Reliving IPK 111 - Page 2

Originally posted by: Ipoona

Episode 111

Jawab

Well wishers are lining up to shake his hand, to embrace him, to congratulate him ... He and Lavanya are getting married ...

She had been direct, had been tearfully unshakeable ... She had demanded answers, had challenged him to make her understand, had relentlessly pursued him for a jawab ... Her Payal, How ... When ... Where ... Why ... And what about that ... What he did ... Just a short while ago ?

All questions he is not willing to listen to, let alone answer ... He had walked off leaving her teary eyed and bewildered ... He will give her his jawab mere moments later ... His hand wrapping around Lavanya's, he had announced his intent to marry her.

He was so afraid to show his vulnerability and his past which made him caged with these norms..no pyar, no larki ...and here he is kaise kar sakta hoon main aise...completely guards down and showing her who he really is and what does he want.

A man who had just a hour or so ago, angrily, firmly, unambiguously restated that he would never marry Lavanya, had held her hand and clearly worded another decisive statement ... Han Di, Mein Lavanya say shaadi kar raha hoon.

His jawab ... He had looked at her across the room, through a darkened window pane, seen her held back tears and had heartlessly answered ... This is my jawab to your questions ... Did I answer you ? Is it clear enough ? Did I make you understand ?

Regardless what he has , still he is way hard on her at here.Regardless he was hurt with her yet he broke a pure soul's heart today , he snatched out the petals of this rose deliberately.

He forgets, he had already answered her question truthfully a short while ago. His eyes had spoken volumes for him. Had revealed his secret to her. He had knelt at her feet and tied her missing Payal on her foot. She had longed for him to voice his answer to her unspoken questions but had not stopped him ... He had turned away to leave, only to turn around and look at her one last time.

They have a created a life time memory over here which can't be eraased easily.

She had stood, her eyes lowered, her fingers fidgeting nervously ... He had been instantly transported back to the day of the photo shoot ... His desire for her, that he had a thought a short while ago, could not possibly have escalated any further, surges at the sight of her.

The memory of his first effortless seduction by his innocent temptress ... He had been bewitched since the first moment he saw her ... But the night of the photo shoot he had, for the first time had laid eyes on the woman of his dreams ... His world view had shifted ... And now, that woman stood before him ... Similar red sari ... similar gorgeous hair ... similar heart stopping innocence ...

Right from the first day...when she fell in his arms he looks at her lips...

He had blinked his surrender ... Moving towards her ... His steps measured, his intent, crystal clear, he had surged forward. She had balked ... Stepping back in alarm. They had moved in unison ... Him advancing, her retreating, until there was no where left to go. She had backed against his bedroom wall. Her breath had come in fast, shallow draws ... His eyes had never dropped hers. He had stopped inches away, slowly raising one hand to push back her unruly bangs. She had turned her face to his, raising her confused eyes to him, not understanding her own reactions ... Pleading with him ... He had fallen further, deeper ... He had then raised the other hand to gently cup her face. Her full, parted, trembling lips had drawn him in. He had gently tilted her face to his, inches from his lips ... A kiss ... A kiss he has dreamt of ... Lips he has tasted a thousand times over...

His phone had rung, snapping his days old fever ... He returns to his harsh cold reality in an dream shattering instance. He had found himself staring into her face, inches from her lips ... He had stepped back ...What had he been thinking ... How could he have allowed things to get to this point ... How could he be so weak ...

Khushi ... His weakness ... His Achilles heel ... A chink in his armor ... What has been a dreamlike few days, he now sees as a major breach, a colossal failing ... He has not been the one in control these past few days ... He had allowed himself to be lulled into a fantasy ... She had enticed him with a sirens song, and he had followed, a blind, will-less puppet. A man who prides in himself as being the master of his destiny is now being led down a illusionary path ... A fairytale like whimsical fantasy ... But he knows it can not be real ...

That is the point he doesn't have trust on himself , he is weak and emotional among all Raizadas but always keeps his fake throne on so no one can see how weak he is...

He knows the harsh reality of this world, of his life. He has shaped his life in the hard cold reality that inhabits him. He has determined and orchestrated every event in the last few years ... He has shaped his destiny ... and now it seems some girl has waltzed in and taken control ... He can not be this weak ... He decides what happens to him and not some girl he has allowed in, in a moment of weakness. He will not be dragged into a fools paradise. He will not allow it ... This was a momentary, fleeting impairment ... He will fix it.

He had gone and grasped the hand of the one safe bet ... No uncertainty ... No surprises in the path he chooses. A safe place ... A place he knew ... A place where he is the captain, where he steers his destiny ... A place he decides, What ... How ... Where ... When ... A place of control.

CONTROL ...That's is ...sab mere control main hai aur rahe ga...His staying away from Khushi is his safety as he lose his control and that's what he ses at this point as his weakness but later he will the one asking her "mujhe chor keh mat jana..."

But the cost to gain his control ? Her back to him, she slowly turns to him and pays with her tears. It seems he is willing to let her pay.

Originally posted by: Arshics

ArshiH, Ipoona, both of you weave magic with your words

And more than do justice to the absolutely heart stopping episode

Life is cruel

Love does not exist

Romance is stupid nonsense

And people are never to be allowed to come too close

That is the mantra Arnav has lived by

And it has stood him in good stead

He has built a big business empire

He has a girlfriend who is on the fringe of his life just like wants

Mr Raizadas heart is in closed storage , with a lock on it

And that's how he plans on living his life

But Khushi has the chabi, and has already sneaked into his heart

And red the color of fire , is melting the ice in his heart

And red the color of blood, is flowing through his veins

And red the color of passion is arousing his senses

Aise main, Arnav kho gaya toh uska kasoor nahi

Bhool gaya woh sab vaade Jo kiye the usne khud se

Kyon yeh raat thi nayi subah ki

Naye vaadon ki nayi kasamon ki

Naye armaanon ki, nayi pyaas ki

Par abhi bhi raat hai amawas ki

Kaale saaye abhi bhi aas paas hain

Abhi toh bas neend se jaaga hai dil

Pyaar karne ko abhi tayyar nahi hai

Abhi iss dil ko Kai bar tootna hoga

Pyaar ki gehrayeeon main doobna hoga

Aag main jalna hoga

Tab hi kundan ki tarah nikharega

Originally posted by: ...SaRun...

Beautifully written post.Love every bit of these diwali episodes ❤️

Originally posted by: nishu_shorna

Poona and ArshiHamesha...u two r brilliant...and with Arshics' poem today...wow...this is magical...

Originally posted by: Arshi.Sugi.IPK

Beautifully written...Awesome edits 😊 Magical Arshi <3

Originally posted by: bidz

arshi,
I also wished she hadn't pushed him so much that day. I agree though that it was meant to be. I have wondered many times had she not pushed him what could have been the outcome...? I guess after a few tense days, they would have been back to square 1. So, this was required for the story to move forward.

I always wished to see khushi give him the silent treatment for a longer period. But she never could. I loved watching his desperation and his famous lines "jab main baat karta hoon to meri taraf dekho"...ufff...

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

Diwali Part 3

continue from part2

He takes out the payal from his pocket and deliberately but humbly shows her. She looks at him with riveting emerging feelings with so many questions .His silently offer is circling in her with astonishment as her mother's only sign the one she thought she'd lost he has it but why?. She is completely speechless and he puts the payal around her ankle with his complete right on her but with delicacy ,Is this the same Arnav Singh Raizada for whom"mujhe kissi larki se koi farak nahin padta"[Not a single girl matters to me] is sitting by bowing his head down and giving some girl the feel of being special to him but this is not some girl and he would definitely not do this for anyone else either but its Khushi and for whom he wants to do it to make her feel better ,may be because he wants to lift her fears which she shared with him only and since then he shows concerns or may be its for him as he knows she values his the same way.

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS:Its started the day she left the Payal,today he made her wearing payal,later he will give her the bindi and bangles.Aren't these all rituals they are performing now..

Yes they are to show "khushi mein aur tum .Hamesha Na" Khushi completed his stance which he is starting here.Staying together for "Hamesha" which started that day "hum ja rahe hain hamesha keh liye"[ am to Lukhnow for forever]

He gets up and two steps backward,she gets up without leaving her sight which she was missing couple of minutes before when he disappeared but this time with unresolved questions are circling around without thinking anything else.Their eyes met and it becomes unbearable for her so she turned first and then he turns to leave but then after two steps[2 is sexual tension] stops and turns back to her to follow his heart to its Dhakan by putting all the guards down to let go of his shell behind.

His intoxicated looks ,her innocent beauty and these burning desires which were making her with quivering lips with her uneven breathing which is adding fuel to fire for him as he can't or does not want to control these appealing desires of her.He wants her to be closed to him with all of her avatar but just for him.He wants to gulp her glowing beauty,wants to devour her innocence , inhale her essence, taste the nectar for life .

These arousing desires make him step forward and its not hard to understand his intentions as she flusters immediately but anticipates along with him as she is not leaving just like she did not stop him for having his right on her everytime.She steps backward with each of his forward one with the same rhythm which clearly shows him her intentions.

"Jadu hai nasha hai" circles around em with enchanted winds along with arousing waves of hidden desires in the pool of their bodies which is quivering the water in the pool along with flickering lights.He wants to go any length with her at this moment to make it his ,to make it for them to cherish "hamesha.

She hits the wall and he hits her avatar so close to feel her heaping bosoms to lavish her quivering petals which are lusting the intoxicated and liquorish nectar to devour.He caresses her hair from her forehead and then keeps his warm palm on her cheek , she closes her eyes by clutching her saree as she is flushing away with these overflowing heaping desires along with her bosoms with half opened lips as she is craving for it.He holds her other cheek with the gentle but warm breezy touch.They look at each other to get the admired permission as she did not stop him or said "no" and he took that cue as a "yes" which weakens her with closed eyes along with his hazel liquorish ones which are having firm focus on her rosy petals.

ArshiH ... The amount of romance we have been writing this past week should fill a paperback novel between the two of us ... I had been so looking forward to writing about romance all this week ... But now I am done !!! Phew !!! Glad to move on to dark despair ...

Pause here: All this time his one eye was covered with Khushi as always "eye of Horus""He is her protector"regardless what ever will be outcome of this he is going to be besides her.

Can a female be the eye of Horus too ?

And there it is a phone ring ,a circle of waves to shun their intimate act at this moment.

If Aman [ want to kill him if he ever comes in front of me] would've called imagine this act would've been ended where.hmmm'''.The Act of the moment of inflated desires is now startled them from their traumatic yet beautiful charisma which is going to get nastier each second.

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS: He held her close when she called him "character Dheela" felt her and since then he loses his control for her proximity.That day it was due to his anger but after that it was simply attraction which has become an arousing desire now.

ASR is back with closed eyes but with fears and shattering disbeliefs how he could let anyone allow to break his shell to make him that weak.He needs to walk away from there with his armored walk.

Khushi, "yeh kya hua... hum iss tarah kaise? aur... arnavji ke paas humari payal? matlab kya hua iss sab ka... humain pata lagana hoga... poochna hoga ."

So she does ask herself ... Hum iss therah kaysay ... In today's post I touch a little bit on this ... Where is her guilt ? Should she not have felt anything ?

He couldn't care too hoots for Lavanya ... But her ? Khushi has a string sense of right and wrong ... Did not see any sign of her conflicted with her actions ...

Translation: what happened ?... how can I?... and my payal is with arnavji? what is the meaning of all of this... I have to find out... I will have to ask. she wants to know about the payal, but above all..." woh sab."

ASR in his weak and vulnerable atate," "kaise kar sakta hoon main yeh... kya ho gaya tha mujhe... kyoun... kyoun kamzore padh gaya main."

Translation:How can I do this... what happened to me... why did I become weak.[weak in love MR Yummylicious]

He avowed for not letting any woman matter to him or come even close to his heart.Near the window, finding his calm and strong shell but here she is with her determination to seek answers of her questions which are bothering her since couple of days and this is the moment she wants confirmation not other than anyone else but him as he is the answer himself but for the sake of peace of his inner turmoil he leaves her there baffled.[I wish she did not go there to seek answer right away as his storm needs time to settle down but it was meant to be that way totally my POV]

Totally agree ... Both needed time and space to process what had just happened ... Too many hard questions of a man ... Who does not have the answers and is scared of the questions ...

Symbolism:10 glasses on the table and Arnav and Anjali is in the frame.10n represents the divine forces of the universe and the harmony of the matter and God is creating its ways to protect these souls as horus is not only protector of Khushi but Anjali also.All this happened for good.[uski raza se]DM signs'.

Amazingly when Anjali rearranged these we have 5 glasses visible and 5 is for harmony and divine forces also.Too good

This time she follows him for her answers as couple of minutes he was doing so.She finds him in their eternal heaven,he knows this sehar ,this whispering steps in his heart just needs to pretend but if she let be.

Khushi," "hum jaante hain ki iss waqt aap phone pe nahin hai..."

Translation: I know you are not on the phone, she said standing behind him with uneven breath circled with intensity and worrisome.

Khushi,"humain aapse kuch baat karni hai," [I need to talk to you.]

Arnav with his classic firmness,"mujhe tumse koi baat nahin karni," [I don't want to talk to you,]

Khushi with her determination and persuasion "karni padegi.. aapko humari payal kahan mili.. kabse yeh aapke paas hey.. aur.. aapne humain pehle wapis kyoun nahin ki.. sirf aaj hi kyoun"

Translation: Tell me, where did you get my payal and why didn't you return it to me before and why only today? Today she wants real answers and only from him who just gulped down every word of her quietly and obstinately

Khushi,"bataeye--- jawab dijiyeh... ," [ tell me, answer me] she is persistent and assertive.

Arnav, 'Eik baar kahi hui baat tumhe samajh nahin aati hai? just leave me alone"

He attacks with his nastiness... [don't you understand first time when told]
"In fact, tumhari shaqal bhi nahin dekhni hai...aur na baat suni hai do you understand." [In fact, I don't want to see your face or hear you, do you understand? ]
Khushi with deep hurt at his remarks but still insistent with steadiness,

Khushi,"nahin understand... aap samjhaiye humain,"[ I don't you make me understand]

Arnav"nikal jaao yahan se..." [get out of here..].

He wants to leave... she advances to stop him.[my older one does that every time when I am angry and want to leave his room lol] So sweet ...She is getting angrier along with him and as whenever she gets upset to seek answers she asks too many questions .How can she let him go after whatever happened.Transformation of burning desires to determination and from there now turning it to bitter agitation.

Khushi,"humne kaha samjhaiye humain... bataiye kyoun aapne humari payal apne paas rakhi... kyon ab tak wapis nahin ki.. iss sab ka kya matlab hai..."

Translation: I said make me understand... tell me why did you keep my payal... why didn't you return it before.. what's the meaning of all this? You can hear the glare in her voice'.and then suddenly loses the intensity "aur wo sab," [and all that?]

"aur usska jo kuch dair.pehle..." [and that which a little while ago...]

Pause here:I WISH SHE NEVER SAID THAT my pov it might be a different outcome as she is perplexed as he is but her consistently pushing his buttons worsen the whole thing which rolled him towards his nasty and hasty decision of marrying La.

Arnav's half turned away face now gets that glare from these two words and becomes untolerable for him

"I said just leave me alone..." He is weakening now and he needs to do something to stop her and by stepping forward grabbing her tightly with gritted teeth and biting words and hiding his weakness for her in anger

Exactly ... His loss of any control is so evident now ... And he knows it ... And his next step ... Walk off to find his confidence ...

"Ab Eik shabd bhi bola na toh..." [If you say one more word now]

Her pain and rolling tears in her eyes... his pain and staring with glare melts him, shatters him and he releases her with closed yet painful and inconsolable eyes as he can't see her crying and above all he can't meet her eyes today.. Rabba Vey circles more pain in the surroundings of this eternal heaven.Two soul mates in pain with longing for each other but whose fault is here ,no ones in my POV ,it meant to nbe like that as they both are right and wrong in their own ways.

Khushi, "aap iss tarah bina humara sawal ka jawab diye nahin ja sakte."[ you can't leave like this without giving me an answer]

Arnav"jawab? mujhe tumhe koi jawab dene ki zaroorat nahin hai..." [answer? I don't need to give you any answer] and he leaves without giving answer

But he gives her his jawab ...

But he left being decisive as he has to stop this tidal wave from reaching to shore and this was his decision to marry La...The girl who he refused to marry just a while ago in front of Di and Naniji and now he is saying what they want to hear "Shaadi kar rahe hain" [we are getting married] to just push Khushi out of his life who was making him "kamzor" weak but did he get stronger by saying that "no" as he is not meeting anyone eyes here ,can't see or enjoy their happiness for him either as his yearning eyes are screaming for one and only one and that is Khushi on the other side of that glass window whose small world again collapsed as she saw him ,heard him with his mysterious action which is impossible for her to understand why did he do that.

Lovely ArshiH ... His realization if his mistake is immediate ... But aab kya karay ...

A man who aroused her feelings up to this level ,kept her payal, gave her that much respect by putting it on her , flushed himself against her and now this...She is unable to connect dots as only one dot she can connect she is no one here and he was playing along as "character Dheela" but she does not feel that way for her as her Mind Vs Heart war is so on just like him.

Now he is marrying with her friend and the whole family is happy how can she do anything to hurt these people who she loves so much ...What a night where his eyes never left her in passion or in abhorrence ,If ASR is back so is Khushi with tears...which always make him "Kamzor" weak!

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Originally posted by: Horizon

Ipoona, You know the beauty of this epi is that it caters not just to one's romantic and aesthetic senses, but to analytical as well! I have often wondered for such profound writing. Both his loss of control and his attempts to regain are as real altho they looked utterly cruel.. one just cant help but to sympathize with his attempts...

What a dip down you have taken us into Arnav Singh Raizada's heart.. HIS world...👏 spot on! How could he LET this happen.. momentary lapse.. some thing he just cant afford.. let himself be.. for all strength that took him to arrive where he is today... I get amazed every time you draw that line whats the difference between his equation between La and Khushi... yes that "control".. La where his BRAIN dictates the things to Khushi.. where his HEART runs involuntarily to planes it takes...

Who is the shama and who is the parwana here.. hard to say.. as both are equally attractants and attracted! While Khushi's heart break as he held La' s hand is heart wrenching, her questioning didn't really sit quite well with me. Would any girl does that, ofcourse this is Khushi, she is different. But what would she do if he answered, there was some disconnect to the ways she tried to push La for a marriage and to here..

My most fav is that payal of the previous one.. will go there later in the day.. I am lagging a lot.

Originally posted by: bidz

Poona,

Here's a question for you regarding the "jawab" - Was it a deliberate, or an impulsive act?

My response - I think it was impulsive since he just needed to run away from her (at that point). The regret was immediate. With nani and di ecstatic ( I hated both nani and di then😉), and people congratulating, he immediately realized the gravity of the situation.

But what has always puzzled me is his reaction a little later. He genuinely wanted to answer her questions in the car. Only this time she didn't want to listen. So what do you think made him come around so quickly? Would he really have acknowledged his feelings for her if she hadn't thwarted him then?

Finally, I always felt that Khushi also made ASR suffer equally (without intending to!). If ASR broke her heart (deliberately) now, she broke his, when she told him she was engaged to another man. Khushi reacted by crying buckets, while he massacred his plants in his garden. Idiots, both of them😊