ArShi SS: Forced Marriage ~Chapter12 Page 128 THREAD2 LINK PG1 - Page 38

Thank you so much for the great response. I see that people have liked the last update a lot sympathizing with Arnav. Keep in mind that the last update (Chapter7), this update (Chapter 8) and the next one are the most important updates of the story.

Chapter Eight:

Guilty or...?

Khushi sat on the bed under a blanket she held by her chest after switching off all the lights turning the room to a dark place. She could not know how to think properly over his words till she decided to recall what happened chronically once he entered the room, arranging her thoughts, wishing that she would be able to get a conclusion, to understand something, anything. Khushi shivered remembering that furious look, as if an extinct volcano erupted all of a sudden getting out whatever it has inside not bearing to hold any more.

'I got your message loud and clear. I got it! You don't accept me as your husband. You don't accept this family as yours. You don't f*cking respect this relationship...in fact you hate me.' She remembered that hurtful look his eyes had while talking. He looked so sad, so broken as he pronounced the words.

'You ignored me, fine! You don't recognize my presence, fine! You don't eat with me, talk to me, behave with me as a wife, yet I could tolerate that quietly hoping that someday you will change that notion you have about me,' Then what was bothering him if all was fine with him. Change that notion?! Why would I? She thought stubbornly.

'but I cannot stand that...I cannot hear people talking badly about my wife without being able to defend her. Actually I cannot defend you.' Why could not he stand that? What's bothering him? What if someone talked badly with me? That would not change who I am. Or he could not get a chance to act as a protective husband in front of them...but if he wanted to act like that, he would have. He is declaring that he could not. Why he wanted to defend me in the first place? Her mind felt dizzy as those question echoed in it.

'I don't know why I have feelings for you!... maybe I've already fallen for you...You are not the Khushi I've seen month ago...I've liked her not you..she was adorable, lovely, helpful...unlike you.' Khushi felt numb..what does he mean by falling for her? And months ago? Where did he see her? When did that happen? Does he know me before? Adorable, lovely helpful that's what I was before meeting him, not any more. He is quite right regarding this...but still how does he know me this much? How does he know about my love for literature. Why was he annoyed at revealing that? Again the question were unanswered as she was unaware of everything..his feelings...his action...his thoughts..everything.

'I don't know what Nani has seen in you to defend you! You're lucky to have a woman like her in your life though you don't deserve that...in fact nothing at all.' Nani defending me? Someone talking badly about me? It must be Manorama aunty. I know that nani is a great woman. I do really like her and respect her, but still she is his Nani, so I'm connected with her through him, and this always holds me back whenever I approach her to talk with her so some greetings are enough. She felt angry as he said that she does not deserve anything at all. Who was he to decide what she deserves? He surely does not value her!

'What have I done to you that you despise me like this?...What have I done to you to get such hatred? Why did you agree to marry me if you don't want me?' He is asking me as if he does not know anything. But...wait! Why did you agree to marry me? Seriously?! Was not I forced into this? Because of him? Why did not you reject the proposal? It would have been easier for...it would have hurt less than what you are doing now...' Why he is so hurt? We have never had a relationship. It's not like that I've given him a promise..not as if I've ever tried to contact with him. I don't talk with him because I know if I did, I would have hurt him by my words, so I thought of ignoring him better than giving him fake illusions.

'Fine, I won't disturb you anymore.' It's not as if he is disturbing me. I admit that he is always good me, but I still cannot digest that I'm forced because of him. How can he be so good yet he is the one who ruined my life?...Whatever he is doing is to rectify his fault not more nor less, but why does he seem so affected by my actions?..He gifted me more than one time..he is intellectual too..but still! Why he is blaming me for the marriage? Is not he the reason behind it. It was the first time Khushi was giving him such time of her thoughts, she realized that she had ignored their relationship so much that they don't have a relationship. Khushi looked at his form as the moon shine was penetrating through the thin curtains. His muscles seemed to be stiffened..Is he still awake? She wondered.

"Khu..Khu...Khushi.." Khushi's thoughts were broken by a weak faint voice. She looked around to find Arnav tossing half-conscious on the recliner. "Khushi." He called her again. Khushi instantly rushed to him to check what happened. "What happened?" She asked terrified.

"Arn...kya hua?" Khushi hesitantly put a hand on his shoulder seeing him weak and helpless. He half opened his eyes to ask for some sweets.

"Sweets? But you are..?"

"I just want something sweet." He interrupted her with a hoarse voice.

"Okay." She rushed to search for a piece of chocolate in her bag as she always have chocolates at university helping her to get some energy. She opened the packet and handed it to him, but he could not eat it at his accord, so Khushi had to do that. She fed him half of the chocolate when he stopped her saying that he had enough. Khushi removed her left hand that was on his nape as she put it while feeding him because he was not able to steady himself. With difficulty, Arnav raised his upper body depending on his hands to become half-lying half-sitting.

"What happened with you?" Khushi asked confused by the events as she stood up.

"I did not have my medicines because I did not have dinner, so my sugar level went low." He replied slowly rubbing his eyes.

"Shall I bring some food to you?"

"No thank you..sorry for disturbing you as such time. I thought I won't anymore but I was helpless."

"It's..it's okay." She replied awkwardly. How on earth could she not help a helpless human whoever he is?!

"No...I won't disturb you from now onwards..this is a promise." His face looked sad yet determined. Khushi thought that he does not need her help, so she went back to the bed.

She felt so guilty..because of her, he did not have her dinner, so he could not have his medicine, so his sugar level went low, so he fainted. What have I done? Khushi scolded herself feeling low of herself. Yes she does hate, but she can never harm, and harming him had never come across her thoughts. She hurt and harmed him so much unintentionally being carried away by her stubbornness and immaturity. She was surprised that he was simply speaking of his weakness and helplessness to her. She did not know what she was supposed to do, so she sent a prayer to her Devi Mayyia asking for forgiveness and guidance.

I know the update is short, but I just wanted to include only Khushi's thoughts and feelings. Hope you got to know her more! Please analyze every single word while reading, so you'll get to understand Khushi's POV.Anyone hates her now? In the next update maybe Khushi will know the reason behind her marriage! Get Ready!! (This is called suspense ;) :P)

Shaimaa,

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