~SaJan OS~
~~Last Part ~~
~I Don't Care But Deep In Heart It Hurts~
" Samrat gunjan ? barish mein kuin behggey sardi lag gai tou ? "
Mayank enquired as soon as he saw them coming back to venue together...they had held their hands...Gunjan thank God that light was dim there n her blushing cheeks went unnoticed..
"Samrat apna ni gunjan ka hi khayal kar lena tha dekho she is shivering.."
Nupur glared him a bit...Gunjan felt embarrassed n realized she was actually trembling...just then she felt his coat on her shoulder which samrat had lifted after they had broke hug..she looked at him...and she smiles as saw him smiling at her...
Mayur accompanied them at rest of journey to their place...SaJan kept silent for most of times..and they ignored each other..
As they came in there room...gunjan left to change..she doesn't want him to say anything or ask...Where he himself doesn't want to talk about what happened earlier. They don't wish to call it a mistake for covering up it for each other..they just keep silent at this issue...as they got changed n ignoring each other slept...facing each other backs...
Next Morning it was there flight back to india...n they had not talked to each other except when they needed to inform or ask anything...they had ignored talking about each other..but at same time ignorance from opposite make them doubt...were they even ? or not ? They still hadn't confess anything..nothing was discussed..
As they reached india they were happy to meet their families again...gunjan's parents asked gunjan to come n stay at their place...samrat didn't say anything about this..as he had to agree seem no one had objection even not gunjan...she was unable to say yes or no...she wanted to stay with samrat...because she really wanted to know...where were they? but she had to go as she had no other option left as he didn't even ask her to stay...he doesn't know is she wiling to stay? ...They looked at each other for last time..as they moved in each other cars...they had fake small smile...
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His room was biting him..how much he had wished to see her in his room right in front of him...in his arms...how badly he wish to tell her he wants her in his life..he doesn't wish to let her go...he can do anything to make her stay..he can change himself...she had come like a reason for him to live life fully...to complete him...complete his dream...he want her to tell what she means to him ...how it feels without her...how much he loves her...
He was lost in her thoughts when his cell phone rang...he ignored for two times..but at last accepted third time...
Samrat:hello.
"Samrat bhai..kasey hain ap ? kidhar hain ? mein ash baat kar rahi hon..hm logo ka plan bana hai mall janey ka...arman bhaiya ney bola hai ap bhi sath chalein hum apko dus minute mein pick karein gey bye..."
"Par..."
Samrat looked at phone confusingly..it was ash gunjan's best friend..he knew her..he sighed...he had no mood to go ..but just then he remind gunjan will be too with them..he smiles widely at this thought...
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Her heart was thudding..she was not sure he will come or not..even if he come what will she say him..if he ask her anything...and most important ...raqeesh was there...he was ash's czn ..and it was actually ash who wished to go for shoping in a mall..rohan had responsibility of her pick and drop..ash had liked arman[gunjan's bro] thats why she had insisted gunjan to take him along her..and he asked gunjan to invite samrat too...which ash did the job...
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Her pulse rate was faster as she felt him beside herself in car...he hadn't look at her..she knew it..he wil be upset..as she didn't herself called him...they were close as they were seated at back along ash while arman n raqesh were in front...Gunjan's hand accidentally in nervousness and worry fell on samrat's hand ...she was about to take it back when he held her palm...She looked at him and saw him looking at her...their eyes had same question which they had from last day..They were staring when gunjan fell on him as car takes a sharp turn...she felt her cheeks burning..as his finger moved away some strays of her hairs from her face..as she was about to move away..he held her hand..as he nodded head in negative..n his eyes requesting her..she just get a bit straight beside him while her hand was in his palm..n his arm was around her waist...she blushed hard..while he just smiled...they were feeling butterflies in their stomach..while loving the moment..they forget about the rest of world..and lies betrayal everything..they just didnt wish to have any explanation...as they both knew they just wanted to be with each other at that time...
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As they reached Mall, Sajan tried to behave normal..but they more wished to have some private time so could at least tell each other..or say something...but ash pulled gunjan with herself..while raqesh followed them..when arman ased her to come too..just then benji spotted them n joined samrat and arman...Gunjan felt disheartened as saw samrat busy with benji and arman...n she knew now he will not be available at least till benji was there..she thought to do what she was there to do..to help ash in sorting new wardrobe...They were on thrid floor ..in a shop..when ash had gone to try something...and raqesh had come to gunjan..to inquire about her strange behavior since she had come back from trip ..She just ignored him n left from there..she didn't wish to let samrat know that she was again with him..she doesn't want to make him upset..n most importantly she just doesn't wish to hurt him more...like she did in past months..she had regret a lot n now she doesn't want to regret more...She knew they will be at coffee corner...she knew what she is going to do..to ask samrat to leave for home..to ask him to take her away from everyone..to make her only his..as she belongs to him only..she was in elevator...when she heard the alarm...she was confused..as the elevator got stoped on second floor..she look around and saw fire there everywhere..she felt her legs shaking...she tried to move the elevator but it had stopped working..she look around n could see only few or one two people screaming for help...it was dark n only fire around could be seen...she was in shock..she tried to speak but it seem she is no more able to speak..she look around to see a way..she could see the staircase...but it was whole hall she had to pass..where there was fire in between..she felt her head banging..she could remind every single time she fought with him..every single time she hurt him..every single time..when he tried to make things work out..she recalls the rain moment..when he had kissed her...Nothing more she could think as she wish to be with him..not because she wanted to be save..she wants to tell him before...dying...she want to confess..seek forgiveness...She screamed on top of her voice...his name...for him...for her love...just to see him for last time..to confess..her guilt her love for him...
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As he heard alarm while talking to benji and arman ...he was confused..and as soon as he heard about fire..and people running outside..they followed them..and just then in mid way Samrat recall gunjan was here too...he asked benji and arman about her..n asked for him to go..and informed he wil bring her she will be here n there safe..he was so sure..he himself didn't knew..except he knew he want her to be okay..he searched here n there...n saw raqeesh and ash coming downstairs ..he ran to her..n inquired...about gunjan...and they told she had left...n they thought she was there with them...it was then arman n benji had joined them...but security and firemen asked them to leave and practically pushed them..where samrat felt himself numb...he doesn't knw where she was..was she fine or not...before he could think anything else..or wait there he ran inside ignoring everyone's shouts..arman who had stood up to run along him..ash stopped..he just looked at her n dn raqeesh..arman knew about gunjan's affair..and he had requested samrat to tolerate gunjan's behavior after samrat had discussed this matter with arman on seeing gunjan wid raqeesh...Arman had idea about how lowlife raqesh is..but today he just got proof..he ignored ash..and followed samrat..however was stopped in mid...
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What will happen if she wil not be in his life? this single question had already killed him past days..and now this fear of losing her again... forever made him fearful to death..he was shouting for her crazily..searching for her on floors..her smile..her face..everytym when she used to tease him purposefully to make him hate her..every thing which she used to do for making him hate her...simply made him fall for her...it was unaware to them how they had fall in love with each other..the way she had cared for him that day...their kiss...their hug...n then on coming to mall how she had comfortably accepted his presence in her life..beside herself..how easily she had made him assure that she wish same...just..when he heard her...her scream..she called him..his feet moved more fast...he ran as fast as his legs could help him...Finally he could at least see her behind fire...she was pale..perplexed..he could see her lips moving but he could hardly hear anything...in all noise smoke fire...he looked around to make a way to reach upto her..he could see some stuff..which he took to cool down the fire...it hardly helped ...but still he managed to reach up to her..before she fainted..he had caught her in his arms...he called out her name .. chasmish...she hardly opened eyes seeing herself in his arms..his heart pinched seeing her dry tears on cheeks..before he could say anything..he felt her fingers..wiping away his tears...her lips moved but voice didn't came..before he could ask her or say anything...or move away..he heard..something..as he looked behind there was a pole or heap something that had fire..he held gunjan..rolled over to other side so could be save from that fire...he ended up landing her safe..but his head banged in something which made him eventually losing his conscience..
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It had been ten days since incident happened..they hadn't speak to each other in days...but they had realized the worth of each other in their lives...
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She was crying when her cell phone rang..she looked at cell...it was call from raqessh ...she felt frustrated...she cancelled it...she thought something as wiped her tears..pulling up her stole ...n placing it on her shoulder..she sat on her bed..as searched his number in her contact list..she felt her fingers shivering as she touched green sign...she tried to stop her sobbing voice..while waiting up for some one to pick up..she was disappointed..but just then...he picked up phone his voice...made her numb ...she was unable to speak up...she cut the call...she was confused...nervous...fearful...she was lost in thoughts when her cell rang...her eyes widened...as she accepted the call with trembling hands...and his voice made her to sob once again..
"Chashmish..."
"Sam..."
She was able to say only his name ...he closed eyes as a tear escape his eyes...finally he heard her after so many days...
'Kasi ho tm ?"
"Ap kasey hain?"
He smiles as she questioned him back..
"Ro kuin rahi ho ?"
Samrat could hear her crying..
"Ap ney itney din phone kuin ni kia ?"
Samrat smiles at her complain..he so wished she is in front of him n he could wipe away her tears..and make up for her complain..
"Tm ney mjhey miss kia ?"
Gunjan continued crying only...was that even a question ? she thought crying more hard..
"Ap kab aein gey leney ?"
Samrat wanted to hug her...
"Kaho tou abhi aa jaon ?"
His voice made her heart beat fast...she realized later it was late night..
"han..abhi?"
"han a raha hon..."
She looked at cell phone ...he had cut call...she re called his words...she shrugged her thoughts he can't come its too late..if he does? ..no he can't...but if he does?..he will ...she looked at her wardrobe...even he doesnt she can...she thought.
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Gunjan and ashwani were in gunjan room..where gunjan was gathering things..where ashwani was confused..
Gunjan:Ashwani...
Ash:han gunjan bolo na...
Gunjan:Raqeesh ko mana kar do k wo mujhey dubara phone mat karye..mera aur uska koi taluq na tha na hai na ho ga kbhi...ab...
Ash:Gunjan tm...
Ashwani was worried about gunjan..what she wishes for..what she was doing ..why..
Gunjan:Mein samrat k ghar abhi wapis ja rahi hon...
Gunjan told her while pulling out her trolley bag from her wardrobe place...
Raqeesh:Tum pagal ho gai ho ?
Gunjan was bit shocked as heard his voice n saw him in her room..but she was cool about that..
Gunjan:Tum yahan kia kr rahe ho kuin aye ho?
Ash:raqesh jao yahan sey mien gunjan sy...
Ashwani wanted to know first from gunjan rather than listening upto her cousin..
Raqeesh:Nahn... gunjan tm akhir kia chahti ho? pehley tm ney shadi kar li yeh keh k tm us sey divorce lo gi..phr tmhey us sey revenge lena tha...what is this gunjan now ? ab wo tmhey divorce dey ga tu tm wapis ja rahi ho ?
Gunjan:Raqeesh Tm mjhsey muhabbat kartey ho?
Gunjan just asked him instead of replying his anxious questions..
Raqeesh:Tu itney salon sy tmhara intezar kuin kar raha tha?
Gunjan:Tu phir us aag mein tm kuin ni mjhey bachaney aye samrat hi kuin aya ? Tm mjhsy muhabbat kartey the samrat tu ni ? tmhey ana chahye tha usey tou ni ?
Gunjan looked at him..n she could clearly see how colors of his face changed..
Raqeesh:Ash ko mein bacha raha tha...aur phr tmhey..lakin...
Gunjan knew he was lying..he never had such guts..she knew from beginning..
Gunjan:raqeesh dont wry seriously mein ne expect kia bhi ni tha tmhey wahan..wo tou mein abhi yahan merey ghar pe bhi ni kia tha...Well I am extremely soory I AM no More interested in You...or it wil be more fine if i say i was never interested in you beside you asked me out ..you asked me to wait for you and then you went away like never existed...it was never you raqeesh who made me to hate that marriage it was always me...who had hated you for leaving me behind...it was not revenge from samrat..it was from myself..for trusting a fool like you...what you think when you came back i trusted your lame stories ? soory i was just using you raqesh for making you realize how it feels when some one betrays you..and yeah you helped me n samrat a lot to realize our feelings for each other..Thank you but seriously i don't even want to see you now more..because you just make me think how foolish i was at time back...
Raqeesh:How Dare ...
Gunjan's direct statement made raqeesh lose his temper..n as he raised hand ...but to his badluck he felt a strong grip on his arm...he turned n saw samrat there...Gunjan bit her lips to stop her laugh n at same time her crimson red blushing cheeks did make samrat lost once for a moment..
Samrat:Don't even dare it..She is my wife..You can leave now...before i make it hard for u to go on your own feet..
Samrat was now standing in between raqeesh and gunjan...gunjan was staring at his husband who seem to her right at that time like hero..she forget everything she would have stand there n could stare him for long...
Ash:Raqeesh leave from here it's enough you made scene for everyone...
Ashwani galred raqeesh...she was totally unaware of reality..
Raqeesh:I hate you Gunjan..
Raqeesh galred her..gunjan came in senses as heard her name...she smiles evilly back at him ..and replied with more bitterness and coolness..
Gunjan:Wow..Same here Mr.Rqeesh I hate you even more..Now just get lost...
As soon as raqeesh left ashwani looked soory towards gunjan..but gunjan's look made her aware its fine with her..
Ashawani:mein baad mein ati hon...
Ashwani left as she knew she should give them privacy..she left while closing door behind..
Gunjan felt nervous as she realized she was all alone along him...She tried to find something to do..and she ended up putting things in her handbags..which were on her bed...
Samrat:Mein ja raha hon wapis...
As gunjan heard him..she felt her eyes widened...and turned stopping him by holding his arm...
Gunjan:Ap mujhey le k ni jaein gey ?Merey bina chaley jaein gey ?
Samrat looked at her..
Samrat:Tumhey chalna hai ?
Gunjan was feeling sad ...
Gunjan:Ap mujhey leney ni aye kiya ?
Samrat suppressed his smile seeing her face..
Samrat:Agar na khaon?
Gunjan's tear leave her eyelashes..
Gunjan: mujhey phir bhi chalna hai...mjhey apney ghar jana hai chahye ap leney aein hain k ni..aur mjhey koi nai rok sakta..
Gunjan turned her face away to hide her tears..she was sounding like a small girl who was crying for her ice cream..
Samrat was in mood to tease her...to make her irritate...forgets everything..he just realize the girl standing right in front of him was desperate for going to his home back..was sad coz she wished to hear that he had come for her..to take her along with him..she was crying for him...and not only she wishes she was demanding..she was stubborn...
She felt herself stopped as felt his hand holding her arm...as he made her look at him and also pull her near in his arms...it took away her breaths...she was just staring at him...his eyes...his face..his expressions..was saying only one thing...which she wish to hear from him...but before she could imagine how it will feel when he will say...she heard...
Samrat:Tum rotey huwey aur zid kartey huwey kisi choti si bachi k trah lagti ho jis ko ice cream bohat pasand ho aur wo usey na miley...
Samrat smiles as saw her changing expressions from bad to worse..as he wiped away her tears..he knew..but he just delayed it...
Gunjan:apni pasand ki cheez na miley tou rona tou sab ko ata hai..aur iskey lea zid karna tou haq hai sbka...
She complained in her words actually to make him realize his teasing n making her wait is not fair enough...
Samrat smiles n leaned on her face..she closed eyes as felt his breaths..her heart was thudding in her chest..as she felt his kiss on her ears n hairs...
Samrat:Chalo tmharey bina us ghar mein dil ni lagta mera...
As he whispered she shivered...she would have lose balance if samrat wouldnt had arms around her..she wished to hide somewhere...as she opened eyes..she find him admiring her blushing cheeks..she pushed him away n ran towards her wardrobe room...she looked behind...he smiles n winked at her..as left..from there...where she was blushing like tomato..her happiness knew no bounds...finally she was going back..she thanked God...as she picked up her stuff..waving to her room for last time ..for sure..she knew it would be now more difficult for her to be away from him now...
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She get down from car as they reached shergill mansion..she looked at samrat who offered her hand...n both smiles as they moved in like newly wedded couple...Gunjan get surprised as saw their friends n siblings welcoming her...n she could see the hall decorated of balloons and shiny things..she looked at samrat..n his smile told her it was all pre-planed which includes him too..she make a bit face..but soon she had to smile as others gathered them..n dragged them to cut cake..sajan smiles along others...gunjan was happy being back..with him..she looked at samrat who was looking at her too...After a while they were dragged to dance..gunjan felt nervous as saw him offering hand...she gave him her hand...as he pulled her near...she looked at him while placing hand on his shoulder...Their eyes were talking while they danced on a slow tone...his touch...his stare..his smile...made her blush...but she was feeling guilty...for everything she did in past months..it was not his fault...then why she punished him? still she hadn't say soory to him..and all that he ever did for her..just for her..why he loves her so much...? This thought was painful...She came out from her thoughts when samrat whispered in her ears..asking what happened...she replied nothing..trying to smile...samrat smiles back...
After celebrations as others left,Sajan moved to their room...
Samrat looked behind and saw gunjan standing by door...he looked at her confusingly..
Samrat:kia huwa ?wahan kuin khari ho?
He asked her ...she looked at him...while playing with her hands in nervousness...
Gunjan: Kia ap mujhey un sab k lea maff kar dein gey jo mein ne kia apkey sath ?
Samrat smiles..but hides it..n walks to her..she lower her gaze..as find him near..
Samrat:kia kiya tm ney merey sath ?
Gunjan looked at him..his face was expression less..she was unable to get what he is thinking...
Gunjan: I am soory samrat ...
She mumbled slowly..she was edge of crying...
Samrat:agar mein tmhey maff na karon ?
Samrat slowly garbed her wrist..she felt her breaths stopped...she looked at him..his expression less face and strange eyes..made her fearful n more over as his hand was exploring her skin...she felt herself stuck between him n door as he held her palm n kissed it...
Gunjan:Phir??
Samrat slowly placed arm around her waist pulling her near..which made her hands land on his chest..her eyes widened as he replied...
Samrat: Galti ki hai tu saza tu milni chahye hai na?
She felt her breath in half way as felt his face really close...she could feel his fingers..tracing her...back..her heart was thudding in her chest..her eyes left widened...she didn't knew what to say ...what to do..she only knew one thing...there is still things to settle...she without thinking pushed him with his little effort..to move away..she could hardly face him...where samrat stopped his laugh with difficulty..he didn't want to end it before enjoying the climax...
Gunjan: Samrat hmey baat karni chahye ...Mein janti hon ap mujhsey khafa hain ...please mein ne mafi mangi hai na...
Samrat held her hand to stop her from moving away...and she closed eyes...as she felt him at her back...she gasped as he put her hairs away n whisper..
Samrat: Par Saza deney mein zyada maza hai...
His voice was seduction personified which passed current in her..As she felt his lips on her ears..she tried to make her hand free..but she was trapped more in his arms..as his arm encircled her waist...She didn't protest more after that...as she closed eyes feeling his lips on her neck...leaning to her shoulder...
Samrat smiles a bit seeing her innocent face..he made her turn to face him...She opened eyes...she looked at him..she hadn't expect everything to mingle..and from him she hadn't expect...Before a tear could leave her eyes..samrat held her face in his hands ..joining his head with her's...
Samrat: Pagal Mein tmsey kuin khafa hon ga?
Gunjan looked at him...as she get it was all his drama...She make worst face..pushing him away hitting his chest..
Gunjan: Tumehy sharam nai ati asey tang kartey huwey..
Samrat held her hands...which made her realize what she is doing...
Samrat: khafa ni tha par ab bachpana continue kia na tou ho jaon ga..
Gunjan make face..making her hands free...she crossed them against her chest...turning away from him..
Gunjan: Tmehy bas moqa chahiye hota hai mjhey sataney ka..aur rulaney ka...
Samrat smiles at her upset face..and then made her look at him while holding her from her arms..
Samrat:Ab jiski wife gusey mein itni cute lagti ho aur jiska gusa itna pyara ho wo kuin na sataye apni wife ko ? aur mein ni rulata tm kudh roti ho chotey bachon k trah..
Gunjan didn't melt of his flattering..n glared him..samrat smiles.. n held his ears..
Samrat: Acha baba soory ..agar meri wife ko ni pasand tou ni sataon ga usey ab bas promise ? ab tou mood sahi karo...
Gunjan looked at him who tried to say soory to her sweetly...she held his hands in her palms..samrat looked at her ...
Gunjan: Ap mujhsey itni muhabbat kuin kartey hain?
Samrat: Aesa tumsey kis ney kha ?
Samrat raised eyebrows..she sighed he was impossible..she looked away..
Gunjan: Kisi ney ni kha hai ..
She make a face as she knew he was not serious...n she wanted him to be serious... at least for some time...
Samrat: phir ?
Samrat tried to make her look at him..inquiring her..she looks at him..n with a bit upset tone started but soon her voice had her pain n tears...
Gunjan: phir? kisi key kehney ki zarorat hai kia ? apko mazak sojh raha hai..us din ap kuin merey lea aye the wahan? kuch ho jata apko tou ? Kia dia hai mein ne apko jo ap aag mein kodey? mein ne tou kbhi ap sey hans key baat ni ki..hmesha itna hurt kia..phir kuin kartey hain ap mujhsey itni muhabbat..koi mujhsy kuch bhi keh dey ...par mein janti hon ap ...
Samrat held her from arms..making her look at him..her tears was stabbing at his chest like knife..he couldn't see her in pain...
Samrat:Han karta hon tmsey muhabbat kudh sey zyada apni Jaan sey zyada...kuin k tm muhabbat k kabil ho chashmish...aur muhabbat k lea waja thodi na chahiye hoti hai wo tou ho jati hai na..aur tm...meri chashmish ho..mera sapna...chashmish tm wo khawab ho jo mein har raat ko dekhta hon aur har subha is umeed par jeta hon k wo khawab sach ho ga...kbhi na kbhi tou...
His love in his eyes...his honesty...his passion..his gaze..his words...she wished she had power to undo all her mistakes...
Gunjan: I am soory samrat mein bohat buri hon..I am soory...mein ne hemsha apkey sath ziyadti ki hai..mein galt thi bohat galat...mein bhi apsey bohat muhabbat karti hon samrat..us sy khain zyada jitni ap mujhsey kartey hain...mjhey apkey begair ni jena...ap mjhey ab tou ni chodein gey na?
Samrat looks at her lovingly as she confessed with her teary eyes..and mumbling voice...
Samrat: Nahn chodon ga..par aik shart hai...
He wiped away her tears..holding her hand...he wanted her to cheer up now..
Gunjan:Shart?
She looked at him feeling nervous..
Samrat: Han kia sari zindagi meri ban k jeo gi ? Yeh saza manzor hai kiya ?
As she heard samrat...her cheeks's color reflect deep red shade..she lower her gaze...nodding her head. mumbling "Han"...as her hands were cold in his warm palms...She placed her head on his chest..and he kissed her hairs...whispering...
"I care for you only Chashmish"
"I wil never hurt you samrat ever again.."
"I Know chashmish.."
"Acha lagta hai apka chashmish keh key pukarna.."
"Mein bataon mujhey kia acha lagta hai tm mein ?"
"kiya?"
"Yeh k tm meri ho..."
He whispers as he leans on her..and her face turned red..seeing his naughtiness in his eyes...where his words were enough to make her blush hard..his clear intentions certainly made her heart beat more loudly...
blush hard...and took her in his world !!!
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