The Imperfect Wife
(For Banglores FF - Surrogate Relations)
My life has been filled with an abyss of darkness so deep
That night herself loses her way to the emergence of dawn
My days remain burdened under the dark pool of sorrows
And my nights strive under the blanket of my fears and my terrorizing dreams
I come from a past from which there is no return
I do not know who I am or where I belong
Since I have no identity of my own
Whatever I had was taken away from me
I have lost my heart, my body and my soul
I live in shame so deeply engraved that there is no indication of light
Because my body is tainted and ruined and can be never repaired
I have become small, as small as the smallest particle of an atom
As hollow, as the deepest hollow of a drum
My pain is as terrorizing as the life imagined in hell
Therefore, my each day is spent living in despair
I made the mistake of falling in love with you
Knowing you belong to someone else
You showed me with your utmost care and concern
And I just could not stop myself from feeling for you.
I think about you day and night
I want to be held, touch, caressed and protected by you
Because you make me feel like a human again
You make me feel that I belong in this world
And that I am a woman who can be cared, loved and cherished
Yet, I am scared, scared to come close to you
Because I am not capable of loving you
Because I know that I cannot make you happy
I can never fulfill your desires if I become your wife
How can I take away your life, your dreams and your happiness?
When you are the best thing that ever happened to me
I love you more than what my heart desires
And therefore, I do not want to you make this mistake
For asking me to be by your side
When I know that all I can be is The Imperfect Wife!
Edited by Water. - 12 years ago
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