Milestone SS on Maan's Memory Loss Track Epilogue/Pg 85 Dt 18/03/'15 - Page 20

KHURANA MANSION

[Geet's POV]

Maan's sudden outburst had left us all shell shocked!

Fate had again put me in the same situation where I was a few months back ... all my past wounds had surfaced out yet again ...all those haunting memories flashing back and again a storm had hit my happy household putting my relation with Maan at stake, which had lately started blooming is again on a verge of being uprooted in the whirlwind of pain and deceit!

Not once had Maan looked my way while disclosing the truth.

Was he angry that I had forgiven Dev...Had the truth deepened the distance between us...Will the misunderstanding again create barriers between us...Will destiny again separate us?

So many questions were thrown infront of me but answers...non!

With slow steps I headed towards Maan's room raising my hand to knock on his door. His silence was killing me and I needed my answers!

Destiny was testing me yet again and no one knew what lied across this door... a dawn of a new beginning or the dark deep pits of our past!

Gathering all my strength to face the worst I slowly knocked at the smooth polished door of his room, there was no reply...again I lifted my hand this time I knocked harder only to brace his angry face and harsh words as he pulled the door open.

"Nakul maine kaha na mujhe disturb mat karo... Geet tum?"

On a reflex I stepped back hearing his words but seeing me at the door his face softened a bit only to be replaced by something else but before I could relate or read through him, he had turned and had walked away...now his back facing me.

"Woh...Maan main ...woh ... aap se..." I struggled to frame my words.

"Geet I'm sorry...!" He spoke out suddenly, freezing me in my attempt to voice out my mind.

His statement paralyzed me for few moments.

' He was sorry ...for what ...did he mean that now he didn't want to give us, our relation a chance, was he implying that he can no longer...No Babaji...don't let this happen...again!'

Tears threatened to brim out of my eyes, gulping down the lump and my fingers curled in a fist, I walked into the room to brace myself for the oblivion. But he wasn't done yet.

"...for everything!" He finished.

He walked towards the window and stood facing out. I stood confused not quite understanding his statement. He didn't once turn towards me but probably understanding my confusion he elaborated.

"Geet mere parivaar ne tumhaari poori zindagi barbaad kar di ... aur maine bhi apne yaaddasht ki wajah se tumhe kitni takleef pohuchayi hain! Meri hi wajah se NT iss ghar mein aayi, woh tumhe dard deti gayi aur main bewakoof samajh hi nahi paaya."

"Main jaanta hoon Dev ko bhi tumne meri wajah se hi maaf kiya hoga, parivaar ki izzat aur society ke pressure ki liye tum peeche hatt (back off) gayi hogi ... hain na." He paused for a moment.

"Dev ki wajah se tumhe ..." Before he could continue further I cut off his statement and voiced out my heart!

"Dev ki wajah se mujhe mera Maan mila!" I confessed earnestly and this time he turned around, his face shocked as well as surprised by my sudden statement.

"Haan Maan ... Agar Dev aur NT mere saath woh dhoka nahi karte toh main aap se kaise milti! Hoshiarpur ke kisi ek ghar mein shaadi karke ek gumnaami (non entity) zindagi jee rahi hoti ... "

"Maan main ek aise ghar mein paida hui, jahan auraton na koi aukaad (standing) hain aur naa hi koi izzat (respect) ... Insaan bhi nahi samjha jaata hume ... Janwaron ki tarah kisi ke bhi saath, shaadi ke naam par baandh diya jaata hain!" I stated the truth!

"Himmat (courage) kya hoti hain ... Izzat (dignity) kya hoti hain ... Swaabhimaan (self respect) kya hota hain ... yeh sab aap ne mujhe sikhaya hain Maan."

"Dev aur NT ke dhoke ne mujhe meri neend se jagaya ... Aur aap ne sikhaaya ke sar uthakar apne haq ke liye ladna kitna zaroori hota hain ... apne pairon par khada hona kya maayne rakhta hain."

" Jab yeh sab mere saath hua tab maine kitni baar Babaji se poocha... shikayat (complained) ki ... ke mere hi saath aisa kyun hua ... maine kisi ka kya bigaada tha ... lekin jawab mujhe kuch waqt baad mila aap ke roop mein."

"Babaji ne mujhe ehsaas karaya ke yeh takleef aur dukh aanewale khushiyon ka paigaam tha ... Mere liye unhone aap ko jo chuna tha ... mujhe aap se jo milna tha ... shayad iss takleef bhare raaste par chal kar hi sahi!!"

"Aap mere liye woh the ... jisne mujhe girne diya taake main aur mazboot bano! ... Main jab bhi giri aap ne mujhe kabhi chot (wound) nahi lagne di ... hamesha mere saath saaya ban ke rahe."

"Meri zindagi ke pathreelein (stony) raaston par chalne ki himmat di ... Mere raaste ke mein aanewala har kaanta (thorns) hatakar kar apne phoolon ki sej (bed of roses) bana diya Maan." I smiled through my tears.

"Maan kuch mahine pehle bhi issi wajah se hamare beech dooriyaan aa gayi thi ... Main tab bhi aap se kehna chahti thi lekin mauka hi nahi mila aur sab kuch bikhar (shattered) gaya. Maine Dev ko kisi bhi dabaav ke kaaran (due to pressure) maaf nahi kiya hain! Maine usse hamaare liye, hamaare aanewale kal ke liye maaf kiya. Jab tak mere ateet ka saaya mit nahi jaata hamaara aaj aur aanewala kal kaise sudhar sakta hain!"

"Mere ateet ki kadvi yaadein main bahot peeche chod chuki hoon aur main nahi chahti ke woh bura waqt baar baar mere saamne aaye aur hamaare aaj par haavi (influence) ho!".

"Dev ya usse judi koi bhi baat mere liye koi maayne nahi rakhti! Maan ab mere dil uske liye kuch nahi hain ... Na koi nafrat ... na koi gussa ... kuch nahi! Ab woh mere liye sirf aap ke parivaar ka ek hissa hain ...Bas!" I affirmed my stand.

"Main Dev ko issliye sazaa dilwana chahti thi taake phir kisi aur ladki ke saath yeh sab na ho ... Logon tak sach pohuche... Aur woh hua Maan!"

"Jab Dev aur NT arrest hue toh Press ke wajah se Pind aur poore desh mein sab ko pata chal gaya ke fraud NRI's shaadi ke naam par masoom ladkiyon ki zindagi kaise barbaad karte hain."

"Maan maine apni jung ladi aur jeeti bhi! Agar main kisi ek parivaar ki soch badal paayi ... kisi ek ladki ko aisi jhoothi shaadi se bacha paayi toh meri koshish kaamyab hui na!"

"Aur waise bhi hum criminals ko kyun sazaa dilwatein hain, taake hum crime ko rok sake aur Dev ko uske gunaahon ka ehsaas hain, woh badal gaya hain aur ab sach ke raaste par chalne laga hain aur uske andar ka guilt yeh uski sab se badi sazaa hain Maan!"

"Aur sab se ahem (important) baat yeh hain ke Dev ka bahot bada ehsaan hain mujh par, usne do baar aap ki jaan bachaayi hain aur yeh baat mein kabhi nahi bhool sakti."

"Maan aap isse jo bhi samjhe lekin aap ki salamati aur khushi se badh kar mere liye aur kuch bhi nahi hain!" I declared confidently.

He kept gaping at me in disbelief. After few moments he turned around again inhis earlier position looking out of the window and spoke out.

"Geet main kuch waqt akele rehna chahta hoon ... Please!"

The tears which were brimming in my eyes finally spilled off my eyes. He had just turned away from me ... didn't say a thing ... Had he shut me off!

With a heavy heart I dragged myself towards the door, couldn't help but turn around one last time hoping, feeling that he was looking my way, to stop me ... standing with open arms ... to embrace me as always to shield me from these miseries forever but ...

He was still there looking out ...away from me!

I rushed out of the room only to see Dev standing there, his head lowered in helplessness, shame and guilt. Clutching my hand to my mouth I rushed from there.

[Maan's POV]

I know my indifferent reaction towards her heart felt confession must have torn her apart but right now I'm not in a position to comfort her! Too many things have surfaced out from our past and have totally shaken up my whole being!

Dev, my younger brother who was more like my child to me! I know I've always been strict at times rigid with my siblings but that was to safeguard their future not wanting them to loose focus or get carried away in the pleasures of aristocracy... But I failed!

Inspite all my attempts to protect his future, Dev not only did drown in the shadows of wrong company but raced away on the path of crime! Geet, who is my wife, a part of my soul but again fate played a dirty game and I ...

In my disturbed state of mind I've caused her so much pain and humiliation! I feel ashamed that my family and me both have been the responsible for ruining her life each time! My innocent Geet ... so easily she voiced out all that she felt about her past, present and our future ... But for me its always been difficult! I've never been good with words and right now the last thing I want is to be the cause of her pain yet again.

My blunt request to be left alone and a slight ruffling noise of her saree notified as usual she did abide.

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[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7U_0t_4a4Q[/YOUTUBE]

A heart filled with guilt I looked towards her from the corner of my eye, she seemed so vulnerable when she was dragging herself out of my room, though her back was facing me but I knew she was crying ... on a reflex my hand on its own accord raised to stop her and like sensing my unrest she halted at the door and slowly turned around but ... not having the courage to meet her eyes I turned away yet again.

With her every slow step towards the door of my room her words in the hotel when she narrated to me our story in her drunken state echoed in my ears. Those words just keep haunting me ... her pain ... her helplessness ... and ... Her Pure Love Just For Me!

Dard Mein Bhi Yeh Lab Muskura Jaate Hai

Beete Lamhein Hamein Jab Bhi Yaad Aate Hai ...

Beete Lamhein...

[Geet's POV]

I rushed to my room shutting the door close and crippled down on the floor crying my heart out! Destiny played a dirty game yet again with me and pushed away My Maan from me! Images of every moment of our journey from the time I first met him in that mela ... to todays dance flashed in front of my eyes.

Chand Lamhaaat Ke Waaste Hi Sahi

Muskuraakar Mili Thi Mujhe Jindagi

Teri Aaghosh Mein Din The Mere Kate

Teri Baahon Mein Thi Meri Raate Kati

Aaj Bhi Jab Woh Pal Mujhko Yaad Aate Hai

Dil Se Saare Gamon Ko Bhula Jaate Hai

Beete Lamhein...

"Babaji main jab bhi apni zindagi ke naye sapne bhunne (weave) ki koshish karti hoon ... ek andhi aati hain aur mere saare sapne bikhar ke toot jaate hain!"

[Maan's POV]

The atmoshpere in the house was choking me I needed some space, some time and ... peace!!!!!

Picking up my car keys and phone I walked out of the house. Driving away towards the main gate of Khurana Mansion I couldn't help but glance in my side rear view mirror which reflected the image Geet's room. Unknowingly it had become a habit now, whenever I left alone she would stand in the balcony till my car was out of view and I would keep staring at her serene face till it faded from the mirror.

But today everything had changed!

Geet's room was plunged into darkness ...She was nowhere to be seen ...Fog of insecurities, anger, pain and loneliness had overshadowed everything!

Throughout the drive all I could think about was Geet! Random couples passing by on the road making me visualize our moments together. How she would rest her head on my shoulders in her sleep in the hotel room, then in the conference room last night. Suddenly bumping into me and loosing her balance, accidentally hugging me, sleeping cuddled up in my chest...

The list is unending...

Mere Kaandhe Pe Sir Ko Jhukaana Tera

Mere Sine Mein Khud Ko Chhupaana Tera ...

Aake Meri Panaahon Mein Shaamo Sehar

Kaanch Ki Tarah Woh Toot Jaana Tera

Aaj Bhi Jab Woh Manjar Nazar Aate Hai

Dil Ki Viraaniyo Ko Mita Jaate Hai

I have lost on one and half year of our togetherness! If these few days have gifted me so many beautiful moments I wonder how much precious time I have lost. What it would have been then ... How would I have felt when I would have hugged her for the first time... How beautiful and innocent she must have looked when she would have blushed and shied initially ...Will I ever be able to remember and cherish those moments again!

Dard Mein Bhi Yeh Lab Muskura Jaate Hai

Beete Lamhein Hamein Jab Bhi Yaad Aate Hai ...

Beete Lamhein...

"Babaji woh waqt ...woh pal... hamaari woh zindagi lauta dijiye! Main dobara jeen chahta hoon apni Geet ke saath!"

In my trans I didn't realize I had reached office. Parking the car I was about to pick my phone from the passenger seat when the object of my interest caught my eye. Before leaving home I happened to overhear Lucky and Nandini's conversation in the main hall, they had planned some surprise for me but the turn of events had ruined their effort! Disheartened and upset they headed to their rooms leaving my surprise gift on the side table.

Curiosity drew me towards it, picking it up I had moved out of the house.

To check out the contents I lifted it and got out of the car heading inside towards my cabin. Settling in my chair I switched on my system and loaded the CD. My family had gifted me a bouquet of some priceless moments of my life. Images, recordings etc of the lovely memories of Geet and me that I have lost!

In an instant all my restlessness, suffocation and anger vanished replaced by a smile and satisfaction that I could atleast relate to some parts of my life with Geet!

Link to Maaneet Pre-Wedding speech :

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CO_VnEIUmY[/YOUTUBE]

They had woven all wonderful moments of our togetherness in this CD, all the functions, fun, frolic, feelings, happiness compiled together! The most touching and heartfelt part was the voicing out of our feelings for each other followed by the entire footage of our wedding. Our feelings, our gestures, our eyelocks and our unspoken vows during the rituals made me realize how much this wedding and Geet meant to me!

{Friends I hope u all don't mind I'm using my HPK... banner here but I felt this had all those priceless wedding moments in it😳}

I hate myself to have insulted this divine bond in my anger and ego. Few days ago when these same pics had been flashed amidst one of our meetings I had humiliated Geet publicly, had refused to accept her or our relation, had raised questions on her character.

How am I going to undo this damage ... How am I to redeem myself ... I have failed in keeping up all my marital vows! Instead of safeguarding her respect and dignity I am the one responsible for all her humiliation and insults!

Geet is the angel of my life! Who came and turned my world around but I shattered her whole being in my ignorance and anger. The pure soul that she is, who has forgiven me so easily but I can never forgive myself for all that pain I have and am still inducing on her!

The screen froze on the ethereal beauty of my life and I kept gazing at her lovingly when some movement outside caught my attention. Through the dimly lit office at this hour I could see a shadow looming around in the corridor. With all the recent happenings and not wanting to take any chance I rushed out to grab the trespasser.

Part 5 coming up ! 😃

Happy New Year to all my dearies

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