Ah man, I knew the story was about to take a slight turn but didn't expect this and reading it brought back memories from my school days. SUicide attempts are ugly and I still wonder what compels people to even think of committing it... I knew two girls who had tried to attempt suicide in high school. One used to sit right next to me. while I won't take her case seriously coz For the most part she did it to gain attention and never truly meant to do it, it was pretty f**ked up and since I knew about her intentions it somehow became my responsibility (in my head) to try and convince her not to. I remember it so clearly because this period of dealing with her case defined my 11th and 12th grade.
The other one was a good friend but not a close one whose life went terribly wrong at the end of eleventh standard. It was a secret and I wasn't supposed to find out about it about it but I did so accidentally. And I still remember her face when she had come back after the summer and after her attempt. It was bad, man. I asked her then if she was alright because I couldn't help it. And it was then I think that She got to know that I knew. I didn't care though...because all was well. And I knew that she had somehow emerged stronger.
I still thank the heavens that these two are still alive. back then I don't think I took these matters that seriously but now that I think of it, it freaks me out. It really does.
I don't even know why I shared these stories here... But reading this really got me thinking. Would I have blamed myself too if the girl I used to sit with had ended up attempting a serious suicide or god forbid, committing one?
And... As always enjoyed the chapter! Hot chocolate fudge from the Nirulas really was a big deal, wasn't it? It still is in some ways. Why... The other day a friend from Mumbai who was to visit delhi asked me about it. Honestly I never developed a liking for it... I was more of a 21 love and black current sort of girl 😃
Loved the train scene! I had a teacher who used of that too 😆 Pretty smart actually. For college kids, yes. But to leave school kids like that. On their own... Not so much.
Arnav is rather weird. What a closed person he is. He's so friendly when they are alone and almost ignoring her otherwise. I wouldn't be surprised if he's simply just immature and embarrassed to be seen talking to her.
And and and I think I like Payal and Aakash. I hope we get to read more on Aman too, soon. I quite like him and it would be good to read about him :D
Cheers! And thank you for writing this lovely piece of fiction which is so much more than a love story. It's a life-story... Know what I mean? :D and I don't know how many chapter remain for this to end but I'm looking at it more as a FF rather than a SS 😃
Edited by Anarocksick - 10 years ago
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