Note from the Writer -Making of OS!
Hi Guys,
First of all, thanks a lot for making this OS also an exceptional success! I know I broke all your hearts with the end but I had to write this note to you to let you all know what i went through writing this....Everytime a scene was in front of me, like Naku singing - Lagi aaj saawan" or DP-Dutta's scene or the scene where Dutta lies down beside Naku in the hospital bed and many more, I cried terribly and in that state I penned down each word and never changed after that!...And hence I could never change the end too! Because that too was written in one of those states!!!
So, this is what i wrote to a friend and I thought as a writer I owed this explanation to my readers...A sneek peak at the making of this OS -
I sincerly feel I didnt do justice to the first 4 parts...They were not one of the finest parts I have written simply because I wasnt in the zone...But momentary when I did visit the zone, I wrote scenes like Naku's song picturization - "Lagi aaj saawan" and I was so passionate about that scene that I pestered Pooji till the end and made her do atleast 10 round of corrections as I wanted it perfect to the T and I must say she did such an outstanding job of that VM, She took care of all my requirements and did not cut a single line or para of the songs...Frankly, I dont like cutting songs and stanzas....To me they should be left AS-IS and hence, this was perfect!!! I might have made her angry in the proces but she too was happy when the final product was out!! Thanks Pooji!!...Love you!! 👏👏
When I was writing Naku and Dutta's love making, I was very skeptical...i didnt want a M&B romance there....I also have a certain feeling and impression about this jodi and I didnt wanna spoil that impression with my OS....For me the love making also had to reflect the eternal feeling and thats why when I kept eternity in my mind, that scene where Dutta talks about true love, where the two become one because of their love and not lust came in front of me....I would have hated that scene if it had the body touchs described....and thats one more reason why I dimmed the light because their love is not about physical being but about their feelings.....Thats the reason I have been against kisses in real show and even if its a hug, I want it done very asthetically!!! Mushy scenes are for shows of today, for romance of today...not for a love tht gives an eternal feeling....
So, this is the part, which I feel I owe an explanation to my readers.....On Naku waking up, my mind didnt see her waking up and hence, I couldnt pen it down...if my heart doesnt feel something, it wouldnt make me write it with right words and feeling....So, I couldnt wake her up...and my heart felt tht Dutta's time to test his love had arrived....My heart felt the eternity if Dutta would wait for her day in ...day out....His each night and day is filled with her....When I felt that, my hands automatically started penning the the following lines-
Mere har apnoan se apni ab tu hogi, Meri har zooban ki dooa mein ab tu hogi,
Meri har khushi se pehle ab tu hogi, Tere har ghum se pehle ab mein hoonga,
Meraa har din ab tujhse shuru hogaa, meri har raat ab tujhe dekh ke khatam hogi,
Ab toh duniyaa hee tujhse hogi, aur woh aakhri pal, ab tere naam hogaa,"
He wipes the tear that flows from his eyes,
"Ab toh teraa hee intezaar hogaa, aur Ab teri hi aas hogi"
The last line on "intezaar" and "Aas" was smethng my heart told me is what Dutta would do patiently....There would be no feeling of "hope" but a certainity that Naku would come back....and he would wait no matter how long it takes....he would wait till eternity for her...and this feeling of eternity was possible only if he would "wait"....His real test came when she didnt wake up from coma...and then he was on his own to make decisions and her silent figure still was the torchbearer for Dutta for him to make the right decisions, even without checking the proofs....that was eternal to me....Probably if I had written next part, I would have woken Naku up.....but it was not possible in this part, the eternal feeling was must because thats what my heart felt...
I hope u all get why I coudlnt wake Naku up!!!!
Thanks once again for appreciating my work!!!! If something inspires me in future, my heart would just make me pen down something and then I would knock your inboxes.....but till then....
au revoir!!!
Love
DD
Edited by Dancingdoll - 14 years ago
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