PR Friends CC - i/o - Page 2

Originally posted by: toothbrush13

Yeah I keep thinking about how we had been discussing back then about how much he had changed from the person we once knew... and wondered how he expected to ever find the same type of unconditional support system again... a lot of the things we said back then seem to ring true now and it's messing with me big time. I really didn't want it to manifest this way.

When the news of death came out and people in my group started wondering whether it was because of financial issues or drugs or films etc, I had the same nagging feeling of knowing why it was happening- we had discussed all this previously.

So far it looks like our worst fears came true.

I remember many of you guys from PV and later from Na Bole tum.... forums. I haven't logged into IF in ages and this news made me - I logged back in to go back and look at some of the old discussions over PV, Manav-Archana and off course Sushant-Ankita.

I was so disillusioned by their breakup, I stepped away from all news as much as possible. But, guess the soft corner for this young guy remained in my heart. My family loves him coz of the regional connection and coz he played MSD (Ranchi), so it seems like my family is also in mourning.

I have not been able to concentrate on work today at all, its just been going on and on in my mind that why would someone so talented, successful, wealthy and seemingly healthy guy take such a drastic step. I feel so disappointed with the whole media, Bollywood industry and a bit with myself as a fan.

Hi everyone. I used to be a part of PR forum . Not sure how many of you remember me.

I am not really sure how to process this. Despite everything that I feel I know in theory about certain things, immediate instinct is to still ask "why?"

Haven't seen any of the news clips. Been watching old JDJ performances . I think that's how I would like to always remember him.

Originally posted by: AreYaar

Hi TB and Nisha, don’t know if you guys remember me, but I just saw this CC so I thought I’d drop in.

It’s been so many years since we all lost touch post Sushant-Ankita’s breakup and the bitterness that followed. It took a while to move past it. I always wished well for both of them to still do well in their careers because they were both good actors, even if I lost any inclination to follow their offscreen interviews etc.

But this has been such a tragic turn of events that we could have never seen coming. It suddenly makes you think that there was more fractured inside him than one could tell and it all seems to have built up in the long run to culminate this way.

I have no idea how Ankita must be feeling despite everything that happened. I always felt she was the one strong support system for him here and after the fallout, he never quite had that again. The rest seems to have left him disillusioned and ultimately corroded him from the inside sadly.

The world now only knows him through his filmography but the people who followed him during his TV days, the BTSs definitely were privy to a different Sushant who sadly went adrift somewhere along the way.

Anu, how can we even forget you?!?!

I still have all your collections of VM (my most favorite from JDJ proposal, tere liye) or your creation. I use to flaunt it with pride.

How can we forget all those times of spending times swooning over those two paagal especially Ankita.

We should say thanks for remembering us.

Originally posted by: lunza

Hi everyone. I used to be a part of PR forum . Not sure how many of you remember me.

I am not really sure how to process this. Despite everything that I feel I know in theory about certain things, immediate instinct is to still ask "why?"

Haven't seen any of the news clips. Been watching old JDJ performances . I think that's how I would like to always remember him.

Why is everyone is doubt that we wouldn't remember you guys? I don't think we will ever be able to forget those days and people we interacted.

While the circumstances are the worst, I am thankful that this thread found its way to more people! After so long I was having trouble remembering some usernames but of course I remember all of you.

Thanks Niki for standing up for our point of view in another thread... I was always amazed by the amount of attention (and ire) we drew, considering that our "group" was maybe fifteen people at full strength, out of millions of other fans. People just see the words we say (or have said) but don't understand the place of passion and familiarity that it comes from. We cared so, so much and still do. Our thoughts and feelings from many years ago are not invalidated because of what happened yesterday, though it certainly gives me more perspective. All I really wanted was for him to get his act together and be the person we knew he could be.

I'm going to have trouble phrasing this, but one thing I have been struggling with in my real life and with this is that after a person passes away, it doesn't necessarily take away any grief they may have caused earlier in their life, whether knowingly or unknowingly. That said, I strongly believe people should be forgiven, because now they are gone and holding on to it doesn't help me or the soul of the departed. But... the good and bad can both still be acknowledged, because it was real and can affect your thoughts and feelings and shapes who you are.

In the span of one year I had this fandom blow up in my face (and whether I like to admit it or not it was a huge part of my life, I spent so much time on it for seven years straight) followed by my dad and nana passing away and I am now seeing just how many emotions I repressed. This has triggered everything to come on out, so please don't mind if I seem to be going on about nothing.

Originally posted by: --Minks--

I remember many of you guys from PV and later from Na Bole tum.... forums. I haven't logged into IF in ages and this news made me - I logged back in to go back and look at some of the old discussions over PV, Manav-Archana and off course Sushant-Ankita.

I was so disillusioned by their breakup, I stepped away from all news as much as possible. But, guess the soft corner for this young guy remained in my heart. My family loves him coz of the regional connection and coz he played MSD (Ranchi), so it seems like my family is also in mourning.

I have not been able to concentrate on work today at all, its just been going on and on in my mind that why would someone so talented, successful, wealthy and seemingly healthy guy take such a drastic step. I feel so disappointed with the whole media, Bollywood industry and a bit with myself as a fan.

Hi Minks, thanks for posting! It feels nice to have people who have been through same like us.

I'm sorry, was your username same when we were active in PVR forum?

I still don't know what to post so many thoughts are going on.

I never wanted to miss him like this, well it has happened.

But, I'm not gonna be sorry for disliking him for his actions which hurt us at one at one point of time, but yes the resent I had is vanished because what is use of that now no use.

Why are we suppose to be guilt over that and all we did was move on from that person.

Originally posted by: AreYaar

Hi TB and Nisha, don’t know if you guys remember me, but I just saw this CC so I thought I’d drop in.

It’s been so many years since we all lost touch post Sushant-Ankita’s breakup and the bitterness that followed. It took a while to move past it. I always wished well for both of them to still do well in their careers because they were both good actors, even if I lost any inclination to follow their offscreen interviews etc.

But this has been such a tragic turn of events that we could have never seen coming. It suddenly makes you think that there was more fractured inside him than one could tell and it all seems to have built up in the long run to culminate this way.
I have no idea how Ankita must be feeling despite everything that happened. I always felt she was the one strong support system for him here and after the fallout, he never quite had that again. The rest seems to have left him disillusioned and ultimately corroded him from the inside sadly.

The world now only knows him through his filmography but the people who followed him during his TV days, the BTSs definitely were privy to a different Sushant who sadly went adrift somewhere along the way.

How could I forget you? You and kabeeraspeaking were the reason I used to try to improve my photoshop skills. I loved your style and of course your posts as well, you were always so sensible.

I'm really grateful that you posted. Your whole post resonates with me so much. I have many of the same thoughts but I have been so overly wrapped up in this for so long that at some point I am not sure if I am even being rational anymore or if it is all in my head. I feel very similarly about the disillusionment and drifting... it's like he wandered off and never made it back to himself. I'm not even really adding anything to the conversation here but I truly want you to know how accurately your words summarize my feelings.

I feel like all of the current coverage fails to account for the person he was before bollywood, and it really saddens me.

TB please feel free to write anything you feel. I have always considered the strongest point of the PR forum sushant fan family as their ability to have a mature discussions with various points of views without judging or hurting one another in anyway. That is perhaps also the reason why we made our way back to each other.

And I can understand regarding the news reminding us of some of our worst times. Yesterday when I heard it, I could hardly sleep all night and finally talked to a friend who actually reached out to me herself knowing I would be miserable. We recollected the days when we were together in 2015-2016, it was the worst time for me too- with failures in personal, professional and academic life. Worst was that when the whole 180 degree change happened on ssr's end I was devastated - angry at him of course but also because I felt I'd wasted so much time on him when maybe if I'd invested it on other stuff, my life would have been more on track. My friend was going through a similar patch at that time and we had helped each other out simply by talking it over with each other. Wish he'd had similar support too in his tougher days.

I also agree with you TB about how someone's hurtful acts cannot be totally washed away because of such unfortunate events. One can view certain acts impartially even without denying dignity and respect to the deceased. But yes the past is better not dug up at such times- let it lie to rest too. Which is why I replied to that post in bolly forum that way. Seriously, is this the time to indulge in stupid fan wars and make others prove fan loyalty and worse than that, wish ill for others who are just as disturbed as you are? Can't we all unite in solidarity for once ?