'When The World Crashes'- An Asya TS!!!

When the World Crashes Down

Foreword:- okay felt blue thought of writing this, please bear with it.

Its after the episode where Asad sees Zoya in that orphanage but remains unable to reach out to her.

I know Karan/Asad is doing it perfectly fine still I felt like writing this. I intend to give Zoya's version too but after seeing the response of course. Tell me if I should or not.

Song:- Here Without You by 3 Doors Down

Part 1:-

ASAD

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

So life has once again placed me in the line of death. Yes living without her is equivalent to dying- dying every minute. I feel so ruined that I cant explain, so devastated that I cant forget and so drowned that I cant breathe. This darkest blasphemy is slowly sucking the life from inside me.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

When did I become so incomplete without you Zoya? When did you steel me from myself? I cant recognize the face in the mirror. I cant feel myself again- not without you. You came into my life like a storm, you filled it with life, shaded it with perfection, gave it a meaning, made me realize your place in my numb heart, and that God had sent you down only for me, that the gap in my life could finally filled, that I could finally breathe, that the ugly bleeding might finally stop. But'.. but look at the irony of fate. Just when we were about to be one, about to be complete we were torn apart by the dirty thunder storm.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

This thunder storm has left me utterly shaken. I feel like the last man standing and there is nowhere to go. I feel like I have lost everything.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

Love is indeed the greatest feeling in the world but with an invincible knack of paining one with the unvoiced emotional anguish. I thought I didn't have place for this nefarious feeling in my life. How did it make a home in my heart?

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby

Curst it. Curse everything. Why do I see you everywhere? Why do I feel you everywhere? Why are your memories so clear, so flawless in their clarity? Why are you everywhere but then nowhere?

And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

I just cant distract myself from this affliction- not for a second. It feels like its as old as time now. But the feeling isn't just pain, there is this numbness as well- some sort of unrelenting stubbornness which doesn't want to accept the truth. The truth that I have lost you. Lost you forever. That you have chosen a life without me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

My whole existence is nothing but regret, guilt and MISERY. Life is like a living inferno. If I could only get one chance, a chance to explain, a chance to prove my innocence, a chance to say out the word of the heart. I wouldn't have landed in this situation where I cant live with you and I cant live without you.

I close my eyes to witness that crystal clear and sharp image of yours. You were there, so close to me, I could have reached you, I could have stopped you, I could have knelt, begged and pleaded. I could have stopped my life from escaping right in front of my eyes.

And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love .

It breaking me up inside now. Its becoming harder and harder every minute to keep my self together. I thinl I can never be whole again- not without you. You stole a part of me with you- a part without which living is impossible. Its like being alive without any life.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Ive gone through that ecstasy, that pain, and then that nothingness and now its nothing but hell. Yes I burn in this hell every day- every single day. My heart has been pierced ruthlessly, cut into tiny morsels; I feel these pieces of my heart everywhere. I try collecting them but I cant reach them.

As I stand here in front of the mirror trying to understand the existence in front of me, trying to recognize it but I end up unsuccessful yet again. Who is he? I guess I know the answer.

'He is a living misery.'

This affliction is driving me insane. Come back Zoya! Please come back! Because without you ' its nothing. Without you- im nothing. Without you- I cant help this misery from swamping over me.

Please come back!

Part 2 Zoya on Page 5!

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every emotion, every heart felt agony is beautifully described!

This was beautifully written! loved it! continue soon :)

wow awesome😊😊...loved the way you described asad's feelings❤️...amazing..thanks for the pm😃

Love it.. Karan is actually doing is role just so perfectly. I have always preferred novels and books upon movies. The main reason being in books and novels you could actually know the thought process of the character. When I see the hurt and pained look on Asad face I so want to know what is going on in his brain. And, that is what you have showed me here.. All his inner conflicts, every single pain he is going through is so well narrated here. And, I love it.. Would love to read zoya's POV too.. Please do continue soon..

Very beautifully written...shows pain of asad perfectly. ...you are an amazing writer. ...plz continue soon. ...thanks for pm. ...

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AWESOME !!!
i loved it !
beautifully written !!👏
please continue soon !