Collection of unsent letters-update on page 10 - Page 5

Originally posted by: JZephyr

A read to go with brunch - always a delight, thanks for another of these letters Aditi, and as before, you have chosen an apt point from the episodes to sneak a letter between... to be honest, despite how wholesome and complete this show was to the end, I suppose when you really want to sneak in your take of their (either of the leads) takes - there is always scope, because Gulaal (the show) did rely heavily on some completely unspoken but relayed sentiments and emotions!

I really like how you show a considerable mellow down in his ferocity and temper from the immediate after of the Sarpanch fiasco, and the angst of the Pareshani scene - because given the moments of isolation, Kesar is bound to to wilt in remorse and go down on his knees for whatever stakes to get her back. You show the beginning of that kind of phase here - and link it beautifully with his past and present contrasting memories with Gulaal.

Especially love the lines in quote below - another of those countless moments when his predicament just tugs at my heart like that...!

xx

Jzee

Originally posted by: minizz

Aditi🤗this was a great letter and what are you saying,this is intense in it's own way.At least I felt so.This letter comes at a stage when Kesar is aware that something is changing within him but has not yet realized what exactly is happening to him...a beautiful phase to explore.There is no pretend hate or indifference of the initial days.There's only the hurt and the feeling of loneliness that he feels with Gulaal away.I loved the doodh wala kissa you touched upon...bechara it's not the doodh or chai that was ever imp for Kesar.For Kesar the whole thing meant that she cared for him and that attention from her always brought a smile on his face even when he pretended to not care...So I loved the way you wrote that.

haawww the drinking issue and once again it all comes back to the exclusive attention he wanted so badly from Gulaal.He never grew up na-he was still that bacha Kesu inside who needed his Gulaal to run around him all the time😳 lekin baad mein usne Gulaal ko peeche chod diya maturity ke maamle mein.I admire the CVs for showing that growth process in a realistic way.

That bit was really well written yaar.

I always felt that Kesar understood Gulaal completely.Even though he stayed away for more than a decade no one knew Gulaal like he did.He knew that Gulaal could not stay happy away from home and that was beautifully shown here.I am glad that by the end of the show Gulaal's priorities changed and she finally realized that it's not the home she is attached to it is Kesar.She could leave the home and the family but she could not give up her Kesar😳

my fav bit is this part.

bachpan main tere ghar chod ke jane ki dhamki se bhi kitna darta tha main,tab aur aaj maine farq bas itna hai ki ab teri chunar pakad ke tuje rok nahi sakta,yeh haq kab mujse chin gaya Gulaal aur kyun...

awww Kesar my heart went out to him here😭loved the mann ka andhera part too.It was very emotional.

Adiiti,thank you so much for these letters from Kesar.It always makes me feel ki kaash yeh sab screen mein dekhne ko milta but I guess some things are better left unsaid especially when you have these wonderful actors who convey every little emotion without using a single dialogue.aur hum sab hain na saare scenes interpret karne ke liye aur fill-in-the blanks karne ke liye😆

A big hug to you for this one🤗enjoyed it a lot😃

.hi aditi 😃 thanks for pm dear i had missed some letters and i had read 2nd part earlier and .rest parts today.

Hey Guys, here's another update, this is for Piyu who wanted me to explore Kesar's state of mind after his rain soaked confession and Gulaal's slapathon in response. I must admit I am bit uneasy about this one as NB's portrayal of Kesar's dilemma following confession hardly left anything for exploration, it was just amazingly conveyed w/o any spoken words, but here's an attempt at Piyu's behest, Mini as always have been really helpful in putting finishing touches, so please read and review and do comment good or bad doesn't matter...

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Gulaal,

I am sorry, for all the angst, all the misery, all the trouble I bestowed upon you I have been nave and at times complete idiot but you have always known this haven't you, you could always see through my lies and my pretence, you who always knew what I wanted even before saying it, you who never gave up on me even when I didn't reply to your letter once, you who always knew her Kesar more than me, than how come you didn't know what was behind those questions that my eyes always asked, why did your world not revolve around me and when and how did this equation changed between us?

You have all the answers Gulaal, you have always had those but you have resolutely ignored me in order to keep your promise to Talli, This time I am not going to let you sacrifice yours and mine happiness for your so called promise, You have done a lot for this house and it's high time someone thought about your wants and needs too, I think you are your biggest enemy as you have so aligned yourself with this house's requirements that you have left woman in you far, far behind, killing and snubbing all her desires, hopes and wishes...

I promise, I will bring that woman back someday...that woman whose laugh extended to her eyes, that woman whose voice soothed parched souls, that woman who would find water from depth of barren land, that woman who will always follow her heart, that woman who was always so beautiful, that woman who was always mine since the day I first laid my eyes on her...

Gulaal today when you asked about what was stopping me from breaking this DV,I just had to admit what I felt, how could I not tell you the truth, With every slap that came my way you were trying to deny it, refute it, snub it I could see in your eyes, I know this would have come as a big shock for you and I am sorry for the hurt that I have caused you but I am not sorry for loving you and nor am I ashamed of my love, You will have to accept this truth one day and I hope that day you will not stop yourself in name of family, society and your promises, I will await that day Gulaal with bated breath...

You once said, main tere mann ko thujse behtar samajta hu,sach hai yeah,that's why I know how difficult it will be for you to come out of that virtual world of Vasantbha's memories that you have built around you, how trying it will be to search that Gulaal who was so lively, carefree, sparkling and exuberant, the real Gulaal I saw that day in the orchard, you have to find her as she will tell you I am not wrong this time, kyunki har waqt to tu sahi nahi ho sakti Gulaal aur jis din tuje yeah baat samaj main aa jayegi tu apne kavach ko apne pass payegi aur main uss din ka besabri se intezaar karunga Gulaal...

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Piyu I really hope, this meets your expectations, I tried my best it was most difficult situation to explore imo as there were so many after effects that immediately followed this and CVs did a brilliant job conceptualising subsequent reactions, and just for record this has done my head up for a long time to come😆

Yeay brilliant👏

Turbaaa thankeez..😳

reserved😳

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Oh my Haseen Qatil that is just perfect.It is beautiful at the same time simple as the sweet honest confession from Kesar.It is brilliaantly written ,executed and marvelously potrayed the finest emotions of Kesar😭

My absolute fav is the last part .It just summarizes the intensity and devotion of Kesar.I think it was just a fab job by you Aditi truly beautiful .Exactly how I would have loved to read.I just lubbed the part where he says that he is not ashamed of his love.Bootiful👏

Mini is right now we need more letters🤗

P.S-A Letter about Kesu's fondness of Gulaal after the aam ka bageecha scne where he is a goner seeing her khule baal."Aapke baal dekhein bahut hassen hai inhe khule mat chhodiyega nazar lag jayegi ..aye haye..one musshy mushy leeter* demands*😉