A/N: In this OS, Zoya had met Akram in New York before marriage and Akram had lied to her family about having his own business but his truth came out on the wedding day leading Zoya, Anwar and Zeenat to break the marriage. In this OS, Zeenat supported Zoya in running unlike the show where she wanted Zoya to marry Akram even after knowing his true colours and about his goon type relatives. I know this OS is very much anti-AsYa but I really wanted to write on how a modern and NRI girl like Zoya would actually reacted and thought about herself and her self-respect if it was not the show. She would have really think twice before agreeing to marry Asad. I read several OS in that time where Asad and Zoya don't end together with either Zoya leaving him or moving on wid another guy while Asad is regretting his mistakes.
"I am leaving for New York," said Zoya as she handed her airport engagement ring to him, "Phuphi, I respect u very much but u putting a 10 day challenge was wrong. How can u decide so easily dat ur son will get married in 10 days wen he is not ready? I can't marry Asad just to fulfill ur challenge n risk my life. I had not come to India to get married at d age of 24. I have a lot to do in my life. I have a job in New York which now I have to do online only. But I have to return there one day. How can I get married to someone who has never respected me but only hurt me n judged me? If he can treat a female guest so badly just cuz she dresses up in modern clothes n is independent wat is d guarantee dat he will respect me after marriage? It shows dat he may have hurt some other modern girls too. A marriage is not a joke which can be done by 10 day challenge to win against a rival."
Zoya left 4m there leaving Dilshad, Asad n Najma shocked while Tanveer was smiling.
"Ammi, she don't want to get married to me," said Asad shockingly.
"She is right in her own place. She never wanted to get married so soon, Asad. Any girl will think before choosing d person she wants to marry n she don't want to marry u as u have hurt her a lot. I can't believe dat me being such a modern n even independent women u turned out like Shirin's family. Wen u both came 4m airport, u hurt Zoya saying dat u engaged only for ur ammi. Now, u want to marry her just cuz of my challenge. So, we sud respect Zoya's decisions. She has her own life," said Dilshad.
Asad went to his room. He recalls Zoya's words to Dilshad. He loved Zoya but did not tell her n instead insulted her for any reason to push her away.
"I need to convince Zoya to agree for ammi's sake," thinks Asad.
She went outside Zoya's room n knocked d door. Zoya opened d door.
"Wat r u doing here?" asked Zoya.
"I need to talk sumthn wid u," replied Asad.
"Fine, come in," said Zoya.
Asad went inside.
"Zoya, I know u did not liked wat ammi said but u need to agree for marriage for ammis sake. If ammi does not win d challenge then Ayaan's family will taunt her. I want to marry u for ammi's sake. U can agree for ammi's sake na," said Asad trying to convince.
"Kya ammi ammi laga rakha hai ha tumne?" asked Zoya angrily, "For u, only u & ur family matters. Zoya aur baaki duniya jaaye bhaad me. Right? How can I marry a man who always insulted, judged, hurt, manhandled n even slapped me. In New York, along wid my job I also worked in a NGO for women. There women were always told to not marry a person wen u notice red flags as its not safe for u. They r told dat u sud walk out of marriage after even a slap as every abuse starts wid just a slap n it continues like dat. I don't want to ignored d teachings I & other NGO people gave to d women. U slapped me once then wats d guarantee u won't slap me again? U apologized for slap just cuz u came to know I was innocent not cuz slapping a woman is wrong. U were teln me to tell a rape victim to leave. She was ur own cousin. Wat if d same was d case of one of ur sisters? Weneva I fell in trouble u were behind it. Cuz of u objecting over watching cricket match n teln me to leave d house those goons hurt me on d railway station. Cuz of ur interference n not believing me Akram kidnapped me, beat me, drugged me n almost married me forcefully. Cuz of u not believing me in Mangalpur, I was abt to be buried. Cuz of u leaving me in dat farmhouse alone just cuz I stopped u 4m takn any decision abt thinking, I met wid bus accident. Wat else u want now? Will u get peace after my death only or wat?"
Asad was shocked wid her outburst.
"Zoya, I know I have hurt you a lot of times but I will try to change," said Asad.
"Try to change? Oh really? Till then, I sud keep on getn mistreated by u. Right? I am not ur f**king punching bag but a human being a woman. Ur ammi did a mistake n instead of explaining her mistake to her u r supporting her in her mistake," said Zoya.
"Don't blame my ammi again n again," said Asad angrily.
"Kyu? Gussa laga kya?" asked Zoya wid a teasing smile, "U got hurt n agry wen I blamed ur ammi wen she is actually wrong. But wat abt u? U always brought my dead parents in between saying dat its good I don't have parents. After ur ammi was shot, u said Allah has done right in takn away my ammi as I don't deserve my ammi. After dat gas incident, u told Tanveer dat I don't deserve to be in any family dat also after knowing dat I lost my ammi wen I was a kid & I came to search my abbu. And yes, I remembered everything abt dat night in farmhouse. At 1st, u said u love me n then in d next moment u showed ur true colours saying how can I know abt his family wen I myself don't have any family. U told me dat I don't deserve to be a bahu or wife in any family. Who r u to decide dat ha? How much u know me? How can I marry d man who can say all dis to a woman who he claims to love dat also in an intoxicated state. People speak truth in intoxicated stated & u said those things to me. U always whine dat ur abbu left u & all hurting ut ammi, u & Najma. If u r really hurt wid dat, u wud have never insulted a person's parents on their upbringing especially an orphan. U always said dat its good my parents left me n my parents don't taught me anything. Now, I will say dat its good ur abbu left u as he knew dat u r not a good person. Even wid a modern woman like phuphi being ur mom u turned so much regressive like Ayaan's family whom u hate so much. U don't let Najma wear western clothes n wants her not befriend girls wearing western clothes. U tell d women to be at home before 7pm as if they r small children. Ur ammi don't taught u how to respect women, not to insult women n never raise ur hand on them. Ur ammi will be surely ashamed of ur upbringing wen she comes to know dat u manhandled me several times n slapped me."
Asad cud not believe dat she questioned his ammi's upbringing. But he cud not blame her as he too insulted her many times using her parents. He was feeling ashamed of himself. He was not prepared for so much outbursts n accusations on him.
"Zoya, u recalled dat I confessed my love to u. I remembered dat night but pretend not to remember as I was scared to fall in love n hurt d people I love. I can't express my love feelings. I am sorry for wat all I said after confessing my love to u," said Asad.
"I tried to make u remember many times but u made me luk like a fool even using ur friend Tanveer to ignore, insult n put me down. U r scared to fall in love n hurting d person u love. But don't u have a little bit of brain in pushing d away d person wid ur insults u r hurting me even more. Ur behaviour hurt my spirit, self-confidence n self-respect. U can't express ur love feeling but u can express ur feelings properly to insult someone. U r such an insensitive man to say all dat in d farmhouse abt me not understanding family cuz I don't have parents n teln I can never be someone's wife n bahu. U made me to question my self-confidence cuz of ur comment. And now, u r asking for apology. 4m wen u learnt to learnt to apologize for ur mistakes. U r apologizing just for ur n ur ammi's benefit. I will not come into words, Asad. I have my self-respect. Wat will I get after getn into a loveless marriage? Accusations, insults, pain, manhandling, slap n wat not? My entire life will be ruined after getn married to a man like u. 2day, u want me to marry u just cuz ur ammi made dat 10 day challenge of getn u married. 2mrw some men will ridicule u on being a virgin so will u challenge them dat u will make a score wid a girl in 10 days? 2mrw if ur ammi has a fight wid her sautan on whose children has kids before then wat u will u do? Will u convice me to have sex wid u then so dat ur ammi wins d challenge? 2mrw, if ur ammi has a fight wid her sautan again then she will tell dat she will get Najma married in 10 days wat will u do? Will u let her get easily married to some guy in such a short period? Will u let ur sisters get married to a man who had mistreated them for months like u did? Humeira loves ur brother but he does not loves her but their families r always after to get them married. Will u want Ayaan in dat loveless marriage? If someone tells 2mrw to let Najma marry their son so dat they win some challenge will u & phuphi agree for dat?" asked Zoya.
"No," replied Asad shockingly.
"Why no? Just cuz they r ur family? Right?" asked Zoya, "Zoya to baahar ki hai. Vo to family nahi to uske saath kuch bhi chalega. U even accused me of leaking d gas not thinking for once dat I can't do such a thing. U even accused me of trying to kill u thru peanuts wen I did not knew abt ur allergy but u did not said a word to Tanveer who did not told me abt it. Why? Just cuz she is ur childhood friend or she is traditional unlike me? I saved u 4m ur peanut allergy but I got accusations n insults in return. I was a fool in making a dish for u to patch up wid u after dat gas incident. U accused me of trying to kill Humeira wid poison in sweets. Ayaan who hardly knows me trusted me dat I can't do such a thing n stopped Razia to slap me again. But u being wid living wid me for months did not trusted me n told me to leave teln Mr. Bhatawdekar d truth. I just wanted ur happiness so dat u cud see ur brother's engagement but I only got hurt n insult in return. Wen I kidnapped Ayaan to help u meet him, u threatened to kill n tore d important paper belonging to me. Which respectable gentleman does dis to anyone let alone a woman? I did a lot for u & ur family but in return I always got insults n manhandling n slap U threatened to kill me again wen I wanted to meet phuphi. U manhandled me by squeezing my arms so tightly. U can clearly see it was paining me still u kept on doing it. U left only wen I requested u to leave. Next time, wat will u do if sumthn happens? Kill me? U also told me I don't deserve my ammi. Which respectable man mentally, emotionally n physically abuses someone like dat? Wen ammi told u dat she brought Marium not me, u came wid a stupid apology of bitter coffee n wen I asked abt ur abbu, u came to ur asli aukaat n said u came for saying sorry not to gain sympathy as if u were doing me a favour. Cuz of ur slap, I was scared for several days dat u might slap me again. Dat time, I forgave u easily n accepted ur apology thinking dat u will change but u can never change. U can slap me again if sumthn happens. U even left me alone at unknown place after knowing dat I & Ayaan tricked u. U knew dat I did not know all d places of Bhopal but still u left me alone. Wat if someone stalked or kidnapped me? Even after proved wrong many times in these months, u never trust me just cuz I am modern n not like a woman who u want as ur wife. U want a robot not a wife who will only luk after ur house but have no feelings, emotions n dreams. But I am a human being not a robot."
"U can't leave Bhopal as u have to luk for ur abbu. We got engaged publicly. Wat will we say to people after u leave?" asked Asad trying again to convince her.
"I don't care abt finding my abbu anymore. I was a naive n innocent fool thinking my abbu may have had some majboori so he left. My aapi was right dat its fine to be positive but too much positivity is wrong. I don't want to find a man who left my ammi n me. As for we being engaged, its u who created a mess. U told d truth to Mr. Bhatawdekar n just to stop me for ur ammi n sister u even put a ring on my finger. U always called d engagement a fake na? So, let it be fake. I broke dat so-called engagement by handing back d ring to u. U always tell me dat I don't value relationship. Its u who don't do dat. U made a joke out of engagement n my feelings just to please ur ammi n sister n is constantly lying to them while always teln me dat its fake. Wat next? If phuphi got fond of some other girl wud u have got engaged to her also or married her to stop her? So, its upto u how u will handle dis broken engagement n wat to say to people. If u were so concerned of people saying sumthn then why u made a joke of engagement in d 1st place? Next time, if some fight or misunderstanding happen u can again reveal some secret to someone like u told Mr. Bhatawdekar dat we were not engaged. We sud marry d one who will respect, love n trust us not someone who does d opposite of these 3 things to us which u did. By d way, wat we had for each other was just an attraction n infatuation which ur brother has for many random girls. I fell for u but it was my mistake which I have corrected now. We can't be 2ghtr as we have no future 2gthr. U need to understand dis very clearly. If u truly loved me then u wud have never hurt me in any way n came to my room to convince me to marry u so dat ur ammi win some ridiculous challenge. It may be just a challenge for ur ammi but its abt my n ur life. Its abt me spending my life wid a man who always hurts me. Why sud I be so selfless n sacrificing n get hurt by agreeing to marry u? Ur ammi wants u to get married to me or any other girl to win a challenge. U want to marry me for ammi's sake. But wat abt me? Where do I stand in all this mess? No one thought n asked wat I want. D earth does not revolve around only u & ur family, Asad. U need to understand dis. Its abt my life too. Instead of supporting ur ammi in her challenge try to explain her that such challenges are wrong and her reputation will not go if she loses the challenge. I hope u r strong enough to protect ur mother if someone points a finger at her. Just cuz I was selfless for some time n helped u all in d problems u always tuk me granted n thought dat I am like those sacrificing heroines which r shown in TV serials. I am not really a selfless n sacrificing girl to forget my dreams n get married so early. U clearly show dat u only think abt urself n ur family not abt me on wen I want to get married. I can only marry a modern guy not a orthodox guy like u. Truly speaking, u r not fit to be anyone's husband 4m wat I figured out all these months. After I go, don't hurt another girl. Actually, it was my fault to let u always hurt me n take me for granted. I sud have never stayed in ur house. I sud have d left d house d 1st time u insulted me. Jabse yaha aayi hu, muje sirf dard hi mila hai," said Zoya.
"Zoya, I truly meant dat engagement. Its not fake," said Asad.
"No use of teln dat. I will not believe wateva u say now. No use of convincing me anymore. So, just leave me alone now," said Zoya in a low but firm voice.
Asad left her room hurtfully. Unknown to them, Dilshad was watching n hearing everything. She had tears in her eyes. She felt guilty for wanting Zoya to marry Asad. How to tell Zoya dat she did not wanted her to marry Asad just for some challenge but she thought dat they loved each other but r not realizing. Now, after hearing their convo her eyes r opened n she realized wat all her son did wid Zoya n some of d things which she did not knew. She is upset wid Asad but proud of Zoya for standing for herself.
Asad returns to his room. He recalls his convo wid Zoya n feels guilty n ashamed of his deeds. He tuk out Zoya's earring 4m his drawer n decided to return it to her.
Zoya is angry wid him for lying dat he did not had her mother's earring.
"U always told dat I don't value relations but its u who don't. U lied dat u don't have my mother's earring knowing very well how important it was for me as it was her last sign. Why u hurt me like dat? Wat pleasure did u got in hurting me?" asked Zoya angrily.
"I did not meant to hurt u but I kept d earring as I did not felt like giving it back to u as I felt dat I have some feelings for u & wanted to have 1 of ur things wid me," replied Asad.
"For dat, u only got my dead mother's earring ha? If u really had some feelings for me, u wud not have hurt me by lying abt my ammi's earring," said Zoya.
Asad did not know wat to say. He always hurt her badly which he had no right to do so whether she was modern or not. He is ashamed for letn down his ammi's upbringing. He left her room. As he left, Zoya had tears in her eyes as she closed d door after him.
"Asad, I was a fool to fall in love wid u," said Zoya wid tears in her eyes, "I was always to have self-respect n fall in love wid only a truly nice guy. Just cuz u saved me several times, I became an emotional n fell for u forgetting dat it was cuz of u only I fell in problem in d 1st place. I became so blind in love dat I forgot my self-respect. How can I be such a fool? I know it will be hard to get over u but I have to move on 4m u."
Asad was sitting on his bed. He was in tears. He did not expected to get such a big n lengthy reaction 4m Zoya. She was right in everything she said. D best he can now do is to respect her decision n let her go away 4m him as she has her own life which he don't want to ruin. He was really a jerk to her so her reaction was justified. No self-respecting woman can tolerate wat all he did to her n will surely think twice before marrying him.
"I am sorry, Zoya," said Asad wid tears in his eyes, "I know I did lots of mistakes n hurt you a lot but I will change myself. I will prove dat I am Dilshad Ahmed Khan's son. I know u can never forgive me for my mistakes but I will always want ur happiness.
Next morning, after breakfast Zoya was in d hall wid her luggage. She hugged Dilshad, Najma n Tanveer emotionally. Najma was in tears. Dilshad n Asad were sad. Tanveer pretended to be sad but was happy inside as d thorn in her way is now gone.
"I will miss u, Zoya," said Dilshad.
"I will miss u all too, Phuphi. U & Najma have made me feel like a family but some people only made me feel like an unwanted guest," said Zoya lukn at Asad.
Asad did not know wat to say. He just lukd down in regret.
"Allah Hafiz," said Zoya as she left d house.
A/N: If Zoya was a girl in real life instead of Gul's heroine she would have surely thought twice before marrying Asad. What I wrote in this OS is something a girl with self-respect will think and would have said to Dilshad and Asad. Its good to respect elders but agreeing to do something they say which you don't feel right is stupidity. I even wanted to show Zoya getting angry on Dilshad for telling her to marry Asad when she clearly saw him how he treated her always and whether she would get Najma married to a guy like him who always hurts her but I decided against it as it would have been lengthier and also Dilshad herself heard her talks with Asad. Zoya still loves Dilshad but her love for her is not the same now after she brought that 10 day challenge thing. I may write a sequel only if people are okay with live in relation of Asad and Zoya which is my plan for the sequel.
Edited by angel_juhi04 - 9 years ago
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