Gar Mjhy Ko Yaqeen hota#2.last part ..pg 15..13/04

It is a sleepless night for him, he kept hugging her pretty tightly. And kept blaming himself for all this misunderstanding and her suffering, she suffered way too much and it was paining him more than what he felt for himself…

It wasn't a complain, neither it was a reaction to her thoughts; it was mere pain, a feeling always inside him, a scene of belonging he seek always. Within a night he went through all 28 years of his life, he went back to evry little time he was judge, evry time he was accused of being rude, indifferent and all, evrytime people believing he is so much into himself tht he doesn't need anyone. But this times when it cums from her mouth, it pained more than he evry thought, more than anyone had effect him, more than maybe she meant, it was as if she was standing among all those people, whom, as he walked in life, bypassed considering they donot define him, yet she does, she does define him and he donot want himself for a second to look at her, or place her even for a second among those..

It was a reaction towards himself, his Lord, his helplessness, his efforts of making himself more expectable towards ervyone. Not actually everyone, it has always been for her, and will remain for her only.

.his firm grip and his flick eyes on her shoulder, she felt sutmhing she slightly moved when he realized he was hugging her to tightly. He slightly loss his grip and she turned around in his arms to hug him and went into her deep slumber.. he was all awake, and was stroking her hairs to feel her, to let himself believe that she isnst going anywhere. She is nt leaving him.

Mayank: no matter what has happened all previously, no matter how much I have made her believes wrong, I won't let her go away from me. I won't loss her no way.. I have to make her know tht there was nothing between me and gunjan ever.. I know she believes it now, with my words when I said gunjan and Samrat are together from always.. she knew it than that there was nothing between us… but still I have to be carefull.. all those thoughts tht appears in her mind previously should nevr came agin in her thoughts.. I will make sure that.. I won't loss the only relation I have.. I love her and I know she loves me to .. is k elawa aur koi sach nhi hai… is k elawa aur kuch yaad rekha bhi nhi chahta mein… whtevr she though previously he can erased it completely from her mind and his too.. he will do this…

It is easy to say all this yet it is difficult to make it happen,

The wind move inside and ruffled his hair, slightly rubbing his forehead making him close his eyes..

I know it isn't, sometimes I feel we all so overlooked everything nah… the curtains flew..

Ya we all are too responsible for all this.. but I know sumthing he loves her too much to even to remember all this.. the wind softly caressed him as his fingers were still caressing her…

Morning came and he slept finally at somewhere at death of night.. she opened her eyes and found him pretty close to her.. she smiled and kissed her forehead.. and with that he too opned his eyes.. her smiling face and loved filled eyes, were only sight he desire for, and that reminded of his promised to himself all night.. but she can feel sumthing strange in his eyes..

Nupur: koi baat hai na kya mayank…

Mayank: han thi.. per ab nhi hai…

She frown a bit…

Mayank: I can make it alright… we can.. hain na

Nupur: han.. per

Mayank: koi baat nhi hai nupur…

Nupur: sach…

Mayank: he smiled and kissed her forehead assuring…

Nupur: maza aay ga na mayank.. khub masti kerain gay Samrat ki engagement mein… kuch specially kertay hain..

He supported his head with his hand.. to look at her…

Mayank: kya..

Nupur: kya kya… ap dono k sab se best jantay ho.. Specially gunjan ko.. tu batay na us ny kuch tu socha hoga..

Mayank: a sudden frown appear on his face, and abit restlessness to.. it seems he even didn't want to hear about all this.. mjhy kya pata k woh kya chahti hai…

Nupur: aray yeah kya baat hoi .. khabi ap dono ny is baat per baat nhi ki..

Mayank: nupur.. hum dono is baat per kyun baat kerain ga.. mein us k dost tha koi boyfriend thori..

She was abit surprised on this remark of his..though his tone was highly soft and assuring..neither he was taunting nor he was scolding he was justifying like tht…

Mjhy kasay pata hoga..hmm.. Samrat ko hi pata hoga…mjhy tu sab se better tum janti hoon… mein tumhain lagta hai us ki itni personal dream filled talks me khabi interested honaga.. humaray beech dosti zaroora hai per itna deeply mein nhi jata… nhi khabi jana chaha.. asa kuch bhi nhi hai.. aur han.. dekho yeah sab tum pls sambhal layna mjhy door rehny do..

Nupur: mayank apky bhai aur apki best frnd ki engagement hai aur ap.. ji nhi.. ap meray sath shopping per bhi jaygay.. aur arrangements bhi dekhy ga… as mjhy itna idea nhi hai Samrat aur gunjan ki choice k…

Mayank: tumharay sath chalo ga.. but gunjan aur Samrat ki choice k mjhy bhi zayda nhi pata… tum dekh layan .. chalo mein fresh hony jaraha hoo..

Saying so he get up and went to freshen up, he donot want to talk abt them, certainly not..

Nupur: kamal hai mayank.. ap tu asay kaha rahy ho jasay ap k koi talluq hi nhi hai… dekhti hoon kasay bhagtay hoo… chalo shopping k liyan tu razi hoay…atleast..baqi bhi hojay gay…

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Siting in his office he was thinking of all that he made worng, all that were he lacked, he was actually pointing everything that he knew he hasent done,

Confessions… sigh.. that is difficult for him. Yet he will try , he have…

Spending time.. he has been doing this from past few weeks as things get settle, but these days its difficult, as gunjan is busy in his engagement celebration and he himself has told her to forget work and do them, so he is all on his mangaging all work, yet he will do something on this regard to, it will making things very hectic yet he will do…

Making everything clear whenever he is with Gunjan… he has to make sure that he tells nupur each n everything to clearly..

Thinking about all these areas he was abit satisfied atleast he know how he will do this…

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Chachi: gunjan kyun nhi ai abhi tak.nupur zara mayank se poch.. us ko zaroor pata hoga..

Nupur: ji pochti hoon..

She went in study and encircled her arms around his neck, and he smiled and turned his head back a bit…

Mayank: kya hua…

Nupur: ap ko do din day rahin hoon mein.. apna kam khatam ekrain… phir mera sath shopping per jana hai apny… aur phir Samrat k sth..

Mayank: Samrat k sth tu mein aj jata hoon…. Us k sath shopping kerna buhat muskil kam hai… us ko kuch samjh nhi any wala… super excited hai woh…

She chuckled and he joined him too….

Nupur: us ki engagement hai after all…. Buhat khush hai wasy woh…

Mayank: buhat zayda.. actually kisi ny bhi nhi socha tha k yeah itni jaldi hojay ga…. He really love her a lot..

Nupur: wasy gunjan bhi buhat pyar kerti hai us se…

Mayank: han I know… hamesha se kerti hai…

Nupur: dekhy jo pochny aai thi woh tu bhol gai… gunjan kaha hai

Mayank: mjhy kya pata…

Nupur: nhi I mean us ki koi meeting hai kya.. us ko ana tha abhi…

Mayank: ab mjhy kasay pata… mein koi us per check tu nhi rekhta na… Samrat se pocho us ko pata hoga… gunjan k baray mein sab kuch mjhy kyun pata hoga… mein us se na tu sawal kerta hoon aur na hi us ko koi jawab dayta hoon.. yeah tumhara haq hai us k thori… yeah department Samrat k hai..

Nupur: koi baat hai kya.. ap ki aur gunjan ki lari hoi hai kya…

Mayank: nhi.. kyun…

Nupur: nhi mjhy lag jasay apdono k peech kuch thik nhi hai… aj kal buhat kam hotay hain ap loog sath…

Mayank: tu obviously… meri apni life hai.. mjhy time milay ga tu mein apny ghar ko tu gana.. us k sath faltu mein thoir raho ga…us k dath kam hoga ya koi baat hogi tu hi raho ga…. han woh alag bbat hai k kam hota tha pehly tu almost 24/7 us k sath rehna parta tha… woh mera kam tha… us se zayda aur kuch nhi…

Nupur: mayank… ap explanation kyun day rahy ho… mein ny yeah thori pocha k ap us k sath kyun hotay ho… I trust u and I know ur relation…

She felt sumthing in her heart, as if she was betraying him, his explanation towards gunjan and his relation made her feel very guilty, she was back to the old time…

Mayank: Samrat se poch lo us ko pata hoga… us k pal pal ki khabar woh rekhta hai… wasy aj sham mein chai(tea) milny k koi program nhi hai kya…

She smiled ..

Nupur: nhi study mein chai peena mana hai… neechy aay.. sab k sath milay gi…

Mayank: asa hai kya…

Nupur: ji haan

Mayank: thik hai ..ab itna tu man paray ga.. atay hain…

She chuckled

Moving outside she was still in his word, it is so unlike him to say sumthing and that is when there was no question about so… khir forget it…

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Working in office he was distracted by Nupur's call

Mayank: hey nupur… kya hua sab thik hai

Nupur: nhi.. sab garbar hai…

Mayank: KYA HUa..

Nupur: aray baba mazak ker rahi hoon…. Aj ap ghar jaldi asaktay hain

Mayank: depend kerta hai k mjhy kyun ghar jaldi bolaya jaraha hai…

Nupur: mein ny chachi bola rahin hai apko ghar jaldi …

Mayank: kyun koi kam hai..

Nupur: han woh actually caterer aur baqi sab k baray mein help chahiy … tu islayn

Mayank: acha mein try kerta hoon…

Gunjan: mayank chalo…. Foran…

Mayank: araha hoon..

Gunjan: sath chalty hain…

Mayank: nhi tum jao mein baat ker raha hoon…

Gunjan: okay…

Mayank: thik mein try kerta hoon, abhi tu meeting hai, gunjan bhi hai aur baqi employees k sath.. ek term complete hoa hai tu us ki details layni hain.. zayda tarah HR k area Gunjan dekhti hai ,..tu us k hona zaroori hai…

Nupur: han thik hai… mein chachi ko bata dayti hoon…ap kam kerain..bye

Mayank: bye..

Nupur: yeah mayank ko kya hua hai…. She chuckled and left to tell chachi…

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Tumhain paa k khona meray bus mein nhi

Ab koi aur zakhm pirona mere bus mein nahi

Khushion ki aakhiri umeed le k aya hoon teray daar per

Dhukhon me ab or rona meray bus mein nhi