Todays Ishwari - Dev scene , took me back my memory lane . One of the earlier episode where Dev told Sona "Maa bhgwaan hote hei ,aur bhgwaan ke aage sir chukaana sikhaye nahin jaatha par sir apne aap chukta hei " What a mighty fall for Ishwari from being the Goddess to nobody in her son's life !!!!đ
I know everyone thinks Golu had a better understanding of Dev than his own mother . But why do I feel Ishwari knew exactly how he was feeling . And Dev knew exactly what he was doing and what it would do to her . Its funny some times I think they know each other better than anyone yet some times I feel they are not more than strangers. Somehow when they feel the other had done something wrong , they knew exactly what would make the other feel 'the pain '. Ishwari always tried to punish herself , for his wrong doings , from his childhood . Remember the flower vase incident? Even after finding out about Sona for the first time , or if it was about calling Asha mom, or when she learned about Sona's fake pregnancy she never directly questioned him instead she distanced herself from him . After the slap gate incident as well first thing she told him was , to live separately . Because she knew nothing would make him restless and hurt as that . Now Dev is doing the same , and he cant punish her better than this . Today he totally shut her off , even though she doesn't admit she knows impact of Sona in his life and knew it would have shook him to the core facing Sona . All these years he detached all the emotional bonds with her , today she was trying to break through the faade , hoping to see any sign of vulnerability , but he didn't even budge . And I clearly understood what she was saying the other day "I am trying to find my son in him somewhere . "
The saddest part is even when he is punishing her and himself he still cares and misses her somewhere , he tells Golu "Ishwari's stories were always about goodness ... Even after realizing that nobody in his family never cared about his happiness , he is still taking care of their needs . He is still gifting her maami expensive jewelry and l leave the business matters to Vicky even though he knows better ... May be his way of thanking them for taking care of his mother and his house .
Same goes for Sona too . One moment he was all ready to bounce upon her for interfering in his life and bring back the past he was running from , but the moment he saw her close and looked at her eyes he could not utter a word . His mom and Sona were the only ones he ever had real emotional connect and no matter how much he tries I really don't think he can cut them off completely. And Sona's line to Soha today "It was somebody who lost his way , but here there is no one who belongs to him" . There was a sadness in her eyes, seeing this new Dev's self-destructive ways " . Gosh How I wish these two could heal each other ...
PS: Vicky is upto something , I was like what evil plan is he making now đĄ, but after RR's dialogue " Luckily you are more like me " , I was relieved , most probably he is gonna do something stupid !!!! đ
Edited by desigirl987 - 8 years ago