very well said laksh, even I don't feel pakhi ever wanted ema, she marring Samrat just happened in the heat of moment, yes she can maturely which she always says and stop the marriage but with few clips of her marriage what I understood is, she tried to make virat jealous while dancing with Samrat in Sangeeth or tried to make him realize that he is doing wrong by sacrificing and expected him to stop the wedding.... But none of it happened, but once she entered samrakhi room which was fully decorated, she was pulled into reality which she couldn't tolerate, even though I hate that she took vadha from virat, till she didn't turn evil I actually sympathize her, because everyone does mistakes and pakhi also did it.... But her jealous turned her heart less, even now I don't think she is looking for ema but she completely wants virat to herself emotionally and physically ( I mean he should stay virgen ) .... But I feel if sai is not in picture and Samrat is MIA , at someone she might try to marry virat ...You know how I feel about it. I don’t believe that she wanted EMA. I had once written about it and I will try to see if I can find that.
To be honest, her actions were also driven by emotions. She just didn’t know what she was doing too. She just wanted to stay close to Virat, somewhere where he would be around I guess. It was a foolish thing to think of getting married to someone so as to stay close to someone she loves. I also believe that if she ever loved Virat, she wouldn’t expect him not to move on. Love means giving and feeling happy for your loved ones whether you are happy or not.
Anyway, she didn’t even know what she was doing. She kept hoping that he would stop the marriage even at the mandap. I kind of have a mixed feeling about one thing. I feel that she was high in emotions that she didn’t think of repercussions of her actions and just decided that she would get married. It was only when she walked into CN as Samrat’s wife, only when she moved into Samrat’s bedroom, sitting in his room did she even realise what she had done, what she has gotten herself into. Her trance broke. She had realised the gravity of the situation only then. I would say that was why she had even made the call to Virat and cheek cheek ke bata rahi thi happened when she couldn’t stop herself from expressing or exploding in what mess she was. She didn’t realise that marrying Samrat would mean she would be his wife, she will have to live with him as his wife in his room. She didn’t realise that there would be expectations from her as a wife, as a bahu, being wife of Samrat. That made her scream out of agony and her own madness, foolishness that she loves and can only love Virat.
None of these are to justify her actions, it is my understanding of Pakhi during her wedding and also at that moment in her room when she was hit by the reality.
She had come up to Sairat’s bedroom because she wanted to show that only she had rights on Virat. She started to get restless after Virat got married and ever since she saw Virat getting drawn to Sai. It started during the rasams where he was impressed with Sai to have convinced Kaku to have food from her hands. And then came the reception. As and when days passed by she could see Virat’s growing fondness for Sai. She just couldn’t tolerate that he would give the position that he had once given and was planning to give her for the entire lifetime to someone else. She wanted to test Virat too whether he was planning to stick to the promise or not. She wanted to keep reminding him with her presence. All she wanted was Virat to think high only of her, Virat to have feelings for only her, Virat to get impressed only with her. She wanted his attention, his support and all of these developed without her own knowledge when she started to see Sai and Virat together, when she was noticing changes in Virat, when she could see Virat giving the position that he once planned to give her to Sai.
Her coming to his room or feeding him were all so that she tries to keep his thoughts away from Sai, so that he continues to think only about her and not Sai. She just wanted him to keep her at a place which no one else can ever take.
In her jealousy, her hurt turned to agony, into anger and at the end vileness too. She had lost herself in the process. She didn’t care about anything. All the things started to affect her and disturb her to such an extent that she didn’t care about what was right and what was wrong.
The Ladakh trip again was something that was only hers and Virats. She wanted it that way, for the trip to be only hers and Virats. She just didn’t want Sai anywhere around Virat. She started to get too possessive that she wanted him to spend time only with her. Virat spending time alone with Sai kept disturbing her. Sai getting whatever she had dreamt disturbed her. She wanted time away from Sai where Virat would stop thinking or talking about Sai and spend time only with her.
Every move that she made was when she got too desperate to keep Virat away from Sai or to distract Virat’s attention from Sai. If Sai or any other girl had not been in picture, if Virat had not fallen for that girl, I don’t believe that Pakhi would have become this desperate. I think that her theory about love is an eternal one where she can love only one person in her life. Where love happens just once. I think she had thought that even after marrying Samrat, she would continue to love only Virat and not give that place to anyone else in her heart.
Just my views. This is how or what I think about Pakhi. This is not to justify any of her actions. I am obviously against her behaviour and actions. But I don’t believe that Pakhi wanted EMA. She was getting emotionally dependent on him, and her initial phone calls are the proofs for it. I think she started to crave for his attention, his support as and when time passed, as and when she realised after she got married that her decision to get married was stupid and wrong, that she wanted to change it somehow. And when he got married, she lost her senses and started to get more and more desperate.
Arjun
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