Maan... Please ek baar meri baat sunn lijiye... mein aapke samne haath jodti hu... ... aisa nahi ho sakta
And finally he looked into my eyes n said
Fine Geet... one chance ??? U have it...
Saying so he took me towards the backside of the temple. It was so peaceful out here. The fresh soothing air, the lush green surroundings n the quietly flowing Ganga. It was as if they were all giving me courage to move ahead n open the long lost closed book of my life.
He left my hand once we reached outside but taking few steps more he stood with his back, in front of me. I took a deep breath as it's now or never for me. I know how stubborn he can get but I can't do what he wants this time.
Maan... Jo aap chahate hai wo possible nahi hai... Please... Just try to understand me... It's not ...
Damn... why is it so difficult to talk to him ?? to make him understand ??? I closed my eyes in order to hold back the tears which were on the verge to spill out n tried to compose myself.
Maan... Please... this is not right... I can't do this... ye... I stopped midway as I looked up n found him standing there calmly looking at me with a mocking smile. My temper rose with the thought of him taking all this as a joke. So with long steps I marched towards him n held him with his collar shaking him...
Aapko ye sab mazak lag raha hai ??? U think I m just blabbering ???
I tried looking into his eyes to make him realize the intensity of the situation but his cold stance irked me further...
Oh !!! Or r u doing this coz u think I was ra*ed while saving Aniee... So u want to do me a favour ??? Huh ?? But let me tell u Mr Khurana ... if that would have happened ... this Geet would have killed herself then n there...
I didn't know that the rage would take over my senses to this extent that I would utter such disgusting words. But the realization of the sin committed, just a few seconds ago, sunk in as I looked up at his face which still showed only pure conditional love with no effects of the harsh words I spoke.
I couldn't take it, I felt unworthy, disgust to have spitted those sinful words. Putting a hand on my mouth to suppress my sobs I ran towards the holy river, which was the witness of my agony for past couple of years silently offering me solace.
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My body was still rocking with loud sobs while those painful words ringing in my head when Maan came n sat beside me holding me offering his shoulder. I went into his arms willingly while I pleaded him to forgive me.
I m sorry Maan... I m very sorry...
Shhh Jaan... Bus...
I didn't mean it Maan...
I know Jaan... he said wiping my tears when the new ones were already ready. I looked into his concerned eyes n in chocked voice tried again.
Maan... please aap baat ko samajhiye... jo aap chah rahe hai wo nahi ho sakta... he stopped me this time by placing a finger on my lips n cupped my face lovingly
Geet... Jo tum kehna chahti thi ... tum keh chuki... aur maine sunn liya... ab bus ... aur nahi...
Nahi Maan... baat sirf itni nahi hai... I told u I didn't let him...
Shhh... Jaan... U don't need to...
No Maan... let me... my eyes pouring while my body shivering with the thought of that fateful day but I knew with him holding me close I'll b fine.
He couldn't ...
But he tore my dress n tried kissing my lips biting them so that I let him enter my mouth but I didn't...
Geet...
But ... He touched me all over my... I broke down completely, thinking of the disgusting touch of that monster
Bus... Jaan...
I m dirty Maan... I m very dirty... I can't b with u anymore now...
Geet !!!
Nahi Maan... maine bahut try kiya... but his filthy mouth n hands still haunt me... I can still feel that touch like thousands of snakebites...
Jaan...
No Maan... since past two years I had been trying to wash away those hands from my body, my soul but even this holy river had not been able to make me pure again...
Mein aapke layak nahi hu Maan... please go away... I can't b..
Maan held me from my hair n before I could comprehend anything his mouth captured mine. I was too shocked to understand anything but as always his kiss conveyed his anger n disapproval. I was out of breath when he left my mouth but his hold on my hair tightened as he hissed
No bloody ba***rd... can keep u away from me... Do u understand ??? U R MINE...
Maan...
Kuch aur nahi sunna mujhe... humara pyar itna khokhla(shallow) nahi Geet... let's go...
Maan !!!
No more Geet... Enough now... saying so he got up taking me with him n turned to go back
Maan... I had killed Dev... I whispered making him stop. I waited for his reaction. And I continued when he looked back at me with a blank expression.
I wanted the earth to consume me... I wanted to kill him n if not, then to kill myself before he does something to me...
Geet...
Because it was only your right... I couldn't let any devil near me ...
So I pushed him hard with all your love in me... I pushed him with so much of force that his head banged into the mirror on the opposite wall n he passed out immediately...
I grabed the some clothes n rushed downstairs to escape... While picking up my purse from the main hall my eyes caught the sight of few candles kept on the dining table... I knew the very moment what I had to do... I went inside the kitchen... closed the only window opened n then turned ON all the knobs of the gas stove... then I lighted all the candles I had seen earlier n rushed out closing the main door behind... there was a guard on the main gate so I jumped the fence from the backyard... I must have reached just a few meters away when the blast took place...
Geet...
I killed him Maan... I have killed that monster...
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