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Part - 18

I was watching the sun set from the balcony of our room. I was trying hard to control the salty water that was threatening to fall n was pondering over the same thought that has been running in my mind since last night.

Did I make the right decision by bending in front of his stubbornness ? Earlier it was only my disappearance that used to bother him but now his life is getting miserable with each passing minute... His fear of losing me again, the pain of my wounded soul that he feels with each breath he takes... I agreed to marry coz I wanted to sooth him but instead I have worsen his life...

My mind drifted to last nite when he took me in his arms rubbing my back n murmuring Sorry' in my ears.

But the pain of him apologizing was much more than what I felt a few minutes back.

I m sorry Jaan... I don't know how I lost my control... I m very sorry Jaan...

He was chanting the same making me all the more guilty. After sometime he brought me inside n settled me on the bed. But I sat up n held his hand when he was about turn. He looked at me with questioning eyes n I made him sit near me.

Maan... I wisphered with downcasted eyes but his guilt - filled voice made me look - up to his face

Shhh Jaan... I'll make sure ... But I didn't let him continue n placed my palm on his mouth.

Maan... I m sorry... I know ki ye aapka haq hai...

Geet ??? He stance changed with a shocked expression listening to me but I was in a miserable state after seeing him blaming himself.

What should I do Maan ?? I m trying but ...I cried painfully but he cut me in the middle

Geet... I know ... he cupped my face gently n continued

Jaan... I m sorry...

But this time I didn't let him complete n pressed my mouth against his while he very tenderly tried to absord all my pain.

~o~

I passed the juice to Annie when Maan asked for it, which she gave him while he ignored n rubbed his temple in annoyance.

I looked up to find Dadimaa, Annie n Vicky trying to suppress their giggles making Maan all the more infuriate.

Geet... Maan called me loudly getting fed up of my silent treatment making his siblings n Dadimaa jump whereas I continued to ignore him eating quietly.

Geet... Enough yaar... Stop it now... He was exasperated but before he continues I stood up n left saying

I m done...

Geet ... Listen... He tried again but I was long gone. He sighed dejectedly n looked at Dadimaa. But even she was well prepared for this scene.

Don't look at me Maan... Its between u two... n more over these are the consequences of your decision ... so bear them... said Dadi in a very casual yet measured voice n stood up whereas both Vicky n Annie left quietly.

But Dadi...

Maan's defeated expression made her halt her steps n she turned to give him a sympathetic smile

Maan... I m sorry beta... I can't help u in this... said Dadimaa before she turned on her heels n moved towards her room.

~o~

I was sitting in the balcony with my sketch book when Maan entered. I knew he would come especially after getting no help from Dadimaa or Annie n Vicky. He stood at the threshold nervously for a few moments then entered taking cautious steps towards me. I had my back towards him but can feel his strained reactions. I knew I was reacting little too much but then it was indeed needed.

It's been a month since we are back to Delhi but Maan has not left my side for more than a few minutes. No office, No meetings, nothing. Any important work or file to be reviewed will be delivered at home. All the important meetings will be through video conferencing ... that too the duration will be very short.

It was making me guilty for doing this to him. Seeing the intimidating Maan Singh Khurana... so fearful.

Geet... His voice was careful n soft

Jaan please...I closed my eyes to control the pain I felt at his pleading call.

He turned me holding my shoulders making me breath heavily. My hands turned into fists n I opened my eyes telling myself not to cry coz its time to confront, to look into our fears eye-to-eye.

Jaan...

Maan... Buss... I tried to sound as fearless and unaffected as possible

Kab tak chalega aise ???