OS - I NEED YOU FOR MYSELF!!! part 3 pg 22 Sept 03 - Page 15

Originally posted by: rasika_DS

This needs to be sent straight away to the writers. What a masterpiece👏👏 ⭐️

Originally posted by: fanktlk

Cheater... You say you wont write .. then hound me and I have to write reviews... But i thought the first part was not complete. In that sense a second and third part is called for..

And you said you won't post a review. Guess we're even. 😆

I know we discussed this.. but to read it was something else. I could visualize Dev quietly crying and Neha just wiping away his tears... This was such a touching scene.

Yeah. I could see our Dev like this. It was painful to envision and translate into words.

And beside the bed was Ishwari, trying to reach Dev. Take him in her lap and console him. "Ishwari!" Mamaji pulled her away and out of the room, away from Dev, urging Neha to call the doctor. "I told you to stay away from Dev, didn't I?"

This seemed a little harsh.. Maybe the traces of Mamji from the serial is still in my head. So I am unable to visualize him being stern at Ishwari... But this was needed I guess a wake up call. But for Ishwari to realize that she is causing pain to Dev by even coming close to him.. is a little too much... Compensating for the serial are we?

Thoda OTT toh chalta hain boss. And there is no romance. I had to do something 😆

Her son was strong, she'd boasted. Like iron. But today that iron was melting. Because he had thrown himself into the fire for her.

Broken Dev was needed But reading this caused me more pain than It did Ishwari... I am sure...

Of that I have no doubt.

There was only one thing that stood between Dev and insanity and that was Dr Sonakshi Bose.

Loved this line... Just loved it.

Originally posted by: binuuu

amznggg story..
read 2 prtss in 1 go...
luvddd both prts vry mchh..
i badly wanted 2 watch this in show...
dev's situation vry well explainedd.
wanna know what will hpn in next chappy..
plzz updt soon...

Originally posted by: jayasree.rao

Good morning Aazeen.Aap to hamara reasonable demand hi poora nahi karte.

You have left us with an incomplete story and migrated to another forum.

Ashutosh ko bhulkar Dev ke peeche padgaye!!!!!

Originally posted by: mena_k

Once again mind-blowing.

It's so real, absolutely on the lines of the actual show. Can definitely imagine all of it happening on screen. Would be unforgettable If the cv's actually go to this extent to show Dev's pain and helplessness.

Can't wait for the last part.

Good morning and a very happy Saturday to you all!! As promised, here is the third and last part of the OS. Hope you like it!! Happy reading!!

Part Three

Sonakshi was tired. So very tired. But she straightened her shoulders, stiffened up her spine and stepped over the threshold of Ishwari Mansion for the second time that day. What was she doing? Why was she doing it? Was she a glutton for punishment? That man broke every single promise that he'd ever made to her and here she was! Fulfilling her promise to him - Mein aapko chodke nahi jaaungi. Aap chod denge tab bhi nahi. And she realized, she really couldn't walk away from him. Not when he was like this. Not when she knew...knew he needed her. Maybe once he was back on his feet, he would tell her off again. Hume alag hojaana chahiye Sonakshi, he'd say. Aunty ji invited her back because her son needed her now. But that hardly meant she was giving a stamp of approval to their relationship. And even if she did, it would be under duress. Because she was forced to accept that Dev needed her. It didn't mean aunty ji liked her or deemed her fit to be Mrs Dev Dixit. Sonakshi didn't...couldn't trust anything said by either of them. Dev had her love. Would probably have it as long as she lived and breathed. But trust? No. She didn't trust him anymore.

Where did Ritwik fit into this? Nowhere. She had discerned that fact that morning when she'd stepped into Dev's room. Maybe she would be able to move on one day. But she wasn't ready to do that yet. And it wasn't fair to invite Ritwik into her life when her heart beat for Dev. It wasn't fair to Ritwik. It wasn't fair to her. So she'd gone and talked to her fianc. Had apologized to him and his family. She had broken her engagement. Well, at least it didn't end on a clichd note of her returning his ring and him wishing her a good life, she thought ruefully. He had accepted her decision but had been hurt and angry. After all, he hadn't been the one who wanted to get engaged ASAP. She had pushed for it and now she was pulling away. But as melodramatic as it sounded, she had wished him luck and a good life. Because he was a good man. He would make a wonderful husband. Just not for her.

Then she had gone back home and broke the news to her parents. Her baba...she sighed. She had disappointed and hurt her baba. Her maa too. I'm sorry baba. Really truly sorry. Sorry for rushing into this engagement while I knew that I wasn't ready to move on. I was still...my past is still with me. Her baba her shouted at her, told her he wouldn't allow her to go back to Dev Dixit. I am not going to back baba, she'd said. I didn't break the engagement because I wanted to go back to Dev. I broke it because I couldn't go forward with Ritwik. Dev right now is my patient. And he will remain as that until he is back on his feet. I love him baba. But all the love in the world can't replace the lost trust. And a relationship without trust is like a building without foundation. Her maa and baba had reluctantly accepted her decision. So here she was.

"Kichu bhaiya?" she called out, entering the kitchen. "Did Mr Dixit have something to eat?"

"Not at first." Neha replied, walking up to Sonakshi. "He shouted and yelled. Then Kichu made the soup you told him to and took it. I told him Dr Bose told me to make sure he had it. He became quiet after that. He emptied the bowl."

Sonakshi darted a glance towards the stairs. "Is he sleeping?"

Neha shook her head. "I told him you'd been here this morning. He hasn't slept after that. He is waiting for you."

Taking a fortifying breath, Sonakshi went up the stairs to Dev's room. His dull, lacklustre eyes seemed to devour her greedily the moment she stepped into his domain. And she couldn't confidently say she was doing any better. She tried to make her face as blank as she could. "How are you feeling now?" she kept her voice soft and low.

She'd dealt with nervous breakdown patients before. Though Dr Bhargav had assured her that Dev hasn't stepped into the red zone yet, she had to be careful and not agitate him. He didn't reply. Just continued to greedily absorb her presence. It reminded her of a starving man standing in front of a four-course meal. Why Dev? Why? When you love me so much, why didn't you fight for me? Why couldn't you stand up for us? Smothering her cry of pain, striving once again for normalcy, she moved closer to him and touched his forehead.

"No fever. Good. Do you feel like eating anything?"

"Sona," his whispered benediction reached her ears.

"I think you should have a shower and eat something. I will ask Kichu bhaiya to get your dinner here."

"Why..." his voice seemed to have given up on him. He swallowed and tried again. "Why did you come Sonakshi?"

In the process of going through his medical file, she looked up. "I think you should skip coffee for the time being, Mr Dixit. Have milk or juice instead."

"Does your fianc know that you are here?"

Sona noted his breathing speeding up. "I need you to do something." She waited until his breathing slowed down and his eyes were once again focussed on her. "Calm down. I need you to stay calm. Will you do that?" He gave a jerky nod. "I have spoken to your doctor. There is nothing..."

"When is your marriage?"

God, the guy was relentless! Then why did you give me up, a part of her screamed silently. She knew why. She knew she never stood a chance when it came to him choosing between his mom and her. For him, there was no choice. And she never wanted him to choose. There had been no need for him to choose! But choose he did. Now both of them had to live with that choice.

"First recover, Mr Dixit. We'll talk later." Sona took a step towards the door and halted. "And have your dinner. Please don't skip your meals. I will see you again tomorrow morning, on my way to work. Goodnight."

That night, after three long days and longer nights, peace descended on Ishwari Mansion. Dev, although still refused to let anyone near him, had his dinner, served by Kichu. He ate because Sonakshi told him to. He drank milk because Sonakshi wanted him to. He slept because then morning would come and bring Sonakshi along with it.

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Morning did come. But before Sonakshi, it brought along something else to Dev. Clarity of thought. The haze that had surrounded his brain had diminished enough to filter some thoughts through. He got out of his bed, wavered a little before righting himself and making his way to the washroom. All those sedatives and lack of proper food had sapped his energy. He messaged his driver, instructing him to get the car out in ten minutes, brushed his teeth, dunked himself under the shower and grabbed the first clothes that came to his hand. A pale blue shirt and black trousers. Pulling them on, he strode out of the house, rattled off the address to the driver and got in, one hand still buttoning up his shirt.

He didn't want to spend his time in bed regaining the lost strength. There was something else that he'd lost. That he needed to gain. Had he lost it forever? Had he lost her forever? She had come last night. Breathed life into him. And when she'd left, it was like he'd died. Again. Like he couldn't breathe. Again. He can't go through that again. He can't lose her. No. No. No. He can't lose her. He wouldn't survive without his Sona. But she's engaged now, a voice inside him tried to insist. He pushed it away ruthlessly. Would she accept him back? Why would she? Why should she? He was the guy who'd promised her the moon and crushed her to the ground, all in a span of few hours. Did he have a choice? Maybe not. But that still didn't make it right. She had been his lover, friend, guide, companion...all rolled into one delightfully beautiful package. Sonakshi. His Sona.

Dev winced and cringed as her tear stained face from that night in the hospital flashed before him.

Aap mujhe deserve nahi karte, Mr Dixit. You don't deserve my love.

Maybe I don't deserve you Sonakshi. But I still want you. I don't deserve your love but I want it. I want it so much Sonakshi. I need it. I need you. All for myself. I will do whatever it takes to have you in my life. I know I said this before too. I promised you this but broke it. But I am making the same promise again Sonakshi. To you and to myself. And this time I will keep it. Because the alternative is something I can't contemplate. Because there is no alternative.

Lost in his contemplations, it took him more than a few minutes to realize that the car had reached its destination. The driver was darting apprehensive glances at him. Probably scared of disturbing him, even to tell him that they've reached. With a brisk nod, Dev got out of the car, weaved a little before shaking his head vigorously, straightening and walking towards the house and ringing the bell. Asha opened the door and stared.

"Dev babu? Aap?"

"Eta ke, Asha?" Bijoy came into the hall and stopped. And stared at the man who had broken his daughter's heart.

Dev took in the hostile expressions. Swallowing, he inhaled deeply and plunged. "Can I come in please?" Asha stepped aside. It wasn't exactly a warm welcome but he would take it. "I-I wanted to talk..."

"Sonakshi is not home," Bijoy almost snapped. "And even if she were, Dev babu, I don't think I would want her talking to you."

"Ji. I understand. I actually came to talk to you, sir."

"Is there anything more left to be said, Dev babu? I thought you'd said it all the day you broke my daughter's heart and her trust."

Dev controlled his flinch. "I have come to apologize. I need...to apologize. To Sonakshi. To you. For hurting her. For hurting you."

"Fine. You apologized. Now please..."

"Bijoy," Asha interrupted her husband gently. It was obvious that this man loved her daughter. He wasn't back to normal yet. He looked weak and sickly. Yet he was here. Wanting to talk.

Dev shot her a look of gratitude. "I know what I did wasn't the correct thing to do. At that time, it looked like I had no choice." He blinked, looked away, blinked again before meeting squarely meeting Bijoy's eyes. "I was right. I have no choice. I don't have the choice of leaving Sonakshi. Leaving Sonakshi is not an option for me sir. I can't...I can't survive without her. I need her with me. For me." Bijoy opened his mouth but not giving him a chance, Dev plunged ahead. "I know. I know she is now en-engaged to someone el-else. I know th-that I have no r-right to ask this of you. But sir, I love your daughter. So very much. And if you give me another chance, I swear I will never hurt her, ever again. I will never leave her ever again. I will never let her go, ever again. I want a second chance with her. I want a second chance with her family."

And that morning, there, in Sonakshi's house, Dev Dixit stood and waited. For his second chance. At love. At life.

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Is this the ending?? Most definitely NOT. This is the beginning. Of second chances. For Dev. For Sonakshi. And for Ishwari too. How they take up those second chances and what they do would be another story for another day.

Thank you. Thank you all!! Each and every one of you. For reading, liking and commenting.