Confused hearts and souls - Page 2

well said..

I personally am thoroughly enjoying the journey of these two complex characters.. more importantly Rudra has won me over completely finally a character who has the courage to accept his past and irrespective of the pain he knew it would cause him as well as the women he has come to love not only did he reveal the truth but he explained the circumstances and instead of forcing her to react he is letting her come to terms with his painful past on her own.. there is a fear nibbling away at his mind and heart as he gradually observes the women who only recently looked at him with all the faith and love in the world to have to bow her eyes as to not reveal the turmoil within her..

I'm never expected Paro to accept this easily and her reaction was understandable she needs time to process everything after all the dream world she had created has in one blow shattered before her eyes.. but I have faith they will rebuild their bond and it will be far stronger because their foundation of their relationship will be trust.. she will comprehend at one point it takes courage to accept such a truth especially when you stand to lose everything positive in your life..

Rudra was fantastic his eyes portrayed his hope that she would understand she would accept him... along with pain at having to cause her turmoil.. his yearning she would look him in the eyes she would show him what was going on in her heart.. but then Paro was true to her character as well.. she may need time but she cares and still refuses to stand by and watch him in pain.. eagerly looking forward to how this this handled this was bound to happen I'm just glad Rudra was the one to portray his past..!!

Lovely Post Anu.

Originally posted by: SingaporeFan

My heart broke for Rudra on Friday! He has laid himself open for Paro to see and now fears that his worst fears will come true...that Paro will also leave him as he is unloveable...he is so hurt n confused by her silence...

Of course he needs to realize and admit his feelings but will be even more difficult for him now...Will be so interesting to watch how Paro's silence and pain affects Rudra and what it makes him do...am probably in the minority but I felt Rudra's pain more than Paro's...

Yes, my heart breaks for him for the exact same reason...for a person to be made to feel that they are not worthy of love...that is what a little child's heart started to believe when his mother left him...because he was a bad/naughty kid...and now as he's grown older and still considers himself to be a man not good enough to be loved...incidents like these just reinforce his belief that he is too horrible and damaged a human being to be LOVED...and that is why Paro has to give him that faith that she will accept him...scars and all.

Originally posted by: CyberOstrich

GOSH Anu- thats such a FAB post 👏 Just loved the points in bold- which is almost the whole of your post!

I was just watching the episode again (while I shld have been working) and along with that I watched the whole of last weeks episodes as well! Now even the cuteness overload seems to fit in retrospect! Rudra Dev's cynicism and weariness had taken a total backseat wrt to Paro and he had started to see her as a white/pure soul, especially after the laddoo track- finally had strated to respect the love she shows so openly for him and had sort of started accepting it without his usual cynicism and distrust! He was showing his inner unsoiled soul to her in the past few days!

Seriously- it has also been a brave thing to show the hero so SCARED- the scenes where laila taunts him that he has not told Paro about them- the FEAR in his eyes!! I have not seen a situation in my limited viewing of soaps so far where the HERO has been so conflicted and fearful about opening of sordid details of his past! There is NOW that ONE person whose opinion REALLY matters to him- That itself would have been scary thing for him and he could have in his usual way tried to gruffly shrug it away- BUT he chose NOT TO as he would not have been able to live with himself then!! And now the the worst seems to be happening in front of his eyes!

And Paro *sigh*- she's not the kinds to throw things, take out her hurt, her pain physically or verbally! Rudra would be so glad to see a collar pakadne waali Paro right now- rather than this withdrawn one! Also she is no match for Laila's shenanigans in her vulnerable state especially now that shes not letting Rudra also to come near her! I wish Dilsher comes into the picture and senses that something is very wrong here! Would he not have any inkling about the 'amourous' details of Rudr Dev's past 8 yrs?? He lived with him all along- otr maybe he was too drunk? But he has given Laila some suspicious looks as well?

Anyways- I am very sad - but also very glad that the emotions have made a come back in RR- the raw ingredient that shapes it is back!! Bas if they focus even 70 % on this and the rest 30 % on the slapstick of dramaic twists and turns provided by laila and mohini combo- I'll be a happy camper!

Chalo- adios- jeg skal sove nu (i'll sleep now) 😊 kal miltein hain!

Thanks, Shalini!

I totally agree with your point about them being gutsy in showing a hero's FEARS so starkly...yes that moment when Laila hits a nerve and makes him realize he does indeed fear Paro's reaction to the truth...

Yes, RR has returned to form with some very RAW emotional scenes this past week...it's been uncomfortable and a bit depressing to watch but after a while you start to see what was needed for the story...I'm hoping this all is evolved well in the coming weeks and the story reaches it's potential.

I also would like to see Dilsher come back into the picture...this is a crucial time where both R and P need a sounding board and Dilsher would be right for this...

Lovely post, it somehow made me see things differently, I never had anything against Rudra, first this was part of his past, and secondly because he never promised Paro anything, he told her that he is unable of anything and if she keeps sticking to him she will get burnt, she was the one who believed in this relationship and wanted it to work and was ready to bear anything as she thinks she knows him very well, so far she has been understanding to each part of his past (the parts she knew about) now this is a new part, so I personally expect her to be as much understanding as before because this is the only way she can prove her love is true

What your post made me see is that actually Paro is very innocent, the way she was brought up and even her inner nature is that of a woman who trusts, who loves, who is full of good intentions, actually to be honest I was irritated with Paro lately and even thought of her as being stupid because I couldn't understand how could she let Laila under the same roof knowing that the latter is in love with her husband, let's suppose that she forgave her for trying to kill her in the first time and that she gave her the benefit of doubt of not trying it again etc, but the mere fact that Laila is in love with Rudra should have awakened her woman's instincts, so this was my bone of contention about Paro, now I still wonder is this woman so innocent, so forgiving, trusting even a woman who loves her husband!!! I mean even being brought up in a village you would still have possessiveness and doubts when it comes to the man whom you love most even if you trust him

Now coming to what happened, I mean Paro knowing the truth about Rudra, I can understand that it's not an easy thing for her to know that the man of her life had another woman in his life for 8years, maybe as you also said she is yet to understand that he is a flawed man and not as perfect as she might have imagined him to be but I still expect her to understand this and not disappoint him afterall she was the one who declared unconditional love and was ready to stand by his side and accept all his flaws when he himself told her not to, so for me this is the biggest test of love for Paro, I'm not taking Rudra's side, I just know that Rudra is insecure already and has the burden of his past that he couldn't get rid of yet so another disappointment will destroy him

I know Laila will try her best to confuse Paro and make her give up on Rudra, she can use many tricks, the 8years of her life she gave to Rudra, the fact that she is the one who has more rights on Rudra since they had a relationship that from Paro's eyes only married people should have, so she might think that Laila has more rights than her over Rudra, also that since Rudra could stick to Laila for 8years maybe he has feelings for her - she can doubt that-even if Rudra himself told her he never loved Laila, but since Laila is getting all touchy with Rudra she can confuse Paro, also I couldn't understand why Rudra didn't push Laila right away when she hugged him or was it that he was so confused thinking about what Paro is thinking, that he didn't react to Laila


The last point which will add to the complexities of this situation is the fact that Paro herself promised to leave Rudra in return of his life, that itself is somthing that would have shattered him anyways

So yes I agree that this is a very complicated situation and it should be handled with a lot of care, just like you I would also like to see how Rudra and Paro would react spontaneously away from Laila's schemes, I mean with only the fact that he told Paro the truth and how they will move on from there

@AreYaar What a brilliantly written viewpoint!

Very nice post and very nice responses
Res

Paro and Rudra you have written so beautifully
So I will add about laila
Every body deals with issues differently , some reform , some revolt
laila she is lonely , damaged and a go getter
She is not scared to dirty her hands in the process
As independent as laila might seem her life is centred around this one guy , who she thought she could follow , who she thought was as lonely that she can move into his space whenever she wants
Thought she has a place in his mind
Thought his nature was what he was
Suddenly.one day she sees a new emotion in him , something she thought he is incapable of , but end of the day it's him , who is so used to being alone and who is so dark that any other girl with a dream like expectation from her husband can never stand him for long
She will eventually give up , she can fasten it by being there herself
By putting it front of his wife, his old self


Ps my typo it's my mobile

Originally posted by: ttt1

Paro and Rudra you have written so beautifully
So I will add about laila
Every body deals with issues differently , some reform , some revolt
laila she is lonely , damaged and a go getter
She is not scared to dirty her hands in the process
As independent as laila might seem her life is centred around this one guy , who she thought she could follow , who she thought was as lonely that she can move into his space whenever she wants
Thought she has a place in his mind
Thought his nature was what he was
Suddenly.one day she sees a new emotion in him , something she thought he is incapable of , but end of the day it's him , who is so used to being alone and who is so dark that any other girl with a dream like expectation from her husband can never stand him for long
She will eventually give up , she can fasten it by being there herself
By putting it front of his wife, his old self


Ps my typo it's my mobile

Originally posted by: DexterRocks

Laila's main problem is that she was ready to serve Rudra but with a CONDITION that he does not ever allow another woman in his life. She never desired for the right in his life, unless she saw him doing unbelievable stuffs for the girl whom he pretended to hate on and hid his concerns, protection for her under the mask of being her captor.

It was laila who had caught him in his act, since then, she took a complete 360 degree turn i guess.

yes, in a way it is good that she is back in his life, atleast her antics have given his thought process a push, he is thinking about paro as deserving to know about his past, enough to reveal that what place paro holds in his life. Moreover, this time laila has dug her own grave too, obviously she wont get the jallad Rudra back, and even if she gets, she thinks its easy to get into in his life ? NO.

True megha
Laila entered into the relationship with the assumption , this the maximum any body could get close to him
She believed him when he said he doesn't agree with the institution if marriage
For 8 years she was able to follow him , keep hI'm close ,
Now what is her barrier , paro
If you see her dialogues she has completely underestimated paro her confidence is more from she will be able to deal with paro or make her leave rather than make rusra fall in love
Which makes it a one to one between paro and laila
And as anu pointed out indirectly laila is making it a test of acceptance and knowing her husband for paro
It is a different question , should paro give the test at all does her husband deserve that, I am not going there
So let's see