PART 1:
I donno weither m taking right step or not .m I playing with my life n his too!!!!!! M I making my life way too complicated!!
Sitting infront of the mirror wearing green lehenga I looked deep in my eyes .tried to read my own eyes but all in vain .the famous mind n heart game .damn it .it sounds so filmy but its happening in my real life.some one called me outside .whole house has became a chaos .its my mehendi today .all are so happy .but m confused about my feelings .my own feelings .like all other girl I always waited for this day n finaly this day came .m realy too happy but some where m confused .will my husband love me?
"oh come on nupur ,you know he loves u " my shadow on the mirror said
Yes I know ,I actualy have seen that in his eyes n he told me too .but somewhere I always fail to blv boys!!!!they rarely say true .may be not all but somewhere I cant blv anyone .
EVE teasing ……..when I was in std 2 or 3 from den it was a common incident of my life!
I remember I was in class 2 n went on a fair .there a old man touched me in a very bad way .i was with my dad n I did not knew anything regarding sexual relation between boy n girl .still I knew it was something disgust n out of shy I could not tell my dad too .i was shivering lyk hell.after that I always was afraid of crowd . n so many incident lyk that ………………
I always wanted to fall in love ,to find true love but I failed to fall I failed to blv ……
I took step to downstair ……al were dancing n a smile crept in my lips .while watching fav shows in tv n their marriage I always planed I will do dis n dat in my marriage n look that vey day came .but unfortunately its arrange marriage instead of love one .its not that i don't lyk my parents decision .i was always ready for arrange marriage but somewhere I always waited for a love story in my life which never happened .
All my cousins n frinds crowded around me .they made me sit on the counch .
They applied mehendi in my hand .it looked so beautiful .i so wish my future life will be beautiful like dat only .
"uffo nupur ……..tension bad mai kar na .shadi zindegi mai ekhibar ata hai .enjoy it" my heart told me
I smiled n joined the dace floor wid my cousins but my ma did not let me dance for long .
"nupur ,dulhan sharmae hue jada acchi lagti hai …….yaha ake baitho"
"uffo ma …….shadi to ekhibar ata hai …..lemme dance na"
"nupur behave ……ye bachpana chod …..ab shadi honewale hai teri .bacche nahi rahi tu"
"maa ,shadi k bad o mai azad honewali hu ,koi datneko nahi hoga ,jo chahe wo karungi "
"you are so immature nupur ……..azadi kaha .shadi z ek ziommidari hote hai .ab azad zindegi khatam honewale hai"
I smiled at my mother n at me too .
Its not that I donno aboyt my responsibilities after marriag but somewhere m happy ab har batke lie parents pe dependant hona nahi padega ………hm I know sayued pati n sasural pe hona padega .but new generation k pati n sasural typical thodi na hoga .MY POSITIVE SOCH THEORY .hahaha ……..
I smiled at my thought again ……..m so complicated n so is my feelings .who will say seeing me that this girl wa hell tensd about his marriage just about hour ago.complication ………..this can be other name of mine .sometimes I myself fails to understand my self .may be dats why ……..
M immature but mature
M happy but sad
M relaxed but tensd
I looked at my hand .the mehendi has taken its colour .RED colour of mehendi adoring my hand……
RED the colour of love ,colour of bliss …….
Will this colour adorn my life too ………
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