Blast from the Past Thread #25 ** Abducted Dreams ** p 129, ep 257 - Page 65

Originally posted by: cinthiann1758

Episode 249

I Won't Deceive Him

Shyam wants Khushi to help him have Arnav sign some legal documents making some lame excuse. But our Khushi is strong in her convictions and she knows he is a snake and doesn't trust him.

She tells him no she won't deceive her husband, she can't.

He already believes that she is a home wrecker.

Shyam is stunned, what will he do?

Arnav has been distracted and irritable since coming home from the Gupta house. Much unfolded there and much was revealed even though he didn't believe Khushi's truth. But it IS on his mind, just maybe...maybe she is telling the truth, NO she is NOT ,Shyam even said how much the house was different without her in front of everyone.

No she is not telling the truth...is she?

uff the quandary, niice i like what ya write.

It must be hard wrestling in your mind with truth and non-truth, trust and distrust. 👏 👏 👏 You become quite irritable and you don't want anything, not even your usual cup of coffee. Everyone is noticing his behavior, Anjali worries he refused her offering of juice and Nani and Mami are equally concerned and their joking around at his expense causes him more frustration. He slams down the laptop and leaves and Nani thinks that since he came home he has been upset.

Manorama does her Mami thing and calls up Buaji to find out what happen. She taunts Buaji but Buaji gives it right back and actually hangs up on her having the last word that Arnav misses their ginger tea compared to Shantivans black coffee.

very naughty bua ji.😆

Anjali notices a worried Khushi. She asks if they had a good time at her parents' home and if Arnav was okay. Khushi says they had fun. Anjali's gentle probing finally comes to the point and asks if they had been fighting. Anjali explains how it is common in new relationships to adjust and sometime fight. Arnav has a hard time expressing his feelings and becomes irritable.

Arnav comes he informs them he is going to the office and his button falls off. He is going to change his shirt and Anjali finds this as a perfect opportunity for Arnav and Khushi to share an intimate moment together.

They follow Arnav to his room and Anjali tells him not to change, Khushi is there to sew his button back on.

You can cut the awkwardness and tension in the room. 👏 They both are hurting although I think more Khushi then Arnav .

He doesn't trust her.

She hands Khushi the sewing kit and Khushi takes it hesitantly.

I see that this is an intimate act the sewing of a button on the husband's shirt by the wife on Indian TV, rather interesting to my western brain and considering I don't know how to sew a stitch; but it is true, it is a very intimate and a sensual act. teehee, if i did that to my hubs, i'd be slaughtered by finicky one, secondly, if me not mistaken, you never sew something onto a thing while someone is wearing it, but what the, it was a terribly lovely scene. and anyway rules don't matter. The intermingling of breaths, almost cheek to chin, the intimacy and closeness of the pair, very sweet in my opinion. veryyy

She slowly and steadily sews his shirt button and her eyes fill with tears. It must be hard to interact when your husband distrusts you. She knows he doesn't want her to touch him; he despises her touch now that it is tainted.

What must be going through her mind?

But then again what is in his?

He looks at her with those big puppy dog eyes and I'm lost. Questioning? Yearning?

When Di leaves he says to her she doesn't have to do the drama and he goes to walk away and she pricks her finger. He jumps, "Khushi?"

Yes, he does care and it's obvious by the quickness of his response to her pain.

The FB of all the pain and hurt he caused her on the bridge comes before our eyes and the slow Rabba Vey music plays in the background pulling on our heartstrings.

She tells him it's no drama but since the thread is already tied she might as well finish the job.

Why, Arnav, why can't you see the pain you are causing her? I know you do, you stand still and let her complete the job and at the very end she comes so close to you with tears filling her eyes and you must ignore them, otherwise she will know that you just maybe leaning to believing her. You want to so badly, don't you?

She must try to speak to him again.

He places his tie and jacket on and walks out the door ignoring her.

Anjali comes in and asks now what happened. Khushi tries to cover up her feelings with a lie and Anjali sees right through it.

Shyam comes in and an atmosphere which is tense becomes even more so with his two sense. He has seen BIL leave looking angry is everything okay? He spurts out his opinion and you all know how I dislike him, so I am not listening to him at all, nananana. me neither, ughhh. He speaks to Khushi as if Anjali is not in the room but then includes her when she looks up at him. He is so despicable. Abbas was brilliant as Shyam; he truly played a spectacular villain.

I will skip over the Bubli scene it is useless. ha ha!

The next scene was the best. Finally you have Khushi interrupting what looks like a very important meeting Arnav is having.The scene goes between Khushi's dialog and Arnav's," What the? How dare you? This is not acceptable."dialog. very irritating corporate talk. So we believe the conversation is taking place between the pair of star-crossed lovers. But alas Nooo, a diabolical Shyam is sitting in Arnav's chair as Khushi has spilled the beans about him and ASR is in a meeting in the conference room reprimanding a security guard. It was brilliant this scene but so disheartening too. I wanted so badly for Arnav to hear Khushi's words and to see how much she trusts him and she is trustworthy. I wanted Arnav to see Shyam's real face.

In my head I am hearing the sad Rabba Vey music in the background and the words said by a woman who truly loves her husband with her whole heart and soul saying,

"I won't deceive Him",

But beware, hisss...

The slithering snakewa Shyam says,

But I will...

Originally posted by: indi52

despite a high output of the printed letter, a silence grips me too... but i will say, for me it is more to do with the performance i see from an actor.

your reading is splendid... i keep asking myself, if i had gone through the things he had, where would my heart and mind be? would i be able to withstand things better and my reactions be more reasonable...? i love the fact he can't bring himself to talk about it... says things.

... the shame, the lack of power, the knowledge of a mother being betrayed and a father who plays around... all leave him so very vulnerable... if khushi had robbed a bank or was putlibal queen of chambal he might have been able to take it better, assess it with his mind and then react... but here? to akin to things he knows and dreads. echoes from the past, from experiences that cling to his skin and makes him feel the ickiness, the horror, the feeling less than he is... all of it is there. who is to think in a state like this?

that mera naam hai arnav singh raizada to me is key. it is not arrogance. it is the feeling he needs, he creates in him, of strength, of invincibility,... because he has been struck so bad... so broken.

his name, his very sense of self has been played with by the betraying father... when your father is a weak skirt chaser and your mother kills herself because of that, or so you believe, there is no relief in the whole thing... practically ever.

how terribly it must be shredding your own ego... remember "mera baap chor hai"?

khushi's parents died in an accident... tragic.

but his parents were in a messy thing, stuff gossip and giggle is made of... he has spoken of a bedard duniya... he has been thrashed by it... he has fought as hard as he could to rise... and at last after years of believing there is no place for love and commitment in his life, a thing that destroyed his beloved mother, his heart opens and hopes... and staright into that walks in a terrible scene.

how to think in that state.

i wish they had gone into that core of his which is permanently vulnerable, with a strong khushi beginning to sense him. though i did like her instantly being able to understand that he was hurting terribly and no she couldn't let him think such things about her...

er, did i say there is a silence in me?

I am watching 251.

It is of 40 minutes. What is called a mahaepisode, right? I never saw the show when it was aisred so only know its called a mahaepisode by reading about it here. I think the guest house day was a maha episode. Another was when the wind blew and ASR turned sensing a strange feeling that seemed to whisper to him that the girl he thought had left for Lukhnow forever was somewhere close by. Later he found her in his very closet. Your heart leapt and the jhalli girl also leapt and ran out of his closet, but could not run out of his life. Perhaps she did not even want to.

Another mahaepisode was the trip to Nainital. She had fed him jalebis earlier in the day. Then come to apologize for not listening to him. Smeared the pakora batter all over her face while earnestly berating herself. And he had laughed. Not smiled but laughed. Then she went and tampered with his car, got trapped in the car boot and unkowingly accompanied him to Nainital. She came out dressed in a bridal attire. He couldn't take his eyes off her. They reached a dhaba and when he decided he had had enough and was about to leave she insisted he stay because he was not well. Her exact words had been, "since you can't think when you are angry I have to do the thinking". So madam intelligent screeched out loud and claimed her husband was leaving her behind hours after eloping with her.

He let the drama continue but there was a scary glint in his eyes. And soon he slung her across his shoulders and dumped her in the impromptu honeymoon suit. He was scary, harsh and mean and let her sit in the cold, all alone in the dark all night long. The darkness he knew she was afraid off. While he slept warm in a quilt on the confortable bed. And when he woke up the first word on his lips was her name.. A morning prayer? "Khushi..".. She had fever. Cold, frightened she had shivered and suffered the whole night. Yet she let him hold her close to his heart to prop her up. Let him hold the glass of milk against her lips. Snuggled into his hand. Why? Why were words not needed then?

Today why can't I connect to them after the fight they had last night. When she is supposedly inconsolable. And I can't even justify why I use the word 'supposedly'. I am feeling upset and edgy. I want to like this episode. It is an important one. Arnav is leaving. I know it. But why does it feel off? I tell myself that he has said the most hurtful things to her she will be "bechari". But then I remember him calling her low class, interfering, gold digger in that nainital phase of their relationship. And she would be hurt then too. A lot. But fight back. Say she is leaving him and Delhi. Hamesha ke liye. Will not show him his face. Another day, another fight later. She would be affronted and say she will find a way back to Delhi herself. Or the very next moment run upto him and clutch him and let those tears fall when her father lies unconscious in a ward in that hospital where they stand in the middle of a busy lobby. No questions asked. No explanations given. Why does all that feel of a different time?

I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to compare. Not be unsatisfied, but am not able to help myself. I am reaching the time she will reach the airport, but before that I had to watch a man say "Khushiji is liye toh hum aapse pyar karte hai". And the girl will say nothing in return. Yes she was stern with him, yes she wants to use her brains and get him to help her but be loyal to Arnavji at the same time but is this the only way? I keep telling myself don't use your brains. Don't try finding fault. I really do. But I never had to tell myself that when he fought 10-15 goons just because one of them had dared hurt this girl.

Love wasn't even in the vocabulary then. Today it is. She knows his loving side. Has felt it. And yet there is a distance between them she cannot cross. He set up that distance, but wasn't she the one who 150 episodes back knew that laad governor in his anger forgets to think. It is upto her to do what is right. We did get some scene where they replay all her swami antics. Arnav thinks of it and tells himself repeatedly that it does not matter.."farak nai padta". But why do I still yearn for someone to lean against his SUV in the rain. I don't want to think really. I am trying to feel. Maybe trying too hard, but it hurts that I am impatient and thinking when do I reach the scene of farewell. Why their last day together before he leaves can't be as memorable as their first meeting?

Am sorry if I just making this difficult for you all. I am a little worried posting this. But can't ignore this nagging feeling.I see two people not saying what they feel inside and look where it is landing them? Don't want to make the same mistake myself. So here goes.. Am hitting post.

Originally posted by: kizh72

Ha, to have the "Indiscence" back here again!

Missed you the last two days or so. And I just love what you have written on top. The unsavouriness of it all, to not let all that matter, to overcome and make something of yourself.

Khushi's telling of her take on things was weak, incoherent. Performance or dialogues, or both? And I had written in a reply to issk's post, why didn't she start at the beginning, the why and how of meeting shyam? That whole part was shabbily treated. Just didn't have the impact it should've had.

Always a pleasure reading you!

Originally posted by: aarwen

I am watching 251.

It is of 40 minutes. What is called a mahaepisode, right? I never saw the show when it was aisred so only know its called a mahaepisode by reading about it here. I think the guest house day was a maha episode. yes, 26... when he is "miss gupta" angryy and sends her away. sanaya and barun so uff in every shot.

Another was when the wind blew and ASR turned sensing a strange feeling that seemed to whisper to him that the girl he thought had left for Lukhnow forever was somewhere close by. Later he found her in his very closet. Your heart leapt and the jhalli girl also leapt and ran out of his closet, but could not run out of his life. Perhaps she did not even want to. 57, gorgeous one, and i could never get over that spiky hair wahat teh look and almost could hear his heart go thud as he stared at the one eye revealing mad girl... beautiful moments across the episode.

Another mahaepisode was the trip to Nainital. She had fed him jalebis earlier in the day. Then come to apologize for not listening to him. Smeared the pakora batter all over her face while earnestly berating herself. And he had laughed. Not smiled but laughed. Then she went and tampered with his car, got trapped in the car boot and unkowingly accompanied him to Nainital. She came out dressed in a bridal attire. He couldn't take his eyes off her. They reached a dhaba and when he decided he had had enough and was about to leave she insisted he stay because he was not well. Her exact words had been, "since you can't think when you are angry I have to do the thinking". So madam intelligent screeched out loud and claimed her husband was leaving her behind hours after eloping with her.

it was 93, i gleefully checked... pakoda and bakbak...

He let the drama continue but there was a scary glint in his eyes. And soon he slung her across his shoulders and dumped her in the impromptu honeymoon suit. He was scary, harsh and mean and let her sit in the cold, all alone in the dark all night long. The darkness he knew she was afraid off. While he slept warm in a quilt on the confortable bed. And when he woke up the first word on his lips was her name.. A morning prayer? "Khushi..".. She had fever. Cold, frightened she had shivered and suffered the whole night. Yet she let him hold her close to his heart to prop her up. Let him hold the glass of milk against her lips. Snuggled into his hand. Why? Why were words not needed then?

Today why can't I connect to them after the fight they had last night. When she is supposedly inconsolable. And I can't even justify why I use the word 'supposedly'. I am feeling upset and edgy. I want to like this episode. It is an important one. Arnav is leaving. I know it. But why does it feel off? I tell myself that he has said the most hurtful things to her she will be "bechari". But then I remember him calling her low class, interfering, gold digger in that nainital phase of their relationship. And she would be hurt then too. A lot. But fight back. Say she is leaving him and Delhi. Hamesha ke liye. Will not show him his face. Another day, another fight later. She would be affronted and say she will find a way back to Delhi herself. Or the very next moment run upto him and clutch him and let those tears fall when her father lies unconscious in a ward in that hospital where they stand in the middle of a busy lobby. No questions asked. No explanations given. Why does all that feel of a different time?

I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to compare. Not be unsatisfied, but am not able to help myself. I am reaching the time she will reach the airport, but before that I had to watch a man say "Khushiji is liye toh hum aapse pyar karte hai". And the girl will say nothing in return. Yes she was stern with him, yes she wants to use her brains and get him to help her but be loyal to Arnavji at the same time but is this the only way? I keep telling myself don't use your brains. Don't try finding fault. I really do. But I never had to tell myself that when he fought 10-15 goons just because one of them had dared hurt this girl. sigh... i know... it's really because maybe all that is going a bit off with the story at this point... very clearly shyam and khushi are being put forth as the main players now... and the writing is pretty unconvincing with khushi constantly letting him get away with everything. but i did enjoy the airport scene a lot, despite doubles... khushi's desperation felt real and his too, maybe because i have stood at imilar moments at airports and other places he he... but that awful feeling when someone's leaving and a horrible terrible hurt sits there unresolved, a fight that is still tearing through you, the awful feeling that you will be parted forever... maybe you will feel things there. i used to merrily not see what i didn't want to, and concentrate on the man and teh woman in their interactions. thanks for that trip of the earlier long episodes. 😳

Love wasn't even in the vocabulary then. Today it is. She knows his loving side. Has felt it. And yet there is a distance between them she cannot cross. He set up that distance, but wasn't she the one who 150 episodes back knew that laad governor in his anger forgets to think. true, but maybe then her feelings were not so crystalised, nor their history this big and full of pain and teachery? It is upto her to do what is right. We did get some scene where they replay all her swami antics. Arnav thinks of it and tells himself repeatedly that it does not matter.."farak nai padta". But why do I still yearn for someone to lean against his SUV in the rain. I don't want to think really. I am trying to feel. Maybe trying too hard, but it hurts that I am impatient and thinking when do I reach the scene of farewell. Why their last day together before he leaves can't be as memorable as their first meeting?

Am sorry if I just making this difficult for you all. I am a little worried posting this. But can't ignore this nagging feeling.I see two people not saying what they feel inside and look where it is landing them? Don't want to make the same mistake myself. So here goes.. Am hitting post.