Aditi - apologies for my late coming, but I was gone for a Sunday and apparently everyone got into writing mode 😆 Here go my two cents...
The line - you are your own greatest enemy - obviously, and almost always, has defined the post leap Gulaal. In a way, it is what distinguished the pre and post leap versions. There was the Gulaal who was willing, even driven and pressed to go as far as running away with Vasant, if it was the only way to be with him - families and all else forsaken. And then there is was this Gulaal, who wasn't even the last on her own list.
Loved the bit where Kesar tells her she will have to accept things for what they are one day, and how he's not ashamed of his love or all such. And loved how he feels unfazed by her rejection, describes each of her slaps as one in denial of his love... the whole "brham vs pyaar" thing...
But some slight nuances of this letter reminded me more distinctly of the later GK showdown, after Kesar has his single unraveling moment of revelation about his love and imposition on Gulaal (post KT mandir scene) - and I thought his understanding of how Gulaal was hiding behind facades came just a tad soon in this letter. I mean, I have always thought that Kesar at this point was most consciously and primarily preoccupied with the fact that his love was being both misunderstood and undermined by Gulaal. Somewhere, to me, he was at least consciously far from any empathy or knowledge of her side... he was too drowned in his own misery and loss of her shade, to actually figure out why she felt so drastically violated...
Then again, he did have that dialogue with PB, about what exactly was so wrong about his love, where he addressed Gulaal's norm based mental block. Although even there, I thought, his questions and thoughts were far more about why his love was so wrong, than how Gulaal's predicament rendered his love wrong, whether or not it was, in objectivity. Which in a way are two overlapping aspects in part at least. Okay, so I've gone round in circles trying to make a point, and then debating it. Psst!
Anyway that aside, absolutely loved the whole verbalized vent. Contrary to what you said - this was an instance, given how it lacked explicit words, which is a great gap to fill with a written letter. Come to think of it, I would almost expect to have seen one on the show... just about here... So thanks for writing it 🤗 (and thanks Doc, for requesting!)
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JZee
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