Part 5
It was unbearable for her to tolerate her own mother taunting to her to go back to her in laws' house but she was fortunate enough to have father who had always supported her. Her mother also slowed down after a lot of convincing from her father. Her mother stopped almost talking to Gulaal though. Gulaal couldn't see her Mom in distressed and she knew that Motabha and Baa would be distressed as well. She was always the reason behind happiness for people but today inadvertently she became reason for distressed. She hated herself for that. She also wanted to go to her in laws' house but she couldn't.
It was night time, again rain was hugging her with full intensity and she was standing outside of her house like she was waiting for some magic to happen which could take away her pain. She was still hoping that magic would happen and she would achieve same life again with Vasant.
God had definitely made plans for her. Her father asked her to go into her room and she did.
She lit a candle in front of Vasant's picture. She was again lost in Vasant's memory.
Suddenly a cold breeze flew through her window and Vasant's picture fell down and broke into two pieces. She was in shock. She couldn't see her Vasant's picture on floor. She instantly picked it up and then one surprise was unfolded.
There was a letter on the back of the picture but it was hidden in it and it would never come off if this picture hadn't got broken today. She quickly opened it yet her eyes were blurry as she was crying. She wasn't able to read with these blurry eyes hence she wiped away her tears almost forgetting everything at the moment.
She became impatient; she wanted to read the entire letter within a second.
"My love, Gulaal,
I am sure you will find this letter one day. I am sure that you will always have my picture with you and one day you will find this letter through this picture. I am not sure how long it will take though.
Do you remember the day when we were teasing each other for having a kid matter? I still remember that day very well.
You were wearing a green-red sari, you looked gorgeous in it, if anyone stopped me at that day to come near you, believe me, I would have killed that person. I was praising your beauty that day and you felt shy. Your eyes brimmed with tears out of shyness. You were ignoring me. I was trying to get hold of you and of course eventually I did. You were really happy though when I caught you. We consummated two souls that day and we became one.
The next day, when I woke up, I had fear of losing you. I never want to lose you. I had a fear that if something happens and we couldn't meet each other then I wouldn't be able to express my feelings. Hence I decided to write this letter so that I can express my feelings. I know I am not generally an expressive person especially when it comes to love and emotions. Therefore, I took the help of this paper. "
Gulaal couldn't stop her tears as that night flesh into her mind. She could still sense the tenderness of that night. It was magical; her love bloomed at every second she spent with Vasant. She was on cloud nine that day as he admired her, her beauty, her body, her soul.
She hated her tears today as it was stopping her from reading a letter which had been left out for last ten years.
"Gulaal, I love you. I love you more than anyone or anything on this earth. I love you when you laugh at me. I love you when you tease me. I love you when you look at me with your soulful eyes. I love you when you take care of my family. I love you for your support. I love you when you take care of Kesar. He is always both of us responsibility. I love you for everything for the things you have done and for the thing you will do.
Unfortunately, life never works on our own condition. I learned that when I lost my uncle. (Motabha's brother) I want to be careful. I never want to see you unhappy. I want your happiness. Nothing could matter more than that to me. For any reason, if we won't be together, then I want you to be happy again. I want you to live life again because I know how much you love me and how much I mean to you.
It is really hard for me to write this, as I never want you to move on from me, but I can't be selfish when it comes to love. The only thing mattered to me is your smile. Knowing you, I am pretty sure that you can sacrifice your own life for the people you love and you won't care about your own life and loneliness.
If you are happy, then I will happy wherever I am. If you smile then my smile is always hidden in your smile. I will always be with you. I wish that God knows it and we could never be apart.
I remember once you told me this dialogue from one of the famous movie. "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."
Yes I still remember it word by word.
Will you promise me one thing? Say yes Gulaal, please yes.
Please accept a new life if we shall ever get apart. Whenever you have a choice in front you between happiness and sacrifice for love, please choose happiness for me. Choosing happiness means choosing me and I am sure you will always choose me.
I am the most fortunate man on the earth as I have you in my life. I can never thank enough for that to God.
I will always love you.
Vasant"
That was it. For the first time, she got realization. She got a new direction. She knew now what Vasant wanted for her. She was happy with his memory and she would always be happy.
Sejal
"That quotes from the movie - A walk to remember."
Anupamaa
