~Chapter 15b~
He opened the door to his room to find Ishita deep in slumber on their bed. He smiled at the sight, and closing the door softly behind him, walked up to the bed and sat beside where she lay, his eyes drinking in every little feature of her face.
The last couple of days at the hospital had been a blur for him. All he remembered were those agonizing hours during which he had died a thousand deaths each time her piercing screams had reached his ears, followed by the wondrous joy he had felt when he had held his little angel in his arms for the first time. He had looked at Ishita then, wanting nothing more than to gather her in his arms as well, because all their struggles and all the pain that she had gone through had finally borne fruit. Their child, the symbol of their love, was finally here, and there was no more reason for her to feel that they were incomplete. But with the families fussing over her and the baby the entire time, he had been unable to spend a minute alone with her.
Now, having finally managed to sneak in a few moments with her, he watched her sleep and felt a wave of relief wash over him, because even though she looked worn out, he could see the fulfillment on her beautiful face, and felt proud that he had been able to give her the one thing that she had always craved for.
He slipped in beside her and slid his arm under her shoulders, gently nudging her closer to his body. She snuggled into him, sensing his warmth even in her sleep, and wrapped an arm around him, resting her head on his chest.
How had he survived all those years without her? He wondered as he stroked her hair lovingly. His entire life revolved around her now. He had gotten so used to her presence that all he wanted with every breath of his, was to hear her voice or the sound of her laughter, feel her body against his, or even get into annoying fights with her. Because, with her, every moment was blissful. And now that their daughter had come into their lives, he knew it would get only better.
Their daughter... He rolled the words around in his head so that he could get used to them. He remembered those days when the thought of a child hadn't even crossed his mind. They were happy together, and that was all that had mattered to him. But as time passed, it had become difficult for them to remain content within the bubble that they had created for themselves. Inquisitive friends and overly concerned relatives had begun probing Ishita about why they were childless, bringing forth her dormant insecurities. She would try her best to evade their questions but would secretly spend days on end, thinking about it, nursing her guilt and sadness. There had been times when Raman had known that something was bothering her, but whenever he had asked her about it, she had brushed him off, assuring him that she was fine and that he was being unreasonably overprotective towards her. However, she had been unable to keep it from him for long..
***
He came back from work that day to find his house swarming with all the aunties from their neighbourhood.
Oh no,' he groaned, Not another kitty party.'
Spotting his mother nearby, he went over to her and pulled her aside.
"Ma, you didn't tell me that you were hosting another one of your get togethers today!" He complained to her.
"Puttar, I'm sorry, it was a sudden plan. But it'll be over soon. You go on inside, I'll ask Neelu to make some tea for you."
"No Ma, it's okay. Where's Ishita?" He asked her, looking around.
"She must be in the kitchen. I had told her that I don't need any help, but she just won't listen. You try explaining to her, puttar. Maybe she'll listen to you," she shook her head and walked off towards some of her guests.
He chuckled as he heard his mother complain about her yet again. She was probably the only mother-in-law who had a problem with how helpful her daughter-in-law was. Well, if Ishita really wasn't needed there, then he wouldn't let this opportunity go to waste. Spotting her in a corner of the room with a few ladies, he rubbed his hands together in glee, and decided to grab her and whisk her away from there.
"Ishita, I'm telling you for your own good," he heard one of the elderly ladies say to her. "It's all fun during the initial days, but marriage is not just about love and romance. It is very important to start thinking about kids from the beginning itself, dear."
"I agree with her, Ishita," joined in the other lady. "If you don't start planning now, it might get too late for your body when you're actually ready for it. And think about what will happen then if you're not able to give your in-laws a child. Raman adores you now, but after some time, when all the novelty has worn off, he won't care about you. Even your in-laws won't respect you."
"Yes, after all, a woman is complete only once she becomes a mother!"
"But aunty, my Ishita is already a complete woman," Raman spoke up from behind them. He had heard their conversation and had seen how Ishita's face had fallen at their words. He walked up to her and wrapped an arm around her shoulder. "She doesn't need to prove anything to earn our love and respect."
"But beta, we were only.."
"I understand, aunty. But you worry too much. Ishita and I are perfectly happy and nothing will change that. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have some work with my wife," he said to them sternly.
"Sure.."
"Youngsters these days.."
They muttered as they walked away from them.
"Hey, you alright?" He asked her as soon the women had left.
"I'm...I'm fine, Raman," she replied to him, looking a little lost.
"Come inside, I need to talk to you," he took her hand, and began walking towards their room.
"Ishita..Ishita puttar," Toshi called out to her and hurried towards them.
"Ishita, come with me. Pammi has brought some beautiful sarees for us to see. And they'll look lovely on you. Come, have a look."
"Ma, can we do this later? Pammi aunty stays next door. You can go see the sarees any time you want," he said to her, trying to get Ishita to stay back with him.
"But all the good ones will be taken by then, Puttar," she said and walked away hurriedly, pulling Ishita along with her giving him no chance to speak with her.
Later that night..
He watched her as she stood in front of the mirror, removing her jewellery. She seemed distracted and he worried if she was still thinking about what those women had said to her. Walking up behind her, he wrapped his arms around her waist and placed his chin on her shoulder, nestling his face into hers.
"You look beautiful tonight," he said to her softly.
"You say that to me everyday, Raman," she giggled. "I think you'd say the same even if I walked around in rags!"
"Maybe, but you're wearing a saree today! You know what that does to me," he said, tightening his hold around her.
"Yes, I do," she laughed and turned her face towards his to place a peck on his cheek. "But I need to change now. So let me go."
But instead of letting go of her, he turned her in his arms and looked at her intently.
"Why didn't you say something to them?" He asked her suddenly.
"What?"
"You took their words seriously, didn't you?" He asked again, and she understood.
"Raman, I.. I couldn't help wondering if they were right," she said to him, unable to meet his eyes.
"Ishita," he sighed, "I thought we had a deal."
"But Raman-"
"Shh" He placed a finger on her lips. "Hadn't we decided that we won't let this be an issue between us?"
She looked down guiltily and nodded.
"So you broke a promise. Now we'll have to punish you for it," he said to her teasingly.
"Really? And what kind of punishment are we talking about?" She asked, raising her eyebrows at him.
He chose not to answer, but in reply, moved his hands to the gap on her waist, running his fingers over her bare skin, tickling her.
"Raman!" She yelped and jumped back. "No, Raman. Stay back. You know how ticklish I get," she said to him as he made his way towards her, trying to close the distance between them.
She leapt away from him and ran around the room while he chased her, but it only took him a few swift movements to get her back into his arms.
"Yes, I know!" He replied mischievously, and holding her against him with one arm, he used his other arm to tickle her neck and her sides until, doubling up with laughter, she fell on the bed, pulling him along with her.
He propped himself up on an elbow and stared at her adoringly as she continued giggling. How he loved seeing that smile on her face! She looked like a vision, her eyes closed, her cheeks flushed and her hair splayed behind her on the bed. Unable to resist, he rolled on top of her, and took her mouth in a passionate kiss. She gasped, the sudden contact surprising her, but then he deepened the kiss, and she wrapped her arms around him, helplessly responding to the sensations he evoked in her.
They had always been attracted to each other, even before they were married, so he had known that intimacy with her would come effortlessly to him. But he hadn't been prepared for the maddening desire that would possess him whenever she touched him, a yearning so desperate, it only intensified each time they made love.
He tugged the saree off her, tracing soft kisses along her body, his mind going numb with pleasure at the way she moaned his name.
This...this is what he had wanted. Her complete love, her abject surrender. He wanted to make her forget everything, so that she would feel only him, and nothing else. So he continued pleasuring her, touching, kissing, caressing every inch of her, while she wove her fingers through his, her body writhing each time his lips brushed across a sensitive spot. And when he felt the warmth between them turn into raging heat, he eased into her, filling her up, consuming her, as he himself prepared to drown, giving in to the desires that flamed through his being.
He woke up a few hours later and groggily reached out to her only to find himself alone on the bed. Rubbing his eyes with his palms, he sat up and looked around in the darkness, wondering where she had gone off to in the middle of the night. Slipping on his pyjamas, he got out of their room and wandered through the hall in search of her. Unable to spot her anywhere, he turned around to leave when he saw that the balcony door was open. That was where he found her, standing alone with her back to him, shedding silent tears.
***
...And that was the moment he had realized that no matter how hard he tried, that was a pain that he could never cure her of. He had always been fiercely protective of her, defending her, supporting her whenever the need had arisen. But he had failed to understand that it wasn't the words of others that hurt her, but her own want for a child and her inability to give birth to one that bothered her more. He realized, defeatedly, that he could protect her from the entire world, but not from herself. So before things could get out of hand, he decided to do something about it...something that he should have done long back. He fixed up an appointment for them at one of the leading fertility clinics in town.
He had tried his best to keep her calm and prepare her for any outcome, but his heart had broken at the way she had clung on to his hand, as they sat across from the doctor, waiting, while he went through all of their reports. And then he had spoken the magic words..
"Mrs.Bhalla, you may not be able to conceive naturally, but you do have options. Have you heard of IVF?"
That was all that she had needed to latch on to. He had been skeptical initially, not wanting her to go through a process which, from what he had gathered from the doctor, seemed to be a very painful one. But the hope and joy that had shone in her eyes at the knowledge that they could have a child of their own had moved him, and he had given in, albeit reluctantly.
And then had begun a battle of hope versus reality, which would go on to test their resilience in more ways than they had thought possible. They went through multiple failed attempts over the span of several months, and each time, Raman had watched on helplessly, as Ishita was made to go through various invasive procedures, the pain of which had been too much for him to bear. And after three such unsuccessful trials, he had had enough. He made up his mind that he would not put her through the ordeal again, even though she had begged him for one more chance.
Ishita's hopefulness through it all had amazed him, and had made him, too, crave for their child. But he did not wish for it at the cost of her well-being. Besides, he did not want their marital life to be defined by this failure and he decided that it would be better for both of them to move on and find other dreams to fulfil. But, on Ishita's insistence, he had agreed for another trial, only on the condition that it would be their last one.
And that one chance had proved to be the one that had fulfilled their wish.
"Raman, I'm pregnant!" She had cried out one evening, throwing her arms around him.
He had been too stunned to react for a few moments, but as her words registered, he had hugged her back, finally succumbing to his emotions and breaking down along with her.
The nine months that had followed had been the happiest for both of them. He had never seen her that cheerful, the pregnancy along with the constant pampering by his parents and in-laws alike giving her face an extra beautiful glow, while for him, each day through that period had been filled with thrill and excitement, in anticipation of the arrival of their miracle child.
And now, as she lay peacefully asleep in his arms, he couldn't help but release a sigh, relieved that everything had gone in their favour. She woke up all of a sudden, feeling his movement, and sat up, surprised to see him lying next to her.
"Raman? When did you come in? Did I oversleep? And where's our baby? Is she awake?" She bombarded him with a barrage of questions but he pulled her back to his chest, wrapping his arms around her.
"Shh!" He silenced her. "Our baby is fine. There are plenty of people outside to look after her. So I suggest you stop thinking about her for a few minutes and worry about me instead."
She laughed and cuddled close to him, taking in the feel of his chest and the smell of his cologne, both of which she could never get enough of.
How had she gotten so lucky? If she had been happy the day she had married him, she couldn't even begin to define what she felt today. Right from the inexplicable joy she had felt when she had known that she was carrying Raman's child in her womb, to the wonderful sensation of feeling her baby stir within her, and finally to holding her little one in her arms - she had felt happiness course through every pore of hers, forgetting every ounce of pain that she had borne through it all. And she had been thrilled to witness Raman's joy too, the look on his face as he had laid eyes on his daughter the first time, saying it all.
Raman! She had always known the depth of her own love for the man, but his unconditional love for her had often taken her by surprise. He had been her rock, always standing by her, whenever she had needed him, and it was only because of him that she had been able to find the strength to endure each ache with a smile. What had she done to deserve so much love?
"Raman?" She called out softly.
"Hmm?"
"Why do you love me so much?"
"What?" He chuckled and got up, looking at her curiously.
"I want to know," she continued as she sat up with him. "Just tell me why."
He stared at her intently, wondering what was going on in her mind and thought about how he would explain it to her.
"Do you see that picture?" He pointed to their photograph from the party all those years ago, and she nodded in reply. "And do you see those words written under it?" She nodded again. "I hadn't prepared any of that beforehand, Ishita. All I had to do was stand there and look at you, and the words had flown straight out of my heart. You know why?" He asked her tenderly, brushing his knuckles across her cheek.
"Because you truly are my other half, a part of my soul," he continued. "So, you see, I can't help but love you."
"Meri rooh hai tu!" she uttered the words, as she smiled at him, overwhelmed.
"And the same goes for our daughter too now.. she's a tiny bit of our soul, too," he smiled back at her.
She blinked back her tears and leaned towards him to kiss him, but they were distracted by a wailing sound followed by an urgent knock on their door. Raman sighed, knowing that it would be futile to expect more than just a few minutes with his wife without any disturbance, and went to the door to open it. It was Rinki and Simmi on the other end, and they barged into the room towards Ishita along with the baby.
"Bhabhi.. we tried everything, but she won't stop crying," said Simmi desperately, urging Ishita to take the baby into her arms to quieten her.
"Give her to me," said Raman and Simmi gladly handed her over to Raman, who rocked her in his arms a few times, instantly making her go silent.
"See how it's done? You girls don't know anything!" He mocked his sisters.
"Bhai, that's not fair!" Simmi complained. "You've been with her since she was born. She recognizes you. Give us some time. Once the baby gets to know us, we won't give her to you at all," she threatened him.
"Do we have to call her baby all the time?" Asked Rinki. "Bhai, Papa ji said you'll be selecting a name for her today. Have you thought of one?"
"Umm.. actually no," replied Raman.
"Actually, yes!" Said Ishita from behind them.
She walked up to Raman and leaned against him, placing her hand under his and holding her baby along with him, while Raman looked at her curiously.
"We have?" He asked her and she nodded eagerly.
She turned back to glance at their photograph and then at him.
"Ruhi," she uttered and his face broke into a wide smile. She couldn't have come up with a more perfect name.
"Ruhi it is," he said, as he realized that in their journey together, which had been fraught with ups and downs, and twists and turns, they had finally come to the place they had always wanted to be in; and while he wouldn't call it an end, it was definitely a new beginning for them.
~The End~Edited by nrn1486 - 9 years ago
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