FF; BEING MRS. RAVAN KUMAR chap 113-117(LAST CHAP) Pg 157**updated** - Page 51

CHAPTER FIFTY SEVEN

'Oh My God... Ishita... How the hell did she know ...'' Said Raman

'She has been planning this for 7 years, trust me, she knows a whole lot. If she has taken Mr. Jhakad out, it means even Parmeet is out and this gives her a lot of power in that company. I am sure, Parmeet has signed over his shares to her... Which leaves on thing ... She is preparing to leave'' Said Mihir much to Raman's surprise and worry

'Wait... What is the relationship between Jhakad and Parmeet'' Asked Raman

'Oh they both work for the same man...'' Said Mihir much to Raman and Simmi's surprise

'Okay even I want to know who that is...'' Said Simmi

'Abhya Sharma... They work for Shagun's husband... Have been for 6 years... Shagun sort of introduced you to Parmeet remember...'' Said Mihir and Raman got to thinking as he remembered

'Yeah... Yeah ...'' Said Raman

'She helped him purchase shares in the company... Yeah that is also around the time Mr. Jhakad was sort of recruited...'' Said Mihir

'Okay... I am officially scared of her... How did she make a powerful shareholder disappear like Parmeet? I mean he carried a lot of weight'' Asked Simmi

'I have no idea... She has loyal people but so did Abhya and Parmeet was one of them...He was like Jhakad to Papa... Right hand man'' Said Mihir

' I am more interested in knowing why you think she is preparing to leave...'' Said Raman worried

'Because, Jhakad and Parmeet where her last cards. If she had sent them away it means Abhya's cash inflow has been compromised. If I am to go by what Mihika told me, she also has Abhya's money now... They had access through Abhimanyu given they look alike but couldn't quite get their without Parmeet's signature. If all this is out and Parmeet is gone, it means Abhya will have no option than come out...'' Said Mihir

'Come out of where...'' Said Raman

'Hiding... In order for that plan they hatched with Shagun to work, he had to disappear when Ishita disappeared such that this lie would carry on. Such that when they told you Ishita was starting a new with him, it was believable because he wasn't in Delhi. Those photos they usually had were altered to make it look like it was real and believable for you and papa. None of them thought yours and Shagun's engagement would last 4 years much less Ishita walking back into your life after 7 years but Ishita, she was depending on it...'' Said Mihir

'Okay... So what happens when he comes out ...'' Said Raman

'I am not sure because she won't tell anyone. Only Mihika, Abhi and Shlok know what she is intending on doing... But if I am to guess, when she does whatever it is she wants to do, that will mean she met her end of the bargain. The remaining 4 months are very crucial for you and for her...'' Said Mihir

How so...'' Asked Raman

'The deal she made with dad, it didn't matter if you got your memory back. If 12 months elapsed, she would leave with signed divorce papers from you or she took everything. The fact that she had Bhalla Companies and RKB Fashions under her belt, she has ensured that dad doesn't back out since she now has control. You have a lot to do if you are to convince her to stay back with you...'' Said Mihir much to Raman's anguish

'Who the hell was part of this deal... Who were the witnesses when all this was happening or being signed...'' He said irritated

'Uhhh... Dad, mom and me ...'' Said Mihir innocently not knowing Raman was brewing inside

He hated the fact that all these deals and plans were being made without any of them considering what he wanted. What was their problem anyway? Both Ishita and her father had no right to make such judgments for him and he didn't take kindly to people playing him for a fool.

'This is... Arrggghhh am just so mad at everyone doing stuff behind my back... Why did you make that deal ... Why did you allow her to make that deal...You should have told me. I deserved to know'' Said Raman

'Listen she was walking away and we couldn't afford that. You needed help; help that she would be the only one to administer. Given the option I would do it again. We were in a tight corner and Raman you needed her...'' Said Mihir

'She wouldn't have walked away and you know it but even you wanted that deal to happen. Isn't it...'' Said Raman

'Whoa... Raman that is not fair ...'' Said Simmi

'Okay explain to me why it is me you are getting angry with in this scenario...'' Said Mihir perplexed

'You of all people had the power to convince her to find a different alternative but instead you played along to her and her divorce business. I know her; she wouldn't have walked away... She would have stayed to help me and you know it but you chose to play along anyway'' Said Raman

'Play along to what... You are officially going crazy...'' said Mihir who was getting angry as well

'You always wanted this... To see me helpless and in pain... There are so many ways all this could have gone but you couldn't even have the decency to let me know even before the accident ' Said Raman

'To let you know about what...'' Said Mihir

'Her... Where she was... that she had twins, my twins... That she was sick... That she could have died... You are enjoying this aren't you...'' Said Raman angrily

'Will you two stop it...'' Said Simmi

'No...No... Let him get this off his chest. Clearly it has been eating away at him for a while...'' Said Mihir

'You brought her to me, you... No one else... Mom, Shagun, Dad all tried and she said no but you brought her to me. She trusts you so you had the power to convince her to ask for anything else but you played along because you wanted this as well. You wanted to see me suffer. At least accord me the respect by not pretending you didn't...'' Said Raman clearly upset something that surprised Simmi

'Raman, what is your problem...'' Said Simmi irritated

'What could your divorce be of any assistance to me? Hell how is your love life supposed to be of any significance to me'' Said Mihir

'You tell me... You have always wanted what I had but could never have. Dad always favoring me to you made you act out and go crazy and it ate away at you for years. The fact that dad loved me more than you ...'' Said Raman angrily

'RAMAN...'' Yelled Simmi but Raman wasn't having it for some reason

'This was your turn to accord revenge wasn't it? Was it worth it then...'' Said Raman

Simmi looked at Raman shocked to the core surprised at how easily he forgot what Mihir had done for him since Ishita got back. She was even more surprised at how calm Mihir seemed because had it been her, she would have slapped the stupidity out of her brother

'Are you listening to yourself Raman? That woman, the Ishita you remember isn't the Ishita that is here now. She is very different and very ruthless that you have absolutely no idea what she could be capable of. If she wanted this divorce it didn't matter what anyone said, she was going to get it. And your right, I never told her to change her mind because she wasn't going to. She is as stubborn as dad and wasn't going to bow down to him...'' Said Mihir and Simmi could see as much as he tried to act all calm in that situation, he was hurting pretty bad

'You didn't see yourself laying on that hospital bed getting these fits that your fiancee let alone a doctor clearly couldn't help with. She was the only option and it was evident because the minute she walked into that hospital, they stopped. I didn't have to come back and I could have stayed away. I didn't need to come back here and see you because I knew how much you were hurting already but I did anyway because I knew you needed me.'' Said Mihir getting emotional

'Calm down Mihir...'' Said Simmi but Mihir wasn't having it

'You are my brother and it was hard to keep away because given our differences I still worry and care about you. That divorce is the only reason she gave for staying. If I had suggested anything different mom would have probably killed me for jeopardizing the health of her golden boy... I can't believe you think I could harm you intentionally like that...I can't believe you think I can be so callous like that'' Said Mihir teary

'I didn't mean ...'' Said Raman making a realization but at that point a line had been crossed

'No Raman, you did actually mean it... And as hurting as it is you have given me a realization... We may be brothers of some sort but that is as far as our relationship has ever gone. And so I am done... I am so done helping you... You are on your own...So grab your jacket and get the hell out of my house'' Said Mihir his voice breaking

'Mihir... Just calm down ...'' Said Simmi as she got teary

'And by the way for the record, I did try and tell you about her health but you were so taken up by Shagun and Dad that everyone else who said otherwise seemed like was against you. Even if I told you about her kids, your blind trust in dad wouldn't have allowed you to believe me and it couldn't have made a difference. By the time I even found out she had twins, dad and you had thrown me out of this house. You are really good at blaming everyone else for your problems and it is never your fault...'' Said Mihir

'Raman... Come on apologize'' Said Simmi

'Don't bother I do not want it. I spent the better part of my life trying to be everything you and dad wanted and it almost drove me to an early grave so I am done... And you know what just for the record, Dad and Shagun are the people you should be yelling at for all this because they are the ones you chose to trust and they are the ones who lied to you repeatedly. But the person you should blame and loathe the most will be the one looking back at you in the mirror. You are the one who allowed your marriage to be run by outsiders... That is the reason you are here, not me... ' Said Mihir as he got up and walked to his room as he said to Simmi

'Please take him away from here... I do not want to see him...''

'Mihir come on...'' Said a disheartened Simmi

'Simmi please, please do not push me I am trying so hard to keep my cool and stay calm... I just want to go and...'' He said but Simmi interrupted again

'Mihir... Look at me...'' Said Simmi standing in front of him

'Mihir... I am sorry I didn't mean to...'' Said Raman but at that point Mihir was hurt and there was no coming back

'Actually Raman you did mean it. In fact I am so upraised it took you this long to burst out at me. I have seen you bending over backwards to be polite to me because it is convenient...'' Said Mihir

'That is not fair...'' Said Raman

'Isn't it... Come on; tell me what valid reason you have for blaming me for whatever is going on... This is not...'' Said Mihir holding his tongue

'I am angry because she trusts you, not Simmi, not Shlok, you ... She trusted you and you had the power to ask her to change her mind at least until I was okay enough to make that choice myself. It didn't even occur to you to think about why I said no to that damn divorce all those years...'' Said Raman

'Your right, she did ask me and I gave her the same answer I am going to give you now. Your relationship with her had nothing to do with anyone but you two. No matter the circumstances of how you met or how you married to how you broke up, at the end of the day it was just the two of you and she had to think about herself and her children. If you are asking for my opinion, this divorce is the only thing that guaranteed you and dad do not try to take her kids away from her... And if you didn't know all I told you now, you would be doing just that'' Said Mihir tearing streaming before he added

'You know Raman; I know this, you anger, is not just about Ishita, that divorce and me knowing. Simmi here knew the same things I did and so did Kushan but somehow I end up being the one you're mad at because it is easier. I am the dispensable one. I am the one whose relationship with you has never had much value. I NEVER get a pass on anything... We are a lot of things Raman but Siblings... No... We have never been that... That is why this... You blaming me and being so angry at me for no reason is easier than if it were Simmi... I am the unwanted sibling... Always has been always will ...'' And with that tears streaming down his face, he walked out

Raman stayed seated in his chair not believing that conversation had taken that turn. He was wrong, he knew it and it hurt listening to his brother talking like that. None of this was their fault. They were just trying to do their best in a situation that was not so good. Whatever his story was with Ishita it was their relationship that they both allowed to break due to mistrust and secrecy.

Sometimes blaming everyone else for your problems was the only way one could cope with all the pain. He could see he had hurt Mihir a lot and yet he was the only person since his accident that had been true and honest to him in any way he could have. Mihir was in no way obligated to help Raman because Raman had not always been the best brother in the world. And given how bad their relationship was, he always came through for him so whatever he had just said to him wasn't fair and he didn't mean, he was just frustrated and helpless and just vented.

Mihir looked so hurt and disappointed that it didn't quite hit Raman until he heard Mihir talk about their relationship. It was not true that Raman didn't value his relationship with Mihir, it anything he valued it the most that is why he always gave him hard time. It felt like Mihir thought Raman didn't care about him and love him as a brother and it wasn't true

'Raman dress up, we are leaving...'' Said Simmi angrily

'Simmi... I am...'' He tried to say but she wasn't having it

'In fact, find a way to get yourself home...'' Said Simmi before she walked out

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'I would give anything to bail on this thing tonight. Like seriously who wants to be in a room full of self-entitled pompous people ...'' Said Mihika who had just gotten back

They were all waiting on the car that was picking them up and taking them to the Bhalla Mansion and in all honesty none of them wanted to even be there but they all knew they had to be. Shagun and he dogs were about to retaliate and they had to be there in order to be able to respond.

'And by self-entitled pompous people am guessing you are talking about Mihir'' Said Ishita smiling as she looked at her phone

'What... I never said that...'' Said Mihika

'Mihika, Please... It is just you and me, no one else... It is okay... Besides ...'' Said Ishita but Mihika interrupted

'No...No... We are not talking about this...''

'I was just saying...'' Said Ishita smiling but Mihika wasn't for it

'' Ishu no'' Said Mihika

'Okay... Okay... Sorry...'' Said Ishita holding her hands up

She looked at Mihika who seemed like she was trying to hide all this hurt that she had been holding on for years. It was so strange how she could love him and hate him at the same time although she was never going to accept it

'Mihika can I...'' Said Ishita but Mihika interrupted

'We're not talking about this...'' She said

'Just hear me out and I swear I will not talk about this the whole night...'' Said Ishita causing Mihika to simmer down

'Go to the Delhi Community Hall, it is on the way to the Bhalla Mansion from here... You have to be there at around 6.30pm which will kill some time for you before you actually come to the so called get together...'' Said Ishita

'Why do you want me to go to a community hall...''Asked Mihika Perplexed

'Because, I think you need to see something there... There is just one thing though. Make sure no one will recognize you because if they do, then the whole thing will be a bust...'' said Ishita causing Mihika to look at her with suspicion

'I hate it when you're this secretive...'' She said

'Just go... ' Said Ishita smiling as two cars made it into her gate

'Were you expecting... Wait is that your car...'' said a perplexed Mihika

'Yes... ' Said Ishita

'Who is... Is that Raman with your car...'' Said a more confused Mihika

'Yes...'' Said Ishita trying to avoid that conversation

'Why is he here? Or better yet, why does he have your car? You never let anyone have your car. Hell even I am not allowed to drive your car...'' Said Mihika

'Mihika, concentrate, Delhi community hall... Go...'' Said Ishita evading

'Ohhh my dear, we are so not done with this conversation...'' Said Mihika as she walked to the car

'Ishu... Hey...'' Said Raman as he came out of the car

'Mihika...'' He added acknowledging Mihika but she stood looked at him for a second then at Ishita

'Is everything okay...'' Raman asked not sure what he had just walked into but both sisters sort of just ignored him

'Ishu... Be careful... You hear me... Tonight you are on your own so you have to be...'' Said Mihika concerned but Ishita interrupted

'Mihika, Relax... I will be fine...'' Said Ishita reassuringly and with that Mihika got into the car and left

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CHAPTER FIFTY EIGHT

'Wow... She really hates me'' Said Raman and Ishita didn't reply thus ratifying his point

'What was that a bout anyway? Why is she saying b careful? Are you alright...'' He asked

'Yeah... I am fine... She is just being a sister that is all...'' Said Ishita

'No... That was not it...'' Said Raman

'Okay fine... She thinks you are not safe to be around...'' Said Ishita bluntly

'Meaning...'' Said Raman

'Meaning... She doesn't trust you to take...'' Said Ishita and Raman disappointed interrupted

'To take care of you...'' He said

'Something, like that...'' Said Ishita looking at him and she could see he was a bit hurt by it

'Not that I need taking care of...'' She added

'I know... Believe me I know...'' He said looking at her with a faint smile on his face trying to hide the disappointment in his voice

'Where is Mihir...'' She said suddenly

'Why... Should he have been here'' Raman asked

'Well... In way yeah... I thought you two were supposed to be together today...'' Said Ishita

'Why... What is today?'' Asked Raman clueless

'Oh... He didn't tell you?'' Said Ishita a little surprised

'Tell me what...'' Said Raman

'Ohhh... What did you do?'' Said Ishita

'Why is it that I may have done something? And what are you talking about?'' Raman asked

'Because today is important for him... If he didn't tell you and choose against letting you know, something happened... In the last 48 hours at least...'' Said Ishita looking at Raman and when he saw his expression suddenly change she knew something really did happen

'Oh God Raman what did you do...'' She said

'We just had a little fight... That is all...'' Said Raman causing Ishita to shake her head saying

'You have not learnt a thing in the last 7 months have you...'' But he just looked at her

'Mihir is not you... He doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve... He is a keep it inside kind of person... He was excited about this and wanted you to be there. It was all he kept on talking about when I last saw him. In fact there are only two people he really wanted to invite... He wanted to share it with you two...'' Said Ishita grabbing his hand and taking the car keys from him

'What... Where are we going ... Ishu'' He said but she just dragged him along some more

' We are going to the Delhi Community Hall... Get in...'' She said as she sat in the car and he followed

'Why...'' He asked

'Let us get there first... ' Said Ishita

'We are late... We have to get to the...'' Said Raman

'Yeah... Yeah... tell your fianc you will be a couple of minutes late...This is more important'' Said Ishita irritated and Raman sat back quietly not pushing that matter

'Who was the other person supposed to be there...'' He asked

'Mihika...'' Ishita answered as they drove out her gate to a place that would change a lot of things

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They made it there and Ishita with Raman not so far behind rushed inside hurriedly as they walked into the Community Hall. She took a seat with him behind as she murmured

'Thank God we didn't miss it...'' She said

'Miss what...'' Said Raman looking ahead as he still wondered what they were doing there in the first place

'Okay... thank you for that, we hear from Mihir...'' Said the host as he held out a box that Mihir took shaking hand

'What is this...'' Raman whispered

'Shhsss...'' Ishita said

'Hey, My name is Mihir and I am an addict...'' Said Mihir

'Hey Mihir...'' Answered everyone in the room

'Is this an Addicts Anonymous Meeting...'' Raman sked

'Yeah ... Now Shhsss ...'' Said Ishita

'It hasn't been easy this journey but I am happy that I have managed to stay true to myself and stay sober for all this while. Today I make five years sober...'' He said and everyone clapped

'What...'' said Raman suspired

'A lot of demons that I am trying to fight are still there and there is still a lot I have to do to make sure I avoid the situations that led me to the drugs initially. I make no excuses, I am the reason I got here and I will try to make sure that I never go back...'' Said Mihir as he looked down at his sobriety coin

'They say when you are an addict you have to think of something that you want to live for and for it me it comes easy... It my sister... And my brother ... And the woman I love...They are everything for me...'' He said smiling at Simmi as he continued

'Simmi, my sister, she always says I have a tendency to complicate matters that do not need complicating. She says I over think things and maybe I do. I tend to over think and then I end up bottling them up inside that I feel like I am drowning but no one is hearing me scream to pull me out. I am working on that... ' He said again smiling at someone in front and when Raman looked ahead, he could see Simmi

'You have to want sobriety in order to say sober and I did. But my reason for wanting it was this woman, at least it started that way...'' He said letting out a soft laugh

'I know... Ridiculous I know... My sober coach kept on telling me... You have to want this for you and do it for you not some girl...'' Said Mihir mimicking and everyone laughed

'But see the thing is for me, all these things were one and the same. I wanted it for me in order to become a better person to be worthy of her. She deserved better than what I was then, she deserved more. She never really got to know how I felt and maybe never will but I am grateful to her because she is the reason I didn't give up. She is the one who was there when I hit rock bottom and I am grateful that she didn't give up on me... So M ... Thank you...'' He said looking up as if saying a prayer

'Well once I began getting sober I realized. I needed to be better for a lot of people. My sister, my mother, her and most importantly my brother ...'' Said Mihir his voice breaking

Ishita turned to look at Raman and she could see he was getting emotional. It was a nice thing to see that he was actually for the first time maybe going to understand what his brother had been through. This was fixing everything she wanted... This was making sure that whatever she had come to achieve here, at least she fixed a few relationships along the way. As she turned to look back at Mihir, she saw Simmi sitting in the crowd with a hoodie on her head.

'Oh God... She actually came... ' She thought to her self

'When I found out about my brother's accident, it took a lot in me not to shot up. I mean I went to the corner, bought the drugs, bought a syringe and everything. I was ready to just give it all up because I couldn't imagine a world where he wasn't in it. I mean we fight all the time about nothing and everything. Sometimes we take months without talking and I think he may even hate me a little but... ' He said chuckling as he continued

'All that doesn't matter because he is my brother, you know... My big brother and I love him... I wasn't always there when he needed me and instead I acted out but... I will do everything to be there even when he thinks he can take it on his own sometimes...'' Said Mihir teary

'He isn't here now... And in a way I am grateful because I wouldn't have been able to share this. But I am glad he is okay. I don't know if I would be receiving this three year sobriety coin if he wasn't... And so to say to him too, thank you for fighting through and to my sister, thank you for not giving up on me... And to the M..., thank you for always being so hard on me ... You all are the reason for this, so this is to you all'' Said Mihir smiling at Simmi who was in tears galore

'God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change...'' He began the sobriety prayer and they all joined in

'Courage to change the things I can do and the wisdom to know the difference...''

Raman sat there listening to his brother and for the first time it dawned on him how hard it must have been for him. Addiction was something that most people thought they knew but not really understood. Mihir was like him, opening up like that when things were hard was not something they did easily but now that Raman thought about it, he could see it. Raman always had the support of his parents every time especially his dad because he was the favored child. Mihir was loved but their father just didn't know how to handle him because he was so different from Raman. The things he loved and cared about his parents never approved and the things his parents normally approved of, Mihir loathed. The fact that Raman always excelled in them and Mihir failed just brought a wage between them and tore then apart. It wasn't fair that he had to go through all this while Raman being his elder brother couldn't be there to help

'Raman... Raman ...'' He suddenly heard Ishita call him

'Hmm...'' He responded

' Get up, we need to leave...'' She said

'What... Why...'' He said

'Because you were not invited here remember...'' Said Ishita as she got up taking his hand with her

Raman slowly snuck out and together with Ishita they made it to the parking lot. He got into the car with a lot of things going on through his mind not believing the Mihir he had just seen in there was his brother.

'If you helped him six years ago, why he is celebrating 5 years... what happened'' Said Raman

What makes you think I am the one...'' She said but he interrupted

'It is fine, he told me it was you who paid for rehab...'' Said Raman

'I paid for it; I am not the one who helped him... Mihika was the one who helped... ' Said Ishita

'Mihika is the girl...'' Asked Raman

'Yeah... But he doesn't want her or people for that matter to know... So keep it to yourself until he is ready to tell you'' Said Ishita

'What happened then...'' Said Raman

'He was doing okay after the first round of rehab. But you see, there is this thing where you are supposed to do amend and everything and that didn't go so well putting him behind a year. You see he went to your mother...'' Said Ishita holding her breath as she looked at him

'What...'' He asked

''I don't think this is my story to tell... Hell it is not even my place to tell...'' said Ishita

'Ishita please...'' Raman pleaded

'No... I can't... But I will tell you this... He has had to fight a lot of demons to get here and he deserves a lot of credit for staying true to who he is. Your father is a very difficult man to impress and I am glad he learnt quickly that that was never going to happened and he lived his life...'' Said Ishita

'Why not...'' Said Raman confused

'Because... For starters he is not you... Hell he is not Simmi...'' Said Ishita and Raman knew her evading meant she wasn't going to give him a straight forward answer

'Was it because of me... His relapse... Was it because of me...'' Raman asked

'No... I can assure you, no...'' Said Ishita feeling sorry for him

'How do you know...'' Asked Raman

'Because except me and Simmi, no one really knows the truth of Mihir except your mother and father... So until he is ready to tell you... Just be there for him for once...'' Said Ishita looking at Raman as they sat in the car

'Can I ask you something?'' He said

'Sure...'' Said Raman

'Why are you doing this? Helping... Clearly you and my family have not been in good book for years, I can tell given how much you parents hate me and my dad's dislike for you and yet you helped them all. Simmi, Mihir, Jai, Neelu... Why did you help them...'' Asked Raman genuinely

'I was putting right a wrong... Something I did years a got that I am trying to put right'' Said Ishita before she put the key in the ignition and drove off

Raman looked at her and so wanted to push that matter but he knew she wasn't going to give him anything. He just sat back and rode with her to the get together that they would both realize had its own drama happening.

Back at the community hall, Mihir was talking to a few people who were congratulating him and also his sobriety coach who was telling him how proud he was of him and telling him how there was still a long journey ahead. As he listened he saw someone he though was Mihika walking out of the hall. He looked critically to try and make out if it was her but she was walking out and he missed it.

Could it be that Ishita told her, if she did what exactly had she heard him say...? He thought to himself and for some reason that made him unbelievably nervous

Mihika walked out and into the car tears streaming down her eyes not believing what she was hearing. She hated Mihir for what he did to her with that deal and to Ishita in a way because all this meant her family feel apart. But the reason she was so angry at him even more was because she thought he knew how she felt and took advantage of that.

They had met through Raman and had grown close to each other. Over the years they had become good friends and she along the way feel for him. She always knew it wasn't a good idea because she was among the first people who knew about his drug problem and she knew it wasn't a good idea that she and him dated so she kept her feelings hidden.

She helped him when he needed and he too did the same when she was in trouble but then this whole designs issue happened and everything fell apart. She was taken to jail and so was Shlok, Ishu was being treated like some sort of characterless person and had a lot going for her that she in a way gave up to fix that problem that he had created. Her parents gave up their life's savings trying to fix a problem that he had created for her and to add salt to injury, he began spying on them just as Ishita was diagnosed. With everything Ishita was going though it hurt that he was the one person she would have thought had some sense in that crazy house and maybe subconsciously thought he would be there for her but he bailed. When she needed him the most he bailed and she in a way never forgave him for it.

However whatever she had just heard there was somethings he never said to her. That was a Mihir she had never seen before. He had grown up and matured and he had endured a lot than he led on and there was that small factor, he had feelings for her. If he felt this way about her, he never expressed it at all. She began feeling a bit guilty because in all this she never really considered what might have been or even give a second thought to why he did what he did. She was not making any excuses for him but after everything they had, he deserved to have an ear from her. She got back into the car asking the driver to take her to the Bhallas with a load of things going on in her mind.

'Mihir...'' Called Simmi taping his shoulder and bring him back from his stance

'Yeah... Sorry...'' He said as he turned to stop staring at the door and look at his sister

'Where is your attention? I was saying let us go, we are getting late...'' Said Simmi

'Right... Sorry...'' He said as he grabbed his jacket and began walking out with her

'Simmi... Did you notice Mihika ... I mean did you see her...'' he added

'No... I don't think she came... Sorry...'' Said Simmi

'No it is fine... I never told her anyway... I was just saying, I thinking saw someone who looked like her...'' Said Mihir

Simmi looked at him feeling so sorry for him. It must have been lonely being in lobe that was so one sided like that. What is worse is that he refused to move on. In a way he was kind of like Raman which was ironic since he spent the better part of his life fighting not to be like him

'Listen... I think now that you are better, much better, you should tell her...'' Said Simmi

'Nope... I am doing no such thing...'' He said

'Why not... I mean she has no one... I believe she is single as well...'' Said Simmi

'No she isn't...'' Said Mihir disheartened

'What do you mean?'' Said Simmi

'I mean come on... You really think she could stay single all this while... What for... he had no reason to wait for me...'' Said Mihir

'Ohhh... I feel so sorry for you... It is just sad...'' Said Simmi playfully before she added

'Stop feeling sorry for yourself... If you love her that much just go for it... What do you have to lose...'' She said smiling as she looked at her brother

Mihir looked at Simmi before he chuckled knowing his sister was right in a way but he didn't have the heart to tell her yet. He wasn't sure he would take that rejection too well but she was right, he sort of had no choice

'Fine... I will think about it...'' He said

'Good...'' Said Simmi as they got into the car and off they left for the Bhalla Mansion

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CHAPTER FIFTY NINE

'Here we are...'' Said Ishita as she parked outside the Bhalla Mansion

'Is it so bad that I am loathing going in there... I really am in no mood to entertain all these people...'' Said Raman

'Technically you are not entertaining... It is your fiancee...'' Said Ishita

'Can we just stop calling her that... We can call her by her name...'' He said a bit irritated causing Ishita to smile as she looked at him almost as if she was finding out about some secret

'What...'' He asked frowning a little because of her reaction

'How much do you remember...'' Said Ishita

'Meaning...'' He said

'I mean... How much of your memory do you have back...? How much do you remember'' Said Ishita

'I don't... What... Why would you ask me something like that? Who says I remember anything?'' He said defensively causing Ishita to throw back her head and laugh

'You could never lie to me. It is so cute how much you're stuttering right now. Your like a child who has been caught red handed with his hand in a cookie jar'' Said Ishita

'Wha... I don't...'' He said before he chuckled a little

'I remember just a little... Enough to know... It was dumb of me to ask her here...'' He added causing Ishita to look at him her expression a bit different, like she was afraid

'You remember why you got her here...'' She asked

'Yes... I thought I was helping you when we lost Aryan...'' He said honestly

'And then...'' Ishita said

'And then we grew apart...'' He answered lying causing her to look at him with a faint smile on her face filled with worry and it was so evident that it was surprising for Raman

'What...'' Raman asked

'If you are still sitting in this car talking to me like this... It means you haven't remembered it yet...'' Said Ishita

'Why wouldn't I be sitting here with you if I did remember...'' Said Raman in a honesty a bit confused

'Because then you would find me repugnant and you would hate me...'' She said honestly something that surprised even her

What...'' He said shocked as he looked at her not believing what he was hearing but she was just looking across from him staring at something and when he turned, he could see Shagun knocking on the mirror of the car on his side saying

'Come out... You are late...''

'What the hell...'' Raman said irritated completely ignoring her as she turned to Ishita saying

'Why would you think I would find you repugnant...''

'Are we going to ignore her...'' Said Ishita

'Yes...'' Said Raman

'She won't...'' Ishita tried to say but he wasn't having it

'She can knock all she wants I do not care... Answer my question and stop being evasive...'' He said and she could see he wasn't having no for an answer but even she wasn't going to barge

She turned to her side and rolled down the window giving Shagun access to talk to him

'Raman...'' He heard Shagun call him much to his irritation

'What...''He said angrily

'I was just saying that there are people in there asking to talk to you. And why are you late... And where is your car...'' She asked

'Tell the people to wait... I had stuff to do that I couldn't cancel last minute to attend you get together and since I was with Ishita I figured we car pool. About my car, I don't know I think Simmi has it... Have I answered all your questions?'' He said

'Yeah... I see... So won't you come in...'' She asked

'I will... I just need to talk to Ishita out something...'' He said

'What...'' She asked

'It is private... Go in... I will talk to you later...'' He said as he pulled up the window and turned to Ishita saying

'Yeah not so easy... Your taking to me today...''

'I wasn't avoiding anything...'' Ishita lied as she watched Shagun stomp her feet and walk away angrily

'Ishu... Answer me... Why do you think I would find you repugnant...'' He said

Ishita knew there was no going back and he was looking at her like he wasn't backing out of this and she knew it

'I wasn't s very good wife... I wasn't a very good partner... You have to understand a lot happened between us... So much more than just the loss of our child... Much of it would have been avoided but wasn't.'' She said

'I don't care what happened then...'' He said

'You will... Once you remember you will and thus the hate for me...'' She said

Raman looked at her and he could sense it was almost as if she wanted him to actually hate her for whatever reason. It was not making sense with what she was doing for him and what she wanted him to feel for her. She did everything in her power to distance herself from him and he was just clinging on

'Do you want me to hate you...'' He asked bluntly just to see her reaction

'What... No... I mean... ' She said shocked as she began to stutter

'Do you want me to hate you...'' He asked again and she just looked at him teary eyed as she said

'It would be easy...''

'Easy for what...'' He asked again looking at her and he could see she was struggling or words

'Easy to walk away...'' She said her eyes welling up with tears

He wanted to hug her and assure her that she had nothing to worry about and that he knew it all. He felt a part of him dying when he heard her talk like that but he had to keep it together and not give her any notation that he remembered everything and knew so much more than she thought.

He slowly took her hand in his causing her to turn and look at him and he looking straight into her eyes said

'I don't care about what happened then and no matter what... I will still love you, past or not...'' causing her to smile

Ishita knew it was easier for him now that he had no idea what was happening around. She knew exactly what Shagun was planning to do in fact of anything, she had made Shagun play right into her arms and do exactly what she wanted her to do. Today Raman was going to meet one of the people he loathed so much and she knew memory loss or not, his father was going to erupt and tell him everything. It was just a matter of timing that had to be perfect and in a way this was good because as they sniffed Abhya out, even she and Raman's chapter was going to slowly come to an end.

'You are a good man Ravan Kumar... ' She said as a lone tear streamed down her face

'Wow... I haven't heard you call me that in over a decade...'' He said as he wiped the tear that was streaming down her face as they both chuckled

'We need to go inside...'' She said and he nodded saying

'I know...'' As if he was in pain causing her to laugh as she composed herself

'Ohhh... I got you to smile...'' He said as he opened the door

'I will see you inside...'' He added and Ishita who was receiving a call nodded as she answered

'Hello...'' She said as she watched Raman walk in

'Ishu... Are you okay...'' Asked Abhimanyu

'Of course I am fine... Why'' She asked

'Uhhh you just sent me an email asking me to come to the Bhalla house...'' Said Abhimanyu

''I just sent you an email... Me... Are you sure...'' She asked again

'Yeah... I am looking at it right now...'' He said perplexed

'That wasn't from me...'' She said

'Then who ...'' He said thinking before they both said

'Jhakad...''

'God that man doesn't know when to stop...'' Said Ishita

'Why would he be sending me an email telling me this... And where would he find my email...'' Said Abhimanyu

'I am not sure... I think he got it from Suraj... Or stole it from him... Suraj worked with his son and I think they cloned his email...'' Said Ishita

'Right... That makes sense...'' Said Abhimanyu

'Wait if he sent this to you, he isn't aware that we are in touch... I mean this is the only way they could think this whole Abhya is Abhimanyu business will still work...'' Said Ishita

'Means Parmeet kept his part of the bargain... He didn't say a word to Abhya...'' Said Abhimanyu

'Exactly...'' Said Ishita

'So what... Now I should what... Just show up...'' Said Abhimanyu

'You know what... I thought Abhya was coming out... I genuinely thought he would be at this party but if they are conniving to have you here, means Abhya is not in Delhi... ' said Ishita

'But why the sudden call for this party if he isn't here to do his bidding...'' Said Abhimanyu

' They are desperate... As long as Mr. Bhalla is leaving me in charge, they have no say. Shagun has been demoted; Jhakad Fired and Parmeet has left. We emptied their accounts this morning so... They are desperate ...'' Said Ishita

'Still doesn't make sense why they would want Abhya here now...'' Said Abhimanyu

'Raman... He is their main card... Everything that has happened began with Raman... If he is with me ... Still having amnesia and siding with me, it means Shagun is weak in this house. Raman is the central point. She needs him back in her corner... Abhya... He is the only one capable of that and given Mr. Bhalla is no longer with them, they need this to work...'' Said Ishita making a realization

'Okay... Can't believe she is still trying to pull that play again...'' Said Abhimanyu

'Because she knew trust just doesn't go and come back... Once Raman remembers, believe me, he is throwing me out... Except this time, I am more prepared'' Said Ishita

'So what do I do...'' Said Abhimanyu

'Oh you are coming to a party... Where are you...'' Said Ishita

'I am like 20 minutes away. I had to see Suraj so we met as he came with Simmi...'' Said Abhimanyu

'Good, just turn around and come enjoy a company get together...'' Said Ishita and with that she hang up

She knew it was going to be a very long night and she had to be prepared for what was going to happen. She thought Abhya was going to show up, she thought Raman was finally going to come face to face with the man who shattered them but I guess he was going to have to wait. She walked in and she had to admit, Shagun knew how to throw a party. The place was packed with people and beautifully set it. She saw Simmi and Suraj greeting people while Mr. Bhalla avoided them, as usual. She saw Romi and Shlok talking as they walked to where she was

'Where have you been...'' Said Shlok

'I had to go to Mihir's thing...'' Said Ishita

'Oh God... Yeah, How did that go ...'' Said Romi

'Pretty well actually...'' Said Ishita smiling

'And Mihika... Did she go ... He really wanted her to be there...'' Said Shlok

'I don't know...'' Lied Ishita knowing these two could be nosy when they wanted to be

'I swear you two are the most stubborn people I have ever met'' Said Shlok

'I second that...'' said Romi as Ishita smiled

'So how is this thing, anything happening yet...'' She asked

'No... Speeches are done, which were a bore feast...'' Said Romi

'Except the part where Mr. Bhalla thanked us...'' Said Shlok much to Ishita's surprise

'WIAT... What... No... I do not believe you...'' Said Ishita

'No... Really ... It is true... I believe his exact words were, I would like to thank RUADISH and its owners for their generous offer which has helped save us from the brink of bankruptcy... I hope we have a good relationship for future business together...'' Said Romi

'He actually said that...'' Said a surprised Ishita who couldn't believe it

'Yes... He did ... Believe me I was more shocked than you'' Said Shlok

'I do not know how I feel about this... I don't know I am happy or scared. Mr. Bhalla is very unpredictable'' Said Ishita causing Romi and Shlok to let out soft laugh as they agreed

'Mihir... Hey buddy...'' Said Romi who had clearly had a little too much to drink

'Hey... Are you okay...'' Said Mihir surprised at his excitement

'Yeah... Can I get you a drink ... Sister hosting...'' Said Romi sarcastically causing all of them to laugh

'No I am good thank you...'' Said Mihir

'Oh right... Addict thing... Sorry...'' Said Romi

'Not cool Romi...'' Said Ishita

'No it is fine... ' Said Mihir laughing

'I am proud of you...'' Said Ishita genuinely

'Thank you... Means a lot coming from you ...'' Said Mihir as he leaned in and hugged Ishita

'What are we celebrating here...'' Said Mihika who had just walked in and was standing behind Mihir

Ishita could feel Mihir freeze in her arms as he pulled away and she knew he was still a bit scared of Mihika

'Actually, today... Mihir is five years Sober ... Impressive Na ...'' Said Ishita as she took Mihir by the elbow and turned him around causing him to look at Mihika

'Oh... Congratulations...'' Said Mihika genuinely

'Thank you...'' Said Mihir politely

'Seriously... What are you ten ... Come on the man deserves a hug for that...'' Said a tipsy Romi pushing Mihir a little that she was actually forced to hug Mihir

It was brief, it was forced but it felt unbelievable to Mihir and he would treasure that because she didn't give those very often. At least not to him

'Alright... To get rid of that slightly awkward moment ... What is the plan...'' Said Shlok

'Plan for what...'' said Mihika

'For us to bail... You really think I am staying here longer than I have too... No way...'' Said Shlok

'Hahaha... I agree... Even I want to bail...'' Said Mihir laughingly

'Then you can leave... After all party is for Bhalla workers only and invited guests... You are not invited'' Said Shagun as she joined them

'Oh God... Medusa is here...'' Said Mihika as she turned to look at Shagun

'What do you want Shagun'' Said Shlok

'It is fine... Simmi called me here I will go see her then I will leave...'' Said Mihir who was in all honesty in no mood to fight

'You are not going anywhere... I am inviting him...'' Said Ishita

'You can't do that... This get together is being hosted by me...'' Said Shagun

'For all workers of Bhalla Companies and RKB Fashions ... It would only be fair that the owner had preferential treatment because in a way, this all thing, is for me... he is staying or I walk out as well'' Said Ishita calmly looking at Shagun who couldn't say anything in retaliation

'I thought so... Come on Mihir... Mihika will introduce you to Heidi... She can't stop talking about you...'' Said Ishita humiliating Shagun and also giving Mihir a window he had to utilize with Mihika who was visibly jealous with the whole Heidi business

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PRECAP

'Ishita... She is going to destroy us... She is going to take everything... She is not willing to understand anything... I am scared of what she will do to us all... She is not the same girl...'' He added as he tried to hold his wife

'Let her... I wish she kills us all for what we did to her... You took everything from her an when she needed you the most, you offered her a divorce instead... I wish she destroys us all because of what we did to that poor girl...You wanted revenge on what I did... Congratulations these are the repercussions... You just managed to kill me ten times over without even making me bleed... I wish I died... I wish I was dead...You should have punished instead Vishu'' Said Santosh tears streaming down her face before she got up and walked to the bathroom locking it