactly i have written as wrote in a flow ..sorry if it made u sleep...really sorry for the length ...didn't divide it in parts as it will ruin the flow..

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