Giving in Zoya's POV!
Song: Clarity by Zedd (Anton Zaslavski)
Zoya:-
Hot dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks 'till it breaks your glass and I drown in you again
I struggle to breathe normally and desperately try to appear unfazed but I remain unsuccessful even after trying with all the nerve I can summon. Why cant there be a blizzard, a flood, an avalanche, an earthquake, an invasion, anything to end this awful pain; this twinge in my heart, your image in my mind, your voice in my ears, your scent in the air, you existence in my existence, your love in my life.
Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?
Why Asad why? Why are you there when I don't want you? Why do I feel you when its only pain? Why does it get worse every second? Why cant I heal without you? Why cant I live without you? Why o Why?
It wasn't supposed to be so sour, it was supposed to be magical, it was supposed to be light, then why is it so dark all around? Why do I feel so lost? Like I don't belong here, like I don't belong anywhere.
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?
I try running away from my past, from my memories, from YOU, from those reckless feelings, those dreams and those desires. And from that pain, that affliction of losing you when you were going to be mine. But no, these feelings have an uncanny knack of knowing where I am and overrun me with the pain and grief so that, very often, I fight to keep myself together.
Its like a constant thunderstorm, and it becomes very difficult to hold myself together. Have you ever fought with yourself? Have you ever bore the pain of losing yourself? It's the worst feeling in the world, like a fire in your heart, ache in your existence and nothingness in your life.
Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense
Don't speak as I try to leave cause we both know what we'll choose
If you pulled and I push too deep then I'll fall right back to you
And you lose track of time, it passes slowly like lazy cattle across a landscape, the feeling when you get old and when you know you don't have much time, your good books don't allow that. But no I have time, I have a life ahead of me, a life without you and a life with so much pain. I have nowhere to go! No place to cal home! No soul to call my family!
I cry out my nights and think out my day. But i cant think of anything but you. You are there like oxygen, like blood, like life.
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Even after all this, one side of me fights with the other. One wants to forget everything and be yours forever and the other wants to throw you out of me, which is impossible. You've grown permanent inside me. I don't know how I will make it without you. There is more longing then the feeling of betrayal now. That incident is just a mist in front of this pain- pain of being here- without you; knowing there is no turning back now! I swear it is worse.
You've touched the soul which resides inside me and it wont let go of you even if you are there only in the memories now!
Life is now like an empty dream- a dream where I am lost- and there is no one to take me out. A dream with the shrieks from the past but no visions- a dream inside dream.
Thankyou for reading!🤗
~Living The Dream-Asya~ SaneWhispers Writing Index
Edited by SaneWhispers - 12 years ago
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