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Originally posted by: AnjaliARTI
beautiful update...😃
thanks alot dear
awww.. this was amazing!!
thanku
sweet & cute updt fiza
cont soon
thanks for the pm
thanks alot dear...
will cont soon
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Originally posted by: AnjaliARTI
beautiful update...😃
awww.. this was amazing!!
sweet & cute updt fiza
cont soon
thanks for the pm
Amazing update Fiza,I loved Mayur scenes,i loved the way they accepted so easily their new step and did not feel uncomfortable,
i loved how Nupur is trying to make him understand he has his own life too except Work..loved thheir romantic stuble momentsloved itcontinue soon
Originally posted by: parul_bansal
awesomest update di...
omg their bonding is increasing day by day..n i m loving it👏n the way they accepted each other is toh hayeeen all credit goes to u 4 writing in such a serene way...loved itthanks 4 the pmmay god blees u
Originally posted by: crazymayurian
this is sooo beautifull
i really luvedd iteverything is coming out and is openningdo write soon
Originally posted by: kheya-mayur
sory for late reply ...last night went to sleep early n in bed just was thinking to coment here today to remind u dat its UPDATE TIME.
but opening forum saw ur pm...u r gonna live long haaa😉
update was awsom ...it brought tears of happyness in my eyes .
thxxx
beautiful update
Very Nice
Originally posted by: vinan2050
awsm update yarrr u r too gd thanx fr PM and CSI kab start ho rha hain
this part of all the others inthis ff is the most ...searching for aword...settled in part...
👏
thanks for the pm.
Originally posted by: arhi_maneet
AWESOME UPDATE!!
Originally posted by: --Ruchi--
Awww..its so beautiful and soothing update Fiza di.
Nicely written and I love Mayur scene...Nupur is right...and love both shayries...beautiful they are❤️
wow- fiza another beautiful update...
it was fill of soft romance
i really loved their soft romance and strong bonding...
wow wow wow... it was truly amazing...
loved it jani... wht a udate...gosh☺️ i was feeling bliss myself while reading it...yar a biggg huggg to uuu awsome writer... 👏pls udate soon this part...love ya jani🤗
Originally posted by: avani_sharma02
i LOVED it...!!!!!!!! it was amazing!!!!!!!!!! beautifully written...you described emotions of both amazingly...stunning...continue soon and do pm me...😊
Hey Guys replied to you all… can check if u want to..thanks for ur lovely comments..
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Mayank: what…. Yeah ek dam se kya hua hai…
Samrat: chup … bhai sehab ap pls koi harkat nhi kerna..woh actually khud se razi hoi hai..
Nupur: woh really khud se razi hoi hai
Mayank: mein khud pochta hoon us se.. Gunjan..
Gunjan: donot ask me anything…
Nupur: gunjan.. are u sure.. sirf kisi ko khush kerny k liyan yeah sab ker rahi hoo.. tu na kero.. tum dono k is se khushi milni chaiy..
Mayank: correct..
Gunjan: nupur mjhy shadi se koi buhat bari problem nhi hai… bus time k masla hai … han but.. sagai kerny mein koi problem nhi hai
Nupur: aray wah… yeah tu superb news hai… ek them grand function kerain gay
Samrat: yeah hoi na baat… bhabi shopping start kerdo…
Mayank: congrats.. ab Samrat sab ko shopping kerway ga
Samrat: tum baray bhai hoo.. tum ko sambhaalna chaiy na..
Nupur: kitnay kanjoss hai aplog… khabi khabi tu hum kharach kertay hain…
Mayank: chachi.. se tu baat kerlo… un ko tu batao..
Samrat: woh tu keray ga
Mayank: kyun meri shadi hai.. khud baat ker….noways
Samrat: bhai nhi hai kiya
Mayank: nhi
Samrat: acha tu meray sath rehna plss…
Mayank: acha thik hai…
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After talking with chachi and with all the leg pulling and plannings, he excuses himself from all to enter his room, saying he has some work. From the moment he has returned home he was dying to go in his room, and now when he has entered its already night...
Moving in his room, entering the dressing area, he slides the door to open Nupur's part of wardrobe, taking out and envelope from his pocket, he placed it in her wardrobe, but then thought that it will fall down with cloths, so he thought of placing it beneath the first dress… and slides it..
The envelope had two return tickets of Rome, he has a conference in Rome for 2 days next week, that day when she said she likes Rome, he thought why not he and nupur can go there, so he ask gunjan that he himself will go..and received a high teasing session that he is planning a honeymoon.. He himself is smiling all the way today, it is actually warming his heart. He and her alone for sometime far away from all these worries, work and thoughts, will give him a break too and he will be able to spend time with her, finally he can do so. He was actually finding himself a bit stupid why he is so excited about her reaction, the time, and the trip.
As soon as he placed the envelope and turned back his watch got stuck in her cloth and some of them fall down
Mayank: crab..
he looked around and quickly placed them back ..his eyes caught the view of a book lying down, he smiled looking at it, it's the same diary she use to write and somhow she has stoped doing so these days..
His smiled turned into a curious frown, as his eyes fall on the page tht was opened..
"why mayank why you did this to me…why.."
He took the diary and closed it..but then why she has written so, what I have done, his heart was getting restless and his throat was getting dried, a strange kind of fear was engulfing inside him. He placed the diary back.. it isn't right to read someone's personal diary. But than what it is, he was about to close the door back, yet he wasn't able to. I have to know wht I am doing to her, she never complains but is there something he has done…
He took the diary and hided and went to the terrace, he opened it and a random page opened…
"I look up to the lord helplessly, why me, u know I have no one to hold, no one to live for, than why your making my only relation turn into sour, my only dream in a night mare. Why r u snatching the person I depend my being on. Why you always make the people I love the most go far from me, why I am always left helpless. Why cant just one someone hold me near telling he cant live without me, why I just cant be something useful not unwanted in someoens life, why I just cant be perfect for him, why I cant get his love..why Mayank..when u don't love me why u did so."
His breath got stuck, and he was too numb,he couldn't understand a word of this, why she is saying so when she herself knows how much he loves her, infact he keep hearing this from her that he loves her so much, than what is this, he was feeling scared, scared to read further, he was scared to know, what he is actually perceiving, he was fearing that he has lost her…
Nupur entered the room, and saw him in terrace, he opend his laptop immediately hiding the diary beneath his laptop..
Nupur: ap phir se kam kernay bhait gay…she pouted..
He looked up to her, and she felt a plank in her heart, is she reading right, there are questions in them, he was finding himself in her eyes, he was tracing her smile , her expressions… his eyes were continuously searching something in her..but what
Nupur: kya hua mayanak…she asked worriedly..
Mayank: he gathered some courage as his voice was betraying him, he wants to hid himself in her, and threw away all these words, yet his heart wants to read what he has done to her that made her write such for him, were he lacked..he swallowed some saliva to wet his throat..
Mayank: kuch nhi..he smile faintly… bus thora kam hai in sab baato mein mein ker nhi paya. Tum plz aram se so jao..okay..
Nupur: she felt his voice a bit shivery..she placed her hand on his shoulder, koi baat hai mayank..
Mayank: he moved aways his eyes from her…taking her hand he kissed her knuckles.. koi baaat nhi hai nupur, bus kam k thora tension hai… tum so jao pls… tumhara kam wasy bhi ab bahrny wala hai…good nite…
Nupur: okay…good nite…
She went to bed and lie down, as yes she herself was a bit tired and he kept staring the sky for some time, he looked back form terrace and felt she is deep sleep, placing his lappy aside, he took a deep breath and open the diary…
And this time from start..
"The first morning of my life was strange in this house, there was happiness no not at all, I even have nothing to feel, but Mayank is a great man at heart, he did whatever he can to make me comfortable..meeting Samrat and Chachi was amazing feeling they actually let me feel that I am wanted here..
He smiled reading this, and felt his breath coming back, he took a deep breath and proceed further
"Than mayank introduced me to Gunjan
Looking at her I smile and she forced her lip to curve, as not to insult my gesture, a whispered "hey" went out of her mouth as moan, her eyes were completely glued on the figure behind me, it has questions, pain, reluctance, silence…a dreadful silence…which now made my heart feared, and sunk. "
Mayank was surprised to read this.. he recalled that morning and then remembered how gunjan was so angry on him, but what nupurs heart feared for..
He turned some pages to go further..
"Gunjan and Mayank are the two of the bestest friends and are best at everything
As samart says that thy can do any thing if are together ..and as always together they indisputable, n some how seems to be incompletely without eachother…there is a strange kind of aura of peace whn they are together, specially mayank , he behave so care free with her, as if there is now worry surrounding him neither will surround him "
He smiled reading this, he was fearing so stupidly, see how much she understand his relations and how beautifully she has explained them, he is so proud of her, so much, how much she actually can see him…she is the only one who see him as him…smilingly he turned the page further, it was warming his heart, her words for him are too too precious and he was actually engrave each of them in his heart….
"I was listening to her talks and she was narrating biography of Mayank Sharam, she knew him to well. Everything related to him is known to her. From his biggest achievement to his worse losses. She is in and out world of mayank Sharma. Wao wht a friend ship it is."
A frown appear in his forehead, is he reading write between the lines..why there is so much of gunjan in it….
"GOD ..i don't want to doubt the only relation that is left in my life but somehow I know this relation, I have snatch unknowingly from some one. And tht some one is surly GUNJAN…"
His eyes widen and he read it again n again , and every time he read this he felt his heart shout at fullest NO.. it's not like that, how cum she can even thing that me and gunjan..oh my god.. oh my god… wht she is thinking ..oh my god…but why.. us k asa laga bhi kyun
"He hates people waiting for him but he loves to make gunjan wait for him, calling him again n agin, irritating her to death. A strange smile I always find on his face, a strange satisfaction knowin that he has that impact on her."
He was reading all this and he was breathing heavily, his heart was sinking, he was feeling his nerves going dead, Nupur tum asa kasay soch sakti hoo, asa kasay..
He placed his head back on swing and closed his eyes, and felt someone has taking his heart in to fist and twisting it, again n again… with every word further he read his heart was twist, taking out each drop of blood away from his heart
"Who's this side I am standing and other side Mayank. I can look at him clearly but as I touch him, I found it just mere a reflection of dreams that are far to be access in reality …"
As he found gunjan is not going look at him.. God he is behaving like a child whos most precious possession is back with him, so tu hai. I loved to accompany u in party Mayank, but I dont want to spoil ur celebrations"
Oh god..mjhy laga tum abhi itny pain se guzari ho socialize nhi kerna chahti..aur tum… ofcource mein khush tha….samrat ko gunjan waps mili thi, meri best friend kahin nhi jarahi thi, but yeah sab sab se pehly mein ny tum se share kiya tha nupur… sirf tum se…
God Nupur..tum ny kiya kiya soch liya,,ek baar ek baar mjhy se tu poch liya hota.. mein ny har lamha tum se pyar kiya, tum meray aur gunjan per doubt kasay ker sakti ho.. I use to told u each n evry little detail about her and me, everything takay tum khabi bhi asa kuch na socho, agar asa hota tu mein tum se chupata na, why would I tell u …evry detail..mein ny tum ko apni har baat mein , her waqt mein shamil rekha.. woh meray routine k kam ho ya meri office ki problems mein tum se sab share kerta tha…phir yeah sab….
"Now the only matter that is left is to ask mayank about my exist. God just for 4 days its so difficult to ask him, god know what will happen to me when I 'll ask the freedom from his life. Its paining just to thinking he will happily say yes to me"
So u lie to me, u actually wanted to leave.. woh job layna… I was right that time, I was reading u right, there was problem and it was me.. I made u so suffocated tht u have want to escape, to .. to… go away from .. me… u left me… u left me…I made u so much in pain.. his breath was getting uneven and his vision was getting blurred
"The night was sleepless for me, I was looking at him, doing what I enjoy the most, caressing his hairs. After such tiring day he always sleep like a child, and so he donot notice a single time my hands in his hairs. A deep breath as feeling of not able to feel his touch for 4 days is sinking me, no wonder how im gonna live for alife time"
I didn't knew this, I , I didn't knew this, how cum I won't know it, stupid no body sleep so dead tht can feel someone hands caressing his scalp, cant u see my expression, they always use to smile when u slides ur fingers in, I always u to move towards u to make it more comfortable for u…tum ny yeah sab kyun nhi dekha…
"He left n I closed the door n dropped myself on floor..this was it…this was it, I lost him completely. The feeling he is gonne from mylife ..oh GOD this pain is not toleratable..its killing me, it's just killing me to death.
KYUNNN…was the only scream I could make….wch turned in to whispers of this question again n again as I cant hear any answers, the only sound I can hear was the of my heart that was shattering, screaming, aching…"
It was nupur's word who were screaming and it was his heart who was screaming at top KYUN… why it happen to me
"I have to move out today, need to talk to the stake owner of this house now, if he can let me live here, will talk to the estate agent. Else wil have to find a house on rent, I have some money in my account so start of life atleast financially will be fine"
If that I wouldn't have gone to your house, tu tum hamesah k liyan mjhy… this was even difficult for him to say… itna bara fasal kerny se pehly ek bar mjhy se baat tu ki hoti…
He closed the diary with a jerk..the picture of all the moments were rewinding in front of him, her evry little thing was..even the surprised look when he went to bring her back, hearing about gunjan n Samrat..all was cuming back agin n again….
His lips were shivering, he was moving to and for, his eyes was searching someone in sky.. he was feeling pain..to much of pain… he placed his hand on his heart and slightly rub it… he was actually feeling his breath stopped, his voice lost…
He hided his face in his plam, this is getting difficult, no isn't difficult he is feeling like helpless person, the proudnes he always have for Nupur's trust, nupur know me, nupur read my silence, nupur never judge me, nupur loves me as wht I am, nupur , nupur, nupur…he sigh deeply to stop the tears to fall from his eyes,
3 months, 3months I gave her so much pain, so much that she decided to leave me, so much that she has to return to her home alone, alone, she spend two nights there, alone, with hunted memories of her brothers.. She decided to take job and settle fincailly…God I was blind ..wht u were mayank Sharma… u claim to love her.. and u made her life hell..
He chuckled painfully, meri khamoshi koi nhi parh sakta, khamoshi koi kasay parhy ga mayank, tum ny kasay soch liya k jab koi khabi tumhari khamsohi nhi smahj saka tu… Nupur.. woh kasay samhjti..woh tu kuch dino se tumhari ziandagi mei aai thi… tum is ko is vaade per laya thy k tum us ko us gum se bahar nikalo gay..tum ny tu us ko andhay kooay mein thak day diya…
Meri nupur bhi nhi samjhi mjhy…meri nupur bhi nhi…I don't blame her, but with this my hope that alteast a person was there who reads me, lost away , the person I love the most hold me they no one does, the believe that my love is close to my soul, all fade away..
He looked up to sky and smile sarcastically..
Mayank: so apko tu buhat acha lag raha hoga na, mein tu buhat proud feel ker raha tha, rooz kahta tha ap se k dekho, I have someone who understands me, who is closer to me than my soul, I live in her.. huh.. sab lay liya apny mjhy se… sab kuch phir se wahin agaya… apko khabi bora nhi lagta mjhy asay akela dekh ker..khabi bora nhi lagta apko… ek nupur hi tu thi..phir mera bahram kyun thor diya.. rekh laytay tu kya hojata..mjhy yeah sab kahbi na pata chata tu kya hota.. per nhi apko tu bata na tha that wht a looser I am.. wht a person I am.. khud ko tu mein khabi kuch dayni paya Nupur ko duniya kya do ga…. Itna akela kerdiya mein ny us ko itna akela… KYUNNN..
He hold his hairs in his hand, feeling like screaming loud, he took his fist in mouth to hold his scream, biting it in frustration…
Kyun mjhy koi nhi smahjta,…. Kyun mjhy asa banya hai apny… kyun banya hai asa mjhy.. kya kero mein..
He was sitting on the swing completely broken helpless and shattered… he has nothing to say, nothing to explain no one to blame…
His life has always been such, nobody ever tried to read him correctly, his father thought he miss his mom that's why is such, after his father his family thought he had become silenced that is actually arrogant and rude due to his pain, his life struggled has made him more and more quite, time will heal him… he never feeling like talking to someone, as everyone misjudge his words even,more of this nobody was actually interested in him.. but noboday never thought , he really want support, a friend, a partner, and when he was feeling his life has turn in to heaven, his whole world got shattered ..completely..
Sitting there liking a useless, looser he tried to collect himself, his vision was still blurred, his eyes were still moist, after like 20 years he shed A tear, and that took away everything with it.. he stod up from there and walk like a dead man, placed his laptop on table..
Taking the diary he slides her wardrobe door, and placed the diary were it was previously, he was closing the closet and something struck him, he reopen it and took out the envelope of ticket, and placed it in his drawer locking it, maybe for ever… all this excitement the feeling, the ecstasy died inside him, everything died in him…
He just can't figure out wht he is , a cheat, who cheated a girl and for nothing got married to her, or maybe just for sleeping with her… while he was having a extra martial affair with his friend, and that so with so shamelessly infront of his wife.. wao Mr mayank Sharma..what a filthy person ur …
Sliding himself on the bed he was looking at her back, he couldn't hold himself more, he need someone to hold, he need some peace, and no matter wht he only find peace in her near.. and today he has no more energy to fight from his pain..he has done this whole life, all alone…but this was it…this was far from tolerance .. he moved towards her and hugged her tightly from the back, placing his eyes on her shoulder, completely hiding himself in her…
Is Ujalay MEin Bhi Dhundli tasveer Hai
In Sitaroon Ki Rah Apni Taqdeer HAi
KaisI Qurbat thi woh jis NE Tanha kia
Sath Mere Akela HAi Mora jiya
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Hmm so this has to come some day or the other.. Waiting eagerly for ur response, as this chapter is very close to my heart, I have waited 25 chapters to wrote it..donot hate me... ur honest feelings about this really means a lot…
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