Gun and Guitar-a RANTARA ff(note at pg150) - Page 106

Chapter 29

Antara rushed madly on the street of basti. She felt like raghu's coal black eyes were following her all the way. She didn't dare to look back. Tears were flowing down from her eyes vigorously blurring her eyesight. She was rubbing her chicks continuously without reducing her speed a bit. she was rushing madly on the street without even bothering about peoples gaze on her. it was good that all were busy in festival and didn't notice her otherwise, everyone would detect that something was really wrong with her. she was still remembering that awful moment when the sindoor fell on her forehead from raghu's hand and each and every time she felt like she lose another amount of her strength. She was already feeling dizzy. Before she collapsed on the ground, she somehow managed to get inside her home. She banged the door close. Her whole feature was shaking badly. She rested her forehead on the closed door and tears streamed down from her eyes. why always it was her?! why?!! she slowly crushed on the ground rubbing her forehead on wooden frame feeling helpless. She was feeling like her heart shattered into thousand pieces remembering the word of that woman in temple. "ye dono too pati patni ho gaye.. puri zindagi ke liye..". her whole feature shook heavily. Was that true?! She was bounded to raghu for her damn whole miserable life?! NO!!!!! each and every fiber of her body screamed in utmost pain. Never!! How could she think that?! How did that happened?! How??!! She sank on the floor in so much tiredness. She felt like there was not a single strength left in her body. Tears were flowing down nonstop from her eyes. If someone came to saw her at that moment that person would definitely think of her as dead cause her colorless white swollen face, blank emotionless eyes and motionless figure was not giving any sign of life. only her slow breath and frantic heartbeat indicated that she was still alive somehow.

Back at the premises of ganesh temple, there was a pin drop silence. Everyone's eyes were fixed towards the stairs where antara rushed down madly and got mixed in the crowd. Raghu was looking at the stairs with bewildered eyes. he noticed antara's face after that sindoor dropped on her forehead from his hand. Her eyes literally froze at that moment. He remembered how the color left her face and it became pale in some unknown terror. He heard his loud fearful pant which escaped from her lips while she observed his hand full with sindoor's trace which was glowing on her forehead at that moment. Her look almost pinched in him badly. Her hurt eyes were asking him for his did. He saw how the glow of merriness was getting away from her face and life and that was making him restless. He knew that everything happened just a moment ago affected her really very badly. He was frozen, grounded by her innocent painful questioning look to him which pierced his heart. His state didn't even allow him to go behind her or to stop her when antara rushed madly in front of his eyes. On the other hand machmach scratched his head and looked toward the woman who told about the husband wife thing. "eee tayi kya kaha tune? Bhai ne uss yeri ka...woo dono bole too woo husband-wife!!!" MM asked in wide eyes. "arey aur nahi toh kya?!! Hain na pandit ji?!" that woman asked towards pandit ji. "baat to ek tarah se sahi kaha hain apne. Bhagwan ke saamne agar koi larka kisi larki ka mang bhar de too woo dono zindagi bhar ke liye ek duje ke ban jate hain." pandit ji agreed. "arey tab too... Matlab... bhai ki shadi ho gayi..." MM said loudly in joyous voice. all of raghu's man jumped in air and let out there cheerful voice. "arey bhailog sab party ki taiyari karo... apne bhai ki shadi ho gayi..." pakiya screamed. But their cheerful scream didn't effect on raghu. he was still standing there at same posture. MM rushed to him. "eee bhai bole to congratulation tere ko... arey shadi ho gayi teri... gharwala ban gaya tu..." MM said jerking his frozen feature. "ABEY CHUP BE...!!!!" suddenly raghu turned back to them and screamed in his most dangerous voice. his scream reflected at each and every corner of temple premises shutting up the cheerful chaps. Machmach and other's became dumb in confusion. "ek paise ka bhi bheja naii haain khopri mein. khali pilli bas chillane ka bahana chahiye!! Abey soch samajh ke to baat kar kidhar aur kaha kya bata ne ka hain. S**a kis khet ki muli ho tumlog." He scolded all of his man with that tone which he never used on them. machmach was looking to his hard face and trying to detect what's going on his mind. "par bhai apun log too..." pakiya tried to say. "BAS CHUP!!..." he said raising his voice more, "ab iss locha par koi baat naii hogi... ek ratti ki bhi naii... aur idhar jitney bhi log hain na sab apne bare bare kaan khol lo aur sun lo..." raghu moved his hard fiery gaze to all making them shook all over. "aur haan tayi... tu bhi apne dimag mein ye baat acchi tarah se baitha lena..." he said looking towards the woman who talked about antara and his marriage. "idhar jo kuch bhi huya sab idhar hich rahene ka... ye baat bahar naii jana chahiye... Ye raghunath naik ka order hain... aur sab ko pata hi hoga apun ki baat na maan ne ka natiza kya hota hain..." he said. All the people were looking towards him with fearful eyes. "fir bhi agar kisi ko ek paise ka bhi shak hain to apun bata dega... basti mein kahi bhi... kisi bhi kone mein bhi agar mere ko iss baat ki zikar sunayi di ya fir mere ko antara aura pun ke barein me kuch bhi ulta sidhaa sunayi diya too pahele se bata de raha hoon... ussi din basti ke galiyare se uski laas milegi... Chahein woo koi bhi hoo... apun ko agar dikha ussey kuch ulta sidha kahete huye too ussi waqt ura dunga... GHUS GAYA BAAT DIMAG MEIN?..." he asked all of them loudly. all of them were standing there drooping their eyes towards ground. pandit ji came forward, "aap nischint rahiye raghubhai.. ye baat kisi bhi tarah bahar nahi jayegi.. koi bhi uss larki ke barein mein kuch bhi nahi kahega..." he said in assurance tone. "ha ha hum wadha karte hain... kuch nahi kahengey hum log..." at last the people who were standing dumbfounded got courage to speak and supported pandit ji in unison. "hmmm... thik hain... chalo.. apne apne kaam pe lag jao..." raghu ordered. They scattered on the premises silently on their respective work. They didn't even dared to create buzz. Raghu whipped his face with his wrist wrapped with the wristband and red hanky. Machmach came near him and keep his hand on his shoulder, "bhai,..." he called slowly, "tu fikar mat kar... apun gurantee leta hain... koi bhi iss bareinb mein ek shabd bhi apne zuban se naii nikalega... maaf karna woo apun log khusi ke mare year ho gaya tha... idhar udhar ka kuch socha hi naii..." he said in apologetic tone. Raghu sighed, "macmach abhi tu jaa... apun kuch der baa data hain..." he said looking towards the idol of ganeshji. Ganesh ji's face seemed so happy anyhow. "ab tu kidhar jayegaa bhai?!" MM asked in confusion. "idhar ka locha to samhal liya..." raghu said moving his gaze towards the crowd and then looked back to the stairs going down, "par usko kaise samjhaoon?! Kuch samajh naii aa raha hain.." he said looking at front with anticipating gaze. Her face was still roaming in her mind. he just hope that she hadn't done anything reckless in shock.

Raghu came and stood at the front of kaul houses closed door. The whole basti area was filled up with the joyous cheerful loud voice of people. holi festival was on full swing. But everything seemed slow gloomy around the place. Like the festive environment had suddenly became dumb here due to some unknown reason. For the first time raghu was feeling hesitant to go inside any house of his basti. He was called the god of that basti. He could enter each and every house at any moment without any hesitation. He didn't need permission from anyone cause he was beyond all of that. But for the first time that silent door of kaul house seemed like a unbreakable defense wall to him. he could feel that antara was inside that door. She couldn't be anywhere else at that moment and he knew that very well. He had to talk to her. He didn't know how he would say her but he had to reach to her. her blank expression and eyes which he saw back at temple was making him hell worried for her. He was feeling bad vibes about the incident happened back at that time did something very bad effect on her. Raghu slowly climbed two steps and stood in front of the door. Slowly he lifted his hand to knock the door but suddenly he stopped. Her painful eyes flashed in his mind. he remembered how she was running madly through the stairs. He knew why she was doing so. She was trying to get away from him! cause she couldn't face him anymore!! Pain flickered in his eyes. what had he done out of his mischief?! He promised her that he wouldn't bother her on the day anyhow. He promised that he would let her enjoy the festival fully. But what had he done. But it just happened. It was not his fault at all. Someone said from his inside. He let out a big sigh and backed off his steps. Somehow he thought that it was not good to come at her front at that time. She was trying to digest the matter and if he came at his front at that moment it would disturb her more. He backed off his step slowly. There was a huge battle going inside him. His mind was saying to leave antara alone and to give her some time to compose and talk to her when she would come down. But his heart wanted something else. It just wanted to bang down the door and get inside. He wanted to go in front of her and hug her tightly, to hide her in his strong embrace so that nothing could harm her even her own emotional turmoil which was causing her that much pain. He wanted to console her and say that everything was fine, nothing happened!! But he couldn't let his foolishness to hurt her more. Unwillingly he came down from her doorstep keeping his agonized eyes fixed on the closed door. After a prolonged sad look towards the closed door he slowly walked towards naik sadan. The joyous environment, cheers of people, colors flowing on the air all seemed suddenly gloomy.

Antara was still seating on the doorstep hugging her knees. Her shock was over a bit but still she didn't come back at normal state. her jaw was kept on her knee and her blank eyes were fixed on the wall. Her whole feature was shaking with the flow coming down her chicks. She lost her everything. With her last ounce of strength she was trying to stand up and start her life with everything but when that sindoor fell on her forehead from her head, it took her everything. Only that moment was flashing in her mind again and again and nothing else. She couldn't think of anything else. It was like her all memory had been wiped off and her life was frozen at that moment. She buried her face in between her two knees and sobbed for long. The dumb furnitures, ceiling and walls were the only witness of poor girl's heart wrenching agony but none of them could console her. time passed as usual and suddenly antara felt that again. his piercing gaze on her!! how?!! She lifted her face with a jerk and looked at front with wide horrified eyes. was he really there?!! no, there was no one. She moved her fearful gaze with each and every corner of the room in anticipation. But there was no trace of raghu found by her. was she hallucinating. But she could feel that in her sense, her nerves and mostly in her uneven heartbeat which always gave her signal when he was near. They never cheated on her on that fact. She could feel that intense gaze on her so clearly, like he was so close to her, just at some mere inches away! Suddenly she heard a low but deep gasp and she felt like it was coming from the other side of closed door. She froze again. he was there, just outside of the closed door behind her back. Her heart again raced in unknown excitement feeling him close to him. She didn't know from where she gathered so much strength but she stood hurriedly up in an unknown pull and opened the door. But alas!! No one was there. she looked here and there and moved her eyesight at every possible distant. She was damn sure that he came just a moment ago. She didn't know which unknown pull caused her to come outside of the room and she stood there on crowded lane, moving her confused gaze here and there. when her eyes fell on the direction of naik sadan she found him. Facing his back towards her, raghu was moving towards naik sadan with a very slow pace. She froze again as that horrible moment at temple again flashed in front of her eyes. the faded fear again gleamed in her eyes and she let out an wide gasp.

Raghu's feet literally get resisted when he heard that slow gasp from his back. he felt her painful gaze on his back piercing his heart. Without missing a bit he quickly moved back but at that instant antara saw him moving his face towards her she rushed inside the room again, trying to save him from his intense gaze. She didn't have the single strength to face him anymore. Raghu moved back and he didn't saw anything. He was shattered at the spot. he felt it so strongly. Like she was there just a moment ago, looking towards her with painful eyes. he twitched his shoulder and peeped towards the door of kaul house in vague hope that he could get her glimpse but there was not a single trace of her.

Antara closed the door and panted heavily closing her eyes. she shouldn't go outside. She didn't know what happened to her that whenever he was near, she was drawn heavily towards him by some unknown pull which she couldn't resist. But she had to stop that, anyhow. she had to stop that and forget everything! She opened her frustrated eyes and she gasped as her eyes fell on the mirror at the front wall. She couldn't even recognize her own reflection. Just a few hours changed her completely. Her face was swollen completely. The dark circles were clear around her eyes but on the above, her forehead and hair locks at the front were glowing with the deep red shade. That dark red color of love, color of blood, color of that sindoor which fell from his hand, imprinted on her properly and proudly announcing his possession, his victory over her everything, her heart, her mind, her soul. She gasped again as that woman's voice rand in her ear yet again... "YE DONO TO PATI PATNI BAN GAYE..." She just closed her ears to avoid that sound which was creating havoc in her mind. she rushed madly inside the room and opened the door of washroom with shaking hand. She closed the door and came near the shower with stumbled feet. She caught the knob of shower and pushed it with all her force. The water droplets hit her body almost pinching her each and every stiffened, tired fibers of body. she closed her eyes and lifted her face upward to the water droplet hitting her face. her tears git mixed with those waters and flow down. She wanted wash out everything, his memory, his thoughts, his presence from her life but it was impossible. The water drenched her all over her feature. Her saree and hairs get drenched and stick to her feature. She opened her eyes and looked towards the mirror. Thee sindoor was washing out from her forehead forming a red stream flowing down her forehead to her eyelids and chicks and slipping down her neck. It looked just like blood! She slowly sat cross-legged on the wet floor of washroom under the shower. She closed her eyes and at last her real outburst came out with a heart wrenching scream. "Why it's always me?? Why???!!!" her scream hit the congested wall of washroom. "why it's happening with me pappa why?!! Each and every time I am trying to go away from him, you are bringing me closer to him?!! Why papa why?!! I need answer pappa... I NEED ANSWER!!!" she burst out squeezing her eyes shut. She felt her all strength were leaving her and she felt like an empty vessel whose all water was taken out by making several holes on her surface. She shank more and crushed her body on lying on the wet floor of bathroom the shower continued to poor water on her with it's full speed.

Holi's madness was suppressed a bit as the day was slowly coming to an end. The cowd on the street was reduced a bit. the roads and the houses were full with colorful patches. Even the air seemed colorful. It was almost 2 pm at evening when saroj came back to basti. Govind was still in his friend's house as he didn't like the environment of holi in naik basti. She knew that govind would come back when everything would be saturated. Saroj came back quickly as she was worried for antara being alone on the room. She pushed the calling bell and waited for antara. a few moment passed and antara still didn't opened the door. Saroj frowned. What was she doing in their?! Was she sleeping?! Saroj didn't know why but she pushed the door hard and it opened widely startling her. "what?!! The door was open?!" she said with a gasp. she quickly came inside. "antara!!" she called in anticipation. not a single response came from inside. saroj felt her heartbeat was rising and she was afraid. She rushed upstairs to her room. "antara!!" she called again while going up. Saroj heard a very low painful whisper from the room upstairs. Saroj's heart almot jumped at her throat as she heard that whizz. She quickly got inside the room. She saw antara lying in the bed covering herself all over with a warm blanket. Why was she using blanket in so much hot weather. She was facing her back to her so saroj couldn't see her face. but something was definitely wring with her. saroj rushed near bed and pushed antara slowly calling her name. as soon as her hand touched her body she was shocked. "mummy!!..." antara opened her eyes and looked at her wide eyes. antara's eyes were all red. Saroj touched her forehead quickly with her palm. "antara!!...what happened to you?!" she asked in startled voice, "your whole feature is burning like a furnace!! You have got high fever!!" she gasped. "mummy.. mummy listen.." antara said feebly. But saroj ignored her. "what just happened to you antara?! I just left you for some hours and see what happened to you!! god what would I say to didi?!!" saroj almost stroke her head. "mummy please, don't tell anything to momma!!" she requested feebly. "okk!!..." saroj sighed. She knew antara very well. She would never let her momma get worried for her shake. "but now you have to listen to my each and every word and get well soon. OKK?!! Otherwise I won't keep my promise." Saroj rolled her eyes. antara just nodded feebly. "stay here! I am coming back after calling your mama ji." Saroj said and went outside. Antara closed her eyes and let out a deep painfull sigh.

"bhai tu fikar mat kar.. sara mamla set ho gaya, kisi ne kuch naii kahan mandir ke uss loch eke barein mein..." machmach said in assuring tone. "hmm!!..." raghu answered unconsciously sipping the tea from glass. Machmach knew what he was thinking about. He knew raghu couldn't get opportunity to meet antara after yesterday's incident. As he got into so many issues like after the holi's celebration was over they got news that anna and shetty's goons were creating problem in their factory of gurgaon. So they all have to go to manage them. after giving them a huge doze on their face they returned at basti late at night. Raghu was glancing frequently towards antara's dark room at the balcony. He was having a bad feeling for her. he was feeling like she was nit well. But as it was too late at night he didn't disturbed them. but he couldn't sleep at the night. He almost spend the whole night with open eyes. he was feeling hell restless thinking about antara. How was she?!! Did she come back to normal?! Should he talk to her next day?! He couldn't understand what should he do?! But even in between the whole mess that woman's voice was continuously flashing in his mind. YE DONO TO PATI PATNI BAN GAYE..' each and every time his lips were pating into a huge grin. Antara!! his wife?!! He caressed his head madly with such a huge innocent grin. Did that really happened?! Did she become his everything?! He knew that she didn't like him so far. He didn't want to force her for anything. He was ready to wait for the moment when she would be able to accept him whole hearted. Till then he would always be with her, as her shadow, as her protective shield. She allowed him or not he would do that because it was his right. Caring about her wellbeing would always be his first priority she liked it or not!! He still emember how his eyelids became heavy while thinking about her innocent face. "bhai!!!...udhar dekh!" raghu's train of thoughts broke as machmach called him. following his gaze, she found saroj coming out from kaul house with thoughtful face. "arey saroj.. kya huya? pareshan lag rahi ho?!" savitri came forward asked her. "arey savitri tayi kuch nahi.. woo antara... pata nahi ussey kya ho gaya hain... kaal subah jab ussey ghar chorke gayi thi to bilkul achi khasi thi par jab saam ko ghar lauti to dekha usko tezz bukhar char gaya..." saroj said. Raghu's whole feature became numb as he heard about her being ill. "kya?!! Kaal to bilkul thil thi... par ye sab achanak?!" savitree was confused. "pata nahi tayi main bhi pareshan hoon... kaal doctor ke wahan le gayi thi main.. doctor ne kahan bahut der pani ke andar rahene se huya hain... par ye kaise huya mujhe nahi pata... Ekdum goomsoom par gayi hain bechari.. pata nahi kaal se dari dari huyi si lag rahi hain... puchti hoon to taal deti hain.. pata hain 104 degree char gaya tha kaal raat ko...nind mein muski momma ko yaad karke roi rahi thi...par didi ko bata ne bhi nahi deti mujhe... main to itni dar gayi thi... par bappa ka sukar hain ki ab thora thik hain... bas jaldi thik ho jayein.." saroj said in thoughtful face. "fikar mat karo saroj.. bappa sab thik kar dengey..." savitree said. "yahin to bharosa hain tayi.. acha main chalti hoon, antara ke liye dawai lana hain. Aap thora nazar rakhna ghar pein nazar rakhiye ga... akeli bimar larki ghar mein hain.. main jald laut ayungi..." saroj said. "thik hain tum jao saroj... aur fikar mat karo.. sab thik hi jayega.." savitree assured her. they both left greeting each other. All the conversation was heard by raghu and machmach. "bhai?!!" MM gave an questioning look towards raghu who was looking towards kaul houses door with a firm unreadable gaze. His eyes moved towards the balcony. Enough!! Something roared from his inside. he moved towards kaul house all of a sudden startling machmach.

Precap: "nahi!!!... nahi sun ni hain mujhe tumhari koi bhi batein... nahi sahe sakti ab main ye sab..." she said keeping her fearful gaze intact to his face and suddenly rushed towards the door to get out of the room. "ANTARA RUKKK...!!!" He said in his loud domination voice and rushed towards her. before she could get out of the room, a hand approached and banged the door shut in front of his bewildered eyes. "kaha naaa rukkk..." His hard voice roamed in her ear. She felt his breath on her hair which made her numb in fear.

ps" sorry for this long depressing chapter guyzz🤢... i don't know what actually it came out, 😭

"The mist of your sadness wreathes around me.

"ab iss locha par koi baat naii hogi... ek ratti ki bhi naii... aur idhar jitney bhi log hain na sab apne bare bare kaan khol lo aur sun lo..." raghu moved his hard fiery gaze to all making them shook all over. "aur haan tayi... tu bhi apne dimag mein ye baat acchi tarah se baitha lena..." he said looking towards the woman who talked about antara and his marriage. "idhar jo kuch bhi huya sab idhar hich rahene ka... ye baat bahar naii jana chahiye... Ye raghunath naik ka order hain... aur sab ko pata hi hoga apun ki baat na maan ne ka natiza kya hota hain..." he said. All the people were looking towards him with fearful eyes. "fir bhi agar kisi ko ek paise ka bhi shak hain to apun bata dega... basti mein kahi bhi... kisi bhi kone mein bhi agar mere ko iss baat ki zikar sunayi di ya fir mere ko antara aura pun ke barein me kuch bhi ulta sidhaa sunayi diya too pahele se bata de raha hoon... ussi din basti ke galiyare se uski laas milegi... Chahein woo koi bhi hoo... apun ko agar dikha ussey kuch ulta sidha kahete huye too ussi waqt ura dunga... GHUS GAYA BAAT DIMAG MEIN?"

"YE DONO TO PATI PATNI BAN GAYE.."

"Sometimes something happens in one second that changes all your seconds after that ."😳😳😳

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but raghu is happy that antara s his wifey awww and he has rights on her well done raghu

antara aww poor her but soon she will accept him

precap ohh cant wait pls cont asap ri

uffs sorry yaar...