Okay I would not like to butt into discussions that dont involve me but frankly I feel If we are talking about Shravan's 'awareness' of the implications his action would bring on Sumo's life all through the time he went in the bachelor party, spit that venom and returned back, then we also need to access the situations that caused him to get instigated to that extent. As far as I remember he was pretty much in his usual mode till mamiji asked him to keep the gifts in Sumo's room. Yes the mehendi thing irked him but he was back to normal pretty soon. Even looking at his and Sumo's childhood pic in her room didn't inflict any anger in him but only pain and helplessness. He did want to get rid of her from his life but did not intend to take any revenge from her or hurt her in any way. His sole motive was to get rid of the hurt her presence and his existence being stuck to her brought to him.
It was only when he saw that how his own mother was so blind to his pain and she rather favored her other son against him, it made him go baffled. From that particular moment, ALL that had been on his mind was to somehow do something totally contrasting to what his so called mother wanted him to do (for her other son ofcourse) and thereby cause excruciating pain to her and her son. At that particular moment ALL that over-powered him was his hurt, his thirst to avenge for the pain his mother and her useless son caused upon him.
And the fact that after returning from home he thought about the impact of his words on Sumo's life is an indication that he had been pondering over that possibility ever since he said those words to Aditya. Ever since he left the bachelors party the concern for Sumo did somehow grip his sub-conscious mind but probably his hurt and his resolve to cause similar amount of pain on his mother as she caused on him, made the gravity of that thought not touch him. And he rubbished it saying why should I care for Sumo when all she has given me is hurt. At that point for him, causing pain to his mother somehow became much more important than caring for any person in the world. Irrespective of the fact that his being, his inner self, his soul did tell him to think for Sumo but he silenced that whisper under the noise of the betrayal he felt at his mothers hand.
But again the fear and the concern for Sumo's married life didn't leave him...which was pretty evident when nanu teased him for being sad due to his best friend leaving forever. There was sheer guilt in his eyes because down there he very well knew that he had betrayed her friendship... and brutally so. His guilt and concern for her was there all along, even the thought of the danger that his act could bring on Sumo, just that he didn't let that thought turn into fear and over-power his hatred because at that moment anything that would have over-powered his hatred would have weakened him and made him transform into the earlier Shravan - The weak, the innocent, the victimized Shravan - Which he could never let happen!
Edited by Malika - 9 years ago
Indian Mythology
