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Chapter 1 to 24 compiled in 10 posts... THE SAGA CONTINUES

CHAPTER 25

CHAPTER 26

CHAPTER 27

CHAPTER 28

CHAPTER 29

CHAPTER 30

CHAPTER 31

CHAPYER 32

CHAPTER 33

CHAPTER 34~PART 1

CHAPTER 34~PART 2

CHAPTER 35

CHAPTER 36

CHAPTER 37

CHAPTER 38

CHAPTER 39

CHAPTER 40

CHAPTER 41

CHAPTER 42

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CHAPTER 40

"Jodha..." Jalal's voice dragged her out of the diary. She looked towards him and found him frowning at her. She closed the diary and kept it in her bag.

"You need something?" She asked.

"Mmm.. No.. What happened to abul Mali" he inquired.

"Your bodyguards took care of him." She added with a pause "how are you feeling"

"Better.." He didn't knew what else to say. She nodded.

A nurse entered with a knock and gave Jodha the medicines and explained her how to give it to Jalal. "I will take your leave Mrs Khan." She said and went out.

Jalal looked at Jodha's expressionless face trying to deduce the effect of nurse's words.

"Mm.. Am sorry Jodha.. I don't know why she assumed you to be my wife. Please don't be offended." He tried to make her comfortable assuming that Jodha must have felt weird in such a situation. Jodha was shocked to hear him.

"If you don't mind.. Can you narrate me what all do you remember after that.. Incident" she asked hesitantly.

"After I was... shot.. You cried for me.. And hugged me. I felt safe... content.. complete." He whispered as if in a trance. A teardrop found its way down Jodha's cheeks.

He continued after a minute "And then everything was black. Then... Pain.. Unbearable pain... But I was alive.. In the hospital. My family was here for me."

She waited for another minute for him to continue. But he didn't. So she further probed "what do you remember about our relationship"

He stared at her for a minute and whispered "I don't know what to address you as. I don't even have the right to be called your friend after the way I shunned you out of my life. But you will always hold a special place in my heart."

Jodha remained silent. She didn't knew what to say. "Why did you save me"

"Because I can't let anything happen to you because of me... again. If something would have happened to you, I would have died anyway." he replied.

She didn't say anything. How can she reply to such a thing. She just left after making him have his meds & informing Abdul and Hamida.

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After a lot of ifs and buts, Abdul convinced Jalal to meet Jodha. She didn't come back to see him once she was assured that he was fine.

2 days of contemplation.. And there he stood at her doorstep waiting for her to open the door. Drumming his figures in nervousness he realised that his heartbeat were as frantic as it used to get during their early meetings.

The click of the door brought him out of his thoughts. No doubt she was shocked to see him there. He knew that would happen. They stood staring at each other.

"Hey" he broke the ice.

"Hi. Please come in" she quipped in the most formal way.

He stepped in with a resolve to sort out everything. And then his gaze fell on a person, to be specific..Surya, coming from Jodha's room rubbing his eyes wearing nothing but only his PJs.

His heart bursted, throat chocked with a huge lump, tears threatened to fall.. He instantly regretted his decision of showing up.

Surya looked at Jalal and his sleepy expression changed into an enthusiastic one.

"Jalal..." He exclaimed but then corrected himself knowing that he doesn't have the right to call him that. "ahh.. I mean.. Mr khan. I am Surya Mehra. I have heard so much about you. Can't believe finally I am meeting you." He extended his hand forward for a handshake.

Jalal smiled using all his effort and self-control. He wanted to run away but he wanted to end everything on a good note. Greeting him with a formal handshake Jalal spoke "Nice to meet you Mr Mehra."

"Wait a minute. I will.. mmm.. wear my shirt" Surya said embarrassed.

"Sure" Jalal smiled politely and once he left, he turned to Jodha"How are you Jodha"

"I am good. And u?"

"Am fine. Are you happy"

"Yep"

Surya came to rescue breaking the silence. "Mr Khan, please come.. sit"

He nodded and was about to move when a girl came running out of Jodha's room with the brightest smile plastered on her face.

"Mr khan.. Woah.. Finally. Am Priya.. Jodha's friend and Surya's girlfriend. So when are you both officially declaring your relationship." She chipped enthusiastically.

Shock wouldn't define what he felt. It made sense. Surya and Priya coming out of the same room.

"We were never in any kind of relationship Priya." Jodha cut in.

"If you don't mind me asking.. You and Jodha are..?" Jalal asked Surya.

"She is my soul sister. She is my only family other than my would be wife Priya" he answered. He didn't knew the matter but the thing he knew was that they needed some private time. "You guys carry on. My stomach's hurting from hunger. Priya.. Can you cook me something. Excuse us please." saying this he dragged her into the kitchen leaving the duo alone.

"I don't know what happened and how that happened. I just know one thing.. that once again fate played a perfect plot to destroy me and I fell into the trap. A perfect coincidence that destroyed my life... Brutally and completely. I understand if you hate me after the way I behaved with you. But I want you to know that I will always love you.. I always did. And if by any miracle you decided to forgive me anytime in future..." He wiped the tear that escaped him eye and continued "I will wait for you till my last breath. Take care." he kissed on her forehead and left.

She went to the kitchen and saw Surya and Priya sitting anxiously. They looked up when she opened the fridge to take out water bottle.

"Jodha... Is everything okay" Surya asked gaining a hmm from her. But realising that he needs to be patient with his baby girl he prodded further "I don't know what's going on. But I will suggest that don't take any decisions when you are angry. Think about everything before you come to any conclusion" he patted her head and they left her alone to think.

She remembered how Jalal ignored her and treated like she never existed... how he blamed her for everything.. how his actions had made her cry all night long.

But then another bout of memories came rushing... him staring at her with so much love and devotion.. their sweet banter.. his teasing... their romance.. The image of her wrapped in his arms when he carried her out of the graveyard flashed in front of her eyes. He never cared about his own life when she was in danger.

But the question was will she be able to accept him back the way she did at that time. All those stuffs were making her tired. She went to her room and saw her bag kept on the couch. She didn't read the diary after coming back from the hospital that day. She wanted some distraction.

"Did you punish yourself for..." She left the sentence hanging in between. I fidgeted with our baby's cloth.

"Why?" She placed our cutie on the bed & raised my face holding my chin up.

"That was the only punishment I knew" I whispered. I looked into her eyes & continued "Those eight months were worse than hell without you"

Jodha immediately broke the eye contact. A teardrop slid down her cheek. I looked on astonished.

"I love you shehensha." Saying this she kissed me with all her might. She held my jama tightly.

I wasn't understanding her reaction but I participated equally to give her the love which she craved for. She was kissing me all over my face & was continuously crying.

"Thank you shehensha, thank you for coming." She said

"What's going on Jodha.. Why are you crying. Did someone hurt you? Are you feeling some kind of pain?" I asked scared & called for hakim.

Hakim came & when I asked her to check upon Jodha begam, she stood there with lowered head.

"Can't you hear me.. Jodha begam is in pain. Do something" I shouted.

"Pardon me Shehensha.. We can't do anything" hakim said

"What the hell do you mean by that" I roared.

"When I declared her pregnant, I already told her about the risk." She said

"What risk" I shivered in fear.

"Shehensha.. Jodha begam's uterus was little bit damaged when she conceived. I had told her that if she carries on the pregnancy, she won't be able to survive after delivery because growth of baby won't let her wound to get healed." hakima cried

I was left flabbergasted.

"No.. This can't happen. I am her husband. I should have know about this. You should have asked me about it" my words came to a halt with a tight grip on my arm.

She clutched on me hard "shehensha..." I looked down... Blood.. It was all that my mind registered. She is bleeding.. heavily. I came out of my thoughts.

"Nothing will happen to you Jodha.. I am here with you." I tried consoling her, rather consoling myself.

"There are many medicines to stop bleeding. Why don't you do anything" I shouted at hakim.

"No shehensha this bleeding cannot be stopped by any medicines. I already tried my best. Even these whole eight months I was trying to find out some remedy but.." She stopped.

"Ekant (Privacy)" she said.

"Why did you do this Jodha" I broke down.

"I will do anything & everything that gives you happiness. You are a father of this little wonder. You love children. See our baby is so cute. Take care of.. Of him and.. And yourself" she caressed my cheek & smiled faintly.

"No.. You will take care of me" I cried.

I kissed her forehead & Jodha cried "I am sorry shehensha, I wont be able to do that"

"No no.. You can't leave me Jodha.. Don't give me such a punishment for my sin. I know I deserve punishment.. I will take it.. But please please don't leave me. I didn't do it intensionally... Jodha.. Please open your eyes. I love you. You can't do this to me Jodha. I love you" I sobbed.

She kissed my cheeks "I love you too shehensha.. Am sorry for my decision but how was I supposed to kill the baby even before he was born. I would have died of guilt shehensha. I love you and our baby had your blood. I can't murder your baby. I am sorry."

"I can't live without you Jodha. I will definitely die if you leave me. You promised that you will never leave me." I choked.

"I would never leave you shehensha.. My body can die but my soul will always be there with you." She smiled faintly.

Her heart wasn't beating. She wasn't breathing anymore. I shook her shoulders.

" No.." I cried hugging her.

She left me. She left this cruel world where she got nothing other than pain. Neither she was loved in Amer nor in Agra. Even I was not able to give her the love she deserved.

Without saying, she gave me the gravest punishment.

Our baby cried. I held him to my chest & kissed him. His eyes were like that of Jodha. He was trying to jump out of my arms & go towards Jodha.

"How will I take care of him. I know nothing about babies. Jodha.. Please come back. I need you. Our baby needs you" I cried.

But she didn't budge. I cried till I lost all my energy. I kept hugging her. I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. But I did not want to know who is that person.

"Jodha had given this letter for you Jalal" I heard ammijaan's voice.

"Which letter" I asked getting up

She forwarded a letter to me & caressed my hair & went out.

I broke the seal of the letter. I looked towards the bed. My family.. My Jodha & our baby. She was in a peaceful sleep. She had gone through so much.. So much hatred, ignorance & pain. I hated myself. Beside her was our baby trying to awake Jodha by pulling her hairs. I felt so guilty for the child. He lost his mother because of me. Had I been a little gentle on her that night.. He would be having the best mother in the world.

I opened the letter & started reading it.

"Pranam shehensha,

You will get this letter after you reach Agra.. Probably after I leave Agra. I don't know if you will be able to come before my delivery or not. Please come before it. I want to see you for a last time shehensha. Its my only wish. I know till now you must have understood why I wanted you to come before it. Till now I must have left the world.

I have thought some names.. Salim & khanum. Shehensha.. You won't hate our baby na if she is a girl. I know this is a stupid question.. Ofcourse you will love her. But you know it just crossed my mind.

And one more thing, I beg you please never feel guilty for what happened. You were not at fault shehensha. Actually I am happy that I got the opportunity to become a mother to your child. And you know the time I spent with you were the best moments of my life. And it includes the time I spent with our baby in my womb. Coz he is also your part only na. I felt very blessed. But missed you very much in pregnancy time. You always used to take care of me so much, I miss that care, that love.

I wanted to sleep in your hug when I got to know that am pregnant. I wanted to feel safe in your arms. I wanted you to feel our baby's first kick, first move. I wanted to hold your hand and walk when my tummy grew up big. I know you also must be missing me & our baby.

You must be angry on me for this decision. But I also know you always wanted a baby. And I can die thousand times for your one smile. I love you shehensha. Please take care of our baby & yourself. Please give him the life that we both didn't get.

-your Jodha"

I cried "yes I wanted a baby but not at your cost Jodha. I will take care of our Salim. I will bring him up. I promise Jodha, he will have a great childhood."

I lifted Salim in my arms. He was looking at me with the doe shaped eyes. I looked towards Jodha.

"I promise you both, everyone who is responsible for this will get the punishment."

I called the hakim inside "Why didn't the full information reached me.. I had appointed you to take care of her" my voice dangerously cold.

"Pardon me shehensha, I didn't had the authority to force begam sahiba for any decision. Jodha begam wanted to give birth to the child & only you could have stated the decision otherwise. Knowing the consequence of this information reaching you, she didn't let us write about this in the letter that was sent to you. And.. Marium makani was also not present in Agra to take a decision against her. No one else can defy her orders. Jodha begam wanted to fulfill your wish of being a father" she said

I looked at Jodha with pain filled eyes. Why did she leave me... Am I that bad.. Don't I deserve love.. I knew the answer very well.. Yes am the worst person. Yes I never deserved love. Am the worst monster.. I hate myself.

Hakim continued "shehensha.. One more thing needs your attention."

"Speak" I said

She said "When I declared her pregnant the first time.. It was due to her food which starts giving these symptoms. She unknowingly ate those food whose mixture yields this result. And... the wine which was in your room was a gift which came from Kabul. Our guards had tasted it.. It wasn't injurious to health, but that time we were not able to deduce that it had highly concentrated opium which makes a person lose his controls over his actions." I understood the rest

What a perfect coincidence that destroyed my life... Brutally and completely.

I dismissed the hakim. Tears started brimming in my eyes. I cried hugging Jodha. It wasn't my fault Jodha.. I.. Love you. Please come back. Please. It pains too much. How will I survive in the world in which you don't exist.

YOU LEFT IN PEACE.. AND LEFT ME IN PIECES

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I feel so lonely without her
Her crazy innocent talks
Her care
Her love...
Its all my mistake
I shouldn't have left her alone
I had thought that those eight month of war was my punishment but how would I have known that each and every second after my sin was a punishment for me. Yes I deserved it.

Its been 20 years since that day. Sorry dairy.. I don't come here much. I spent most of my free time near Jodha's grave. I shifted to Jodha's room. I feel her presence near me many times... Like her soul is taking care of me. I had never thought about any other woman since Jodha came into my life. I love you so much Jodha. Even if not a big life, I enjoyed a great life with her. Those three months with her were the best moments of my life. She gave me so many beautiful memories to cherish upon.

Salim too loves his mother. I used to tell him about Jodha. Now he is a great person. He has been married to noor jahan 3 months ago. You know.. My words are rules for my Salim. I crowned him as the shehensha a month ago. Am free from all responsibilities.

Now I just wait for death to take me to my Jodha & I hope God will give me another chance to love her. To cherish a love filled life. To be with her all my life.

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swetiii

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Posted: 9 years ago

Sorry for being late sweethearts
and thank you so much for supporting me throughout my journey
I can't believe that I just reached thread 10
woah
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And this time no complains about the length of the chapter

It was too long 🤣

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Posted: 9 years ago

Originally posted by: --Vrinda--
congo muski

chalo ab update bhi kar de 😆

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binduprasad41

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Posted: 9 years ago

Congrats for new thread muskan

Plz update soon

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gagan1996

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Posted: 9 years ago

Congo fr new thread

Now update soon

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Duha Saad

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Posted: 9 years ago

Congrats Muskan on new thread
And I like how you made only two res this time
Means that you are so sure that this thread will end with two chapters only 😡
You will stay lazy as always
Please do update please!!!!!!

Edited by duhasaad - 9 years ago